Hello my dear and lovely readers!! Wow, you don't understand how much your reviews make my day. Especially in the hard times I'm going through right now. I'm so glad you all like this story, I truly am. And just to show how much I appreciate it, I wrote an EXTRA long chapter lol. But I have realized something ladies and gents-I tend to make my flashbacks longer then the present day. What do you all think? Good? Bad? Should I make my present days longer?

Oh yes and I lied about something in the last chapter. I'm so sorry but after watching Season 2, it made me rethink some things.(BTW season 2 was AMAZING!! last scene was soo sad). Anyway you'll realize what I accidentally lied about as you get to the end of this chapter. The story has not been altered per say, just something that was made clear is made very clear in the chapter. Oh yes and in the upcoming chapters, it's going to start from Season 2 so be prepared darlings!!

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"Bella," Jax whispered quietly to his still sleeping girlfriend. She was holding him tightly, like a small child. "Babe, wake up."

Bella's eyes flickered open, wondering where the hell she was. She looked at Jax confused, before last nights events came back to her. She groaned and hid her face into Jaxs' bare chest. "Let me sleep."

Jax chuckled quietly. "You have to wake up. We're gonna go get your stuff."

Bella sat up at that. "My stuff? Like at my dad's house?"

"Yeah," Jax said slowly. "Why what's wrong."

"He'll never let us in!" She said with wide eyes.

Jax frowned. "You let me deal with that." He patted her backside. "Now go get dressed and we'll go."

Bella got up and stretched. She heard Jax clear his throat, as if in pain and looked at him questioningly. "What?" A sudden breeziness, made her look down and realize her bra was once again out in the open, Jax's shirt unbuttoned. "Shit!" She said turning around. "Sorry," She whispered, blushing as she turned back around.

Jax looked away. "It's fine." He got up and put on a new shirt, already in a clean pair of jeans. "Uh, I'm gonna go tell my mom what's going on."

Bella's eyes widened as she looked at him sharply. "Your mom?"

"Yeah,"

"But," She said swallowing. "she hates me."

Jax walked over to her and kissed her forehead. "I'll worry about that." He looked her up and down. "Now get dressed before I mount you right here." He said roughly, kissing her.

Bella blushed blood red and ran into the shower.

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"He kicked her out of the house?!"

Bella winced as she heard Gemma screech at Jax. She walked out of the hallway and into the bar area, seeing mother and son facing each other. They looked up as they noticed her there. Gemma narrowed her eyes at her. "Your father kick you out?" Bella nodded slowly. "Why?"

Bella looked at Jax, playing with her hair unconsciously. Jax gave her a small smile and a nod. "Um," She said clearing her throat.

"He hates the club." Jax said frowning. "Thinks I'm bad for her."

Gemma smiled. "Maybe he's right."

"Mom," Jax said warningly as Bella looked away.

"What?" Gemma said innocently. "I mean look at her." She eyed Bella up and down. "You honestly think she's cut out for this shit."

Bella jumped as Jax walked behind her and held her hand. "She wants to stay."

Gemma looked Bella square in the face. She tilted her head and sighed. "You know what you're getting into sweetheart?"

Bella nodded. "Yeah I know." She said quietly.

Gemma scoffed. "You don't know shit." With that said, she turned toward the door and began to walk out. But before she opened the door she turned back around. "She'll stay with me. Ain't no fucking way she's staying with you. I'm too young to be a grandmother."

Bella looked at Gemma leave with wide eyes. "Jax I can't stay with her."

Jax sighed and rubbed his hand over his eyes. "We really have no choice Bells."

"No you don't understand. I won't be able to live with her. No offense," She said quickly seeing Jax's glare. "but your mother hates me. How do you expect us to get along."

"I don't fucking know Bella, but we don't really have any other options." Jax said, yelling slightly.

Bella looked at him angrily. "Why the fuck are you getting mad at me?"

Jax took a breath. "I have a bunch of shit on my mind." They stayed quiet for a few minutes. Bella crossed her arms and looked down. "Bells I'm-"

"Hello, hello. And what do we 'ave here?" Bella turned to see Chibs walk out of one of the various rooms. "How ya doin' there Isabelle?"

Bella smiled at him. "I'm fine Chibs, and you?"

Chibs grinned at her, before giving her a kiss on the cheek. "Just dandy. Jacky boy, how you doin'?" He said, turning and seeing Jax with a frown on his face.

