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Chapter 5
Jacob
Last time on Identity Lie:
"I'm leaving," – Edward
Couldn't say his name. It hurts too much – Bella
He's gone," I said between sob – Bella
I missed all the Cullens– Bella
Going to visit Jacob – Bella
Suddenly, two huge arms wrapped around my waist. All three of the men were big, with muscles and they were just gigantic, but then the most unsuspected thing happened; they guy that was holding me, who was the biggest in size, started tickling me!
"Whoa!" I said, trying to get out of the guy's arms. "Jacob Black, if you don't stop tickling me this instant, I will personal beat you to a pulp!" I said between gasps for air. I couldn't breath; he was tickling me so hard that I just wanted him to stop.
"Aw, come on, Bells. I'm just tickling you!" he said though his huge grin. He started tickling me harder, if that was even possible.
"Jacob! Stop! Please…" I said the last word in a whisper. I couldn't take it anymore. I felt like I was going to pop!
"All right, all right, I'll stop," he said before he actually did stop. I sank down in his arms feeling like I wanted to sink down to the ground. I'm very ticklish!
Jacob let me go before he turned around to what I assumed were his friends. He started to speak to them but I was too tired to try to decipher what he was saying. Who knew being tickled took a lot out of you?
Two minutes later, Jacob introduced me to his two friends; Quill and Embry. We stood there talking awhile before the boys said they needed to go and get something for their mothers. Jacob stayed with me while the others left.
"So, how have you been doing, Bells?" he asked as I closed the hood of my now fixed car.
"Okay, I guess. What about you?" I asked, not wanting to dwell on my life for long.
"Great! I just got my driving license last month." He said with a touch of pride. I walked to the driver's seat and buckled myself in.
"Really? That's fantastic! I remember the day I turned sixteen…" I trailed off, the day I turned sixteen, was about three weeks after the "James" incident.
I was in my room waiting for Edward to come pick me up. I was finally sixteen! No more Charlie taking me to school! I was getting my license tomorrow morning and my dad just gave me my first ever car! Well, more like first ever truck, but it didn't matter, I was totally in love with it, but of course not as much as I was in love with Edward.
Speaking of Edward, where was he? He was never late. Suddenly, two cold arms wrapped around my waist.
"Happy birthday, beautiful," Edward said, I smiled to that and…
"Bella! Bells? Is anyone there?" Jacob was yelling at me, waving his hand up and down in front of my face.
"Oh, sorry, Jake. I guess I just zoned out there," I said as pain took over my heart. I felt like a huge hole was just punched in my chest. I clutched my chest and rested my head on the steering wheel, shutting my eyes.
"Bells, you okay?" Jake asked concerned. "You look like you're in pain, are you all right?"
I tried to calm down but I couldn't shake the feeling of pain. Edward was there for me before, why wasn't he here now? Why didn't I see it before?! I should have made him stay! I should have not been so dependant on him to save me from everything! I should have protected myself when James came along, if I didn't need his protection then, then he wouldn't have left. He wouldn't have felt that I was needy and dependent on his protection.
I started to cry, but then Jake pulled me to his chest and I started to cry there. He patted my back as I cried and I felt so ashamed to be doing this to him. I was supposed to visit him, not make him depressed! But I couldn't help it, so I didn't. I just cried…
I took a chance, I took a shot
And you may think I'm bullet-proof, but I'm not
You took a swing, I took it hard
And down here from the ground I see who you are
I cried for Alice, the sister I would always miss. I cried for Rosalie, the friend I would never have. I cried for Emmett, the big brother I would never get to have. I cried for Esme, my second mother. I cried for Carlisle, my second father. I cried for Jasper, another brother I would miss and finally I cried for Edward, the love of my life.
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why
Why, tell me why
I take a step back and let you go
I told you I'm not bullet-proof, now you know
"Why?! Why did they have to leave?" I cried into Jake's chest. He rubbed soothing circles on my back and shushed me.
"I don't know, Bella, but it was stupid. They shouldn't have left, but it's going to be okay. I'll help you get through this, I promise." He said with determination in his voice.
"I'm sorry, Jake. I really am, I don't know why I'm still crying. It's just that you brought up my last birthday and Ed.. Ed.." I just burst out crying again and Jake shushed me and told me it was going to be alright again.
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
I cried as I though about Edward, then I remembered that Jake was here. He was here for me, but what if he didn't want to be here? Be here with me to try to save what's left of me that is.
"Jake, you can go if you want to; I'm not forcing you to be here with me. If you want to go, then you should. "I said sadly, I felt like he was the only friend I had who could understand me. I didn't want him to, but I couldn't keep him here.
"Bells, I'm not going anywhere! I'm staying right here. I'm gonna help you get through this, I promise!" Jake said, leaning down and kissing my forehead.
"You're my friend, Bella. I love you as a sister, I'm not going anywhere. I promise!" Jacob said, hugging me to his chest harder. I pulled my French braid away from my face and smiled up at Jake. I wiped my tears and then I said;
"Thanks, Jake. It really means a lot to me. I love you too. You're a great friend and brother. "I hugged him and then I moved back to the driver's seat and started the car.
"So, where are we headed?" I asked Jacob as I looked back to the road.
"Anywhere you wanna go," he replied with a goofy grin.
"How about the beach?" I asked him with a not forced smile.
"Sure, Bells, whatever you want," He said while reaching into his pocket and getting a bar of chocolate out. "Want some?" he asked, breaking it in half and giving me half.
"Sure, like I'd ever say no to chocolate?!" I asked, surprised he'd ask. Jake just chuckled and looked goofy for a while.
We finally arrived at the beach and we talked, laughed and basically just had a good time. Then it was finally time for me to go home since he was getting late and I still hadn't made Charlie dinner. I said goodbye to Jake and got in my car. I drove home alone, but then suddenly, I remembered Edward and how he would never let me drive alone at night.
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonightHe's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..
I started to cry again, but I couldn't stop! I wouldn't, I needed to get home to Charlie. I needed to make him dinner.
I got home to my surprise in one piece. I quickly made lasagna for dinner and went up stairs. I can't keep doing this! It's not fair; not fair to Jake, not fair to dad and it's not fair to me. Tomorrow, I promise I'm going to try and get on with my life. Edward and the Cullens will always be in my heart, but they are out of my life! I need to try and make things better with what I have left. So, starting tomorrow, I'm going to try to go back to who I was before they came. I'm going to be a new Bella Swan. I'm going to be better, even if I have to die making it happen!
A/N: Hey, guys. I hope you liked the chapter! It's longer than the last one I think, but whatever. Don't forget to review when you're done. Show some love! Um.. Also I've written the 1st chapter of my new story "One Minute, Then the Next," so check it out. Also if you like the vampire diaries; my best friend, "Lily C. Salvatore" has written a Bonnie/Damon fanfiction, so if you're interested, check it out. REVIEW BEFORE YOU LEAVE!
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Sound track for chapter:
Taylor Swift – Tell Me Why
Taylor Swift – Come in with the rain
*Note: The parts I put are the only parts of the song in this fanfiction! The rest of the song isn't part of it.