March 18th, 1980
4:56 PM
ANGIE'S POV:
So at four months now I had a bit of a baby bump that Regulus always had to touch, kiss or talk to. He was very scared and nervous – hell, so was I – but we both got over it and now we couldn't be happier that we were creating a family. We were still just as scared of the dangerous world it was to be born into though.
I kept in touch with everyone. Hermione told me that soon the prophecy about Harry would be made. We had to make sure that someone other than Peter or Sirius became the the secret keeper. I thought maybe Regulus could do it. People just thought he went kamikaze at the dance and disappeared. And they wouldn't suspect him to help the Potters anyway. He'd be a safe bet for secret keeper. Or Dumbledore. He was very powerful and even Voldemort was afraid of him. He'd be a safe bet too.
I laid back in the bed, running my hands over my belly. I could not believe that I was having a baby. I was so scared. I didn't have the best example of parents. But I would not be like them. I would not beat my child and be cold and unloving to them. I would not be like my parents. I would be loving, caring, and raise my child the right way like a real mother. And Regulus would be a great father too. He already loved the baby and they weren't even out yet.
One thing nagged me though. I wouldn't be able to be there for Lily and James when they had Harry. They were set to have him at St. Mungos and Regulus and I can't be seen there. I was missing so much of my friends' lives just because of this stupid war. It wasn't fair and it wasn't right. But I couldn't do anything about it. And that hurt more.
I heard the shower shut off and Regulus fumble around to get dressed in the bathroom. I heard the door open and turned my head to see Regulus coming out in just his muggle jeans I made him buy. He was skeptical about muggle clothing at first but as soon as I made him try a pair on, he never stopped wearing them. Not that I didn't like the view.
Regulus grinned when he saw me ogling him and came to lay beside me. He slipped his hand under mine on my baby bump and gave me a loving kiss, "Feeling better?" I had had bad back pain this morning and couldn't get out of bed. I nodded even if my back still hurt and said, "Yeah... Just laying here thinking..."
"Thinking about..." Regulus egged me on patiently. I looked up at the ceiling and thought for a moment, "Just stuff that's been going on... James and Lily... our impending parenthood... my parents... what we are going through and what we're missing in our friends lives... It's just not fair, Regulus..."
He kissed my head, putting his arm under my neck. I rested my head on his chest. He sighed deeply, "I know, Angel... Life isn't fair to us... but we'll make it right. I swear to you we will make this world a better place not only for us... but for our child." He ran his hand in little circles over my baby bump as if to add emphases to the last part. I softly placed my hand on his and intertwined our fingers over our unborn child. He was right. We would make a better life for our child to live.