For the Templars 7
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Hawke crumpled to the floor. That was it. He hated her. Hawke couldn't stop the tears from falling. Hawke felt it would have been less painful if he just tore her heart out there. Hawke just couldn't stop crying. Hawke heard a door opening and saw Orana in shock. "Messere, what is wrong?" Orana walked slowly over to Hawke who was shaking uncontrollably.
"H…he's….Fenris is…gone." Hawke hiccupped. The thought that she would never be able to be with him again. He would never see the baby they had created together. Fenris would never trust her again. It was the possibility that it would be a mage. Fenris had suffered terribly at the hands of the magisters in Tevinter, but he couldn't put aside that hatred and pain. Even for her.
Hawke stood shakily, Orana shouldn't see her like this. "I'm…going to the Keep. I will be back soon." Orana started to say something, but Hawke was already out the door, perhaps if she had some air, she would be fine.
Fenris slammed open the door of Varric's suite in the Hanged Man and startled the rest of their group remaining. He had only been gone a short while so they were all still enjoying their evening.
"What's wrong Fenris?" Sebastian spoke up after catching sight of the scowl on his face.
"Hawke is pregnant." Fenris grumbled as he paced the room.
"Congratulations Elf! Why are you so upset, no sex?" Varric laughed but stopped when he saw the look on Fenris' face.
"It might be a mage."
"So?" Aveline asked calmly.
"SO? SO? It could be a mage!" Fenris continued to pace around the room, the rage evident across his face. A mage. Why of all things a mage?
"Wait; slow down and tell us what happened." Isabella pulled out a spare seat and motioned for Nora to bring over drinks.
"We don't need all the juicy details, but they are more than welcome, such as how did you impregnate her and in what position." Isabella sobered up immediately after see saw Fenris' scowl. "Or not…"
"She told me not long ago that she was pregnant and that it could be a mage, with the magic in her blood and Lyrium in mine, it makes it almost guaranteed." Fenris sighed and downed his pint in one and watched as their small group gawked at him. Aveline, Isabella, Merrill and Varric looked like they wanted to hit him. Sebastian and Donnic just shook their heads.
"Do you love her?" Aveline asked, trying hard to suppress the will to hit him.
"More than anything." Fenris sighed. Varric dealt him some cards and continued the game.
"Then why are you angry. The woman you love has blessed you with a child. It may be a mage, it may not be. What should it matter?" Sebastian said as he drank some water.
"Still…" Fenris sighed, why was he so angry? He knew he was in love with Hawke. She was everything to him…but magic had taken everything away from him, mages had forced him into slavery and hunted him every step of the way. But…if he hadn't freed himself from slavery, he would never have met Hawke. He would never have been able to know the joy she brought to his life; she would never have been able to give her this child. Even if it is a mage…it's a child…my child. Fenris sighed as he folded his cards. He had no memory of his own father, and did not want to have his child with that emptiness of not knowing their family.
"Hellooo! You in there?" Merrill waved her hand in front of Fenris' face as she had been for the past few minutes. He had been staring a hole into the table as he pondered his dilemma.
Fenris stood up quickly and scrapped the chair making Merrill jump back into her seat. He headed for the door and opened it too see the torrential rain. Fenris did not care and left quickly in the direction of Hightown.
"2 sovereigns say's he's late tomorrow." Donnic laughed as Varric and Sebastian agreed.
Fenris ran through Kirkwall heading for the estate, he didn't know what he was going to say or do, or… He didn't know. He just had to see her. The rain felt like it was piercing his skin and washing away his anger at mages. Not every mage was good, not every was evil. He hated magic for what it had done to him, but Hawke came from magic, and Hawke was the most wonderful thing that had ever happened to him. She forgave him once for his stupidity at leaving her, he didn't know if she would again. But he would be damned if he would lose Hawke forever over this hatred of his.
Fenris raced through Hightown and if he met a single person who got in his way he would tear their heart out for keeping him from Hawke for longer than he needed. Fenris burst open the door to the estate and saw a shocked Orana staring at him. "Messsere, you startled me." Orana breathed as she relaxed slightly.
"Where is Hawke? Is she even here?" Fenris breathed harshly, struggling to regain his breath. Orana looked confused at him but spoke calmly. "She went to the Keep Messere; she left a short while after you left." Fenris raced out the door again to the short distance to the Keep. He opened the heavy doors and headed for her office. Vishante Kaffas, Empty. Where is she? Fenris walked to the window and looked out on the Viscount Private gardens. The rain made it difficult to see, however he did see a figure hunched over on one of the benches. He should have known, Hawke always said she liked to go to the Gardens because they were out-of-the-way and allowed her to be alone with her thoughts.