"Fine." Jax mumbled.

"Ya know," Chibs said taking a beer out and popping it open. "When you get bored of his mood swings, ya could always call me up my dear Isabelle."

Bella giggled. "I'll never get tired of his mood swings."

Jax looked at Bella, who refused to meet his eye. She'd meant to say that with as much meaning as she could muster. "Ah," Chibs said, holding his heart dramatically. "Tis a shame then. Wish you'd follow me around like you do him. Be my shadow for once."

"That's a good nickname for her." Juice said walking in laughing.

Chibs' eyes widened. "Yes that is! Shadow it is then. You'll be the clubs little Shadow."

Bella scrunched up her nose. "Of all the cute nicknames in the world, you choose Shadow?"

The men laughed as Jax walked toward Bella. "Let's go Bells." He grinned. "I mean Shadow."

Bella rolled her eyes and followed him out. "You know, I can't stop them from saying it, but I can sure as hell break up with you."

Jax laughed and put his arm around. "Now why would you do that?"

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"Listen, just stay at my mom's and I'll drop off your stuff later alright?" Jax shut off his phone and got off his bike. Taking off his helmet, he walked over to Roy Bates' door and pounded on it. "Open the fucking door."

A second later, Roy answered the door seething with anger. "What do you want Teller?"

"Bella's shit," Jax said, pushing his way through.

"Who the fuck do you think you are walking into my house!" Roy yelled, pulling Jax back.

Jax swung his fist and hit him square in the face. "You fucking touch me again, I'll cut off your dick, got it?" He snarled at the man. "You fucking kick out your own daughter, you prick?"

"She aint my daughter. My daughter's no whore!"

Jax punched him again. "Don't ever call her a fucking whore. Got that?" With that said, he left the man on the floor and went into Bella's room to get her stuff."

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Bella looked out the window of Clay and Gemma's house and sighed. So far she'd been alone for almost three hours, with no calls from Jax. She was bored out of her mind, and praying Gemma the great big bitch wouldn't be back soon.

"You still here?" Her dream died as she heard said woman's voice.

Bella turned around slowly and straightened up. "Jax hasn't called."

Gemma put down her groceries and sighed, her hands on her hips. "Listen sweetheart, what's the deal with you and Jax?"

"What do you mean?" Bella asked, crossing her arms.

"Do you know what he does?"

Bella looked down. "A bit."

"A bit's not enough baby." Gemma said sarcastically. "You either know it all or you know nothing." She lit a cigarette and offered one to Bella, who refused. "Jax isn't one of those cookie cutter boys you might be into."

"I'm into Jax." Bella said confidently.

Gemma inhaled her cigarette and looked at Bella carefully. "You love him, don't you?" Bella stayed quiet and took a deep breath. Gemma smiled slowly. "Well, there's my answer."

"What's your answer?" Both women turned to see Jax and Clay standing there grinning.

"Jax!" Bella exclaimed running to Jax and hugging him.

Jax hugged her back and kissed the top of her head. "Missed you too." He said laughing.

"Hey baby," Gemma said, walking over to Clay and kissing him.

"Hello doll," He said, smiling. He turned toward Bella. "How are you there Shadow?"

Jax and Clay started cracking up as Bella glared at the both of them. Gemma looked confused. "Is there something I don't know?"

Jax grinned at Bella and grabbed her hand. "Boys decided to give Bells here a nickname." Bella slapped him slightly on the chest, before Jax put his hand on the small of her back. "We're gonna get going." And with that, they exited the house.

Clay looked at the two and kissed his wife's cheek. "What do you think?"

Gemma shrugged. "We all liked that bitch Tara, before she fucked with Jax's head."

Clay frowned. "Vulgar baby, so vulgar."

Gemma smiled at him. "Oh you like it, old man."

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"So you got all my stuff back?" Bella asked eyes wide.

Jax looked offended. "Don't fucking act so surprised."

Bella grabbed his hand. "I mean, it's just I'm surprised he didn't call the cops or something." She said as she sat on his bed.

"Cops are the last thing I worry about."

Bella looked at him questioningly, but didn't press him. That would be for tomorrow. "So," She said stretching. "How'd you convince your mom to let me stay here."

Jax grinned slowly. "I told her you were on the pill."

Bella's mouth dropped. "That is so disgusting." She groaned. "She's gonna think we're fucking now you asshole!"

