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Since we were Carlisle's last appointment, he offered to take the Anthony and Renesmee for the evening. Emmett and Rosalie needed a night to themselves, so they dropped Tyler off at with Esme earlier this morning. He had been complaining of being boredom all day. That was fine for me, it gave Bella and I time to talk.
The car ride home was quiet. I wasn't quite sure where I should begin. Bella was sitting in the passengers seat looking out the window, she had a hand pressed against her abdomen. I couldn't take the tension between us. Both of our emotions were a mess right now, but least Bella had an excuse.
"Bella" I said finally. I was sick of the silence. She turned to look at me, but didn't meet my gaze. "Talk to me."
"We're not communicating like we should" she said softly.
"We aren't" I agreed. "But we can work on that. This isn't something we should let come between us."
"But it could if we don't stop this now. I don't want this baby to be born into a dysfunctional family.
"We're not dysfunctional. We've just been stressed out these past few days" I protested.
"I want us to talk about everything that has been happening these past few weeks. We need to let everything out."
This was my opportunity. "Okay" I nodded.
"So will you tell me why you were upset at the hospital?"
I was a little afraid of how she was going to take my explanation. "I was scared... for Anthony, and I was angry, so I took it all out on the doctor" I sighed.
"What were you so angry about? You looked like you were crying in the elevator... I've never seen you cry before" she said softly. "I felt like you were hiding something from me."
"I was" I mumbled guiltily.
"About" Bella hedged.
"You have to promise not to get upset" I told her. She nodded in agreement. "Okay... Tanya came to work at my office about a month ago. My boss made me her escort the first day. She seemed okay, but I got a feeling like she had an edge to her. Then the very next day she asked the boss if she could become my business partner without my knowledge. They wouldn't let me work solo, so I figured if I just stayed away from her, we wouldn't have any problems. But then she started leaving these suggestive notes in my mailbox, and the day of the party, I left my briefcase in the office and when I came back she had put her underwear inside."
"All this was happening and you never told me?" Bella asked. I could see the hurt flash across her face before she composed it. I saw another emotion flicker across to. Rage.
"Yes, and I'm sorry" I said truthfully. "But that's not all..."
Bella looked at me. I could tell she was trying to keep her expression neutral.
"Tanya has admitted to me more than once that she likes me a little more than business partners should, and that she would do anything to get me... I think she... pushed Anthony yesterday."
Bella has went bright red, but not from her usual blush. Her small frame was shaking in anger. This is what I didn't want to happen. This was one of the main reasons I wanted to wait. I had to calm her down, all of the stress she putting on her body was more than enough to effect the baby.
"Bella!" I said pulling over to the side of the highway. I got out of my seat and rushed over to her side of the car. I opened her door and grabbed her hands, trying my best to get her calmed down.
"Bella look at me" I commanded her. Her face was still red and she had angry tears running down her cheeks. "Bella I know you are upset, but you have to calm down. Think about our baby. Just focus on our child and nothing else" I said pulling her against me and running left hand up and down her back.
She seemed to be listening to me, because her shaking stopped. She was still red in the face and the tears were still coming. I pulled her closer to me and let her bury her face in my chest. Her shoulders heaved with her angry sobs.
Seeing her like this killed me. I felt like if I should have done something sooner, we wouldn't be in this situation right now. I had to admit that I was glad she was taking her anger out through her tears and not her words. She could be quite the fireball when she was pissed off.
"Edward" she whimpered against me. "Distract me. Tell me something."
I thought for a minute. "Do you remember our first kiss?" I asked her. Thankfully I was able to get a small chuckle from her, she nodded her head. Suddenly we were fourteen again...
"I'm bored" Emmett complained for the one hundredth time.
We were all sitting in a circle in the Cullen living room. It was summer and we used each others company to keep each ourselves entertained. We were always up to something, yet our parents still trusted us to stay alone at each others houses.
"We could play videos games" Jasper said eagerly. That's all he ever wanted to do. He was a bit of a nerd.
"I don't have the proper hand and eye coordination" Bella blushed. She was sitting across from me in the circle. She had to be the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. Emmett and Jasper always teased me about my crush, but this summer I promised myself I was going to tell her how I felt.
"Let's play truth or dare!" Alice said vibrating from happiness.
"Make it dare or dare" Rosalie said with a knowing look. She was Emmett's girlfriend. They had been going out since they were twelve and I knew for a fact that they were already having sex. One day I over heard our dad giving him the talk about waiting until they were older. Of course Emmett wasn't going to listen to any reasoning, so our dad also gave him the safe sex talk and made sure he had a box of condoms.
