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"There's nothing you can do," a voice whispered.
Tidus' eyes flew open at the whisper; he sat up instantly and glanced around the room to find the source of the whisper.
"Who-"
"You know who I am" the voice said again.
"I know that voice," Tidus whispered, thinking hard. Memories of meeting people flashing through his mind. Auron; no, Seymour; no, man at the street side; no, Bahamut….
His eyes widen. "Bahamut?" Tidus asked, his eyes still searching the room.
"I just need to speak with you," the voice spoke.
"Show yourself!" Tidus demanded, quietly so Yuna didn't wake.
"Can't we just speak like this?"
"Bahamut?" Tidus called again.
"She thinks you're a dream Tidus," The voice spoke.
"No," Tidus whispered sadly, "I can't be.."
"To Yuna you are a dream, in reality you are-"
Tidus clasped his hands to his head. "No!" He shouted. "I won't listen" He said.
"We are doing this to help her" The voice whispered again.
Anger flashed in Tidus' eyes. "No! How can you be helping her by making me a dream?" Tidus asked, his head spinning around to look for the figure the voice belonged too.
"You can't tell her that you-"
"I won't listen!" Tidus shouted again, clasping his hands to his ear. "This can't be, I cannot be a dream"
"You're-"
Tidus started humming loudly so he didn't hear the rest of the sentence.
The dream haunted his day as he sat on the dinning table eating. They shared something special just a few hours ago, but he just couldn't seem to get his thoughts away from the dream. He can't be a dream; he stared over sadly at Yuna. He couldn't leave, her, not after what they did.
He felt Lulu's gaze over him; she was worried, all of them were, Yuna the most. He hadn't said a thing to her since he awoke with her a few hours ago. Everything they did a few hours ago was perfect; he wanted to tell her that. But the dream kept holding him back.
He saw Rikku standing up, pulling up Yuna with her. "We girls are going out for a walk," she eyed Tidus, "No guys allowed."
Tidus smirked and nodded. "I'll see you later then," he said to Yuna who nodded.
He watched as Paine, Rikku and Yuna walked to the door.
"We'll be back soon," Rikku said at the door.
His eyes went to Yuna who was with Rikku. "Bye," Yuna flashed him a smile, which made him smile just for her.
He nodded. "Where are you going?" Wakka asked.
Rikku rolled her eyes. "Girl talk."
Wakka chuckled and nodded.
Rikku smiled.
"Don't worry, I'll keep an eye on them," Paine said.
'I love you,' Yuna mouthed to Tidus.
He smiled, and nodded. "Me too," he said aloud. Watching as they left, He can't be a dream. He just simply can't.
He stood up and collected the plates; walking to the kitchen and placing them in the sink. His thoughts still stuck onto his dream.
"Tidus," Lulu spoke; startled Tidus turned around to face her.
"I know you've been wanting to ask me something this entire dinner time?" Tidus asked, leaning back against the wall, crossing his arms.
Lulu smiled. "You really do know me very well."
Tidus chuckled and nodded.
"This afternoon-"
"Lulu," Tidus spoke. "I'd never hurt Yuna, of all people you would know. I never did anything she didn't want on her pilgrimage," he shifted his eyes. "Well Macalania was unexpected, but that's not the point, it was just a kiss. I made it clear to Yuna, that if she didn't want to do anything she didn't have too, all she had to say was no, and I would stop straight away," Tidus explained.
"Ti-"
Tidus cut Lulu off and spoke, "I've never fallen in love before, but now I have. I love Yuna, so much. And we shared something that to me is very special and wonderful. I don't now what she thinks of it, but I know I loved it and I'll always keep it in my heart. I've never had a person to love before, but now Yuna is that person. Loving someone is, respecting them and cherishing them. I respect what Yuna wants and doesn't want and I will cherish her for the rest of the time I am here. Lulu I don't know what else to say to earn your trust, if this isn't enough then I don't know what is. But I swear for the rest of my life, I will never so dare hurt Yuna in anyway, I will cut my hand off before I find myself doing so and I swear to that Lulu," Tidus touched his heart and nodded.
