Uncertain ch6

A/n: Ahhh, it's Thursday;)

Enjoy…..see ya at the bottom!

EPOV

They needed to take Anthony for some tests and measurements so I sat alone and watched Bella sleep.

She was so beautiful. I remembered watching her sleep before.

"Wanna go back to my place?" She leaned into me and looked up through those long, dark lashes and I knew that I was a goner.

I took another swig off my beer, "Yeah, I really do." I lowered my head and brushed my lips against hers all the while I had to fight the moan that wanted to escape.

"Let me get my jacket and close out my tab," I told her as I motioned for the waitress.

"Sure, let me tell my friends that I'm leaving." She tiptoed up and kissed me quick before she turned to walk back to her table.

Twenty minutes later, the door to her apartment closed and I had her against the wall with my tongue down her throat. I didn't stop the moan that time.

"I haven't done this in a long time," she told me through pants of breathe.

"It's been a while for me, too," I said as my lips explored her neck and collarbone.

"Take me to bed, Masen." She moaned as I palmed her tits before I slid my hands down to her ass and picked her up. Her legs came up to wrap around my waist, I carried her to what I assumed was her bedroom.

Her body drifted back in the middle of the bed and before I knew it we were both naked. "Protection?" I questioned just before I took her nipple into my mouth. She moaned and arched up into my touch.

"I'm covered." She finally answered as I moved up to position over her body and pushed slowly into her warmth.

"Fuck, Bella…," I groaned as I pushed through the tightness of her walls that were surrounding my shaft. It felt incredible to be inside of her, it felt surreal if I were honest.

She was beautiful as she gave herself over to me that night. I instantly felt at home within her body.

"Edward," she breathed against my neck and I gripped her tighter in my arms. Her legs wrapped around my hips and I moaned at the new depth that I was able to reach within her.

"You feel so good," Bella moaned with her back arched and her head thrown back.

"Not as good as you feel wrapped around me," I said. My mouth peppered her neck and face with kisses.

There was an instant connection between the two of us.

I wondered where that bashful, witty girl had gone and how I could help her get back to that person that I connected with.

I realized that we still had a lot of obstacles to overcome, so I just watched her sleep and hoped that someday maybe we could explore something between us.

I didn't like seeing the tough, broken girl that she had become and I instantly felt guilty. I knew that I had a lot, if not all, to do with who she had become.

If only I had been there, none of this would be this way.

Hell, she and I could have fallen in love, gotten married, had Anthony and be utterly happy right now.

Instead, we both have way too much shit going on to even deal with our own hurt, pain and confusion. She will let me take a step in before she shoves me back three steps.

I knew it would take a while for her to trust me, but I would do whatever was necessary to prove to her that I was in this for the long haul. Whether or not she wanted me in a romantic way or not, I was here.

The thought of her dating someone else clenched at the edges of my heart, but I had no right not to expect her to have a life of her own. I had no idea if she could ever want me like that again, either.

Besides, I had a hell of a mess to deal with in my own personal life as it was.

Irina might have been calm tonight and had a rational conversation with me about our marriage, but after some wine and a night with her hot-headed sister, I guarantee that would all change.

They were Russian, and always had to have the last word on anything.

Bella became a little restless in her sleep, so I reached over and ran a hand down her cheek. She whimpered a little before she settled back into a deep sleep.

I decided to let her rest while I went to check on Anthony.

I stopped at the door and watched her for a few more seconds.

It all felt surreal, like that long lost morning so long ago that I stood in the same position and watched her before I walked out the door.

Little did I know what a mistake that decision would turn out to be.

Both times.

A/N: OOOHHHH I just kinda left ya another cliffie….LOL!

MUCH THANKS to my team, Bnjwl for her mad beta skills and Mamadog93 for her awesome feedback. I love you both….so damn much.

A few recs for ya tonight:

The Lonely Game by Mrs. Robward – I am on the edge of my seat….seriously.

Wisps of Imperfection by Corrupted Subuction – I seriously LOVE this fic…and the angst!

And a repeat rec, My Life Without Me by Betty Lovegood…..yes, there's no HEA guarantee but damn, this is seriously one of the best, most emotional fics that I've read. I am in love with it and the author definitely deserves some love!

** I am planning an IRINA OUTTAKE….because so many of you have your own theories and thoughts about her…and her extracurricular activies…. I hadn't given it much thought until ya'll put the idea there. IDK if I'll donate it or just publish it, so stay tune

See ya Tuesday….or maybe earlier, depends on if I can get some writing done this weekend or not.

THANK YOU SO MUCH for all of the reviews. I'm sorry I haven't had time to respond. RL has sucked up almost all of my freetime. But, please know that I cherish and read every single one.

Kyla