"On the ground I lay motionless in pain. I can see my life flashing before my eyes. Did I fall asleep? Is this all a dream? Wake me up I'm living a nightmare. I will not die. (I will not die) I will survive. I will not die; I'll wait here for you. I feel alive when you're beside me. I will not die; I'll wait here for you in my time of dying."
(Time of dying by Three Days Grace)
Hisoka was getting worse. He lost his memories of Hokkaido and Saya and Yuma so when they came to see him he didn't remember them. Tsuzuki knew the two girls were upset. They thought of Hisoka as their friend and they didn't want him to be hurt. Hiroki came into the room sensing that the two girls were upset and Tsuzuki told him that Hisoka lost more memories. Hiroki was worried that his memories were fading away quicker it meant they didn't have much time left.
Tsuzuki was really worried. Hisoka was deteriorating and Saya and Yuma weren't their usual cheerful selves. Even Wakaba was quiet and reserved. Terazuma just kept quiet and didn't make any digs at Tsuzuki. Watari was keeping Hisoka in the infirmary. The office had lost its spark because everyone was worried about Hisoka. Tsuzuki was determined not to lose his now lover. "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!" A loud scream interrupted Tsuzuki from his thoughts.
Hisoka was in pain again. His back was hurting and he couldn't move. "Tsuzuki I can't move! I can't move!" "Hush darling it'll stop soon." "Please make it stop Tsu I don't want to be in pain anymore! I don't want to hurt anymore and I don't want to lose my memories anymore!" Hisoka clung to Tsuzuki sobbing. Tsuzuki held Hisoka close to him so the boy was completely engulfed in Tsuzuki's scent.
Hisoka didn't get any better; no amount of pain killers stopped it from hurting. Hisoka cried out in pain for most of the afternoon. Tsuzuki just held his hand and gripped it tightly. Hisoka squeezed his hand every time he had a twinge of pain. Tsuzuki just wanted to take the pain away from Hisoka but he couldn't do anything and again he started to blame himself for the one he loved suffering.
Hiroki meanwhile was trying to console everyone in the office because they were all upset. Hiroki didn't want to see his friends in pain. He'd become close to everyone and he finally felt like part of things instead of just watching from the distance. Hiroki liked being part of things and liked to help Hisoka because he was more than just a memory Hisoka was like an older brother to him. Hiroki decided to sing a song to everyone to cheer them up. It was a song he heard on the radio somewhere a nice calm song. By a woman called Lia. He took a deep breath and began to sing.
"Ano umi dokomademo aokatta tookumade. Ano michi dokomademo tsuzuiteta massuguni.
Ichiban hayaku sunaoni warattamono gachi, ichiban sukina anohito waratteru. Dare yorimo toku e ittemo koko kara mata waratte kureru? Hitomi wo tojireba futto natsu no nioi." Tsuzuki was talking to Watari outside the infirmary "I think Bon has calmed down now you don't need to worry Tsuzuki." He paused when they heard the song in the background. "What a pretty song Tsuzuki said.
"Ano kawa asonderu futari kiri doro darake. Ano kumo otteiru todoitara shiawase to
Ichiban hayaku kono saka nobotta mono gachi, ichiban sukina ano basho mezashite. Takusan no omoide ga aru hoka niha nani mo iranai kurai Hitomi wo tojireba sugu ano umi no nioi.
Mata natsu ga kuru giniro ni hikaru minamo ni utsusu futaribun no kage. Dare yorimo toku he ittemo kokokara mata waratte kureru? Hitomi wo tojireba futto ano hi no aozora..." Hiroki finished off the song and everyone clapped. Hiroki smiled serene. It seemed to cheer everyone up considerably. "Wahhh! Hiroki-kun you have such a good singing voice!" Yuma and Saya squealed.
Hiroki thanked them and headed off to the infirmary so he could check on Hisoka. He saw Tsuzuki sitting by his side holding his hand really tightly while Hisoka's breathing was erratic again. He also had a high fever again. Hiroki figured Tsuzuki wanted some alone time so he went back into the office. Tsuzuki pressed a kiss to Hisoka's hand and stroked his cheek. "We'll get through this Soka I'm not going to ever let you go baby so don't give up on me." Hisoka slowly opened his eyes. "Tsu..." He murmured.
