Summary: Bonnie tries to manage her feelings at Luka's betrayal.

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters.

A/N: I think the next part might be the final part. I think I can cover all the things I want to in the next chapter to get Bonnie to the emotional point she was in Daddy Issues.

Part 4

Bonnie woke up the next day to find that her cheeks were wet. She had cried in her sleep. She rolled onto her back, hugging one of her extra satin-covered pillows tightly to her chest and stared at the ceiling.

Luka had lied. He'd lied about everything. Her mouth stretched of its own accord as tears gathered in her dull eyes. She had been completely wrong about him. He apparently not only knew more than her about the craft, but he knew more about her life than he had been letting on.

After crying by the door yesterday afternoon, she had sat there, immobile for hours. It wasn't as she had thought. After months of heartbreak, hurt, and disappointment, something good had not happened to her. She had not gained a friend. Like everyone she's been introduced to in this messed up world that she's inherited, Luka had an agenda. And he had been using her to accomplish it. She couldn't help trying to remember every interaction they had had. It was hard for her to reconcile the guy who apparently had a secret plan with the guy who had given her advice about her powers.

He had pretended he didn't know what the moonstone was. She had thought it so nice and sweet of him to give her all of this advice and accept that she could not tell him why she needed it. He had been mad at her for channeling him without his permission. Bonnie scoffed at how she had taken that at face value. She had gone to his apartment thinking that he would be downright livid with her.

She let the pillow fall away from her and unto the floor and slowly sat up. Her whole body felt incredibly heavy. She scooted back to rest her back on the headboard. Luka had not been mad at her because he had known he had the upper hand. She gathered her legs under her chin cried again. The disappointment was overpowering. She had completely let her guard down, grateful that her kind had moved in town. After meeting Lucy, she couldn't have thought up a better stroke of luck. There's no such thing as luck in this world. She had learned that when Caroline had been turned into a vampire after having been healed with Damon's blood. There is no such thing as luck or coincidence. Luka had been so new and so welcomed that she had forgotten this. And now here she was.

She was hurt and disappointed again. She did not know why this kept happening to her or how much more she could endure.

/

Elena blindly shoved what she needed in her purse and grabbed her car keys before power-walking out of her room. She almost ran into Jeremy who was just coming up the stairs.

"Whoa!" he exclaimed, holding onto the banister so he wouldn't lose his balance.

Elena gasped. "Oh my God, I'm so sorry Jer." She made to continue down the stairs.

"Where are you heading off to in such a hurry? And this early in the morning?"

"It's Bonnie," she said.

Jeremy instantly became alert at the troubled look etched on Elena's face. "What happened?"

"I'm not sure," she said as she threw a glance at the upstairs hallway, mindful that John might be awake. "Something happened yesterday, and she threw me out of the house. I stood outside and listened to her cry and cry, and…it was horrible, and I need to go talk to her, make sure she's okay."

Jeremy's heart had picked up speed. He was imagining the worst. "What happened?"

Elena fidgeted before whispering, "I can't say." With her eyes, she directed Jeremy's attention to the hallway.

He immediately knew that Bonnie had done something involving magic. He hoped to God, she had not attempted another spell. As Elena continued on her way out of the house, Jeremy went to his room. He grabbed his cell phone and scrolled to Bonnie's number. His thumb was on 'dial' when he suddenly thought twice about his decision. He wanted to hear from Bonnie what had happened because he had doubts she would tell Elena, especially if this involved her strength. He paced his room as he tried to make a decision. Elena had not said anything about Bonnie's physical well-being. He is sure his sister would've mentioned if her best friend had been bleeding. She had said that Bonnie had kicked her out. Maybe it was to hide the fact that she had been about to get a nosebleed? With a heavy sigh, he cleared the impending call. He wanted Elena to come back soon. He needed to check on Bonnie.

/

Elena had just opened her car door when Caroline drove up. Sighing at yet another delay, she waited for her to get out of her car.

"Guess what?" Caroline asked cheerfully by way of greeting.

"What?" Elena asked, hoping this wouldn't be long.

"Bonnie's ignoring me again," Caroline said, her happy face still on even though she was clearly pissed.

"What?"

"I called her all night, and she never picked up her phone. Not once. I texted her and texted again this morning, and still nothing. She's ignoring me!"

Elena shook her head. She hoped Caroline had not said anything mean to Bonnie in any of those texts. "Caroline, you don't understand."

"You know I thought we'd been getting somewhere," she continued. "I thought we were gonna by okay and that she was coming around, but apparently not."

Elena felt bad at the hurt she heard in Caroline's voice despite her bravado.

"And you know what?" she continued. "I'm tired of it," she shrugged. "I'm sick of it. I want to talk to her; I want to tell her what happened with Tyler night before last, and I'm gonna make her face me," she said. She spun on her heels, her hair flying, and started marching back to her car.

"I don't think that's a good idea!" Elena quickly called after her.

"Oh, don't even try to get in the middle of this," Caroline said as she opened her car door. "Not if you're gonna stick up for her."

Elena hurried to her and said, "No Caroline, I promise Bonnie isn't mad at you. She's going through something."

Caroline stopped at that. "What something?" she asked suspiciously.

