AN: Okay at this point I'm not going to bother with authors notes unless there is a warning needed
Three weeks later Allen was rolling through the hospital in a wheelchair since the doctors didn't want him walking around. They didn't really want him roaming around in a wheelchair either but he had a portable heart monitor and they didn't want to have Allen feeling trapped and depressed. So Allen roamed around the hospital most of the time especially when he was alone. Allen went to the gift shop to kill some time like he often did. There was always cute baby stuff to look at which Allen liked to do.
"Moyashi? What are you doing here?" A voice called making Allen stop in his tracks. The last place Allen expected to run into Kanda was at the hospital gift shop.
"I um… I'm a patient…. What are you doing here?" Allen asked as he turned to face Kanda directly. He was a little shocked to see that Kanda had short hair.
"The old man had a heart attack… They are going to be watching him overnight trying to figure out how much damage was done…" Kanda answered making Allen go wide eyed and his heart monitor freak out a little bit.
"Is he okay? Can I visit him? Probably not huh… Sorry…" Allen said as his ears went a little more flat than they usually were. Tiedoll was such a nice person so of course Allen was worried for Tiedoll and wanted to see him but he doubted Kanda wanted him around since he had disappeared basically.
"I guess. But are you allowed to?" Kanda asked since Allen was some kind of patient there. He wasn't sure if they would let Allen in the cardiac ICU where they were monitoring Tiedoll and planning on possible heart surgery.
"As far as I know… I'm not contagious or at risk… Well I mean I'm at risk for heart failure again… but that has nothing to do with other people." Allen replied as he rolled back and forth a little bit in his wheelchair.
"Wait what? Heart failure? Again?" Kanda demanded surprised by that. He hadn't realized Allen was at risk for heart failure. Despite being Allen's friend Kanda, really none of them, knew that Allen had a bad heart. Allen hid his medical conditions since he didn't want to be treated as if he was frail and weak.
"I um… I'm on the transplant list for a new heart. My heart has been bad since I was born. It was okay…until I got pregnant… that seemed to have made things worse…." Allen commented looking away from Kanda. He didn't really want to talk about this but he wanted Kanda to understand why Allen disappeared.
"You… you're pregnant… how far along?" Kanda asked studying Allen. That made one of Tyki's comments a while back make sense now.
"Almost six months now…" Allen answered now picking at a bit of his robe he was wearing. It wasn't one of the hospital robes that most patients had. Since Allen was a long term patient he had a lot of his own clothing there to help him feel a little comfortable.
"Okay…. Well then…you're probably in the same area as the old man then…" Kanda said now leading Allen out of the shop to Tiedoll's room. Tiedoll's room wasn't too far from Allen's room surprisingly.
"Allen!" Tiedoll called happily when he saw Allen roll into his room behind Kanda. He was concerned that Allen was clearly a patient as well but he was also happy to see Allen again. He hadn't seen Allen in a little while and had started to worry especially after Kanda had said that Allen had dropped out of school.
"Hi… Kanda said you had a heart attack… Are you okay?" Allen asked sitting beside Tiedoll's bed holding Tiedoll's hand.
"Oh well, I've had better days, I can't lie about that… but I'll be okay. What about you? Why are you here?" Tiedoll asked gently patting Allen's hand with his free hand. Allen explained to Tiedoll and indirectly Kanda everything that was going on basically venting all his pent up concerns and stress about his baby and his heart.
"Oh Allen…. I'm sorry you have to worry about all this… I'm sure everything will be fine… This is a really good hospital full of really good doctors. Why don't you ever visit anymore? Did you and Kanda get into a fight?" Tiedoll asked earning a glare from Kanda who was standing in the corner.
"No…. We didn't…. I stopped talking to….pretty much everyone… I was…ashamed of some stuff that happened that Kanda found out about so… I distanced myself… and I became depressed so I just stopped talking to everyone. I…Look up to Kanda… so its hard… to let him see me the way I am…." Allen said staring down at Tiedoll's had that he was holding a little more tightly than he intended to.
"Don't blame me for your depression. Its your fault you don't stand up for yourself." Kanda argued earning a look from Tiedoll.
"I'm not blaming you. You're right… it is my fault. And I have to accept the consequences. Which is this baby…my bad heart… and being tied to Tyki for the rest of my life even if I had planned to pick a new mate…." Allen replied squeezing Tiedoll's hand for support which Tiedoll didn't make Allen stop.
"You are allowed to leave that controlling asshole?" Kanda asked a little surprised by that.
"Yes…Since he broke the rule…and I basically let him… Adam said that I could choose to not stay with Tyki… But I will stay with him since this is his baby too…. And its not like anyone else would want to get involved." Allen replied letting Tiedoll's hand go. "I….should get back to my room. They don't really like me roaming around for too long…" Allen said as he turned and left the room. He went back to his room where Tyki was asleep right where Allen had left him in the cot. Getting out of the wheelchair Allen climbed into the cot with Tyki since he wanted to be held and Tyki was there. Instinctively Tyki wrapped his arms around Allen in his sleep holding Allen close.
Tyki was surprised to say the least when he woke up to find Allen in his arms. He hadn't expected to ever wake up and find Allen willingly sharing a bed with him. Maybe things were getting a little better between him and Allen. Somehow Tyki doubted that. He knew Allen was under a great deal of stress and just needed some comfort. As Allen slept Tyki tried to fix Allen's bangs so they weren't in his face but that ended up waking Allen up.
"I'm sorry… I didn't mean to wake you…" Tyki said softly when Allen opened his eyes looking over his shoulder at Tyki.
"Its fine…." Allen said getting off the cot and back to his wheelchair. The reason Allen had to stay in a wheelchair when he roamed around was one, to lessen the strain on his heart as his heart was really bad now, two, if he passed out again he wouldn't have as far to fall.
"Where are you going?" Tyki asked when he saw that Allen was getting ready to leave the room.
"I want to go to the cafeteria. I'm hungry." Allen said as he rolled out of the room. Tyki got up following Allen out.
"Do you want me to push you?" Tyki offered walking behind Allen ready to push the wheelchair if Allen wanted him to.
"No I'm fine." Allen answered leading Tyki to the cafeteria so they could get something to eat. It was awkward between Allen and Tyki since Allen was rather depressed and Tyki was feeling pretty guilty. It was his fault Allen was pregnant, Tyki knew that. He knew it wasn't ever really consensual between him and Allen…he used his status to get Allen to be compliant enough but Allen never wanted it. There was no fixing that, Tyki knew that. But he still wanted to try and win Allen's heart. So he would be by Allen's side and support him the best he could. After they ate dinner down in the cafeteria Allen and Tyki made their way back to Allen's room where the doctor was waiting for with some news.