OKAY! HERE IT IS.
I devote this chapter toooo: bichito101,
Because she called my story God. ^-^
& I am not happy. Like all of you guessed my surprise, not cool kids!
ENJOY.

I snuggled further into my soft, thick bed sheets and a sigh escaped my lips as I inhaled the scent surrounding me and lingering in the air, the smell of Sasuke. I had made him sleep on the sofa for the fifth night in a row, it was going to take a lot more than today to make up for what he did, I had also made him get a sweat shirt and wear it all day so I could sleep in it. It smelt like him and that meant a smile was constantly plastered across my face, it was both annoying and amazing how easily Sasuke could make me happy. I couldn't sleep, I was terribly excited and worry about Sasuke being back in my life. It left me very vulnerable and all it would take was one pretty girl who offered to have Sasukes child and BAM! he could be gone forever.

Since he had said that's why we couldn't be together I had thought on the fact and come up with many options, but I only really liked one. Surrogate mothers, they were so easily done and we could find a surrogate mother with some of my traits and maybe, we could have another surrogate other with Sasukes traits to bear my child. I wouldn't want the child to be an only child when I was younger I had always wished for a family, but most of a brother or sister, of course I wanted a mum and dad but I wanted some one I could talk to and play with and have fun with. I hadn't spoke to Sasuke about it yet, he wasn't really big on talking about anything to do with him wanting a family. I had spoke to Ino about it though and she had looked into it all, she thought it was an amazing idea and there is all sorts of information about it and there's plenty of surrogate mothers out there, one of them had to have my traits and one had to have Sasukes.

Last night I dreamt Sakura came to my door, both Sasuke and I answered it, she then proceeded to tell us she was pregnant and it was Sasukes baby. I had turned to him and the pure expression of happiness on his face made my heart shatter. Everything in the dream sped up and suddenly I was stood alone in what seemed like my huge, empty apartment. I sat at the window as tears had trickled down my face and watched the seasons change. I never moved and Sasuke, Sakura and their beautiful children came and went through out the seasons. I watched them grow older and older, grow happier and happier, until one day I passed. The dream turned into an outer body experience and I watched as my body lay unnoticed for days til my land lord came for the rent. I watched my funeral and how no one attended. I watched as mya shes when dumped by some Church member who never even knew me. I watched as no one visited my grave. Not even Sasuke. I had woken up with tears streaming down my face it hurt to even dream something like that.

I flinched and jumped as cold arms slid around my waist and a cold form pressed itself against my back, I had been so lost in thought I hadn't heard Sasuke enter the room or climb into the bed. I pouted and turned on my other side so we were face to face.

"I thought I told you to sleep on the sofa, Teme." I glared.

"But Naru, it's cold." He groaned pulled my body closer to his.

"But a sweater on then!" I screeched struggling in his hold.

"But you're wearing my favourite one." He argued his hold not faltering in his hold, I stop struggling at that.

He had a point there and his whole body was cold as ice and I did feel bad about making him sleep on the sofa, it wasn't all that comfortable to lie on. He smirked as he was my determination wavering, I sighed and shimmed further on the bed making room for him.

"Fine. But no funny business, alright Teme?" I glared still lying on my side facing him.

He shifted further into the bed and relaxed on his back against the mattress a sigh escaping his lips and his eyes closing as his head hit the soft pillows. I smiled at his actions.

"Hn." He grunted and turned his head slightly in my direction as he opened his eyes.

We stared at each other for a while, my mind was still racing and revolved around the idea of a surrogate mother, while Sasukes eyes conveys no emotion as if at that moment his mind was blank. He patted the space next to and smirked, I raised an eyebrow but moved closer to him still lying on my side. As I settled myself next to him I leaned my elbow on the pillow next to his and rested my head on my hand, looking down at Sasuke.

"I can see the clogs in that brain of your churning away. What are you thinking about?" He asked his voice as impassive as ever but in the very back of those onyx depths was a spark of curiosity.

I sighed, there was no point in lying he could see right through my lies and I might as well talk to him about it now. After all we had to discuss it at some point didn't we?

"I was thinking about what you said." I stated gauging his reaction.

He groaned and sighed at the same time.

"I told you to drop it Naruto, I should never have said it." His expression was impassive but his voice sounded exasperated a rare thing for Sasuke.

"No Teme. Just hear me out here?" I asked my hand finding his under the vast amount of bed sheets and twining out fingers together.