Lulu responded with silence. Was Tidus really pouring his heart out to Lulu? Everything about Yuna, he told her everything.
Lulu nodded and a smile slowly crept its way onto her lips. "Tidus, I do trust you, but I got to ask these questions, because Yuna is like my little sister, and I care for her. I know you wouldn't do things like that, but I just have to ask to make sure," Lulu smiled. "You didn't have to say anything to earn my trust Tidus, you already have it," Lulu smiled, patting Tidus on the shoulder. "You always have, since you helped us defeat Sin and when I saw your face the last time you hugged Yuna on that ship. I know you love Yuna and I know she loves you too," Lulu smiled warmly.
Tidus smiled and nodded. "Thank you," he said sincerely.
"Now since we cleared that up, something is bothering you Tidus. You didn't speak a thing the entire dinner, that's unlike you," she flashed questioning eyes at him.
'Should I tell her?' Tidus thought. He ran a hand through his hair nervously.
"Bahamut came to visit you didn't he?"
His head snapped up, eyes widening when Lulu eyed him suspiciously. "I-"
"What did he say Tidus?"
Tidus looked to his hands sadly. "He said, I'm a dream."
"Ti-"
"I can't do this Lulu," Tidus said sternly, sinking to the floor. "I can't.." He said over and over again, burying his head in his hands. He now sat on the floor of the kitchen, head buried in his hands.
"There must be something we can do," Lulu said.
His head shot up. "The temples, maybe if re trace Yuna's pilgrimage to each temple, maybe just maybe the fayth will answer if we speak. We can ask them, if I'm really a dream," Tidus said, standing up now.
"Go talk to Yuna, Tidus. I haven't seen her glow like she was at dinner since her father was alive," Lulu said smiling to Tidus.
"Isn't she with Rikku doing their girl talk?" Tidus asked, emphasizing 'girl talk.'
Lulu laughed at his sarcasm. "I'll help you, but you gotta promise me something.."
Tidus nodded, rolling his eyes. "Yes, during the night if Vidina wakes up I have to put him back to bed,"
Lulu smiled and shook her head. "I wasn't going to say that, but now that you suggested it,"
Tidus groaned.
"I'm just joking," Lulu said rolling her eyes, "I just wanted you to promise me you'll always be with Yuna, even if you're not here and in the farplane," she spoke seriously.
Tidus nodded. "I will always be with Yuna, if it was possible, I'd give my soul to her to keep."
Lulu smiled proudly at Tidus. "Let's go find Yuna already," She took his hand, pulling him toward the front door.
Tidus saw Wakka staring at them; he simply smirked to Tidus and went back to playing with Vidina.
Meanwhile outside.
Tidus and Lulu burst through the door and to outside. Once every so often he found himself losing his footing, but just managing to straight himself up and continue walking; well more like running with the pace Lulu was walking at.
Strangely enough he flashed back to one of those days in Zanarkand, when his mother pulled him along the same way Lulu was. His mother would always do this since he hated shopping so much.
Finally their destination came to an end; Tidus saw Yuna, Rikku and Paine sitting by the fire in the middle of the village. The same fire he saw Lulu and Wakka talking back when he had first come to Besaid and met Yuna.
Rikku's back was against them. Tidus and Lulu heard Rikku going on and on and on about some guy she really liked. In Tidus' opinion, it didn't look like Yuna and Paine were having fun; he could tell from their slump and blank faces.
Yuna saw him and Lulu standing there and her eyes lit up, she was more concentrated on Tidus though.
Paine saw too and smiled at Lulu.
Lulu looked to the sky and cast a spell. The next thing Tidus saw were clouds pouring in slowly.
"You didn't?" he whispered.
Lulu nodded, smirking.
"She's going to freak, you know Rikku and her lightning fears..remember the thunder plains?" Tidus said.
Lulu nodded. "It's the only thing that'll get her to stop talking,"
Tidus rolled his eyes. "If I recall, she stuck onto my leg in fear the last time."
Lulu smirked. "I remember," she smiled.
"Eek!" they heard Rikku screaming. "What happened to the clear night?" she said, furiously standing up and walking toward the huts.
Lulu and Tidus saw her, they turned into the bushes, watching as Rikku ran with Paine.
