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At the bar they all ordered tequila shots.

"What do we toast to?" John asked. Once he reached the bar, he didn't feel like drinking, so he'd decided to stand back and enjoy the company if nothing else. It wasn't fun being alone ALL the time.

"A toast?" Cragen raised his glass. "To ALL members of my team, who work hard, who love what they do, who understand the line of work there in and still don't take law into their own hands despite the amount of perps we let back out on the street…"

Elliot raised his glass. "To friends, who have got your back," he looked over at Olivia then who had tears in her eyes. He moved closer to her and with a free hand draped it gently around her shoulder. She leaned into him, thankful for the comfort.

Olivia raised her glass next to Elliot's. "To men who are brave and heroic,"

"To hell with it," Casey said raising her glass high. "To those damn conspiracy theories the man had that drove us all nuts."

"Yeah," Alex smiled. "But what we wouldn't give to hear another one."

Wong nodded, along with Warner.

"Funny wise-ass ain't ya!" John mocked shaking his head. He couldn't believe the disrespect they were showing for a man who had been in their precinct. It didn't matter that he wasn't their friend, or hadn't been a part of their tight-knit group, it mattered that he fought for the same team, for the same purpose.

"You wanna say something Fin?" Cragen asked.

"He has more sense than that," John smirked.

He thought for a moment. "He was a good man. He was my best mate, you know, he always had my back. I didn't always believe his bull crap, but I respected him for it. There's nothin' that boy wasn't good at when it came to his job… except his heart was too big for one person," he finished.

"WHAT THE HELL?" John barked at his partner.

All glasses were raised. "TO JOHN MUNCH!"

John just about fell over at the sound of his name. Why the heck were they toasting about him… yes, he instantly concluded, this was the type of thing they all found funny.

"This is your version of a conspiracy theory, you want me to believe that I'm dead and so you've all planned this out, all of you have congregated together and made this into some STUPID joke," John was livid. "I have news for you all. YOU'RE IDIOTS. You aren't funny, and not to mention the disrespect you're showing to Mark."

"And to Mark…" Cragen raised his glass again, the rest of the team a moment behind.

"You think that's gonna make it better?" John snapped. "THINK AGAIN!"

Nobody said anything then. Silence prevailed, each of them stopping a moment to remember a joke, or a comment that had been made, each remembering in their own way.

"Someone give me a drink, I changed my mind…" nobody looked up. "GUYS!"

Still no response.

"Hel-lo!" he waved his hands frantically about, and nobody even batted an eyelid. "What the-"

And suddenly Sarah Logan was there.

"They can't hear you…" she said catching him by surprise.

He jumped back, momentarily stunned, not at seeing her, but at seeing her in a public place. The only time she had ever appeared to him was at night, alone in his bedroom, and away from the outside world.

"Sarah…" he breathed.

"Hello, John."

She stepped forward, and reached out her hand, gesturing for him to take it.

"Can I…" he asked stunned. She was a ghost, a figment of his imagination, she wasn't real, she wasn't of flesh and bone like he was, how could he possibility touch her.

"Go ahead," she urged gently.

He stretched his hand, and felt overwhelmed as his skin touched hers, his fingers entwined with hers. OH GOD IN HEAVEN, he wanted to scream. I CAN TOUCH HER.

A tear caressed his cheek. He pulled at her shirt with his free hand and eased her into his arms, holding her like he had only dreamt about, skin to skin, body to body, soul to soul. He smelt her hair, a faint scent of strawberries. His arms embraced her, and he knew that he wasn't ever going to let go of her, no matter what that meant. He had her in his arms now… he was content.

"John…" she said.

He pulled her at arm's length, but was fearful of breaking contact. "What are you doing here Sarah?"

"I came to take you with me…"

"Where?" he smiled.

All the pieces began to fit together, and he finally understood what had happened to him, why Sarah had come into his life and why his team mates talked of conspiracy theories. "I died… didn't I?"

She nodded softly. "Yes, John."

"Are you we going to Heaven, because I'm not sure I believe in-"

"It's not Heaven," she said. "But close enough."

"Where then?" he pressed.

She slipped her hand into his and led him out of the bar.

"You'll see… it's like PARADISE!"

THANK YOU IMMENSELY for taking the time to read this. I know it was sad, and that JOHN died BUT in all fairness, it was happy ending, because he got to be with SARAH! YAY! Okay… let me if you hated it? OR LOVED it, would be appreciated even more :)

Ps. CORNY and SAPPY is said by tootpanga1… we couldn't stop laughing BUT I still loved it. Do you agree!