"I'm in" Emmett boomed.
"Me too!" Alice chirped happily.
"I'll play as long as you can drop out of a dare" Jasper's said crossing his arms. Emmett and Rose were also known for having some pretty crude dares.
"Fine, but if you do, we get to give you a name and you have to respond to it" Emmett chuckled.
"Deal" Jasper said reaching over to shake his hand. Then everyone's attention was turned to Bella and I. I wasn't going to deny that I was nervous now that all my friends except Bella new that I had a crush on her. I knew they were going to do something about that if I played.
"So... are you going to play or not?" Alice asked impatiently.
"I think I'll just watch" Bella mumbled.
"Me too" I agreed.
"No way!" Emmett shouted. "You either have to play or you have to leave."
"You can't kick me out of my own house" I argued.
"Wanna bet?" he challenged me. Honestly I didn't. At sixteen, Emmett was a monster. I would lose painfully to what ever he had in mind.
"I'm just going to go up stairs" I said getting up. I wasn't going to risk it.
To my great surprise Bella got up too. "I'll go with you" she said following me.
"Come on Bella" Rose pleaded. "Please play. We won't do anything to wild."
"Yeah, come on Bella" Jasper teased.
"Leave her alone" I snapped at them.
"Please Bella" Alice tried one more time.
"No thanks" Bella said quickly escaping with me. We walked the two flights of stairs quietly, and not until we were in my room with the door lock did we relax. "Thanks for standing up for me" she said coming to sit on my bed.
It was then that I realized that I had Bella alone with me in my room. I felt myself brake out in a thin layer of sweat.
"Yeah... sure. No problem" I babbled like a idiot.
"I hate playing dare games with them. All they Emmett ever wants to do is embarrass us" she sighed lying back against my pillow. I was never going to wash that pillow again!
"He does tend to embarrass us" I agreed. "But he doesn't need a dare for motivation."
"Alice and Rosalie worked it out so that Jasper will be dared to kiss her."
"What! He better keep his hands off my little sister" I growled.
"Oh come on Edward. Everyone thinks that they will get married someday. They're like the most adorable couple ever. Jasper's just to naive to realize it."
You have no idea!
"I guess, but it's hard for me to think about her that way" I said nervously coming to sit beside her. "I can't imagine Alice kissing anyone. She's still my baby sister in my eyes."
"I can, and after the game is over, I will be the only one who has never been kissed" she groaned. Her eyes shot to me when she realized what she had just said. A blush formed on her perfect pale cheeks. "I-it's not like I don't want to be kissed" she tried to explain. "I'm just waiting on this guy I like to do it first."
I felt a huge wave of dejection.
Bella had a crush on a guy that wasn't me.
"If it make you feel any better... I haven't been kissed either" I admitted. I was blushing too. Emmett told me never to tell a girl how inexperienced you were. Apparently it was a major turn off, but I didn't care. I could be honest with Bella.
"You haven't?" she asked sitting up.
I shook my head, feeling my blush grow.
"What about Jessica Stanley? She told everyone you kissed her at the end of the eight grade dance."
"Yuck! Jessica is a liar. She is always flirting with me, but I think she has some type of STD. I wouldn't touch her if she was the last girl on earth!" I ranted in disgust.
"So you haven't kissed anyone?" Bella asked softly.
"Nope" I said proudly. I've been saving myself for you!
Bella went quiet. I was afraid that she now thought of me as a total dork. I'm so stupid! Why didn't I listen to Emmett!
I looked over and Bella was looking down at her knees, blushing furiously.
"Why are you blushing?"
"No reason" she lied. She was a horrible liar.
"Tell me the truth" I warned her.
"Or what?" she challenged.
I pretended like I was going to reach for her, but dropped my hands and started to tickle her sides. My room was filled with Bella's laughter.
"Are you going to tell me?" I asked as I continued to tickle her.
"N-no... w-way" she laughed. She was wiggling and squirming all around. It's has becoming hard to balance myself and tickled her at the same time, so when she leaned backwards trying to get away, I fell on top of her.
I was horrified at my dorkiness. I practically smother her underneath me.
I was about to go into a apologizing fit until I looked at the expression on Bella's face. It wasn't one of anger or disgust, or even embarrassment. It was then that it dawned on my why Bella had been blushing earlier.
She did like me!
"Bella I-" I started.
"Edward kiss me" she commanded. We were both a little shocked at her boldness, but who was I to deny her.
I kept all my weight on my hands and leaned forward. I had no clue what I was doing, and neither did Bella. Just when it looked like our lips were about to touch, our noses bumped and I missed her lips completely. I pulled back slightly embarrassed, but Bella giggled. She pulled me back down to her, and this time our lips did meet.
