Logan's POV:

She looked at me with fear in her eyes, she told me I should better sit down. „She has 8 broken ribs, internal bleeding and a herniated disc which they are trying to fix now, it doesn't look good Logan" she could barely look at me, her face was complete pale and she pulled out her phone to call Luke, probably to see where he was.

„Are they operating on her right now?" I asked, my voice was shaky and my hands felt so cold, she didn't deserve this, this was not supposed to be my Rory. „Yes, they called up an emergency operating room and now they're doing the best they can." I stood up in complete panic „Who is operating? I need to speak to the person in charge, I will-" She grabbed my hand and made me sit down „There is nothing we can do Logan, please calm down." Her voice was quite calm, she was under a lot of shock, so much she wasn't her usual bubbly, cheerful self.

Luke came inside with Jess, holding coffee for everyone, Lorelei took one and I shook my head, giving Jess the meanest death stare possible. „Logan, can we talk?" He asked me, was he serious about this? What the actual fuck? He should be happy he can still walk. I quickly stood up and walked with him to a corner. „Look Huntzberger, we never really saw eye to eye and I'm totally okay with that." I looked down at him, getting more pissed by each second „and your point being?" I crossed my arms. „but I am not giving up on her, I know you love her, that is something that I can't change, but I will never stop being there for her, I love her way too much to do that."

I pointed into the direction of the room where Rory was being operated on „maybe if you loved her just a little bit more she wouldn't be in this position now, have you thought about that?" I asked him, feeling my whole body rage at him. This would've never happened if he had just stepped aside and be a man. I am the one Rory is supposed to be with, It was always supposed to be me. „You think I did this on purpose?" He stepped closer to me, having that stupid confused look on his face. „All that I know is that my Rory isn't okay and you're the fucking cause of that!" I pushed him out of my way and walked back to Lorelei and Luke.

Hours have passed, I haven't moved from my chair, people have offering me coffee and tea, but I didn't even bother to respond, I only shook my head, not really wanting to speak to anyone. As soon as the doctors came to us I jumped up to hear news. „I have good news." That made me instantly smile hopefully. The doctor told us that Rory's condition is stable, I felt my heart calm down instantly. „What about the baby?" I asked. „The baby is fine." I saw Lorelei sit down again in relief.

„She is asleep, you may see her." I looked at Lorelei, she gave me a nod, letting me know that It's okay for me to go inside first. I walked inside to see her petite body laying on the bed, she had the hospital gown on and looked so pale, well, she was always pale, but especially now, she must have lost so much blood. She had scars all over her beautiful face and it made me feel horrible. I was so glad that she was okay, I was never this scared in my life.

I sat down next to her and took her hand. „Ace…" I smiled a little at how her hand was still warm and fit perfectly into mine. I kissed it gently. „I was so scared Ace." I felt a small tear flow down my cheek onto her small hand, I whipped it away with my thumb. „I cannot imagine a world where you're not in it, that is not my world and I won't live in it." I smiled a little through the tears, placing a strand of her hair away from her face. She was never not beautiful. It was physically impossible for my Rory to not be beautiful. She was pale, with scars and big dark blue under eye circles, but nothing could make her less than breath-taking.

„I love you Ace, I will protect you, always." I smiled and held her hand to my lips, kissing it over and over again lightly, her skin was so soft. The beeping of her heart rate was like Mozart himself was playing, music to my ears. I smiled and heard „Logan" from the back, I turned my head around to see Lorelei standing behind me, she walked up to me and placed a hand on my shoulder. „She is so strong." She said, I nodded „the strongest person I know." I smiled, looking down at how peaceful Rory was laying there. „You know she loves you deeply Huntzberger." I let out a small laugh, I nodded, confirming that I knew. „I just really hope that she knows that I love her too." I stood up and looked at Lorelei. „I think she does." I smiled at her and left the room.

As I walked back into the waiting room I sat across from Jess, we were the only ones in the whole room. „You know that I will never stop, she is the only one." He looked up at me and said. „Jess… Okay" I was lost for things to tell him, I was still incredibly angry at him for causing all of this mess, but this was really getting pointless, you could hear how tired I was from my voice. He looked at me, I could see regret all over his face, he was truly sorry for what has happened, I can see that. „I know you love her Jess" I said and took a deep breath. „But so do I, she is the most important thing in life." I said, confident that he would understand how that feels like. He chuckled a little and leaned back. „She is amazing." He stated. „I know." I stood up and left to get some coffee.

