Suguru woke up to an empty bed. He looked around him and panicked. "Shuichi!" he yelled jumping out of the bed. Suguru ran in the living room relieved to see Shuichi sitting down balancing a notebook on his knees humming to himself. Suguru smiled but then looked closer at Shuichi he no longer wore bright; eye hurting clothing but simple gray skinny jeans and a plaid shirt.
"Suguru?" Shuichi said
"hmm?" Suguru said
"I wanna know what happened" Shuichi said
"What do you mean?"
"Yuki he hurt me…I said something but what? What did I say? I remember some stuff but not a lot.."
"You will figure out yourself I don't know what happened I was not given details." Suguru said
"Oh ok." Shuichi hugged his note book to his chest.
"Shuichi what am I to you? It seems you just want Yuki am I just a replacement?" Suguru asked
Shuichi's eyes widen as he shook his head "No! I just wanna know!" Shuichi yelled
Suguru shook his head slowly and walked back in the room. Shuichi got up and headed back there. He put his hand on the door as he was about to slide it open he dropped his hand, walked back in the living room, slipped on his shoes and grabbed his coat. As Shuichi walked around in Tokyo he saw how slow the day was and was glad since he didn't have on a disguise. Shuichi turned around the corner and there he was.
"Yuki.." Shuichi whispered
Yuki turned around and raised an eyebrow at him then let his eyes roam over Shuichi's body.
"My you clean up nicely" Yuki said walking away
Shuichi stared at his back before running away. He found himself at the park where he met Yuki. He sat on the swing singing to himself. Later the day Shuichi went back to Suguru's apartment. Suguru was sitting on the couch watching the door and when Shuichi entered relief flooded Suguru's eyes. Suguru got up and walked in his room. Shuichi sighed and sat down on the couch. Suguru got in the shower and when he got out he heard singing. He walked into the living room where Shuichi was sitting on the floor singing;
'Don't
hang up.
Can
we talk?
So
confused
It's
like im lost.
What
went wrong?
what
made you go?
Don't
pretend you don't know
This
is me
Im
unchangeable'
Suguru sighed and walked back in the bathroom to brush his teeth. 'Did he ever love me?' Suguru thought
When
did we
Fall
apart?
Or
did you lie
From
the start?
When
you said
Its
only you
I
was blind
Such
a fool
Thinking
we
Were
unbreakableSuguru
went in his room and laid down on the bed Shuichi's voice echoed
through the apartment.
'It
was you and me against the world
And
you promised me forever more
Was
it something that I said?
was
it something that I did?
Cuz
I gotta know
What
made me unbeautiful.Ive
been told
Whats
done is done
To
let it go
And
carry on
And
deep inside
I
know that's true
Im
stuck in time
Im
stuck on you
We
were still untouchable'
'Will he even say good bye when he leaves me to go back to Yuki-san'
't
was you and me against the world
And
you promised me forever more.
Was
it something that I said?
Was
it something that I did?
Cuz
I gotta know
What
made me unbeautifulWake
up, wake up, wake up
Cuz
im only dreaming
Get
out, get out, get out
Get
out of my head nowBecause
we're much better
All
together
Can't
let go.''Why
did I allow my self to be so vulnerable with him? Why did I allow
myself to get hurt.'
't
was you and me against the world
And
you promised me forever more
Was
it something that I said?
Was
it something that I did?
Cuz
I gotta know
What
made me unbeautifulIt
was you and me against the world
And
you promised me forever more
Was
it something that I said?
Was
it something that I did?
Cuz
I gotta know
What
made me unbeautiful''I
can't let him go but my own insecurities will eat me alive if I
don't' Tears rolled down Suguru's cheeks as he pulled the
blanket over his head.
'Make me unbeatiful'
A/N: Im so sorry it took so long to update I was sick D: anyway the song is Unbeautiful by Lesley Roy it's a beautiful song and it has a lot of truth in it. I know I said this wasn't gonna be a Suguru Shuichi story but its turning out to be one so um ya I'll update soon thanks for reading!
