After All
Disclaimer: Alex and Addison…still not mine. I'm just borrowing them. I promise to return them when I'm done, and I'll try not to get them too dirty. Of course Alex is already a bit of a dirty boy, not much I can do about that.
Chapter 7 – Little Wonders
The two sat in silence for a moment before Addison spoke up again. "Alex? Are you still there?"
"Oh! Yeah, I'm here, just…thinking." He sighed deeply. "Can't you just tell me the results?"
"No!"
"Oh, come on, why not?" Alex whined.
Addison rolled her eyes, even though she knew Alex couldn't see. "Because the test isn't done yet. Besides, I want your answer before I tell you the results." She took a deep breath and let it out slowly before continuing. "I…well…OK, Derek…he stayed with me out of a sense of obligation. He didn't love me anymore. He didn't want to be with me anymore. He felt like he had to. I just…I don't want it to be like that with you. I want you to stay because you love me and want to raise a family with me. It's my fault we're in this mess here…"
"It's not your fault. I should have used a condom." Alex interrupted.
"No, it is. Naomi told me I couldn't get pregnant, but in all my years as an OB/GYN I've seen enough 'surprises,' or 'miracles' or whatever you want to call them to know that getting pregnant was still a possibility. I'm the one that has to worry about getting pregnant; I should have known there was still a chance and insisted on using birth control, OK? It's my fault. I screwed up, and I'm willing to take full responsibility for whatever happens. If you think you want kids, great. But if you don't, I'm giving you an out. I don't want you to feel like I'm dragging you into something you're not ready for, something you don't want right now…something you might never want. So before I tell you what's going on, I want to know you're sure it's what you really want."
Alex barely waited for Addison to finish speaking before he answered. "I'm sure." His voice was steady and, surprisingly, he'd never felt so sure of anything in his entire life. "I don't know anything about kids. I don't have a clue how to raise them. I'm…I'm not ready to be a father, but I can get ready. I'll figure it out. I want to figure it out…as long as you're the woman I'm figuring it out with. We can do this together."
Addison flung the door open, causing Alex, who was still leaning against the other side of it, to fall flat on his back. "You're really sure?"
"I'm really, really sure," Alex said as he propped himself up on his elbows and watched Addison intently as she crossed to room to the counter where the test was sitting. She took a few shaky breaths before she picked it up and turned to Alex with tears threatening to fall from her blue-gray eyes.
"Good…because…I'm pregnant!" she shrieked before running to Alex and throwing her arms around his neck. "I'm pregnant! I'm gonna have a baby!"
Alex wrapped his arms tightly around Addison's waist and buried his face in her hair. "We're gonna have a baby," he whispered.
Addison pulled back a little, tears streaming down her cheeks, and giggled when she saw that Alex's eyes were misty as well. "I love you, Alex Karev."
"I love you, too…so, now what? Should we go celebrate?"
"How about we just go back to bed and order room service in a while." Alex nodded in agreement so Addison kicked her shoes off, left her jeans in a pile on the floor and, not bothering to put her pajamas back on, crawled under the covers.
Alex quickly joined Addison in bed. He slipped his hand under her t-shirt and rested it gently on her still-flat belly. "You know, ever since I left L.A. I've been thinking about us, and I had a feeling we'd end up with a couple of kids somewhere down the line."
"Really?" Addison started tearing up again as she gazed into her boyfriend's eyes.
Alex nodded. "This isn't how I planned it, and I definitely didn't think it would happen this soon, but I know how much you wanted a child so I just figured we'd adopt one…or two. Maybe three. But we should probably just wait and see how it goes with the first one before we get all crazy."
"Yeah, let's just take it one step at a time," Addison laughed and kissed Alex. "I knew ever since Naomi told me I was infertile that I'd adopt, or get a surrogate, or do whatever I had to in order to have a child…but I figured I'd be doing it alone. I like it this way a lot better."
Alex kissed Addison back. "Yeah, I like it this way too. Don't get me wrong, one part of me is scared to death. But the other part of me…I'll never forget how I feel right now. It just feels like this is how it was meant to be. It feels so right. I know I have a lot to learn before this little bambino comes along, but I can do it. With you by my side, I know I can, and I can't wait."
Addison shook her head in amazement. "You never fail to amaze me, you know that?"
"Yeah, well, I'm a pretty amazing guy," Alex said with mock smugness. "And you," he paused to kiss Addison again, "and you," he pulled Addison's shirt up and kissed her belly, "are very lucky to have me."
"Yeah, you and your enormous ego."
"Whatever. You love me and my enormous ego. Of course, I'm pretty sure what you really love is my enormous…"
"Alex! You can't talk like that in front on the baby!" Addison elbowed Alex in the ribs and tried to stifle a laugh.
"What? He can't hear me! Besides, I was going to say heart. You love my enormous heart." Alex grinned, proud of his cover-up.
"Yeah, heart my ass. You're a pig." Addison playfully slapped Alex upside the head. "And for the record, it's a girl."
"OK, little miss 'I'm the foremost neonatal specialist in the county,' you do get that you don't get to choose, right?"
"Oh, honey, do you know who I am? I'm Addison Forbes Montgomery. What Addison Forbes Montgomery wants, Addison Forbes Montgomery gets. Just one of many things you have to learn, my good man." Addison patted Alex on the cheek before turning on her side and closing her eyes.
"Well, maybe you haven't noticed, but I'm pretty good at getting what I want too." Pulling Addison close, Alex closed his eyes and they drifted off to sleep together.
OK, I know it was pretty short, but if I'm completely honest (and a little bit conceited) I must say that there's some great stuff in that little chapter. A bit serious, a bit funny, a bit of pure Addisex fluff. What more can you ask for? I really don't know, so you'll have to tell me. If you have any ideas you'd like me to work into the story give me your wish list and I'll see what I can do. But this thing seems to be coming together pretty quickly so do it fast or you'll miss your chance to have a say in how things end up.
"Little Wonders"
Let it go,
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The hardest part is over
Let it in,
Let your clarity define you
In the end
We will only just remember how it feels
Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain
Let it slide,
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine
Until you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by,
It's the heart that really matters in the end
Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders,
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours,
These small hours still remain
All of my regret
Will wash away some how
But i can not forget
The way i feel right now
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away but these small hours
These small hours, still remain,
Still remain
These little wonders
These twists & turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little wonders still remain