When I came back, I realised that I Rory would probably need her stuff when she woke up, desperately trying to beat Jess to it, I told Lorelei I would pick up some things for Rory from her house. She gave me a spare key and I made my way out to drive to her Grandparents house.

I walked inside and went to her bedroom, getting her some fresh clothes to change into when she is ready to leave the hospital, I picked out some normal pyjamas for her, her toiletries that I know she needs and uses. I though, she would probably want a book when she wakes up, so I walked up to her desk, I picked up her laptop, as she would love to write while she was there. But, as I lifted the laptop a letter instantly caught my eye, it was sealed and it said „For Logan" I picked it up and my curiosity got the best of me, I put everything down and sat on her chair, opening the letter to reveal a long, handwritten letter she obviously never gave me. It was written weeks ago.

Logan,

I don't think people give much thoughts to who they give their time to, it always seems as if the amount of time to give is infinite. I mean, if you're smart you will invest your time, in your future, in your plans, in someone who really matters.

I have spent so much of my time wondering what would've happened if I answered your question at my graduation with a yes. Would I still be this Rory Gilmore? But now, that I am, still, this Rory Gilmore, I don't like her. I don't like a Rory Gilmore without you. You showed me life, you showed me that the best part about me wasn't what I have accomplished or what I know, but what I am. I felt strong, like anything in life that I ever wanted was reachable. With you, time was short, sometimes I was scared of how fast life was passing with you, like you were robbing me of time, there was no way that we were together for three years, if felt like minutes. You challenged me, you forced the best out of me, being with you, made me like myself, it made me strong. I loved that Rory Gilmore. I loved loving you, I loved what love made me do, except saying no. I wish I wasn't as jealous of Odette as I am, but I am, right now, I am jealous of the rain the touches you, the pen you hold and the pillow you sleep on, I cannot help myself. I just wish, that I could maybe, care less about your happiness, then I would perhaps be more selfish and tell you that you shouldn't marry her, that you should choose me as I would always choose you. But, you should have your happy ending, the way you picture it, however you picture it. You once said people can life a hundred years without really living for a minute, and I think that any minute I wasn't with you, I haven't lived.

I don't think people give much thoughts to who they give their time to, but, ever since I have met you, all of my time was yours and I am glad.

And I love you, truly, probably like no one has ever loved anyone, I just wish you were mine to tell you that.

- A

„I am." I whispered and took a deep breath, putting the letter carefully into the envelope and into my pocket, looking out at the window, the sky reminded me of her eyes, only, her eyes could put the sky to shame. I smiled, everything felt right. I stood up, packed up all of the things that she needed and headed back to the hospital, repeating her words in my head, over… and over again.

Rory's POV:

I woke up feeling dizzy, I looked around the room and noticed that I was in a strange, unknown room and I started to panic, I sat up and noticed that I was in a hospital. My mom rushed inside to calm me down, together with a nurse and a doctor, who then checked my blood pressure, my charts and such. They asked me how I felt „Like I got hit by a truck." I smiled remembering why I was here at the first place. I touched my belly, too afraid to even ask, but the doctor said „the little one is doing great." He had a warm smile on and I felt a huge relief knowing that my baby was okay, but then I remembered everything from the accident and-

„Oh my God, Jess!" I wanted to stand up but I felt an instant pain in my chest. Everyone jumped at me, pulling me down again „Jess is fine honey, you need to rest!" I nodded and looked at my mom „And where is-" She smiled „He drove to the airport to pick up your grandma from the airport, I will call him to let him know that you are awake." I nodded, whispering a „thank you" to her.

But before anyone had the chance to call anyone, I heard a familiar voice getting louder. „Rory Gilmore?! I swear to God if you don't point me directly to her room I will crush your insides myself and make a kebab out of them! No I won't calm down, do I look like Gandhi to you?" I giggled and yelled out „Paris! I am here!" „Rory!" She yelled back and walked inside, probably knocking down a nurse in her way. „I will let you two talk." My mom said and patted me on the shoulder. Paris looked around the room „This room looks like a cell in a Turkish prison, this will not be tolerated, I'm getting you a new room as of this instance Rory-" I grabbed her hand „Paris, thank you for coming." She looked at me, smiled brightly and sat down. „How are you doing?" I nodded „I feel fine, my body is probably under high drugs." She took a peek at my chart and nodded „Heck yes you are." We both laughed and then I remembered everything going on my life.