Jax laughed and looked at her suggestively. "Well," He said walking to her. "we could always do that." He started kissing her neck slowly. "It's actually pretty fun." He said, rubbing her thigh. Bella's breath caught in her throat. She touched his hair slightly, but pulled it when he bit her neck. He laughed. "See, you want it too, doll."

Bella pushed him off slightly. "Jax," She whispered. She had to admit; she was turned on. But she couldn't get to a point of no return unless she knew for sure Jax loved her.

Jax ignored her, and began to pull up her shirt, pushing her back onto the bed and kissing her belly. "So fucking soft." He whispered, grabbing her plush belly and running his nails across.

Bella had to fight to keep from passing out. She'd had make-out sessions with Jax before, but none had ended up like this. Even the one from the day before couldn't equal. She pushed him again. "Jax get off."

He continued kissing her stomach. "I swear you'll love it babe."

Bella took a deep breath as her eyes almost rolled into the back of her head. "I don't doubt that, but.." She moaned slightly as he kissed her thighs. "Jax, come on."

Jax looked at her with so much passion, SHE almost took him. He grabbed her face and kissed her so thoroughly and passionately, she practically melted at his feet. Without realizing, she reached out and pulled up his shirt, running her nails across his back. She heard Jax groan, and move off her. He took of the piece of clothing and threw it aside. Bella merely stared at his bare chest in satisfaction. It was so nicely toned and muscled, she wanted to reach out and run her fingers along his abs. Jax grinned at her before bending back down to kiss her again. He kissed her neck, running his fingers along her bottom. He started taking off her jeans when-

BANG! BANG! BANG!

Bella froze as the door was pounded quite quickly. Jax groaned, frustrated. "Who the fuck is it?"

"Uh, I think you need to come out here Jax." Juice said, nervously.

Jax took a deep breath and glared at the door. "Don't move." He said to Bella. He got up and walked to the door, practically pulling it off it's hinges. "This better be fucking important." He grabbed his shirt and pulled it on.

Juice looked at Bella on the bed, breathing heavily and trying to button up her pants furiously. "Shit sorry. Didn't mean to interrupt. Hey Shadow. How are you-"

"JUICE!" Jax screamed. "What the fuck do you want?"

"Unser's looking for you."

"Unser?" Jax asked confused. "The fuck does he want?"

Juice shrugged. "Say's someone filed some shit against you. He's outside."

Jax nodded and rubbed his face. "Fine, tell him I'll be there in a second."

Juice nodded. "Bye Shadow."

Bella groaned. "Get out Juice."

Jax shut the door on him and leaned against it, looking at Bella. "You alright?"

Bella shrugged. "I'm not sure."

Jax scratched his head. "I gotta go talk to Unser. You gonna be alright by yourself for a few minutes?" Bella nodded her head, as Jax put on his cut and walked out.

She looked at herself in a small mirror across the room. Her hair was disheveled, her lips swollen. If only her father could see her now, she thought sarcastically. She took a deep breath, running her hands through her hair. What had she almost done? She had to have more control. If she gave him her virginity, who was to say he'd stick around. She vowed that until she heard those three little words, she wouldn't let him get near her pants.

Looking around, Bella decided to get up and join some of the guys in the bar. Walking out of Jax's bedroom, she heard voices coming from the room down the hallway. Church, as Jax called it. The door was slightly left open. Looking around to make sure no one was there, she walked near the room, hearing Jax's voice.

"He's pressing charges Jax." The familiar husky voice of Chief Unser spoke gravely.

"I don't give a fuck! He's the one who kicked his daughter out of the house."

Bella froze. They were talking about her father?

"Just because the man is a prick, doesn't give you the right to barge into his house and beat the crap out of him."

He'd hit her father? Jax hadn't told her that.

Bella heard Jax sigh. "So what, like a night in jail or something?"

Unser scoffed. "More like a thousand dollars in damages."

Jax laughed mirthlessly. "That fuck aint getting shit from me."

Unser sighed. "Alright, I'll make it go away. You know, you all are going to give me a heart attack someday. Or cancer."

Bella thought about what Unser said. Make it go away? Why would a police chief dismiss what Jax had done like it was nothing.

"Is that all?" Jax asked.

