I couldn't do it anymore. I just hurt. I feel like part of me is missing. I can never get back. If I can't get it back, then I want to forget about it.

Damon has been gone for a month now it still hurts. A part of me want it to end and let it go. But I can't. I miss him to much. There is one way to end it all.

Ric came and checked on me like he always does since Damon's death. I know it's not easy for him either. But he is also going throw something harder. Change to a vampire.

"Hey. How are you?" He said leaning against my door.

"I'm alright. How are you? I know no one really asked you that yet." I asked him.

After everything happened with losing Bonnie and Damon thing changed around here. Caroline left collage. Stefan is somewhere I don't know where. Mystic Falls is supernatural safe because of a barrier that is up around the town.

"I'm doing alright. It made everything easier when I left Mystic Falls. Also, my ex moved in and far away. The blood lust isn't that bad." He told me.

"That's good. There are good things about it all. Or I thought there was. A love that can last forever. I thought that was going to be me and Damon. But now there is a pain there forever. I won't turn of my humanity. But you can make me forget it all. Please Ric." I said.

I know I was going the easy way out, but I can't do it anymore. My last option is turning off my humanity to make the pain stop. I can't do that. I won't do that.

"Are you sure want to forget about him?" Ric asked me.

"Yes. I want to forget my love for Damon." I told him.

Later that day we were going to try find out that one memory, one moment that I fall in love with Damon and change it forever. I was in Ric's office with him.

"When was the moment you started to have feelings for Damon?" Ric asked me.

"Maybe when he stepped in for Stefan at the Mystic Fall pageant. It was when Stefan was trying to control his blood lust for human blood." I told him.

Ric looked me into my eyes and said,

"Damon never stepped in for Stefan. You were so embarrassed."

I let the compassion take a hold of me. The memory of that moment changed. I now remember being alone on that day and being embarrassed by it. Ric then asked me,

"Who is Damon Salvatore?"

"Damon Salvatore is my boyfriend. I love him. He is dead." I told him.

He then sighed. He knows that wasn't the one thing that made me fall in love with him. We then did this for a while now. We have been changing different memories, but nothing has worked. I just gave up and went back to my room.

*Ric's POV*

There must be one memory. One moment that changed Elena's feelings for Damon. But we haven't figured it out yet. But I know one person who might know. I then called Caroline.

"Hey." She said when she answered.

"I need some help. Elena and I have been trying to figure out that one moment she feels for Damon. Do you think you can help?" I asked her.

"Of course, I can help. Everyone knows when she started to have true feelings for him. She is just denying it because she was still with Stefan at that time." Caroline told me.

Right the summer Stefan was not himself. He was ripper Stefan. Elena and Damon were trying to figure out how to help him. But when in that moment did she fall for him? I remember them getting closer that summer. But what was it?

"Thanks Caroline." I told her.

"No problem." She said.

We then hanged up and I went to Elena's room. I knocked on her door. I know she was in there. I can hear her breathing. One good thing about being a vampire. She then opened the for me.

"What?" She asked. I know she was done but I need to get her to open about it one more time.

"Tell me everyone about you and Damon when you were with Stefan that one summer." I asked her.

*Elena's POV*

I can't believe he is asking this. I was always faithful to Stefan. Even when he went all ripper on us that summer.

"I was always faithful to Stefan when I was with him." I told him.

"I know you were. But something happened that summer you are denying. I think that could be the moment." Ric told me.

There was this one moment. After that moment I did look at Damon a different way. He was right. I then said,

"It was my birthday. I was getting ready for this birthday party Caroline was throwing me. I was just about not to go down because I wasn't in the mood most after everything we were go throw that summer. There was Damon. He wanted to give me my birthday gift. It was the necklace that his brother gave me. I thought I lost it. It was the one thing that gave me hope for Stefan. Even though I know how Damon felt for me. He still gave it to me. It was the biggest selfless thing he did. That was when I know." I told him.

"Damon never came up. The party sucked. The rest of the night you stay home and watch movies with Jeremy." Ric said.

Something happened. I don't know what. Everything in me changed. I then said,

"Jeremy."

"Elena, who is Damon Salvatore?" Ric asked me.

Why was he asking me about him? But I still answered. I then said,

"He is Stefan's brother. He is a monster and he is dead."

(A/N: I do take request of anyone's favorite scene or moment they want to read. Also, any characters or couples they want. Just comment them or message me. Would love to hear what you guys would want.)