Fenris ran out of her office and down the stairs leading to a small hallway. Fenris slowed as he reached the open door leading to the secluded gardens. He walked out slowly and saw Hawke with her face in her hands sitting on one of the benches. Fenris walked silently towards her, he noticed her shoulders were shaking and he heard her sobbing quietly. He felt his heartbreak. His strong, beautiful, brave Hawke was crying. Crying over him and his bitterness. He promised he would never make her cry again, but he did.
"…Hawke…" Fenris whispered and he saw her stop shaking. She turned her head slowly towards him and he saw the tear tracks down her face despite the heavy rain. Her eyes, normally so bright full of mischief and life were filled with sadness and pain. She was soaked and he wondered how long she had been out here. "Fenris…" Hawke whimpered, Fenris cringed at the sorrow in her voice.
Fenris stored over to her and knelt in front of her, taking her cold hands into his much larger ones. He hated that he was the one who had done this to her. Fenris looked into her eyes and raised one hand to her cheek.
"Forgive me. I know I do not deserve it. I hurt you when I wanted to protect you, but I let my hatred and bitterness get in the way." Fenris sighed as he watched her. Hawke looked at him carefully "Fenris…"
"I wish I could give you the life and marriage that you deserve. I wanted everything to be perfect…But this hate, I thought it dies with Danarius, but I was wrong. I suffered much at his hands, and because of this past, I have made you suffer." Fenris gripped her hands tightly and looked into her eyes and his filled with passion and power.
"I know I failed you today Hawke. You gave me a blessing with our child and I was blinded by my past. But I will not let that stop me Hawke. I am too selfish to leave you. I will never hurt you again, and I will cut down anything or anyone that ever threatens or hurts you. I will prove my love for you and our child is greater than my hatred of any and all mages. Come what may; I am yours." Fenris finished and smiled softly and watched Hawke. The rain had made both of their hair cling to their faces, and Hawke raised her hand slowly from his and brushed a lock of his hair away from his eyes.
"You stupid elf. I want you to be with me as we raise our child, I don't need a perfect life, because I have you, and you are the most perfect thing in the world. I know your feelings about mages, and it's true, our baby could be a mage. But no matter what happens Fenris, I will love you." Hawke said and watched Fenris smile, nothing would ever be perfect, but she had him and that was all that mattered. Fenris couldn't contain himself, after everything he had done, Hawke still loved him.
"What did I ever do, that was so wonderful, that the Maker would bless me with you?"
"You came back."
Fenris kissed her roughly and wrapped his hand around her waist and cradled her cheek lightly with the other. Hawke ran her fingers through his hair and deepened the kiss. Their tongues battled for dominance as they embraced each other in the rain. Fenris had never felt so amazed by Hawke. She had done many incredible things in the time they had known each other. But the one thing that amazed Fenris to no end; was how she could love him like she did. The Maker had smiled when she was born; and Fenris felt that every horrible and dreadful thing to happen to him in his life was pale in comparison to the joy and love she gave him.
From the first moment he had felt that spark between them, and he knew she felt it too; if her flirtation had been any indication. Fenris stood up and brought Hawke with him while never breaking the kiss and eventually they pulled away, gasping for breath. Fenris smiled softly and took one of Hawke's hands and raised it to his lips kissing it lightly.
"Thank you, my love."
"Fenris, I haven't even started yet." Hawke giggled as she pulled Fenris along and out of the gardens through a small gate and led them back to the estate. Once they had gotten inside, Hawke asked Orana is she could quickly run them a bath before she went to bed. Orana went upstairs while Hawke walked into the centre of the hall and tuned to look back at Fenris as she stood in front of the fireplace.
"Let's try this again." Hawke laughed. Fenris smiled at the sweet sound, thankful to the Maker that she had such love for him.
"Fenris I'm pregnant. And it might be a mage." Fenris walked to her and took her hands.
"Thank you. And I could not careless that our baby might have magic. However, I will see if I can give it some siblings shortly." Fenris chuckled and kissed Hawke lightly. "You will my love, you will." Hawke walked to the kitchen and prepared some breads, meats and some sweet cakes Orana had made for her and Fenris; Fenris went to the cellar and found several bottles of Aggregio Hawke had bought earlier in the week. Orana had finished drawing their bath and had left them for the evening.
Fenris ascended the stairs and saw Hawke place their food along a table by the bathtub in the spare room. Hawke smiled at him and beckoned him closer with her finger. Fenris walked briskly towards her and placed the wine carefully next to the glasses she had placed out.
"I won't see you for three weeks Fenris, I will miss you." Hawke said as she ran her fingers along the clasps of him armour. Fenris smirked and freed himself of his clothes revealing his Lyrium etched skin. Hawke's eyes widened as she took in his well-toned, tanned body. Hawke loved his body, so strong and powerful, but also surprisingly soft and gentle when directed on her. Fenris' slender hands moved to untie her soaked robe, Hawke moved to help him, but he swatted her hands away. "I want to worship your body the way it deserves Hawke." Fenris lowered her robe and let it pool on the floor around her. Hawke looked up at him through her lashes and saw his pupils dilate as he reached for her breast band.