"Uh, actually no. I came here for another reason. Just got filled in about your little girlfriends father on the way here." Bella heard Unser sigh. "We found some Mayan bodies just outside of Charming. I already asked Clay, but I figured I'd ask you too."

Bodies?

"Wasn't us." Jax said. "We squished our beef with the Mayans a while ago."

Bella freaked out as she heard the chairs squeak. She jumped away from the door and walked back to Jax's room.

"That's all then." Unser said.

"See ya Chief."

Bella walked out of Jax's room, as if for the first time. "Isabelle. How are you?"

She smiled politely at him. "Fine thank you."

Unser nodded at her and walked away. Jax bent to give Bella a kiss, who just turned her head. "What's wrong?" He asked confused.

"You hit my dad?" She whispered.

Jax looked down at her confused, before things clicked. "You were listening to us?" He said angrily.

Bella shook her head and walked into the room. "That's not the fucking point. Why didn't you tell me you hit my dad?"

Jax slammed the door shut as he followed Bella in. "That is the fucking point. What? You don't trust me?"

Bella stared at him. "Why was Unser talking about bodies?"

"I don't fucking know!"

"You do know! I'm not gonna sit here and be lied to Jax."

Jax looked at her with wide, angry eyes. "You're the one who eavesdropped on my conversation."

Bella rolled her eyes. "Spare me! I'm sick of you acting like I'm some dumb kid who doesn't understand anything."

"You are a fucking kid!" Jax shouted at her. Bella stared at him in shocked silence. Jax took a breath and rubbed a hand over his face. "Bella, that's not what I meant."

"You think I'm just a kid? What that I'm some groupie?"

"No, I-"

"Maybe you're right. Maybe I don't understand anything. I'm just a child after all."

Jax sighed. "Bella, come on." He reached out to her and tried to grab her hand. Bella snatched her hand back. "Bella,"

She turned away from him and walked into the bathroom. Jax merely stared at the closed door, before jumping back as it was pulled open. "I'm not some stupid kid Jax!"

"I know."

"I have a 4.0 at school, and I'm a hell of a thinker! Just because I don't walk around here with my head in my ass, doesn't mean I'm stupid!" She put her hands on her waist. "And get that stupid grin off your face!"

Jax just smiled even wider. She looked comical. Bella had the temperament of a bull. Anything would set her off. And then, she'd see only red. Jax tried to look serious as her remembered Bella had eavesdropped. "You still shouldn't have listened to my conversation Bella."

Bella shrugged, calming a little. "I was curious." Her eyes flashed again. "YOU never tell me anything!"

Jax walked close to her, and saw her glare at him. "I'm not sure about a lot of things Bella. I don't know if you could understand the truth right now."

"I can!" She said pouting.

Jax put his arms around her. He kissed the top of her head. "I'm sure you can, but I'm not ready to tell you right now."

Bella pushed him away from her. "Then why are we together?"

Jax stared at her quietly. She was frowning at him and crossing her arms. He sighed; it was now or never. "Because Bella," He took a deep breath. "I-"

"Jax, Opies here." Juice said barging in through the door.

"Prospect, I'm going to fucking kill you!" And with that, he ran out of the room chasing Juice. Bella stared after them, still with a frown. If Jax didn't trust her then...she couldn't stay. Like it or not, she'd have to give him an ultimatum. His trust, or her leaving.

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"You're being fucking reckless Shadow!" Jimmy yelled at Bella.

"Calm the fuck down!" She replied. "It was one stupid fight alright?"

Samuel stood next to Jimmy as he addressed Bella. "Jimmy's right Shadow. You got that prick Teller in your head. He's just fucking with you."

Bella looked at Samuel sharply. "I'm not an idiot alright!" She hated it when people thought she was dumb. Especially moronic men. "And there's nothing Jax and I have done that would qualify as him using me."

Tommy looked at Bella sympathetically. "Sorry to say it Bell, but they're right. You hanging around Teller could potentially ruin everything." He held his hands up at Bella's death glare. "I'm not saying you're a rat, but you could end up saying something you'd regret."

Jimmy sighed. "It's fine." He put his hands on his face and looked up. "We could use this to our advantage."

"What do you mean?" Brady asked quietly.

Jimmy looked out the window as the Sons of Anarchy coming down the street toward the house they were still occupying. "We'll talk about this later."

