Set after Season 12, Episode 5 "Wet"
The main characters of Law and Order SVU belong to Dick Wolf and NBC Universal. This is meant for entertainment, not profit.* Pink Glitter in the Air © EMI BLACKWOOD MUSIC INC.; PINK INSIDE PUBLISHING
Thanks to all who read my previous story Stepping Time. This is a new A/O story and there will not be an OFC love interest coming between Alex and Olivia, however there will be some drama, angst and obstacles as they trudge the road to happy destiny.
I hope you enjoy, and I welcome feedback. Thanks for reading and the reviews so far! Much appreciated!
"Talk, Ask, Listen" Chapter 7
"58 minutes," Olivia smiled as she slid into the booth across from Alex at Dante's.
"Feel better?" Alex smiled. "I ordered you some coffee."
"Thanks. Yes, I feel better and think I might look a 'lil better too," Olivia replied as the waitress placed a cup of coffee in front of her.
"Do you ladies know what you want?" the waitress asked. Olivia looked at Alex waiting for her to answer.
"Do you know what you want?" Alex asked running a heeled foot alongside Olivia's lower leg.
"Yes I do," Olivia said huskily locking eyes with Alex. She turned her head to the waitress and smiled. "I'll have the buffet please."
"Same for me," Alex smiled.
They both ate quickly, Olivia going back for seconds as Alex drank another cup of coffee.
"What are you thinking about?" Alex asked as they waited for the waitress to bring their check.
"The words to the song playing…" Olivia started.
"Instrumental version of Glitter in the Air for restaurants and elevators," Alex smirked. "I'm sure Pink get royalties regardless, but it is definitely better with her voice and the lyrics."
Olivia sighed and ran a nervous hand through her hair drawing Alex's attention to her change in body language.
"When I left your apartment…yes I wanted to shower and put on some fresh clothes…but I needed to think," Olivia said softly.
"And decide if you were going to come," Alex replied reaching across the table and squeezing Olivia's hand.
"And this song came on the radio when I was driving home…and hell I have it on iPOD, my iPhone on CD, on my laptop…and I cried a little…partly because I was happy because I had pretty much given up on anything other than…well the way it has been," Olivia stammered. "And partly because I have so many unanswered questions…and last night despite all the unexpected stuff…well it was wonderful."
"I agree. It was wonderful…and it can continue to be," Alex smiled warmly, squeezing Olivia's hand tighter.
"But when I woke up this morning, the second time, and you weren't in the bed…I was afraid when I saw you in the kitchen that you were going to say what happened, what almost happened was a mistake," Olivia replied, her eyes trained on their entwined fingers.
"But I didn't and it certainly wasn't to me…but I had the same fears, afraid you might have told me it was for you," Alex said evenly. "And then I was afraid you were going to cancel on meeting me here after you left my apartment."
"And if I had?"
"I would have come here, bought some breakfast sandwiches and then gone to your apartment to talk to you," Alex said.
"You know it tore me up when you had to go into witness protection…and I blamed myself for what happened…and I thought that once I found out you had been out for a year and you hadn't contacted me that you…maybe blamed me a little…that was the only thing that made any sense to me why you wouldn't have at least let me know you were out…"
"Liv, look at me please," Alex said softly, a tear streaming down her cheek. "It was Connors who took me away…there was nothing you could have done to prevent that…and after I stopped feeling sorry for myself, which didn't happen for quite some time…I realized how lucky I was to be alive at all. He was a highly skilled and trained assassin…but never, never did I blame you… and I am so sorry, so sorry that you ever felt that way."
"Then why, then why Alex," Liv started almost angrily. "Why did you not contact me for three years after…"
"Because I was afraid, I was a mess," Alex interrupted. "And as I started to tell you last night I went to see my Uncle Ed and Aunt Jean and I had been the niece they had never worried about…but after that weekend they would call me incessantly checking on me and Aunt Jean just showed up at my apartment twice all the way from Massachusetts without any notice…and I thought well I must be really fucked up…"
Alex leaned back in the booth and dug a credit card out of her purse, placing it over the check.
