Karen woke up first, she slid underneath Grace's arm and she looked up and realized neither of them had moved since they had fallen asleep, she didn't want Grace to see her with no makeup on so she ran to the bathroom and smudged some eyeliner, some pale lipstick and mascara on then entered the kitchen, she tried to be as quiet as possible, she wanted Grace to remain sleeping for awhile, she looked so peaceful. Karen poured herself a glass of water and grabbed her purse of the dining room table and took a bottle of pills out of it, she hated taking her pills, most people thought her pills were so she could get high, that they were uppers, downers, hallucinogens, and a lot of them were, but these, these were her heart pills. Karen had a bad heart, and she had since she was young according to the doctors and she had to take these heart medications, frequently. She didn't like people feeling sorry for her, so she just let them think she was a druggy, she was used to being called that anyways so it didn't really bother her.
She started up the coffee maker hoping it would be ready and nice and warm for Grace when she got up. She threw some toast in the toaster and lit a cigarette while she waited for it to pop. Her smoking was another thing that she hated but it also enslaved her, she just had an addictive personality, always had. She looked around in the apartment, it was so empty, and quiet. For the first time, she felt like she wasn't just a friend visiting at the house but she was welcome there anytime and like it was her home away from home. She loved this feeling, usually when she woke up at her various partner's homes in the morning, she was hid in the closet so the persons wife wouldn't find her, or she scampered off because she had no idea how she ended up there, she liked this feeling, security, stability…love? Her toast popped and she jumped slightly, dropping ashes on her foot, "Shit" she yelled at a whisper in pain. She brushed them off with her other foot and held it momentarily, then she took the toast out and threw it on a plate and put chunky peanut butter on it just the way she liked it. She walked into the other room and turned on the television but put it so quiet she couldn't even hear it, she didn't mind, she wasn't really watching it anyways, she was dreaming. Dreaming about Grace, dreaming about her touch, her words, her scent, the way she smiled. It seemed all she did was dream lately, sometimes her dreams became so vivid it seemed real, and she didn't mind she loved escaping reality, but then when she was with Grace and it was actually real, that's when she didn't believe it was happening, she believed her dreams but she hardly believed reality, because she never imagined she'd be lucky enough to have Grace, Grace was perfection and she was a wreck but for some reason Grace had her now, and she had this distant thought that Grace would never let go, maybe it was just her usual sense of false security but it felt different this time, it felt real.
Karen felt herself smiling but then sensed she was being watched so she quickly wiped it off and looked up from her last bite of toast she held in her cold hands. Grace was standing there smiling at her, "morning Karen," she said while yawning. "Hi honey, did you sleep well?" Grace stretched her arms and then put her forehead to her knees then yawned again even louder then popped back up, flipping her hair behind her head. "Ooo you made coffee?" she asked. Karen smiled, very pleased of herself that she did it right. See! She could be a good girlfriend if she tried, that's what they were now, a couple, Karen was Grace's girlfriend and Karen was hers, it was never spoken of or agreed on verbally but they both knew now, that was it, and if the country permitted them, they'd elope because they knew that nothing in the world could break what they had, it was just obvious. Grace poured herself a glass of coffee and took a huge sip of it then poured Karen some and brought it to her. Grace sat next to Karen on the couch, but they didn't touch, they just sat as normal friends did although Grace did entangle her feet with Karen's little feet. "God Karen your hands are freezing" she said as she handed her the cup of coffee, Karen took a sip then set it down, "Here" said Grace, she took Karen's hands and placed them between her hands and rubbed back and forth, Karen gazed into Grace's eyes but Grace focused intently on warming up Karen, because when one was in any condition below perfect, the other wouldn't rest until they were back to being completely satisfied, and that's why Karen never told Grace her constant pain and Grace never told Karen hers because they both knew it would distress the other causing them to have more stress and their extreme passion for each other wouldn't allow that. Subconsciously Grace knew Karen wasn't a happy person, that's why she always held her so gently, and even though she knew Karen liked it rough, she liked to be knocked around a little bit, Grace was so gentle, she took her in her arms with care, as if she was holding an infant, Karen wasn't an infant, but she was an angel, especially when she slept. Grace didn't sleep much that night, she stayed up for most of it just looking at Karen sleep, thinking, but surprisingly she had never felt more rested.
Grace Kissed Karen's hands and then set them back down, feeling she had done all she could to warm them. Then she slipped off her pink silky slippers and put them on Karen's feet but then tucked her own feet onto the couch, they kept their distance from one another but they had never felt closer, and they watched television for their first morning of the rest of their lives together, neither of them could tell you what they were watching because neither of them were watching, they were dreaming….
OKAY, NOT ONE OF MY NICE DIRTY CHAPTERS, BUT I WAS TRYING TO CAPTURE THE INTENSITY THEY FELT FOR EACH OTHER AND HOW EMOTIONALLY VALIDATED THEY ARE TOGETHER, IT'S JUST THE THOUGHTS RUNNING THROUGH THEIR HEADS. JUST A LITTLE INSIGHT ON HOW, SENTIMENTAL GRACE IS, AND HOW SWEET AND THOUGHTFUL KAREN TRIES TO BE TO GRACE, EVEN THOUGH SHE'D NEVER BEEN THAT WAY TO ANYONE BEFORE.
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