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Chapter 7
The Lost bond (2)
What happened? Nothing seems right. This isn't happening…. I am losing my connection with Inuyasha, the only bond that I have. Is it because when Kikyou returned to my body, he promised her to go with her after he kills Naraku?
"Inuyasha, hurry! Get her back. Don't let her go back to her era, yet." Kaede yelled at Inuyasha who was still standing there, too shocked to move.
Kagome kept running till she stumbled in front of the well. She pushed herself up and climbed into the well right after Inuyasha arrived. He tried to hold her arm but Kagome already jumped in, Inuyasha followed. She started to disappear and Inuyasha hit the ground. "Kagome!!!" Inuyasha frantically started to dig the ground and yelling Kagome's name. It can't be happening. I can't go through. I can't go to where Kagome are. She needs me, no I need you, Kagome!!
On the other side of the well, Kagome arrived at her era. She can hear Inuyasha was calling out for her but he didn't come with her. Why didn't he come with me? He can't go through! Kagome froze didn't know what to think. Was it just like the spell? Did I really loose all my connections with Inuyasha?
Slowly Kagome pushed herself up and wiped off her tears. She then walked back to her house and saw her mom on the way. Mrs. Higurashi dropped all her bags and ran over to Kagome.
"Kagome, thank God that you're OK. Where have you been? Why didn't you come home for almost a month? We were worried." Mrs. Higurashi said hugging Kagome.
"I am sorry, mama." Tears that were dried before started to fall down again.
"It's Ok, take your time you can tell me when you're ready. Let's go inside, Grandpa and Souta would be very happy to see you." Mrs. Higurashi said gently.
Later that night Kagome was laying on her bed. She felt a lot better after hot bath. Grandpa and Souta didn't have a chance to ask anything since momma whisked them away while saying that Kagome needs her rest and will explain everything later.
A lot of things happen today. What is Inuyasha doing now? Why can I sit him anymore? Why didn't he come after me? Did he really lose all his feelings to me now?" The pain in her heart started again and this time was more intense. Why won't this pain go away? I always knew that Inuyasha loves Kikyou and he probably ended up going to hell with Kikyou. I stayed because I love Inuyasha and I want him to live. I thought being with him, seeing him happy, smiling, laughing would be enough for me. But then He already decided his path. What if I am pregnant? Will he care? I wish Kikyou never exist!! Kagome gasped. It hurts. Since when I became this horrible? Maybe I have to give up. I can't see Inuyasha anymore. Kagome started to cry. I can not see him like this.
In the hall, Mrs. Higurashi who were just raised her hand to knock on the door stopped. She can hear Kagome was crying and slowly she turned away back to her own room. Be strong, Kagome.
It's been 2 months since Kagome went back to her home. Everytime when she walked passed the old well she would turn her head away. Souta, and Grandpa has stopped asking her why Inuyasha never came to pick her up or why she never went back to Feudal Era anymore. They've tried couple times to ask but mama always stopped them by stirring the conversation away. She knew she had to go back, Miroku's time was limited since his air void on his hand has worsen since the last battle with Naraku, then there's Kohaku's life, Sango must have been very worried, she also missed Shippo, Kirara , Kaede and the most importantly was Inuyasha. She was carrying Inuyasha's baby but what if he denied the child? What if he still wanted to go with Kikyou? Everytime she thought about those possibility, she staggered and felt like running away. The fact that she was carrying his child made her afraid and happy at the same time. At least she has something from Inuyasha and that made her less depressed and kept her sane. She has been in despair for these 2 months and if it wouldn't because the existence of the baby, she knew she could not live on. She busied herself with extra classes that she has to take before she was allowed to take her final test again but the time felt passing by so slowly.
Kagome just came back from her school and went straight to her room. She was sitting on her bed thinking how to let her mom know that she was pregnant. She has been losing her appetite, gagging most of the time plus nauseated. Kagome even can feel that her mom probably noticed that too. She was holding a mirror in front of her face practicing how to tell her mom about the baby.