He made no sign of protest and he turned his head and stared at me expectantly, I took this as an invitation to begin speaking.

"Have you considered a surrogate mother? We could find one that shared traits with me, blue eyes, blond hair, devilish good looks." I winked and he snorted.

I pressed closer to him.

"C'mon S'uke." I groaned releasing his wrist and moving my arm so I could trace patterns on his chest, he didn't answer but his face showed he was deep in concentration, so at least he was considering the idea.

I traced circles on his chest, then useless squiggles before splaying my fingers out across the skin and sliding my hand over his torso, I was completely caught up in what I was doing I didn't notice him watching me a faith ghost of a smile on his lips.

"Alright." He sighed and I halted my wandering hand and stared at him shocked but pleased. "I'll think about it."

If it was anyone else I'd say he was pouting, but Uchihas don't pout, so he was brooding. A scowl marring his face and his eyes averted a smile tugged at my lips as I continued to stare at him, he didn't look at me for a while and a pregnant silence eloped us and I continued to smile.

"Alright. If you're gonna be like that out of the bed! Back to the sofa with you!" I shouted pushing at his side, holding in a laugh at the startled look on his face.

He grabbed my hands and I struggled to free them, a smirk overcame his face and he flipped us, pinning me to the bed. With his mood lightened I started again.

"I'm serious Sasuke. I can't trust you until we sort this." I said still wriggling my wrist free and linking our hands together.

"You can. I love you." He whispered frowning and squeezing my tan hands which lay in his pale ones.

"I can't. Every moment all I can think of is how someone pretty and successful and amazing and willing to be the mother of your child could pop up from no where and steal you away. I can't even try and trust you until I know I can fix the one thing that could ruin everything we have. I want to, I want to move on and be happy with you but I can't! I just can't." My tone was agitated, I was mad at me, for not being able to move on, for making things more complicated.

"I can't stop wishing I could be what you want, it really, really hurts. I love you S'uke, so very, very much. But I can't even do the one thing you want to have in your life and all I can do is doubt everything, because you left me once and I can't garentee you won't do it again. Because they can give you what I can't and I dream of you leaving me and going back to Sakura and!" I stopped mid sentance.

I was so angry, tears welled in my eyes and I squeezed them shut. I just want ot be happy but I can't even do that. Nothing was that simple anymore and it made me stressed and agitated. I was so over emotional and I couldn't just keep ranting on and on, I took deep breaths and tried to calm down.

"I'm sorry. I didn't want to hurt you, I shoudn't of ever got involved with you." He whispered.

I jerked my hands from his as if his touch burned and I slid from underneath him into a sitting position, I stared at him eyes wide with hurt and confusion.

"You really mean that?" I whispered my hands trembling.

He looked up at me slightly confused but nodded and whispered a barely audible yes.

"You," I swallowed hard trying to wet my suddenly dry throat. "You regret this?" My voice broke and stumbled as I spoke, while the trembling spread through out my whole body.

I felt an overwhelming sadness looming over me and the all to familiar feeling in the back of my eyes signalled the sadness had already taken over. I needed to get a grip, why did I care so much? He didn't seem to!

"I regret that night. I shouldn't of done that to you or Sakura." He said his eyes steely with determination.

And just like that my heart plummeted into my stomach and a lump appeared in my throat. It was as if my lungs were tightening and my breathing became quiet and shallow. I should never have brought it up, I should of just left it well alone. Why? Why!? Why would he go and say that!? I felt a tear slip from eye and roll down my cheek leaving a scorching trail in its wake. I raised my hand to wipe it away but another hand beat me too it, a hand with long elegant fingers and pale, perfect ivory skin. A hand which caught my own and held it tenderly, it was joined by another matching hand which held just one of mine. The calloused and soft palms were so contrasting, like myself and Sasuke.

"I don't regret what that drunken mistake developed into, I don't regret loving you. I just regret how we've become as we are. I wish we could of somehow taken another path." He whispered so sincerely and so, so softy.

The kindness in his voice almost hurt to hear, I wanted to believe him, but I couldn't, could I? god! couldn't it just be simple!? My head and my heart hurt and for a while there was silence between us. I calmed myself down and tried to ignore everything that had been said, I tried to ignore Sasuke and the fact that my chest felt very very tight around my heart. After a little while and a lot of convincing later I felt better a little more sure that me and Sasuke had a future, I wasn't happy again and I could feel the sad look forming on my face. I took some more deep breaths and stared at him, searching his eyes to find some kind of emotion, they seemed sad maybe? They were shielded and even I found it difficult to read Sasuke when he tried to hide his emotions this hard. Then a small smile graced his lips, making me frown more before he opened his mouth.

