#7 Heaven
"You know, you can't go to heaven or hell"
What does that matter? They are mere concepts, and even if they do exist, enough people don't believe in them for my heaven to become the true one.
Why wait for a heaven one cannot be sure exists when there could be one on earth?
I shall be god, and I shall reign in my new heaven.
Though I do have my doubts at times. Because of that damn detective. He talks of how murder is an unjust action, no matter whom it is committed against.
I asked him once about his opinion of the death penalty in terms of the law.
He said that he was working diligently to have the death penalty abolished all together. He said darkly that death is no punishment.
He said death is easy.
Living is hard.
He is insane. How can death be an easy, simple thing? It's the most powerful thing a single person can do, kill or die. And with death as my weapon I will create a heaven for the living.
So I cannot go to heaven or hell. I don't care.
Because I am god, and soon my kingdom shall come to pass and I will rule with benevolence, with justice for the innocent, a safe world for the good-hearted.
Ryuzaki sometimes talks about heaven and hell and human souls.
He sits making castles of sugar cubes, speaking softly about how human nature means that at some point, everyone will be evil. He says that a true god is one who is loving and forgiving of sins.
A true god would not see the world in black and white as I do. He would see it as one large mass of grey.
Because according to Ryuzaki, L, no one soul is pure white or pure black.
Some days I can see his point, especially when he poses questions to me on morality.
'Light-kun,
if a man robs someone, say, a single man who lives alone and is
fairly well-off, do you think Kira would punish him?"
'Without
a doubt, theft is theft.'
'But what if the theif was very poor, and only stealing so that he could scrape together food for his starving family?'
I hate those questions.
I have to answer with ambiguity, because a lot of the time they make me doubt myself. What if someone kills somebody else in self-defence? What if robbery is to feed someone hungry? What if? What if?
And those times I have to steel myself.
What ifs do not matter. There are always other options besides crime, and with my influence people will take those options.
'Light-kun, how do you think god decides how people get into heaven?'
How can I answer that?
'Light-kun, if god did not want us to have the option of being evil, he would not have given us free will. It is as simple as the story of Adam and Eve. They were given free will and chose the tree of knowledge over innocence. They sinned and were cast out… but that is not to say that we cannot be forgiven our sins.'
I almost understand, Ryuzaki, what you're trying to say. That if Kira was really a god, he would allow redemption.
No.
I am a god, and I will create a heaven, and redemption is not an option, for sin is still sin, no matter what the cause. Adam and Eve knew the risks and sinned anyway.
They took the apple, and paid dearly.
'What kira would create would not be a heaven, but a world of fear and misery. People would walk the streets afraid to do anything for fear of Kira calling it a sin and bringing down his twisted idea of justice upon them'
What would you know about it, Ryuzaki?
You will die by my hand, eventually. I will see you fall from your throne and I will reign in my heaven, and you will watch from whatever netherworld you go to, and you will see with cold certainty that I was right.