"Can we talk about this at my apartment…or yours?" Alex asked softly.
"Yours is much closer…and nicer," Olivia said as the waitress approached and took the credit card and bill.
"I did walk here in about six minutes," Alex smirked.
#-#
They walked in silence to Olivia's car and as Olivia neared Alex's apartment Alex finally spoke.
"Liv, after I was shot I was taking Vicodin for quite a while for pain, taking it as prescribed…then I had a second surgery on my shoulder because I kept having pain and limited mobility. I had that second surgery after the Connors trial and the recovery was worse than when I was shot…and I was in so much pain," Alex looked down at the black floor mat. "I started self-medicating. Vicodin and sleeping pills. One of my friends, Katie, she found me unconscious on my couch one day when we were supposed to be meeting for lunch. I had unintentionally overdosed. I hadn't been eating or sleeping. I was just a mess."
"So what happened?" Olivia asked softly, placing her right hand over Alex's forearm as she continued to drive.
"It scared the shit out of me. I was in Vermont then, and Katie was a State Trooper and a recovering alcoholic with ten years sobriety," Alex said as they pulled up in front of her apartment. Alex waited until they were in the elevator before continuing.
"I finally got honest," Alex said. "I wasn't just using the pills and to try and numb physical pain…so when I came home from the hospital we dumped all the Vicodin and all the sleeping pills and Katie referred me to an orthopedic surgeon she had used…and long story short there I had a third surgery which corrected nerve issues."
"So you just kicked it like that…made your mind up and that was it with the pills?" Olivia asked somewhat skeptically.
"I did then, only took Ibuprofen for pain before and after the third surgery," Alex said unlocking the apartment door. "But I also told Katie who I really was. I figured between being a pretty good friend already, a cop and being in AA I could confide in her."
"And?"
"She was great," Alex said softly, wiping an emerging tear.
"Why are you so sad then?" Olivia whispered, stroking Alex's shoulder.
"Just a few weeks after I had gone to see my aunt and uncle, Katie's girlfriend called me…Katie relapsed," Alex said choking on the words and her near sobs. "And then she killed herself with her own weapon."
Olivia pulled Alex into her arms, stroking her hair and placing soft, soothing kisses on her head. "You really cared for her," Olivia whispered.
Alex pulled her head from Olivia's shoulder and looked into her deep brown eyes. "I did care for her a lot, but I couldn't give her what she wanted, because when I told her about who I really was, I also told her about you…that I was in love with you."
Alex leaned forward and placed a chaste kiss on Olivia's forehead. She pulled away from Olivia's embrace and smiled slightly.
"While you're speechless, even though I really, really want to kiss you, I am going to get a Kleenex."
Alex walked towards her bathroom. "Anytime you want to say something detective," Alex called a bit nervously.
"You choose your words very carefully counselor," Olivia replied. "So I am curious if your phrasing saying was in love with…"
Alex picked up a remote and pressed a few buttons and the first few notes of Glitter in the Air sounded through Bose speakers around the living room. "I know all the words too," Alex smiled walking towards Olivia. "Dance with me."
Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Close your eyes and trust it, just trust it
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just don't care?
"I told Katie," Alex whispered as they danced, "that I was in love with you and I always would be."
It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg, the sun before the burn
The thunder before lightning, the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?
"Alex," Olivia sighed heavily. "I want you. I've wanted you so long, but…" Alex pressed her lips hungrily to Olivia's as she worked the buttons on her own blouse, sliding Olivia's hand over exposed skin, over a silk covered hardened nipple to her heart.
Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
Your whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?
"I know I have to earn your trust," Alex whispered after pulling from the kiss slightly. "But I am not going to run away again. You have my heart. You have me if you want me…I love you Liv."