Bella folded her arms across her chest and looked out the window. She saw Jax get off his bike and take off his helmet. He was wearing a blue plaid shirt with baggy jeans. She shook her head. The man out there was her first love. Hell, the only love she'd ever had. And she hated him every minute for it. Every tear she'd ever shed was for Jax Teller. And she wanted nothing more than to punch him in the face again. For giving her, first love.

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"We have a meeting coming up with the Mayans." Jimmy said quietly, as all the men got situated around the table in the dining room.

"How was this arranged?" Clay asked.

"I talked to Alvarez." Bella said quietly. "Gave him a call, arranged the whole thing."

Clay nodded his head. "What do you need from us?"

Jimmy leaned forward. "Mayans don't want any of us going. Just Bella."

"What?" Jax asked, eyes flashing. "That's fucking insane! You might as well put a bullet in her head."

Samuel glared at Jax. "Bella can take care of herself!"

Bella rolled her eyes as Jax and Samuel looked at each other murderously. "Alright boys, put your dicks away." The men settled a little, but didn't exactly change their glares. "The reason we need you is because I'm going in alone."

Jimmy nodded his head. "I can't trust that Alvarez won't fuck with Bella. Which is why we need you," He said looking at Juice. "to bug her."

Tig scoffed. "You don't think Alvarez won't notice?"

Juice shrugged. "Actually, there is some new shit that won't be detectable. Just a little pricey."

"And that won't be a problem." Jimmy interjected. He put a stack of money onto the table. "This should cover whatever cost there should be and a little extra."

Clay shook his head. "I don't know, there's something weird about this shit. You wanted us just to supply you with some stupid tech shit?"

Jimmy sighed. "Well, that and," He looked at Jax. "protection. In case anything goes wrong."

"Protection? What kind of protection?" Clay asked suspisciously.

"Well, say if the Mayans figure out what's going on. We need you to get in there and get Bella out."

Clay and Tig looked at each other before laughing. "You've got to be fucking kidding me." Tig said.

"You're going to sit on your ass, while my boys take a risk and save a little bit of pussy?"

Bella rolled her eyes as Jimmy answered Clay. "Bella knows things about the Mayans my boys and I don't. They trust her because she's a woman. They don't think anything comes from it."

"I'm very convincing." Bella said, looking at Clay.

Jimmy took a swig of his beer. "And we have money. Money I know you need."

Clay looked at his boys, his eyes landing on Jax. "What do you think V.P.?"

Jax shrugged, butting out his cigarette. "We need as much intel we can get on the Mayans. I mean, we're practically blind without it. Plus, the money won't hurt. Settle some shit."

Clay nodded his head. "Fine. But this shit better not come back to bight us in the ass."

Jimmy smiled. "You have my word."

The Sons all stood to leave, shaking hands with some of the Tankers. Bella went into the living room and sat down on the couch, watching Jax and the others leave. She lit a cigarette and turned away from the others. A ring made her turn to see Jax pick up his cell phone.

"Hello?" He whispered. Bella watched his face relax and get a lazy smile. "I'm good baby," Her head tilted at that. Baby? Jax only called his...she shook her head at the thought. It was probably some trick he'd picked up somewhere. One of the whores that hung around the sons. Jax's eyes looked up and caught her attention. "Yeah, I love you too."

Bella's heart stopped at that. Jax would never say that to someone he was just sleeping with. So that only left one other option.

"Tara?" Juice asked, walking next to Jax.

"Uh, yeah." Jax said still looking at Bella, who looked like someone had just shot her puppy. She turned away from him and walked into her room quietly.

Lying back on her bed, Bella took a deep shaky breath. As hard as she tried, she couldn't stop herself from remembering what Jax had done for her so many years ago. He'd hurt the man who had hurt her. Taken her in when she had no one. And in the end..it had meant nothing as he trampled all over her innocent and precious love.

After all these years he was still with her. With the woman that haunted Bella's every waking thought. Every moment she lived, Tara Knowles followed Bella like the plague. As much as she'd changed herself, she would never be Tara. And Jax; he would never love her. Not the way he loved Tara.

Bella turned away from the door as she heard Samuel walk in. She felt the bed shift as he got in with her. Putting his arm around her, he didn't say a word as he felt her body shake slightly. Merely holding her there, Samuel vowed he'd do anything for Bella. Especially protect her from Teller. He realized that as much as he loved Bella, he'd never have her heart. For as Tara was to Jax, Jax was to Bella. First love. Always love.