I Hate You

"Why didn't you tell me that you kissed my boyfriend," Tori asked coming up to Maya at the end of the day. "Zig kissed me," Maya said trying to defend herself. "That's not what Zig said. I knew you liked him at the beginning of the year and I tried to let that go, but you kissed him. You betrayed our friendship," Tori said. With each word Maya felt really guilty. "Please Tori, you have to believe me. I did not kiss Zig willingly," Maya pleaded. Tori shook her head and walked away. "Have fun with Cam, you'll probably will betray him soon enough," Tori sarcastically called over her shoulder.

Maya felt tears start to fall. Letting out a shaky breath, she leaned against the lockers and slid down into a sitting position. Maya pulled her knees up towards her and buried her head in them. Maya tried to even out her breathing after crying for a few minutes. "It's all my fault," Maya whispered to the empty hall. "What is," a voice to her left asked. Moving her head so she could see she noticed Tristan standing there. "Tori hates me because Zig kissed me, `` Maya answered honestly. ``He actually kissed you, `` Tristan said shocked. Maya grabbed her bag and stood. ``I should go, I have a lot of homework, ` Maya said turning away from Tristan. ``Tori will come around, she just has a bad habit in thinking Zig is the best thing ever, `` Tristan called to her. Maya waved to him over her shoulder.

``Wait, `` a distant but familiar voice called. Maya was walking through the park instead of taking the main streets like usual. Turning she spotted someone that she absolutely hated. ``What, could you possibly want now, ` Maya asked. Zig caught up to her but kept a distance between them. ``Tori yelled at me after I told her that we kissed, I also broke up with her. I want to be with you Maya, even if I have to go through Cam. Believe me; he has got a good punch, `Zig laughed. ``Good punch, `` Maya trailed looking to at Zig funny. ``I`m guessing he didn`t tell you that he punched me, twice actually, `a smirk formed on Zig`s face. Looking to his eye, Maya spotted a big bruise forming.

``You have to leave Cam alone, `` Maya said glaring at Zig. ``If you don`t leave him then I will keep bugging him. Eventually he will have had enough drama and just leave you, I`m willing to wait, `Zig told her walking off. ``Just leave Cam alone, `` Maya called to Zig. Zig just gave her a satisfied smile.

M – Cam we need to talk

C – Okay about what

M – Can you come over?

C – Yeah I`ll be over in a few

Maya fiddled with her phone for a few minutes before the doorbell finally rang. After debating if she should answer, Maya opened the door so Cam could come in. "Hey," cam said kissing her lips softly. Without thinking Maya gave in to her heart, she pressed her lips to his harder. Cam used his foot to push the door shut. He loosely wrapped his arms around Maya's lower back to hold her in place.

"Stop," Maya choked out pushing away. Cams touch had brought her back to her senses. Cam cocked his head like a puppy that didn't understand. "Sorry to fast," Cam asked hesitantly. Maya looked down in shame. She hated herself for doing this but she didn't want Zig to hurt Cam. "We have to break up," Maya blurted. Maya couldn't bear to look at him as she let the words slip. Instead of leaving like she hoped he would, Cam stood there and waited for her to look up. "You can go now," Maya told him.

Cam shook his head and looked at her with his puppy dog eyes. "Why," Cam asked leaning against the hall wall. "You need to focus on hockey," Maya lied. She mentally scolded herself for the lame excuse. "You need a better lie," Cam laughed. "Fine this time I won't lie. I don't like you, I just wanted to feel loved by someone and now I feel bad about playing you," Maya smoothly replied. Cam went from confused to heart broken. He wanted to ask why she would but the words wouldn't come. He finally left without a word.

Maya felt tears start to pour out her eyes as Cam slammed her front door shut. She watched him storm away from the house and down the street. Maya felt her whole body go numb. She stopped crying and just sat on the couch in the living room. She didn't feel up to moving or eating, she just wanted to go crawl into a ball and never talk again. "He deserves better," Maya whispered to herself. A few hours later she woke up to Katie shaking her.

"Hey kid, you alright," Katie asked concerned. Without warning Maya started to cry again. She clutched her sister as if she would leave her too. "Hey Maya, everything is going to be okay. Just calm down and tell me what's wrong," Katie soothed. "Everything is falling apart on me. Cam and I broke up, Zig won't leave me alone, and I lost my best friend," Maya said through her sobs. "Why did you and Cam break up," Katie asked now very confused. "I broke up with him because Zig said he would hurt him if I didn't," Maya muttered. Maya's eyes felt really heavy. "I am so sorry Maya. I'll take care of Zig tomorrow but you need to go to sleep now," Katie said standing and helping Maya up. Nodding her head Maya went to her room and fell asleep once her head hit the pillow.

Instead of nice dreams Maya usually had, she dreamt of Zig hurting Cam. In one Zig was towering over her and no one was around to help her. She felt helpless and scared. Maya tried to scream but she felt like she was being suffocated by her dream. After a few attempts a blood coiling scream finally left her lungs. Maya got a dizzy as she bolted up in bed. She was sweaty and shaky as she got out of bed. Maya picked up her phone and realised it was three in the morning. Instead of going to bed she got dressed for the day.

"You're up early," Katie's voice came from the stairs. Maya just went back to eating her bagel. "Maya don't worry, Zig won't bother you anymore," Katie tried reassuring her younger sister. "I don't care about Zig bugging me; I'm worried about what he could do to Cam. I also still feel terrible for ending things with Cam," Maya clarified. Katie just gave Maya a sympathetic smile and shrugged her shoulders. "Maybe you should talk to him," Katie suggested. Maya shook her head, "He hates me."

During Maya's first two classes she doodled on a blank paper. She had multiple lost games of x and o. There were pictures of cracked hearts; she also had sad song lyrics. Maya caught herself adding Cam's name in the only heart not broken. She quickly scribbled over it. Her heart felt like it was breaking all over again, tears started to appear in the corner of her eyes. She let out a relieved breath as the bell rung ending class. Instead of going to the cafeteria like usual, Maya just strolled around the halls. She absentmindedly wandered pass people and out a back door. The door led to a back alley the janitors used to put the garbage. She went to go open the door to go back in but found it locked. Maya used her hand and hit the door as hard as she could. "Ow," Maya whimpered. She held her throbbing hand and muttered a few bad words.

After knocking on the door for a little bit Maya gave up and looked for a new way out. She tuned the corer heading behind the school. She found the end of the private gate. There was a door but the lock was up at the top. Reaching up to unlock the door, Maya realised she was too short to reach it. Like a little child, Maya stomped her foot then kicked at the door. "Open god dammit," Maya shouted at the wooden door. "First dumping Cam with a lame lie, now yelling at a door that hasn't done anything to you. Pretty sure you're losing it Matlin," Dallas's voice called from behind her.

"The door won't open," Maya defended herself. Dallas walked closer to the frustrated blonde. He gently pushed past her and unlocked the wooden door. "Understandable, but what I still wonder about is why you dumped Cam," Dallas said blocking Maya as she tried to get out. "I told him why," Maya hissed at the older boy. "I don't believe you, I believe you love him," Dallas confidently informed her. "I hate you," Maya muttered pushing past Dallas. "No you don't," Dallas called after her.