Olivia quickly pulled the black V-neck sweater she was wearing over her head, slid her arms from the sleeves and tossed the garment on the couch. She placed her hands on Alex's shoulders guiding the sleeves of the blouse down Alex's arms. Alex traced her bottom lip with the tip of her tongue, her blue eyes fully open and focused on Olivia's black lace covered breasts.
"God you are beautiful," Alex moaned. Olivia pulled Alex close causing both to gasp when their lightly covered breasts pressed together.
It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table, the walk before the run
The breath before the kiss and the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?
Olivia kissed from Alex's collarbone up her shoulder to her neck, sucking and biting at her pulse point. "I love you too Alex," she whispered, as she nipped at the blonde's earlobe, her hands stroking Alex's back and unhooking her bra. Alex guided Olivia's mouth back to hers before quickly dispensing of the brunette's black lace bra.
La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la
There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, calling me sugar
You called me sugar
Alex trailed kisses from Olivia's lips, across her jawline and down her neck, her hands undoing Olivia's belt and a leg pushing between her thighs.
"Jesus Alex," Olivia moaned, pushing her center down harder on Alex's thigh.
"I've imagined making love to you so many times to this song, kissing you everywhere, touching you and tasting you," Alex whispered huskily, sliding her hands under the now unbuttoned and unzipped jeans and cupping Olivia's ass. "Mmmm thong," Alex purred.
Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself
Will it ever get better than tonight? Tonight
"Alex," Olivia moaned, her breathing rapid as Alex took an erect nipple between her lips, sucking, licking and then biting lightly. "Alex, take me…bedroom please."
Alex pulled Olivia's hand gently as she padded towards the bedroom, releasing Olivia's hand and discarding her own jeans and panties as they neared the bed. Olivia licked her lips as she took in Alex's long, svelte frame fully revealed to her.
"Um," Alex smiled, "You still have your jeans and thong on…totally not acceptable." Olivia slid her pants and thong down toned and muscled legs, stepping out of them as Alex approached and guided her onto the bed.
Alex hovered above her momentarily before pressing their naked bodies together for the first time. She slid her mouth down the detective's jaw line and down her neck, kissing and teasing with her tongue. Olivia arched her hips and ran her hands across Alex's ass begging for harder and deeper contact to her throbbing, soaked core.
Alex pushed her thigh harder against Olivia's sex, her own coated center teasing lightly over Olivia's thigh.
"Tell me what you want first baby," Alex breathed, nipping at Olivia's pulse point.
"I need you inside me," Olivia gasped.
"Mmmm, I like that" Alex said as she lowered her mouth further and teased Olivia's right nipple with her tongue. "I want to be inside you."
"Oh God, Alex," Olivia gasped.
Alex pushed hard into her again with her thigh and then slid her right hand up the detective's thigh and then stroked three fingers along her folds. She sucked the hardened nipple into her mouth swiping it with her tongue. As Olivia arched her hips into her she slid two fingers inside her. Olivia shuddered and rocked with Alex's fingers.
"Harder," Olivia pleaded and Alex complied sinking a third finger inside and teasing her clit with her thumb.
"You feel so good," Alex moaned as she increased the depth of her thrusts and the pace and intensity of her thumb strokes on and around the nub of bundled nerves.
"God Alex, so close, so close," Olivia mumbled.
Alex curled her fingers inside Olivia's wall and slid her soaked center deeper and faster against Olivia's thigh. "I'm going to come with you baby. I want our first one to be together," she sighed, crashing her lips to Olivia's, her tongue teasing the tip of Olivia's, mimicking the strokes of her thumb on Olivia's clit.
Olivia dug her trimmed nails into Alex's back and as Alex felt the detective's inner walls constrict around her fingers she pushed harder into her curling her fingers once more. They rode out the orgasmic waves that released throughout their bodies before collapsing next to each other into the bed.
"You're incredible," Olivia said gazing into Alex's eyes.
"So are you," Alex smiled. "But that was only round one."