Yuna came up to them, "You shouldn't have done that," She said to Lulu.
"Well, it'll teach her a lesson or two," Lulu smiled. "Tidus, I won't let you back into the hut until you discuss it with her." She looked at the two seriously. "You haven't spoken since this afternoon, its time you did some talking now," She said sternly and walked off.
Yuna turned to Tidus, her eyes flashing with questions. He smiled, placing a finger at her lips. "Before you start firing questions, I suggest we go somewhere shaded," he said, taking her hand and leading her to the temple.
She followed him willingly, enjoying the way he held her hand; gentle and soft.
He soon came to a stop next to a pole of the temple, since there wasn't much shade anywhere else.
"This will have to do," he said sarcastically, "Are you okay with that?" Tidus asked.
Before Yuna could answer he started taking off his shirt, throwing it above them, above their heads. Their bodies leaned against the pole; faces just inches away under the shirt.
Yuna smirked. "You didn't have to Tidus," She said.
He smiled. "I wanted too, besides we can't have a soaking wet Yuna can we?"
Yuna giggled, keeping silent for a moment then leaning in to touch his face. "I love you," she said warmly.
Tidus' happiness fell, "I'm sorry I didn't say anything to you after we.." he trailed off, "This afternoon." He smiled.
Yuna blushed. "I..we-"
Tidus kissed her. Pulling back slowly his eyes locked onto hers. "I love you, and I love what we did. I didn't say anything before cause the dream I had kept me thinking," Tidus explained.
"Bahamut visited you didn't he?" Yuna asked.
His eyes widen. "Yuna I-"
Her eyes softened as she stared at him. She shook her head, as she fought the tears coming. "I-I don't know what to do Tidus.." She whispered, "If you're a dream, I don't know how I can carry on if you leave."
Tidus nodded as tears of his own also started falling. Suddently he forgot his plans to go to the temples, everything flew out of his mind. All was rested on Yuna who was crying, he couldn't fight it anymore. He had to let his pain out, he needed her to know. "I don't know what to do either Yuna, I thought this time I was back for good. I planned to start a family with you, get married, I want to be with you Yuna, I.."
Was Tidus crying? Yuna held back her tears as she watched her lover sob hopelessly. "Tidus," the name came out warmly from her lips; she brushed her fingers against his cheek. "You really want to spend the rest of your life with me if you get the chance too?" She watched as he cried hopelessly; she'd never seen him in this state before, last time on the ship his tears were just soft and gentle, but this time he was hiccupping and practically falling apart.
"I never did the right things in my life in Zanarkand Yuna and now when I get the chance too everything is falling apart," Tidus sobbed in front of her. His hands were at his face, hopelessly wiping away tears. Why was he breaking down in front of her? Wasn't he supposed to be the one who stays strong for both of them? It should be he, consoling Yuna as she cried. But this was different, Yuna was consoling him.
"Tidus," she called, taking his hand in hers. He settled and looked at her still sniffling and hiccupping. She wiped his tears away with her thumb, tracing her finger tip down his cheek and to his chin.
"I'm sorry," he said, lifting his hand to wipe his tears away fast. He managed a smile, "I should be the strong one, I should stay strong for the both of us," he choked out, fighting the tears that were coming again.
"Shh," She touched his lips, with her finger. She looked deep in his eyes.
He couldn't hold it back anymore; his face scrounged up as he fought the tears bursting through his eyes. Her eyes; just staring at them made him realize the pain he would cause if he left after these few days they spent happily together, thinking he was back for good.
She took his head in her hands and drew it to rest onto her forehead, staring into his eyes which were tearing. He shook his head against her, "I can't..I can't leave, not again," He cried against her forehead. His face scrunching up every so often as he tried to hold his tears back, but just simply couldn't.
"You're a cry baby Tidus, what woman would ever want to be with a cry baby?" Tidus remembered what his old man told him.
Finally he found his answer, "A woman who loves me is a woman who will watch me cry. The first time she sees me cry, she will do nothing but continue loving me. Yuna is that woman."