Hawke felt herself blush as Fenris slowly unclasped her bra and allowed himself to simply watch the rise and fall of her chest with her breathing. Fenris skimmed down her skin till he reached her panties and reached into them, with a shudder from Hawke, he suppressed a chuckle; Hawke was soaking wet and he had barely touched her. Hawke felt herself blush lightly at the effect he had on her. Fenris pulled them down softly and observed her; she was far from showing she was with child, his child. Once again she forgave him. He never thought he could love her more than he already did, but she gave him another reason.
Fernis helped Hawke into the bath and followed suit. They faced each other and began washing the other carefully. Fenirs was very thorough in washing her chest, which gained a smirk from Hawke as she returned the favour. Once they were both fully clean Hawke fed Fenris some food while he licked her fingers. Hawke smiled as she turned in the bathtub and relaxed into his chest. Fenris kissed the back of her head gently.
"Fenris?" Hawke asked quietly.
"Yes my love?" Fenris answered as he nuzzled his face into the side of her neck.
"I know I said it was fine. But please promise me that even if our baby is a mage; you won't leave me."
Fenris wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her cheek.
"I almost made the biggest mistake of my life today by leaving you. I will never let you go. I must go with Sebastian tomorrow; but I will not stay away from you for a second longer than necessary. I am a fool for ever wanting to leave." Fenris spoke softly.
Hawke turned slightly and kissed him gently and smiled. "I'll hold you to that, you know. And I will always forgive you Fenris; just don't annoy me with anything sharp nearby." Fenris chuckled darkly, and Hawke felt the vibrations from his chest.
"I promise." Fenris kissed her neck and smiled as he felt her rub against him.
Hawke stood and left the tub and Fenris followed suit. They dried themselves before Fenris picked Hawke up and carried her bridal style to the bed, and laid her down gently. Hawke smiled and he kissed her tenderly.
Hawke smiled as he kissed her sweetly and towered over her. Fenris tenderly kissed down her neck and licked her chest. Hawke moaned and arched into him as he took her nipple in her mouth. Fenris sucked and nipped her chest while Hawke writhing in pleasure beneath him. Once satisfied with her chest he kissed down her body till he reached her stomach and stopped.
Hawke sat up on her elbows to look at him, "Fenris?" He smiled and drew circles on her abdomen.
"I have a child. It is a strange thought. When I was still a slave I never thought that I would never have a child, and if I did; they would be doomed to a life of slavery. Even when I was free, the thought never appealed to me. Then you came. With your beautiful eyes and promising words. At first I thought you were insane; in fact I still do. But you showed me things I would have never seen before. How to feel, how to be happy, how to love. And I can never repay you for anything, and you continue to bless me with gifts."
Hawke smiled and placed a hand on top of his, stilling it. "Fenris, I love you more than anything; and this baby is the least I can do for you." Fenris smiled and kissed her hand before he continued with his task. Fenris licked her stomach and kissed his way till he reached her dripping sex. Fenris licked her aching pussy and earned a moan from Hawke. He nipped her sensitive nub and began to finger her.
Hawke moaned as he continued his sweet assault on her body. Hawke almost came when she felt Fenris insert a finger in her ass while still licking her pussy. Hawke moaned loudly as he sped up his fingers and after a few more pleasurable moments she came screaming his name. Hawke struggled to regain her breath, while Fenris chuckled. "Enjoy that, did you?"
"Shut up."
Fenris teased her folds with his aching cock and Hawke sighed softly as he entered slightly. Hawke raised her hips and he withdrew and raised an eyebrow with a devious smile. Hawke smiled. So this is the game, huh? Hawke smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him into a kiss, she felt his arms weaken slightly and smiled as she wrapped her legs around his waist and flipped them.
Fenris looked surprised but groaned when Hawke rocked her hips on his, sliding down him slightly before withdrawing. Fenris gripped her hips and thrust himself fully into her. Hawke threw her head back and thrust herself onto him. Fenris gripped her hips tightly and impaled her onto him. Hawke screamed as she felt him touch the opening of her womb with his dick. Fenris grunted as he pounded Hawke harder and gripped her ass harder.
"Fenris!" Hawke came and tensed her back, and Fenris thrust harder and came inside her. She collapsed on top of him while they struggled to catch their breath.
"Fenris, what time do you need to be ready to leave at?"Hawke looked up at him.
"Sebastian can wait, for I will only go when I am satisfied with you." Fenris chuckled and rubbed her ass.
"So never?"
"We shall see."
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