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Bella shimmered into her human form, something that now came as natural to her as her faerie form. She became accustomed to shed her wings when she entered the Cullen's home and found that the body that she now wore remembered the feeling of a house and other things man-made more than her wing bearing one.

It had been almost a month that she now spent with the Cullens and she found more happiness than when she was with her tribe. Bella knew that this was where she belonged.

"We found a lot today," Bella commented.

Jasper nodded but she could tell the smells of the certain plants they had gathered was not at all pleasing to him. She laughed. She was happy that the Cullens came with her on her gathering trips. Always one or two of them would join her. Today was Jasper's turn.

"Hope you don't plan on eating some of this," He said as they walked into the house.

She was going to make a smart reply when she heard arguing. The voices made her stop in her tracks. Vampires never raised their voices and when they did it was never a good thing. She handed her bag to Jasper, "Could you place these in the fridge for me, Jazz?" her voice sounded distant.

She stopped just outside the main area.

"How could you Edward?!" Alice screamed, "You are so selfish and overprotective. You destroyed our family!"

"Alice, what's your problem?! It's been fifty years! You don't think I regret it every moment of my existence?" Edward retorted. My heart stopped and my breathing became difficult.

"You-" Alice started.

I walked in the room and shouted over her, "Stop! Alice I told you that I don't want you fighting over me!"

Bella could see Alice's anger blazing in her eyes, but she nodded and left the room. Bella watched as she left the room and then turned to the one Cullen she wasn't sure she could face. "Hello."

He showed astonishment and joy, but Bella remained impassive. "Bella-I-how-"

Bella remained quiet for a moment, staring at the rain drops for a moment. She turned to Edward, staring at his disheveled appearance and hunched shoulders. She glanced at his dark eyes and bruise like shadows under his eyes. He reminded her of what she felt like when he first left, cold, empty, a shell. Had she grown up? She placed a hand on her still flat stomach; she had to grow up, but not for her own sake.

"It's been awhile, Cullen, since that day in the forest," Although Bella hated it, she remained cold and hard. She could not afford to run to his arms as if nothing happened until he knew the harm he had accomplished.

She saw him wince at her words and it took all her will to remain calm. "Bella, I had no idea. If you allow me to-" Edward attempted to say but Bella cut him off.

"Excuse me, Edward. I have somewhere to be." She ran out of the house, aware that he was following. Once out of sight from the others she brought her wings back into place. There was a shocked gasp from behind her but she took to the skies.

She knew where she wanted them to have this talk and it was not in the Cullen's house where everywhere could hear. It had to be somewhere that meant something to both of them. She stopped in their meadow.

She stood in the middle and concentrated on the rain hitting against her skin. She kicked off her shoes and placed her bare feet in the wet ground. Bella heard Edward pause at the meadows perimeter. She took a breath, "I never thought I would enjoy the rain in the forest, but it has become my home. When I see home and safety this place always pops into mind."

Bella turned to face him but was not prepared for what she saw. She saw a vampire who cursed himself each and every day. She saw a man feeling the slow agonizing pain of guilt. She saw Edward slowly burning from the inside. Her will wavered.

"Bella I cannot express the sorrow I feel over what I have done to you. Say the word and you will never hear from me again," his voice came out just as she remembered it, soft velvety except now filled with anguish.

His eyes were down on the ground and she moved towards him. In her faerie form she came to his chest, considerably shorter but he was hunched over to make up her lack of height. She laced a hand on his cheek. "I will never force someone away nor take myself away from someone." He flinched at the hint.

As he flinched he fell to his knees. She knelt in front of him, "Edward, I can never express the pain I felt when you left that day, for you were not only taking away yourself but my family, my future. That was bad enough but when I over came that hurdle I realized your true purpose for leaving." She chuckled softly without humor, "Protecting me. By your departure you ensured the worst pain no physical wound could compare. Changing into a faerie, a vampire bite, anything that would have been an effect of your presence would never compare to the effects of your absence."

He shook against her. Sobs, she realized. Pain laced her heart. "I'm so sorry Bella."

Bella picked up his face and looked straight in his eyes. "I did not allow Jasper to feel guilty for that night and I will not allow you, Edward Cullen, to blame yourself. My conscience demanded those words but please permit me to let my heart speak."

His brow furrowed and Bella almost smiled. "Every moment, every decision, I thought I was making for myself. I had made the assumption that I had pushed you away, completely and irrevocably. When I saw Emmett and Alice and Jasper and everyone, I realized that I can never push you from my mind. You, Edward, are my whole life and everything that happened to me was because no matter how hard I tried, I could not stop loving you."

"You deserve someone better," he said, his voice strained.

Bella grabbed her hand in his and gave a soft smile, "Let me make that decision, whether a success or a mistake."

Edward stood up and lifted Bella with him. He caressed her cheek, "You are too good," He whispered. He brought her close and kissed her, softly, gently. It was the kiss Bella had been wanting from him for fifty years. Happiness bubbled inside of her.

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