Tidus embraced Yuna so tightly, burying his head in her shoulder, sniffling here and there. His hopeless sobs concluded as he sniffed back his tears the last time, settling with a quiet sigh; eyes closed and thoughts fixed onto Yuna and her scent he had come to love so much. He took in his breaths slowly, remembering every bit of Yuna he could so he would never forget.
His plans of going to the temples started raiding his thoughts. I forgot, it seem like everything flew out of my mind when I saw Yuna crying. He smiled foolishly at himself. "Yuna," he whispered, now breaking the silence that surrounded them for almost 15 minutes.
She shifted her head into his chest and kissed it as if letting him know she was listening.
"I was suppose to ask you, but it seem to slip my mind when..when I started crying," he blushed. He didn't know what Yuna thought of him now since he broke down hopelessly in front of her.
She looked up at him, "I've never seen you cry like that before Tidus, but it doesn't matter," she ran her hand up and down his back to console him. "I still love you, that's all that matters, don't be afraid to cry in front of me, because I will always be there to make you smile again," she smiled warmly.
Tidus nodded and leaned in to kiss her forehead, he rested his cheek on her forehead before continuing. "I was thinking, maybe if we..if we travelled to each of the temples again, maybe we could..speak to the fayth somehow. I know they stopped dreaming but..it's worth a try, at least if I…" he paused. "At least if anything happened, we'll at least know that we tried."
Yuna nodded; Tidus' head moving against hers as she moved.
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"So what you're telling me is, that we're going on a journey again?" Rikku asked, raised brows; she stared from Tidus and Yuna, who were slightly nervous as they sat there, being stared at by everyone else.
Tidus nodded, shifting his gaze to Yuna who also nodded. "We want to find out the truth, if I am really a dream."
Wakka nodded, then scratched his chin. "And you want us to come ya?"
Yuna smiled and nodded. "We understand if you don't want too."
"We are taking the same journey we took when Yuna was on her pilgrimage," Tidus told them.
"Even Zanarkand?" Lulu asked.
Tidus nodded. "Even Zanarkand."
"We will come with you," She nodded.
"But Vidina?" Tidus asked.
"He'll come too," Lulu smiled, standing up; she made her way to the steps. "Where are you going Lu?" Wakka asked.
"I suppose we're leaving tomorrow?" Lulu asked the couple.
"If we can get a ride from uncle Cid," Yuna answered.
Lulu smirked and nodded, "I am going to pack."
Wakka raised his eyes. "Pack?"
"Well we are going aren't we?" Lulu asked.
"Yeah but Lu.." Wakka trailed off as he followed Lulu upstairs.
"E ruba drao ghuf fryd drao yna tuehk," Paine said in Al bhed. (I hope they know what they are doing)
"E's cina drao tu," Rikku replied. (I'm sure they do)
"fa tu," Yuna said. (We do)
"I was just telling Rikku to call her dad," Paine told Tidus.
Tidus smirked and nodded. "Sure you did," he replied as he stood up, walking towards the steps.
"We leave tomorrow, Rikku call your dad, let him know, tomorrow morning 7am sharp." Tidus instructed turning around to face Rikku.
Rikku nodded.
"Aag, Cu aynmo?" Rikku groaned. (Eek, So early?)
"Syga dryd y ped mydan," Yuna answered. (Make that a bit later).
"Tidus bnupypmo fuimth'd fyga ib demm 9." She smirked, standing up and walking over to where Tidus stood at the steps (Tidus probably wouldn't wake up till 9).
Tidus smirked; he shook his head at them. Little did they know that he understood everything they said.
"Goodnight," Tidus said, pulling Yuna upstairs with him.
can you imagine..over 3000 words..geez I write more for fanfiction than i do for my english essay. Anyway, school has ended for me for 2005..grade 10 is over! YAY! and also Sob..lol. Grade 11, ugh! the thought scares me..shivers...Anyway I'll update soon..in actual reality, I've already written chapter 8..and finishing chapter 9..hehehe..so no.. I won't forget about this story and suddenly stop and go onto something else..like what i've done to some of my stories.. I'm really trying to finish it before I start school next year (February) so hopefully I can. Hopefully..can't be screwing up grade 11 now..my parents will be P.O.ed..lol.
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