I know it's been forever...I was just trying to find the right song to inspire the next chapter. I think I figured it out. Credit goes to Jordin Sparks and Mrs. Meyer! Hope you like it. This one has a slight lemon :)

Every day Bella was getting a little better. It was a process that her family understood. She needed to grieve but she also needed to get back to normal. Edward had been dead now for six months and Halloween had just passed. In the time span, Renesme was sitting up by herself, Bella had turned 25, Edward's birthday had passed and Bella learned that Jake would be 24 on the 23rd of December.

Jake and Bella had gotten much closer. Jake hadn't been sent anywhere else and he honestly didn't expect to be for at least another year. Jake went to Bella's as soon as he got off duty every day. He took them to the zoo and out to dinner. Most people assumed they were a couple and if Jake was being completely honest with himself, he would love for that to happen.

It was true. Jake had fallen in love with the tragic Bella. He had framed the picture of them as children to give to her on her birthday; however, she wasn't exactly in the celebrating mood. Instead, he chose to hang on to it and to not reveal that they had been childhood playmates. He felt that he should hold onto that surprise for a better time.

Today was November 15th. Jake remembered this date in particular because before he had left for the Marine's he had to break up with his high school girlfriend, Leah Clearwater. November 15th had been their anniversary. Leah was beautiful. She was only a couple of inches shorter that he was with raven black hair and dark eyes. He just wasn't in love with her and he felt it was unfair to hold on to a relationship that he knew was not going to work out. She took the break up fairly well and to this day they were still close friends.

He was now heading over to Bella's. They were going to watch movies. Esme had taken Renesme for the day so it was grown up time. This meant a couple of beers and maybe just a glass of wine for for Bella. She didn't seem like someone who could hold their alcohol.

He pulled into her driveway, parked his truck, and got out. He was nervous. This was the first time he was going to hang out with Bella without Ness. He felt like a teenaged boy at prom all over again.

He knocked on her door. And she answered it very fast.

"Jake!" she said as she rushed to hug him.

He swept her up in a bear hug and he didn't want to let go. She smelled like strawberries. It had always been his favorite scent. And to be honest, she just smelt like home.

"Hey honey. How has your day been?"

"It's been quiet. Esme took Ness about two hours ago and Ness is having her first sleep over with Nana. I just hope everything goes alright. I think I might go into shock getting to sleep without waking up for once."

"I'm sure everything will be alright."

"Okay well come in! I made dinner and there is beer in the fridge. I decided to watch Star Trek!"

"You would. You're the only girl I know that doesn't want to watch a romantic movie."

"Yeah well…I don't do romance anymore."

"Well…where is the food?"

She laughed at this and had him follow her into the kitchen where they both sat down and enjoyed a meal of lasagna. Jake loved anytime Bella cooked. She was most in her element when she was in front of the stove. Plus, anything was better than what he ate when he was overseas.

After dinner, Jake grabbed a beer and Bella grabbed herself a glass of wine. They made their way to the couch and popped the DVD in.

After three beers, Jake was filling kind of buzzed. Bella was feeling tipsy herself. She had two glasses of wine. Within the first hour of the movie, they had gravitated towards each other and were now so close she was almost on his lap.

Bella, in her semi-drunken haze, placed her hand on Jake's leg. He hardened at the feel of it. He wanted her. He wanted her right there and then.

And he kissed her. She kissed him back with so much passion and energy that she was now on top of him.

Jake smoothly rolled them from the way too small couch to the ground where Bella was on top of him. Soon, she began to pull at his shirt and he managed to take it off, only breaking the kiss for a moment.

He ran his hands up and down her sides. He wanted to take her top off so badly but didn't want to cross a dangerous line. They were both under the influence, but he knew that they said drunken words were sober thoughts. Did that mean that drunken actions were sober wishes?

"To hell with it," he thought as he slid his hand under her shirt and barely touched her right breast. She moaned at the light contact and that fueled him to continue.

He softly started to roll it around in his hand. His left hand was holding her to him. She arched at his caresses and slowly began to kiss down his neck to his collar bone. He decided it was time to lose her shirt altogether. He took it off and threw it across the room.

He felt like a teen discovering his first porn again. She was amazing. She was flushed from her arousal. He wanted to touch her, to taste her, to make her his. And it seemed she wanted the same.

He undid her bra and she flung it across the room. In one swift movement, he had one of her nipples in his mouth. He was rolling his tongue over it biting lightly. She was definitely liking it. She was moaning and running her hands threw his crew cut. He let go of her nipple and brought her mouth back to his. He reached for her pants and that's when a trigger seemed to go off in Bella's head. She jumped up from the ground with the craziest look on her face.

"Oh my gosh! Jake we can't do this. I can't do this. It's too much," she said before she began to cry.

This wasn't the exact reaction he had hoped for. He for sure had never made a girl cry during foreplay. It was a new for him.

"Bella…I'm sorry. I just…I have these feelings for you," he said as he took her into his arms.

She sobbed into his shoulder for a good five minutes before replying, "I know. I feel it too. It's too soon."

"I'm very patient, Bella. I'll wait for you."

"I don't know if I'll ever be ready. I'm broken."

"For now. I'll fix you. We just have to take it one step at a time."

She nodded her head and he let her go so she could get dressed.

Life just got a bit more interesting.

I hope y'all liked it! Review please? Thanks!