"I have no idea." She looked back at her house before she said, "I was with her yesterday, and she was trying to figure out who the witches are that Elijah's working with. She got a vision, and then…" she shook her head, her ponytail swinging. "She rushed me out, and…she was crying Care. For like five minutes, she just cried."

"I'm coming with you," Caroline declared.

/

When the knock on the front door came, Bonnie was still in her bed. When the knocking turned insistent, she knew it was Elena. When her phone lit up with Caroline's text, she knew there was no way she would be able to ignore them. She pulled herself out of bed and went downstairs.

By the time she got to the front door, Caroline was practically banging on the door. Bonnie opened it and stared at her.

"We were about to get the spare key," Caroline said automatically, but any further comments she had died in her throat when she took in Bonnie's appearance. Her eyes were puffy and red from crying, her face was long and sad, and her hair was a flattened mess.

Elena came back to the porch from looking for the key. "Oh my God. Bonnie," she said.

Bonnie shook her head, unable to speak, and Elena rushed into the house and threw her arms around her. Bonnie accepted her hug, limply putting her own arms around Elena. "I can't get in," she heard Caroline say. When Elena stepped away from her, Bonnie told Caroline to come in. Caroline was on her in a flash which pushed a laugh out of Bonnie. Caroline held her tight for seconds as Elena rubbed her back Bonnie felt her tears coming up again.

Fifteen minutes later, Caroline handed Bonnie her banana berry drink before taking her seat on the chair with her own. Elena came from the kitchen and sat next to Bonnie.

Elena asked, "What happened," breaking the fifteen-minute silence.

Bonnie sniffed. She was getting sick of tearing up. Her voice was scratchy when she answered while staring at her drink. "My friend Luka, he's the warlock working with Elijah. You were right," she croaked flatly.

Elena and Caroline shared a look before she moved closer to Bonnie, putting an arm around her.

"He lied to me," Bonnie continued. "He betrayed me. The whole thing, our friendship, it was all a ruse." She swallowed back the tears even as her voice broke. Her throat was raw. "The moonstone isn't destroyed," she continued. "I saw him give to his dad. I saw them laughing with Elijah."

"The moonstone isn't important," Caroline said. She set her drink on the table and took her place next to Bonnie. She was worried about the vacant look on her face. She took Bonnie's glass from her and grabbed her hand.

"She's right," Elena said. "We want to make sure you're okay."

"Okay?" Bonnie asked on a harsh laugh. "Yeah, I'm great," she said, anger seeping into her voice. "My friend played me for an idiot," she said and shot off the couch. Among the feeling of disappointment, hurt, and betrayal, embarrassment also brewed.

She walked on the other side of the table and faced her friends, saying with her hands on her hips, "I'm great. Just a little embarrassed. Embarrassed to have judged him so wrongly. Embarrassed to have been so taken by him. Embarrassed at having felt so freaking relieved that he'd moved here." She suddenly chuckled at herself, and Caroline and Elena had to avert their eyes. It was hard to take her beating herself up over this.

"I felt such a sense of belonging when I learned he was a warlock," Bonnie said with distaste, continuing her self-mocking. "Like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders because finally, after months without grams, here was someone whom I could talk to, who would know what I'm going through, who would know what the fuck I'm talking about, who'd be able to teach me about this stuff." She laughed again and longer this time, covering her face in the process.

"Bonnie, this isn't your fault," Elena said softly and passionately.

"Why not?" she asked, her face coming back up to pin Elena down. "I've been here before, guys. Guy whose only interested in me because he has some bigger plan in mind? Check: Ben. Feeling impossibly alone? Check: grams' death. Feeling like the rug has been pulled out under me and missing grams so much that I can't breathe?" she said, her voice altering due to her imminent tears, "Check: the night you became a vampire," she said to Caroline as her tears fell. "So you see?" she said with big, watery, green eyes, "I've been here before. Only this time it's allll rolled up into one person." Her throat hurt so much that she couldn't talk anymore. She inhaled shakily as a sob escaped.

Caroline hurried off the couch and hugged her. "I don't get it. Why can't you summon your grams? You said you couldn't while you were away at her funeral, but maybe you can now," she said hopefully.

"No, I can't," Bonnie said into her shoulder. "Luka said that a bunch of dead warlocks got together centuries ago to make it so that witches and warlocks wouldn't be able to summon their dead loved ones until they'd moved on."

"Luka's a liar," Elena said angrily from her place on the couch. Unshed tears spilled when she blinked. "You can't trust what he said."

"Yes I can," Bonnie said in an assured voice. She separated from Caroline so she could look at Elena. "The best way to gain's someone trust is to give them a little bit of truth, right?"

Elena lowered her eyes, realizing that she was right.

"Witches and warlocks used to be able to summon their dead loved ones, but we have a bond. We have a magical bond to our families, and these people used to be so sad and used to miss their families so much that they would keep them on earth. Not on purpose. It's just the way it was. The bond trapped the spirits on this plane. I can't summon grams. No one can as long as I'm missing her. Because with the way I'm feeling right now?" she said, raising her eyebrows at Elena, "I definitely believe that I would trap her. I wouldn't let her leave. I wouldn't be able to," she whispered.

Caroline shielded Bonnie in her hug again, and Elena left her seat to sandwich her from the back.