"If your heart wears thin, I will hold you up and I will hide you; when it gets too much, I'll be right beside you, I'll be right beside you. I will stay. Nobody will break you, trust in me, trust in me, don't pull away! Just trust in me, trust in me. 'Cause I'm just trying to keep this together, because I could do worse and you could do better!" He silky smooth voice sounded rough and low a he sang to me softly, a favourite song of mine which seemed to fit out situation perfectly.

The words I wanted were just out of reach, but they'd never been so loud!

"Sasuke. Donn'tt!" I groaned in a whisper.

He nuzzled against my face turn it away from him and exposing a vast tan canvas of blemishless skin, he ducked his head and nuzzled his face into my collar bone still humming the song quietly under his breath. As much as I wanted to push Sasuke away, the want I felt for his presence overpowered it and I let him do as he pleased, just enjoying the contact. He barely brushed his lips against my skin and let his hot breathe Fan over my skin, as he moved from one place to another a terrible cold spot was left in his wake. I closed my eyes and relaxed back into the soft mattress below me as his lips skimmed over my skin, occasionally placing a butterfly kiss here and there, as a fats a humming birds wings his kisses where there then gone.

Growing up and living alone most of my life meant affection was a rare and precious thing, ever the smallest human contact flooded my heart. I was clingy and needy, something I had always wante-, no, needed was love. Sasuke was surprisingly affectionate despite his cold demeanor, it was like the he kept all his love and affection bottled up around everyone and then when he was me he opened up and lavished me in affection. We really couldn't be more perfectly matched. I was happy and bubbly and he was cold and icy, I needed affection and he had so much to give, he needed someone to care for and I was alone. And that's why it is so hard for me to push him away its easy to just let him show me he loved me. In a way this was fixing our relationship, he knew I needed and wanted affection and he gave it to me. The fact that he would spend such a long time just showing me with affection, just affection, never leading to anything more, amazed me.

He began leaving open mouthed kisses against my skin, making sure to tantalizingly drag his lips along me skin as he closed each kiss, before barely touching my skin again. I know in any normal relationship that this would be considered moving too fast, Sasuke had hurt me very, very much, but I would do anything for him still. Call me stupid but I hopelessly in love with him I couldn't go on without him and now i had experienced each day I had previously go on without him, I couldn't go back to that. Sure it would hurt a hell of a lot more if he left now and it might be more sensible to go slower so it would hurt less if he decided to leave, but we were fixing the problem that had previously ruined our relationship, right?

The kisses and sinful lip brushes stopped and I opened my eyes which were hazy, to find Sasuke staring down at me.

"What are you thinking?" The words were quite and soft.

His affection didn't stop though as he raised a hand to rub and stroke my cheek softly, I leaned into the warmth of his touches and stared up at him, the moment was so intense. I looked away, off to the side.

"Just everything. How I want to be with you and sort the only thing that stands between us out. I know this sounds cheesy and it's over used, but I seriously NEED you in my life, Sasuke." I whispered only look back at him as spoke the last sentence.

His eyes sparked with emotion and then clouded with a mix of sadness and happiness. His hand stilled on my cheek and a frown marred his face.

"Naruto, I-" He began but I smiled and leaned up, capturing his lips in a sweet short kiss.

"It's being sorted, there is no need for you to look so sad." I kissed his lips again and then laid back down.

"I'm tired." I smiled at him mischievously, before grabbing him and pulling his body against mine, I nuzzled my face in his neck while he lay against me and whispered. "Goodnight."

He laughed before wrapping his arms firmly around me and flipping us, so I was lying on him. I shifted so I was comfortably half on and half off his body and cuddled into his chest as he loosened his hold on me and nuzzled his hair.

Today had been so very, very emotional and I had a feeling it wasn't going to get any easier any time soon. Praying I wouldn't dream as I had every night since Sasuke had returned to me.

REVIEEEEEWWW?
It could be you who gets a chapter dedication? ;)
Ohhh, Who can guess the song without looking it up?
It's my favourite song right now, gets me through some bad timeess.