After explaining everything to her, not leaving out any detail I finally said „Paris, I don't know what I should do." I looked down at my hands, it was all so quiet since she closed the door. „Well… what do you want to do?" She asked me, of course she would. „I want what's best for my baby and to have a support system and-" She interrupted me. „No, that's not it… what do you really want?" I took a deep breath. „Coffee." I giggled and continued. „You know, when Logan and I were in Hamburg, we sat in this Café that an old Italian couple run, in the old town of Hamburg, it was beautiful, he knew so much about the history of the city and-" Paris placed a hand on mine and said. „Thank you for your answer Rory." At first I looked at her confused, but after a minute I realised that there was no escaping it, all I ever wanted was to escape the world with Logan, be somewhere, someone else, with him.

„The thing that we humans don't seem to get is that we choose all of our circumstances, there is nothing holding you to where you are right now. You're a writer Rory, a good one, but you can be a writer anywhere in the world, with whoever you want to be with." She said, calming me down, she really was my person. „But Paris I don't want to hurt either one of them." She shook her head. „But if you don't… you will hurt both of them, at best." I looked at her confused. „They are both bachelors, successful bachelors, do you really think they deserve to be treated this way?" Paris always had a very direct and honest way of telling me things, but she was the only one to do so straight into my face, only the dearest people in your life do that. She stood up to check her phone, „I'm getting you a room with a better view." I smiled, I was blessed to have someone like her with me. „And Rory…" I looked up at her. „You know what to do, you will do the right thing." And with that, she left on a mission, probably kicking a sick guy out of his room by now.

Jess walked into the room after Paris. „She is one scary person." I giggled as he took a seat next to me. „Rory I am so sorry, I didn't-" I shushed him quickly. „You don't have to apologise to me, It was an accident, things like this happen." He looked away. „Twice." „Twice?„ I asked, and he reminded me of the first time we got into an accident, it wasn't this major, but still. I nodded at his little story time. He took my hand „We need to talk Rory." I looked around. „Here and now?" He took a deep breath. „Yes. It is important." I sat up and he sat on the bed next to me. „I know you love him, that is something that I could never erase." His eyes seemed so sad, he was looking for the right words to say, but there weren't any. „But there is one thing I wasn't thinking of." He looked straight into my eyes, not looking away, not even for a second. „I love you more, and if it will take centuries to prove that to you, I will be here, I will stay and I will here for you." I bit my lower lip and finally broke the stare between us. „Jess, there is no space." I continued after taking a deep, long breath. „There is no space for anyone else, he has all of it." He looked down at his feet, a hurt smile was formed on his lips. „You will always be the one that got away for me Gilmore." He said. „Take care Rory." I knew, there was no between, there was no holding this for any longer, this is how things were suppose to be. It was hard letting go of Jess, he will always have a piece of my heart, I hope he takes care of it.

He stood up, kissed my cheek and made his way outside. Letting Jess felt like the right thing to do, but letting someone go like him, was never easy. He wanted everything, I couldn't give that to him. I saw all of my things on the table, someone has brought me a wide selection of unfinished books that were laying round in my apartment. I took one and started to read it before hearing a knock on the door, I put the book down to see Logan, standing there with the probably biggest bouquet of flowers known to men kind. „You robbed a botanical garden?" I asked with a smile. „And a chocolate factory." He said holding up chocolates in the other hand. „Well if this isn't a sight of a perfect first date." I giggled and he walked inside. „I'm sorry I couldn't be there when you woke up, your Grandma had just landed and she wanted-" I nodded, reassuring him that there was no need in trying to explain Emily Gilmore to me. „Ace I'm so happy that you're okay." „Me too." I said with a little laugh. He saw the tired look on my face and probably decided to drop anything else that he wanted to say and stood up probably wanting to give me space to sleep.

I took his hand then. „Stay. Please." I said and moved a little, showing him that I didn't want to be away from him. He smiled and laid next to me, playing with my hair as I laid on his shoulder. „You are so beautiful Ace, I could never get tired of looking at you." He said, with his voice warm and comforting, he had me in his arm he placed a couple of kisses onto my forehead. „Logan-" He wanted to silence me, probably not to waste my energy on speaking, but to recover fully, but I resisted „Logan, I love you."

And I was convinced, that nothing I have ever said felt this honest and real, I was with him and nothing else seemed to matter.