"Hisoka how are you feeling?" "Bloody awful." Hisoka replied. Tsuzuki stroked his hair gently. "I know its painful and unbearable but I'm here for you Hisoka so you don't have to suffer alone." Hisoka smiled "Aa I know." Hisoka replied. Tsuzuki went to fix Hisoka some soup. He knew eating wasn't the cure for it and he knew they were running out of time. Tsuzuki had to do something special with Hisoka before time ran out and he forgot his memories.
Tsuzuki asked Hisoka if there was anything he wanted to do with Tsuzuki before he lost his memories. Hisoka said he didn't mind where they went as long as he was with Tsuzuki. Tsuzuki decided on the Nagasaki festival. He didn't get to take him when they were on their first case so he wanted to take him there for the night and spend some time with him. On the eve of the festival Tsuzuki carried Hisoka there in his arms. Hisoka snuggled against his chest and smiled.
They went around the booths first. Tsuzuki wasn't very good at the shooting gallery and Hisoka was too ill to really move but he managed to win a cat plush toy. He gave it to Hisoka. "Eh? You're giving this to me?" Hisoka asked. "Yes you deserve a gift after everything you've been through and besides cats are more your thing aren't they?" Hisoka blushed. "Arigatou Tsuzuki." Hisoka mumbled holding the cat to his chest.
The fireworks display started and Tsuzuki and Hisoka picked the perfect spot on the top of a hill. Tsuzuki wound an arm around Hisoka's shoulders and Hisoka rested his head on Tsuzuki's shoulder. They took in the scenery. "It's so pretty." Hisoka said. "Yes it is beautiful." Then he snuggled Hisoka. "You want to know what else is beautiful? You are Hisoka. You're beautiful." Hisoka blushed. "I-I'm not beautiful Tsuzuki. Who on earth would think a tainted child like me is beautiful?" Tsuzuki crushed Hisoka in an embrace.
"You're not tainted darling. I still think you're beautiful no matter what your past is like. And no matter how ill you are I'll still think you're beautiful. I'll always be by your side no matter what. I'm not going anywhere baby." Hisoka held Tsuzuki tighter then they pushed apart looking into each others eyes. Tsuzuki pressed his lips against Hisoka in a loving but passionate kiss. Tsuzuki's tongue rubbed against Hisoka's lips demanding entrance which was granted. They battled for a while and Tsuzuki won. Hisoka moaned into the kiss. They pulled apart and rested their foreheads against each others.
Hisoka placed his head on Tsuzuki's chest listening to his heartbeat. "Tsu?" "Yes darling?" "I think there is one more thing I'd like to do before my memory fades away." "What's that baby? Whatever it is I'll get you it." Hisoka blushed. "Umm could I stay over at your place tonight? I'd like to lie close to you for a while." Tsuzuki smiled gently. "Sure we'll head over there now." He lifted Hisoka up into his arms. He teleported them into his house. Both were wondering if something might happen that night. Something that would bring them closer...
Notes: The song Hiroki sings is called Aozora by Lia
Ano umi dokomademo aokatta tooku made
Ano michi dokomademo tsuzuiteta massuguni
Ichiban hayaku sunaoni waratta monotachi
Ichiban suki na ano hito waratteru
Dare yorimo tooku ni ittemo koko kara mata waratte kureru
Hitomi o tojireba futto natsu no hi no nioi
Ano kawa asonderu futari kiri doro darake
Ano kumo otteiru todoitara shiawase to
Ichiban hayaku kono saka nobotta monotachi
Ichiban suki na ano basho mezashite
Takusan no omoide ga aru hoka ni ha nani mo iranai kurai
Hitomi o tojireba sugu ano umi no nioi
Mata natsu ga kuru gin iro ni hikaru
Minamo ni utsusu futaribun no kage
Dare yorimo tooku ni ittemo kokokara mata waratte kureru
Hitomi o tojireba futto ano hi no aozora
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