I guess we went on instinct, because our lips were moving in perfect unison after that. When we pulled away, we were both gasping for air.
It was then that I realized just how much I loved Bella Swan...
"That was the day I knew that I was in love with you" I said pulling her closer to me. "Do you feel better?" She nodded and I pulled away to look at her face. Her face was now a light pink and her tears had stopped.
"I'm sorry" I apologized. "I should have told you sooner. This wasn't a topic you can just throw at people."
"It wasn't, and I still can't believe you didn't tell me sooner, but I'm going to drop it. Right now we just need to call the police" she said looking up at my face.
"We can't."
"Why not!" she protested. "Think about Anthony. Other people could be in danger."
"I don't have any hard evidence. If we did call the police, it would be her word against mine" I sighed in frustration.
"Edward this is serious. I don't want you around her. What if... she does something to you?"
"She won't be around me. I'm going to quit my job."
"That's not fair to you" Bella said shaking her head. "You shouldn't have to leave just because she is some crazy psycho bitch! "
"It's fine. I want to be there for you and for the twins. I would rather stay at home with my family than be in an environment I didn't feel comfortable in anymore. I would feel so much better knowing that I could be there and protect you."
Bella was silent as she thought about this.
"You could find a new firm." Bella knew how much I loved my job, but I loved my wife and kids more. Not knowing how dangerous Tanya really was, I didn't want to take any chances with them being alone.
Bella was still freaked out by all of this. I knew no matter what I said, she was still going to worry.
On the car ride back home, I held Bella's hand firmly in mine. We agreed to not discuss the pool party discussion until we were at home. But while we were on the road, I confessed to her how I felt about Jacob, how I didn't want her to be afraid of me when I was angry, how I was excited to be a father again.
As I discussed the things that bothered me, we both seemed to be more relaxed and the tension in the air began to fade away.
Bella admitted she was ashamed for the way she acted earlier today. She just didn't want to go throw the pain of another negative test. She also told me how nervous she was about being a mom again. She though I was a better parent than her when it came to the twins. I disagreed with her, telling her she was a excellent mother. I got a kiss in reply.
We also talked about the baby. It turns out she was about five weeks along. Even though it was earlier we wanted to choose names. We decided to use the twins middle names. If we had a girl, she would be Carlie, and if we had a boy, he would be Masen. I knew the twins would be estastic. Alice would be too. We were going to have to tell the family soon, though I had a feeling that the twins already told Tyler, so that meant Esme knew too.
When I pulled into our driveway, I knew we were dreading the next conversation.
As we walked into the house, Bella went straight for the kitchen. After I took Mozart for a quick walk, I came back to find her sitting on the couch with a jar of olives. I raised my eyebrow at her.
"We were out of pickles" she defended, hugging the jar closer to her.
I couldn't help but laugh at her. She was so cute when she was dealing with her pregnancy cravings.
"Are you ready?" I asked her carefully.
She nodded.
"So... where should we begin?" I asked nervously, coming to sit beside her.
"I guess with the party" she mumbled.
"Right... um, James invited her over as his date, and everything kinda went down hill from there."
"But why would she come as James' date if she claimed to like you?" Bella asked through a mouthful of olives.
"I put the notes that she was writing to me in his cubbie. He's convinced that the note were for him."
"Okay... There is one thing I don't understand. Even if she is trying to get you- which she won't- why would she attack Anthony in the process?"
"I know she doesn't like kids" I said thoughtfully.
"But she has Mike."
"She made it clear that she doesn't exactly like him either."
Bella gave me a confused expression.
"She told me at work that she was married, but she got pregnant and fell out of love with her husband. After that all she wanted was his money. Then her husband some how died and she got stuck with Mike. She came here to find her spouses parents and give them custody Mike so she can live her party life again" I explained.
"That's fucked up" Bella muttered.
I chuckled at her choice of words. "Yes it is."
"But I still don't understand where you come in at. Does she want you to take Mike if she can't find his grandparents?"
"If I told her I would take him she would drop him in a instant, but she also wants our money. She's not fond of working, and sees me as her way out. Even if she does give up Mike, she is still going to be broke."
"So she thinks hurting our son would help with her seduction?" Bella scuffed. I was glad she was being calm about this.
"I honestly don't know. She's not right in the head" I said shaking my own.
"Should we talk to Anthony? See if he remembers anything?"
"I don't know. He's so young, I don't want to confuse or scare him."
"So what now then?" she asked stuffing another olive in her mouth.