"Congratulations, mom! You're going to be a grandma! No, that's sound stupid. How 'bout, Mom, I am going to be a mom. No, that's not right either." She tried to smile but it looked like a painful grin in front of the mirror. I am only teenager. I haven't even finished my junior high, yet. Will mom be disappointed with me?
She thought in her mind when she heard a soft knock on her door.
"May I come in?" Mrs. Higurashi popping out her head from the door.
"Uh..yes mom, please come in." Kagome put down the mirror. Mrs. Higurashi walked in with a cup of tea on her hand then put it on Kagome's study desk.
"Momma, can I talk to you please?" Kagome asked her mom.
"Hm…is there anything that bothering you, Kagome?" Mrs. Higurashi smiled and sit on her study chair.
"Hm….I..uh…I …am pregnant." Kagome said looking down on her hands.
"I thought so, Kagome. I saw the symptoms but I wanted you to tell me. Did you tell Inuyasha?" Mrs. Higurashi looked at Kagome who was still looking down.
"Not yet….I am afraid." Kagome said shaking her head. "You're not mad or disappointed?" Kagome looked at her mom. Who was now has a small smile on her face.
"Why? I know that you love Inuyasha, even though I would prefer till you finish your school and get married with him but I trust you, Kagome. There's must be a reason why you did it." Mrs. Higurashi now walked to Kagome and sit beside her.
"Why didn't you tell Inuyasha? Even though we will be here for you, but it would be easier if he is with you besides he has the right to know his child." Mrs. Higurashi put her hand on Kagome's hand trying to give her strength.
"I…am so afraid. I don't know his reaction and I am afraid he will ...I uh…." Kagome couldn't finish her word and started to cry.
"Sh…Kagome, Inuyasha is a good boy, I don't think he would do that kind of thing if he didn't love you." Mrs. Higurashi said hugging Kagome shoulder.
"He didn't know, momma." Kagome sobbed even harder. Mrs. Higurashi was confused but didn't ask anything. She was hugging Kagome till she calmed down.
"He was poisoned and I helped him to purify the poison." Kagome said between her hiccups. Mrs. Higurashi was sure confused but still didn't want to ask. She trusted her daughter and knew that it might be the best decision to make at the time.
"You love Inuyasha, don't you?" Mrs. Higurashi asked.
"I love him so much, momma. It hurts….and I am afraid, momma. Afraid he will reject me or our baby." Kagome said still sobbing.
"Kagome, sometimes it's Ok to be afraid. Momma still remembers when you just started to learn how to walk. You keep falling and you cry a bit but you always get up again and again until you can take your first step, then walk then run. You see, Kagome everyone has their own path, their destiny in life, sometimes it was hard and rocky other times probably it would be smoother but we always have to be strong in order to keep going. You will fall numerous times but you will also get up and walk again, because along the way to your destiny will come love, joy, friends, or even happiness." Mrs. Higurashi looked at Kagome who already quiet down. "Running away is never a solution, face it you might get more than what you expect. It's ok to fail sometimes but take it as a lesson, a lesson to make you stronger." Mrs. Higurashi felt Kagome hugged her even tighter. "Thank you, Momma." Kagome smiled at her mom.
You're welcome, Kagome chan. Now Momma has to cook more since you are eating for 2 people." Mrs Higurashi started to walk out to the door. "You think the baby will have puppy ears like Inuyasha? It would be soooo cute." Mrs. Higurashi asked turning her head to Kagome with a happy smile.
Kagome felt so much better after talking to her mom. All her burden and pain seemed to be fading away. Yes, I have to go back. I have to tell Inuyasha besides I miss Shippo, Miroku Sama, Sango, Chan, Kaede Sama, and Kirara there. I wonder whether they would forgive me for not going back this 2 months. Well, I just have to find out then. Kagome started to pack her stuffs then walked down the stairs carrying her bag pack.