Our first conversation he told me he' d never love again, and it kinda hurt. He was heart broken and so was I. But wasn't everyone else? As much as I wanted to tell him how much i loved him, words just didn't work for me. I tried to prove that I wasn't like most girls. In fact I wasn't; I hate being a girl and human, but he makes it worth it. I wanted him to know i could try and heal the the pain. That I would never do anything to cause him more pain.

The day I first met you
You told me you never fall in love
But now that I get you
I know fear is what it really was
Now here we are
So close, yet so far
Haven't I passed the test?
When will you realize
Baby im not like the rest?

Don't wanna break your heart
Wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to waste (to waste)
So let me give your heart a break, give your heart a break
Let me give your heart a break , give your heart a break
Oh yeah, yeah

Before I had met my best friend, I had a small crush on a boy at school. He made me think he was liked me, but totally lied. I felt like crying, but that's not in my nature. But I felt like I was broken, like I had fallen hard and i was completely shattered. It was like he was doing it on purpose, like he knew it was hurting me both mentally and physically. Like he knew that I'd feel like nothing mattered anymore. And with everything that had happened in my life that broke me completely. But I decided not to let it break me just yet.

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching tear drops in my hands
Only silence as it's ending
Like we never had a chance
Do you have to make me feel like
There's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

Why is love so... complicated. Why can't a guy ever love me? i don't ask a lot of why questions, but WHY!? Why, why, why? Why am I worthless, useless, weird, stupid, crazy, unlovable. Why?

Songs: Give your Heart a Break and Skyscraper by Demi Lovato. These questions really are going through my head. And if there going through yours Listen to Born this Way by Lady gaga and F** Perfect by P!nk and change your mind. Unfortunately I can't ever change my mind it's also not in my nature, like crying.
Anyway, please review and tell me what you thought. Thanks.

Au revior!

-Shay.