"We stay on guard. I'm going to the office tomorrow to quit. We should just focus on the twins for now. I know Esme has got them all excited for their birthday."
"What do you mean?"
"Knowing her, she has already asked them what they want and what type of cake she should get them."
"That's all their going to be talking about when they get back" she giggled.
"Yep" I agreed stretching. "I'm going to go upstairs and take a nap" I yawned standing up.
Bella gave me a incredulous look.
"What?"
"We have the house to ourselves for the next few hours and you want to sleep?" she asked, shocked.
"I didn't know if you were in the mood after earlier" I mumbled sheepishly. She pulled me back to the couch and began to kiss my neck. "I guess you're in the mood" I was barely able to ground out. She moved into my lap, straddling me.
I wrapped my arms around her waist and attached my lips to hers. Bella's fingers found their way to my hair and began to pull and tug. I was now impossibly hard. When Bella grinded against me, I knew I wasn't going to last long. I was going to take her right here on the couch.
I flipped us over and pinned her beneath me. She was flush against me. I trailed kisses down her jaw to her sweet spot right behind her left ear.
"Ahh" she cried out.
"Bella... if we don't move... I'm going to have to have you. Right. Here" I grinded against her to make sure she got my point.
"Then do it" she whispered huskily. Her hands went for my pants and she rubbed me through them. I buried my face in between her face and the couch, savoring the feeling coursing through me. I seemed like she stopped to soon.
"Bella" I groaned in frustration.
"Mozart is watching us" she said looking over the couch.
Sure enough, our perverted little weenie was sitting directly in front of the couch watching us. His tail was wagging a mile a minute. I knew I should have put him in his room when we came back.
"Can't you just ignore him?"
"It's awkward being watch like this. He's like one of the kids" she protested.
"He's a dog" I reminded her.
"But I think he knows what's going on."
"Fine. We'll go upstairs" I said getting up and bringing her with me. As we were walking towards the stairs, I noticed out the corner of my eye that Mozart was following us. "Stay" I ordered him. He stopped in his tracks an watched me. I started back following Bella, but he was trailing after me again.
"No. Mozart stay" I told him again. He cocked his head to the side and lifted his ear up. "Don't try to play all innocent" I chuckled leaning down to scratch behind his ear. By now Bella was already upstairs.
"I need you to stay right here" I told him walking back towards the stairs. Of course he didn't listen, so I ended up having to put him in the laundrey room with the doggie fence up. His whimpers were devastating as I walked up the stairs, but knowing that there was possibly a naked woman in my bed waiting for me urged me on.
As I walked into our room, I found Bella waiting for my in the center of our bed. I stalked towards her slowly, like a lion with a lamb.
"Why aren't you naked?" I asked huskily.
"I didn't know if you wanted to do that part" she said softly, biting her plump bottom lip. Watching her do that caused me to twitch in my pants.
I crawled onto our bed beside her and leaned down to kiss her, but I pulled away much to quickly for her benefit. I heard her whimper at the loss of contact. Instead, I kissed my down her neck, nipping at her sensitive skin. My hands roamed her body, slowly undoing the buttons to her shirt, and then unclasping her bra.
Her breast bounced out as if they were offering themselves to me. I kissed down the valley between them, ignoring them completely.
"Edward..." Bella protested.
"Shh love" I said softly as I continued my kisses down her stomach.
I kissed her there softly, lovingly. I was so fucking happy that I was going to be a daddy again. I kissed Bella all over her abdomen to make sure our unborn child knew just how much it's daddy loved him.
When I came to her jeans, I simply tugged them down. I was savoring the view of my wife in nothing but a skimpy pair of blue underwear.
"Are you ready for me love?" I teased her by tracing my fingers up and down her sides. She shivered.
"No. You won't touch me!"
"But I have been touching up" as my fingers played with the lace of her panties.
"Not the way I want you to touch me" she whimpered.
"Then show me" I said crawling back up her body. I looked straight into her eyes. "Show me how you liked to be touched."
She blushed and looked away. I gently grabbed her chin so she was looking at me again. "I can't... that's to embarrassing" she shook her head.
"Please" I said giving her my most dazzling smile. She didn't answer. "What if I do it with you?"
"O-okay" she mumbled still lost in my eyes.
I chuckled but leaned up and pulled my shirt over my head. I could feel Bella's eyes on my chest and abs. I made quick work of my pants to, throwing them on the floor surrounding us. That left us both in our underwear.
I climbed back on top of Bella and began kissing her again. Her fingers found the way in my hair and her hip bucked against mine. As good as this felt, I pulled away again.
