Aubrey couldn't focus on what her professor saying, she was to busy feeling guilty from what she did earlier, why did i fucking hit her, Aubrey thought to herself she went into say sorry and she ended up hurting the brunette more, Aubrey couldn't get the look of Becas face out of her head she looked so hurt and scared, scared i hope she isn't scared of me, Chloe and Beca are right i am a bitch.

Her lesson went on for another hour and a half after that Aubrey headed to her dorm to get her wash bag to have a shower, after her shower Aubrey decided she'd go look for Beca and apoligise properly..this time she thought.

It had been looking for thirty minutes and Aubrey was walking up to her dorm to see if she was there she knew Chloe would've checked here but she may have gone to her dorm after Chloe had checked, Aubrey knocked on the door hearing movement behind it, after a few minutes the door was opened by Kimmy Jin.

"Oh hi um is Beca here" Aubrey asked she wasn't a fan of Kimmy Jin she was rather cold and was rude towards them when they were waiting in here for Beca to get, when she was arrested.

"No...you still need to talk to her i can pass a message on for you or something" Kimmy Jin said she wondered what the blonde could want she did have the brunettes number didn't she they are 'Bella's' together.

"Oh um no no its okay you can just say i'm looking for her" Aubrey said surprised at how nice Kimmy Jin was being at the moment.

"Uh yeah sure" Kimmy Jin said closing the door as Aubrey walked away.

Aubrey decided to text Chloe she didn't expect her to reply but she wanted to help, she didn't know how she was going to make it up to her but she had to.

Hey Chlo where are you guys, have you

found Beca yet, please tell me you have

and tell her i want to talk to her. oxoxo

Aubrey sent here message getting a reply five minutes later usually Chloe texts her back immediately but then again after what she did Chloe would probably be mad at her for a while.

No we haven't, and why do you wanna

talk to her so you can hit her again

no i don't think so.

Aubrey read the message, feeling a little hurt that she knew she deserved she typed out a quick reply.

Okay please can you let me know

when you do find her, i want

to say sorry i know it wont be enough

xoxo

Aubrey didn't know how long it had been till Chloe replied.

Fine, i'll tell you when i find her

and yeah you're right

'SORRY' won't be enough.

Aubrey had read the reply, happy that she would know when Beca was found she continued her own search.

(Trigger warning sad stuff below if sad stuff effects you or have lost someone)

Beca had just got of the bus, from school her day had been good but she wanted to get home and look after her mom her mom had seemed to look a bit better this morning, and she said she felt better they were going to go out for tea, their favorite place "Taco Bell' not fancy but they were delicious.

Beca put her key in the door an opened it, it was silent until she heard a faint moaning noise.

"Mom...mom where are you are you hurt" Beca asked but all she heard was more moaning.

Beca ran through the house following the noise, what she saw next she'd never forget.

"MOM.." Beca shouted running over to her mom and kneeling down beside her her mom was shaking a lot and had a bruise on her head she was scared and started to panic.

"Mommy whats wrong" Beca asked holding back tears, she was shaking she was so scared she had no clue what was happening she ran to the phone and dialed 911 hoping they could help.

"911 what service do you require"

"Mambulance" Beca said not able to clearly get her words out.

"Okay can you tell me whats happened and where you live" The operator said.

"I need help my mom is...aking and she not stopping...her..head is ...ruised a bit" Beca said between sobs. "And...i live...i i...i live at Orchid...way number 54" Beca said now crying even more.

"Okay sweetie an ambulance is on it's way be around fifteen minutes...whats your, name and how old are you, my name is Greg and i'm forty five" The operator said softly, giving his own name and age to the girl to make her feel more comfortable. "And can you make sure there are no objects in the way that could hurt your mother and place a cushion under her head" The operator instructed.

"Okay..okay" Beca said doing just what the operator had asked, moving a few items out of the way that must have fallen on the floor when her mom fell, and getting up to get a cushion from the couch near by. "And my na..me is Beca...and...an...i'm fourteen, my moms names violet" Beca said quietly sitting beside her mom placing a kiss on her forehead. "I called..and ambulance mommy they are coming to help you now" Beca whispered.

The operator had to keep himself from crying from what he heard her say.

"Pretty names, you must be in grade nine now, whats your favorite subject mine was science i found it interesting" The operator said trying to keep the girl calm he could here her crying.

"Yeah...i...i like music i want ..to be a Dj and produce music, when i'm older" Beca answered.

"That's cool" The operator said, genuinely thinking it was cool.

"Sweetie i need you to tell me how long your mom has been shaking for and is your dad around is there anyone you can call" he operator asked this was something he needed to know, so the ambulance would know what to do.

"I...I...don't know i came home and she was...shaking on the...floor and my dad isn't here he and mom are divorced, and i don't know" Beca said feeling helpless she should know how long she should've stayed home to look after mom, just incase, and she really didn't know who to call she was panicking.

"Its okay how long has it been since you've been home, and is she still shaking" The operator said feeling sorry that the girl as having to experience this alone., he heard her start to panic so instructed her to breathe slower with him which seemed to calm her down a little.

"Six minutes and yeah she...still shaking.." Beca said sniffing her cheeks were soaked by the amount of tears that had fallen.

"Beca please breathe slowly with me okay...in...and out...in...out" The operator instructed

"Okay" Beca said taking breaths in and out slowly, it made her feel a little calmer but she needed her mom to be better to be fully calm.

"Okay the ambulance should be there soon" The operate said.

Not long after that was said there was a knock at the door.

"Ambulance" A voice said.

"They're here" Beca said getting up to answer the door her legs feeling weak for sitting in the same position for so long.

"Okay i'm gonna go now they are going to help your mom now bye" The operate said to Beca hoping that all would end well for her wishing he could say it would be alright but he didn't want to say it incase it wasn't.

"Okay bye" Beca said as she reached the door an opened it.

Beca hung up the phone and opened the door as she led the paramedics to where her mom was they set to work saying different words amongst each other that Beca didn't understand they asked her questions, if she knew of any medical history which wasn't much, how long she had been shaking for.

"She..has..been fe..eling ill...like she has a bug and...headaches and she had a fever...last night...she said she felt a lot better this morning though.." Beca said crying loudly towards the end of her sentence.

"Okay its okay we are gonna help your mom okay come on" A paramedic said walking Beca out of the house and towards the ambulance.

"Once in the ambulance they notified the hospital that they were coming with a patient who had been seizing for seven minutes her mom had finally stopped when the ambulance had arrived.

Beca had been told to wait as she watched them wheel her mom away, the chairs were uncomfortable, she wanted her mom she wanted to give her a hug and look after her, Beca was drawn out of her thoughts when a doctor walked out calling her name she walked over to him, looking up ready for him to say she could go see her mom now, and that she was better.

But what she heard was not what she wanted to hear.

"I'm sorry to have to tell you this but your mom passed away we tried everything we could she had a brain tumor i'm so sorry for your loss" The doctor said this was the worst part of his job a part that he will never be used to.

"What" Beca cried. "You should've tried harder..your a..a doctor you help people get better you should make her better...tried harder...you didn't try hard enough" Beca cried hysterically.

Small fists punching into his chest that did not make an impact, the doctor just held her arms, she then fell into the doctor as her legs gave way crying hard soaking his scrubs.

"I want my mommy...please give me her back...i want mommy" Beca cried sobbing hard she wasn't getting enough air in she barley registered the doctors words as he held her, she didn't register him telling her to breathe.

"I want my mommy" Beca whispered before her world went black.