This is a pretty sad chapter, but it's also an important one. Hope you like it, and remember, I love reviews! :)
Today I am leaving early from school for a annual doctors appointment to see how the baby is doing. Ezra and I are meeting each other there. So just before last period Emily, Spencer, Hanna and I met up. "Well I'm heading off for the day." I informed them giving them each a hug.
Ezra was already there when I got there so I walked up to him and gave him a kiss. He took my hand and we walked inside to see how out baby is doing. I signed us in and we sat down to wait. "Aria Fitz." a nurse called out about twenty minutes later.
I looked to Ezra, "Ready?" I asked him as we stood up. This is finally starting to feel real. Actually going to doctors appointments and everything.
He smiled at me and gave my hand a kiss, "Of course I am." he simply told me.
We walked back to the room and took a seat. We got to do a new round of waiting before we get to see the doctor though. Our doctor was overbooked today, but he didn't want to move our appointment date since I had to spend that time in the hospital. He hasn't come out and said anything but Ezra and I have a suspicion that he thinks there is something wrong.
So we waited for another half hour. When he came in he was looking intently at a chart in his hands. "Hello Aria. How are you doing?" he asked still keeping his eyes at the chart. He took a seat on the counter in the corner of the room.
I smiled at him, "I'm doing good, thank you for asking." I responded. I'm concerned at the look on his face. I looked to Ezra, he seemed to be thing the same thing. I squeezed his hand and leaned in close to him. I have a feeling that I'm really going to be needing his support right now, and more than ever.
For the first time since he walked into the room he looked up at us. "I'm hate to tell you this Aria, Ezra, but your baby might be born with something wrong with it." he informed us in a very grave voice. He glanced back down at the chart.
What? I'm not sure if I can take this on. There is already so much that has happened in my life. My best friend was murdered. I had to keep my relationship with Ezra for over two years, everything that just happened with Hanna and I, and now this! There is no way in hell that this is happening. "What do you mean there might be something wrong with our baby?" I asked him tears forming in my eyes.
Ezra squeezed my hand tears forming in his own eyes. He kissed my forehead and looked to the doctor. "What is it?" he asked in addition to my question.
Our doctor looked almost sad. "We won't be sure until we do some more tests. We'll be able to confirm what it is after that." he informed us trying his best to break it to us gently, but no matter how gentle he breaks it to us it doesn't make up for the bad news about our baby.
They did their tests and we went home with a follow up appointment next week. We went to the apartment so we could be alone for a little while. We curled up on the bed together and cried for a little while. Then a kissed for a little while, then we just laid there until my phone rang. It was Emily, "Hey." I answered.
"Hey, you haven't come home yet. Did your doctors appointment go ok?" she asked me in an almost worried voice.
That started up the tears again, "No. It didn't." I told her trying to keep it together, but that was easier said that done.
"Are you alright?" she asked in a truly worried voice now. Now we get to do all the explaining now.
It took me a second to decide whether I am or not. "I'm not sure. We'll be home in just a little while." I told her and hung up the phone. I leaned in closer to Ezra until the tears stopped.
When we finally did we drive home. Everyone was waiting for us knowing that we would need the support, even if they didn't know what was wrong. "Hey," I said sitting down next to Hanna giving her a hug and wiping off my eyes.
Spencer took Emily and Toby's hands. Emily took Hanna's hand, and she took mine. Ezra sat down beside and took my hand. "Guy's what happened?" Spencer asked us. She was the first one to get up the guts to ask after seeing our crushed faces.
I took a deep breath and told them the story. It wasn't a very long story but it made me really sad. "Right now, we're just in shock." I concluded. Resting my head on Hanna's shoulder.
Hanna put her arms around me she was crying "This is all my fault isn't it?" she cried letting go of my hand and wiping the tears out of her eyes.
How does she think this is her fault? "Han? How could you think that?" I asked her in shock. She had nothing to do with there being anything wrong with my baby. I think it's the pregnancy hormones speaking for her, but still it's a serious thing.
She looked at me, "If I'd never asked you to tell Caleb non of this would be happening." I sobbed. She laid her head in her hands and tried to calm herself down.
I immediately stood up, "Ok girls come on. You too Hanna." I declared. Were going to have to talk this out just like we used to. That is the only way that were going to be able to convince her that she has done nothing wrong.
They stood up looking just a little bit confused, "Where are we going?" Emily asked me us already heading for the door, with the keys in my hand.
"You'll see." I informed them, surprised that they hadn't already figured everything out. I guess it's been log enough since we've been there that it isn't on their radar anymore.
I drove them to the woods and we hiked our way to the middle-of-know-where, just like we did with Alison to tell our deepest darkest secrets, and yet she never told us any of hers. Not that we realized this at the time. We were young and naïve.
Hanna was shooing away fly's and bug and anything else in her way "Your making us come all of the way out here just to talk?" she asked not liking the fact that that she was getting dirty.
Taking her hand I led her the rest of the way, "This is a place that we can all feel close to Alison. She should be apart of this." I informed her and it looked to be that Spencer and Emily agreed. I'm glad, and even if Alison didn't treat us the way that she should have we all still miss her so much. No one should have had to suffer what she did.
We all sat down in a circle, "Hanna non of this is your fault. You didn't know he was going to attack us, and besides your doctors appointment is tomorrow, and your baby is most likely going to be just fine. This is nothing that any of us could control." I comforted her.
She smiled at me, "I guess that's true. I don't mean to sound mean, but I really hope that there isn't anything wrong with my baby. Having something wrong with your's is about all that I can handle." she informed me.
Nearly laughing I have her a hug, "That is NOT mean! It's true. I agree I don't think I could handle something wrong with your baby!" I agreed with her. It is so funny how she thought she might be sounding mean! Now that might by my hormones talking for me!
Spencer smiled, "You know if Alison were here right now then she would be hugging us and she would have given that little speech." she nearly laughed.
Emily stretched her legs out, "She would be so happy for all of us. Getting married and having kids." she smiled. Even if she is isn't in the category of either one of those. She is still apart of our group of friends, and we would not be able to function without her.
We all got up now that we have this out of he way and we left with smiles on our faces, and with the knowledge that everything is going to be alright, no matter what happens. 'For better or for worst, it'll be ok.' played around in all of our heads.
When we got home the boy were there just a little bit confused as to where we were, and we refused to tell them. That is our place with Alison. A place that needs to be just about us. I hope that they understand.