"Stop doing that and just touch me!" she growled.
"I will, once you show me how you like to be touch" I licked the shell of her ear. She shook her head once more. She could be so stubborn when she wanted to. "You know I'm going to get what I want so you may as well stop fighting and start enjoying yourself."
She scuffed at me and I couldn't help but smile.
I thought I would stop teasing her just enough to let her guard down. My mouth found its way to her nipples, kissing and nipping them. I ripped her lacy undies off and put them to the side. I wanted to save them for another time.
"Ahh" she moaned arching her chest, her hands found their way back to my hair. That wasn't where I wanted them to be. I stroked her inner thigh until she spread her legs wide in a silent plea for my fingers. I knew exactly what she wanted and gave it to her immediately, stroking her clit slowly with my fingers. When I knew she couldn't turn back, I reached up and grabbed her hands. I placed one of them on her breast and forced her to stroke her own nipple. I placed the other hand between her legs and moved her fingers over her clit.
"I think you can handle the rest on your own" I moaned as I started to stroke my own erection through my boxers. She to far gone to protest, so was I. Watching her touch herself was a bigger turn on than I thought. I didn't want to cum before her, but I didn't think I was going to last long.
"I'm... going... to cum" Bella moaned loudly as she bucked against her fingers.
"Do it baby" I said leaning down to kiss her neck. I made sure to keep pumping my own arousal in my free hand. I watched her pleasured herself into a giant orgasm. I came too. I couldn't ever remember being so turned on. I waited for the trembles to stop before whispering in her ear, "Ready to cum again?"
She looked at me with hooded eyes but nodded.
I lifted her into my arms and she locked her legs around my waist. I somehow maneuvered us over to the wall by the window. I was so caught up in kissing my wife I didn't notice where I was going. Being on the wall gave me a idea. I shifted so Bella's wet core was now directly over my boxer clad erection. She realized what I was doing and pulled away from my lips.
"Edward I don't think we should do this" she panted.
"I won't drop you" I said nuzzling her chest.
I pushed my boxers down to my ankles and pushed my pelvis into hers. My erection was now nestled between her thighs. I could feel it brushing the wet curls of her arousal and I moaned aloud. I rubbed my face into the side of her neck. Her scent was mouth watering.
"Bella, I need you" I growled.
"Take me" she purred. I entered her in one quick thrust and we both growled in pleasure. A bead of sweat traveled down Bella's temple, I noticed her hair was sticking to her face, but she never looked more beautiful. I pulled out of her and then pushed back in. I started with a slow rhythm, easing myself back into her as she slid up and down the wall. This angle allowed me to thrust much deeper within her.
"Edward..." Bella sighed against my lips. I could feel her contracting around my member. I growled and pushed into her harder. She threw her head back and screamed in pleasure. I began to speed up. Rapidly thrusting into her wet walls, pushing her harder and harder in an effort to bring her closer to her sweet release. I shifted her legs so they were seated higher on my hips. I could go in much deeper now.
Bella lay her head back against the wall trying, unsuccessfully, to catch her breath.
I began to thrust faster and harder. Bella's thighs tightened around my waist, she was pushing her hips away from the wall, rising to meet my thrusts. My hands cupped her breasts, pressing hard on the sensitive peaks of her nipples.
"I'm so close" I groaned into her neck.
"Me... too" she screamed. I lowered one of my hands, finding her clit just above where I was buried within her. I flicked it lightly and was rewarded with a cry of pleasure. I continued to pound her into the wall while pressing and kneading her sensitive clit.
"Edward" she screamed as her release took over her. My release came too, a mixture of our arousal running down both of our thighs. Bella was gasping for air. Her chest heaved rapidly in my face I slowly eased out of her. We slumped into a sweaty heap on the floor.
"Wow... that was..." Bella panted in my arms.
"I know" I panted too.
"No wonder you got me pregnant so fast" she giggled. I couldn't help but chuckle too.
I was happy to know that we were on a clean slate. No more secrets or lies. We were going to be completely honest with each other. I promise I was going to do everything in my power to make my family safe and happy.
Even if it kills me in the process...
We been having so many thunderstorms, I'm sorry I couldn't get this to you guys sooner. BUT I gave you a lemon to make up for it. ALSO we passed the 100th mark. I never knew this story was going to do this good! You guys are the best readers ever!
FanFic Rec: A Rough Start- Overnight irresponsible Edward goes from bachelor to father of a 5 yr old. Meanwhile responsible, prepared Bella begins her first job as Kindergarten teacher at Forks Elementary. When irresponsible meets the epitome of responsible, sparks will fly! (ItzMegan73)
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