The next day

Santana took her team to her old high school and sighs. She walks into the school and looks around. The moment they get to a door, she freezes and looks at them. "You do realize that you're about to enter a room with emotional people?"

Rossi wraps his arm around her, and looks down at her slightly. "Of course we do. But remember, we're here to support you."

Prentiss nods. "Rossi's right, San."

Santana nods and bites her lip, before walking into the room. "Guys, I brought my team with me. They wouldn't let me come alone. They say that I'm "emotionally challenged" at the moment."

Kurt shrugs. "It's fine, San. But Rach couldn't come because she was up all night crying."

Santana nods and sighs. "I know. She called me at three in the morning." She yawns. "And every hour after that."

Rossi looks at Santana. "Why didn't you tell us? One of us could have talked to her so you could get some sleep."

Quinn goes to Santana and smiles. "Ok, before you fall, let's get you sitting down."

Brittney looks at Quinn. "You know Santana won't get any sleep if someone she cares about needs her."

Santana's team watch how the people in the room interact.

Quinn pushes Santana lightly into a seat and frowns. "Now rest or I'll have to call your mother!"

Santana glares at Quinn. "You wouldn't dare. I'm 26 years old! I don't exactly have to listen to my parents anymore." She puts a hand over her mouth and yawns.

Kurt looks at Santana. "Quinn's right. You need to rest. You've hardly slept since Rachel and I got to your place."

Rossi frowns. "Santana, you need rest. You cant not sleep."

Santana glares at Kurt and Rossi. "Who's side are you guys on?!"

Prentiss puts a hand on Rossi's shoulder to keep him from talking and looks at Santana. "San, we're on the side that means you're healthy. So please get some rest."

Kurt puts a hand on Santana's knee. "San, please rest. For us."

Santana sighs and frowns. "I'll rest tonight."

Morgan looks at Santana and Kurt. "So that you can rest, San, can sleep on the couch of my hotel room."

Prentiss nods. "Same for Rachel and me."

Rossi looks at Santana. "You're staying in my hotel room tonight and I'll check to make sure you're resting."

Santana sighs. "Fine. You guys win. I'll rest."

10 minutes later.

A man walks into the room and writes "Finn" on the marker board, before looking at everyone. "I'm glad all of you were able to come back here. The funeral was for everyone, but now we're going to remember Finn in the only way we can. I want you to choose a song to sing in Finn's memory. You can decide today and we'll start tomorrow."

Mercedes gets up and walks to the man. "I can't wait, Mr. Shoe. I've been crying since I found out. If I don't do this now, I don't think I'll ever be able to."

Mr. Shoe nods and sits down. "Alright, Mercedes."

Santana leans against Rossi and watches Mercedes.

Rossi holds Santana and kisses her head.

Mercedes sighs. "I remember Finn telling me that he sang this song to his baby's ultra-sound… Well he thought it was his baby. He was the first cool kid to be nice to any of us, and he was our leader in here. We love you, Finn." She nods the man behind the Piano and begins to sing "I'll Stand by You".

As Mercedes kept singing, the BAU team watched as Santana and the others began to sing with the woman until the song was over.

After Mercedes, Santana went to the memorial. But when she found out that Sue had ordered it be taken down, she went to see her old coach.

Sue was sitting on her desk, looking at some papers.

Santana glares at Sue. "You had no right to take the memorial down!"

Sue looks at Santana. "Yeah I do. I let it be up for the last week."

Santana throws her hands up in the air. "You wanted that memorial gone because you're such a cold-hearted bitch."

Sue frowns. "What did you just a call me?"

Santana takes a step towards Sue. "A miserable, self-centered bitch, who has spent every waking minute of the past three years trying to make our lives miserable. I'm officially over it.

Sue walks away from Santana. "I don't care for your attitude."

Santana waves her hands around. "Well I don't give a hot wet monkey's ass what you care for." She goes to Sue. "You're not my principle. You see I don't go here anymore, Sue, and that means I can finally tell you exactly what I think about you. I have hated you ever since the day I met you. You're a horrible person, who never had a nice word to say about Finn Hudson. So don't you dare think for a second that he didn't hate you too."

Sue looks at Santana. "If I were you, I'd chose my next few words very carefully."

Santana shakes her head, tears in her eyes. "What are you going to do? Expel me?"

Sue steps towards Santana. "You get the hell out of my office."

Santana gets in Sue's face. "How about you make me get the hell out of your office."

Sue looks at the secretary. "Donna, call the police."

Santana turns to look at the secretary. "Donna, you pick up that phone and I swear to god, I'll shove my foot so far up-"

Sue yells. "That's assault."

Santana turns around. "No this is assault." She then shoves Sue into a filing cabinet.

Sue stares at Santana wide-eyed.

Santana turns and walks out of Sue's office.

10 minutes later, after she had calmed down from her argument with Sue, Santana walked into the glee club and looked at everyone. "Ok, I know that Finn had his doubts about God, but I'm convinced that Squishyteets is up in Heaven right now, plopped down next to his new best friend Fat Elvis, helping themselves to a picnic of baby back ribs smothered in butterscotch pudding and tater tot grease. So, this is for you, Hudson."

Rossi looks at Santana, wondering why she'd say mean stuff about a dead person.

Santana sighs and begins to sing If I die young:

Santana: If I die young, bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in the river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song Uh oh, uh oh Lord, make me a rainbow I'll shine down on my mother She'll know I'm safe with you When she stands under my colors, oh And life ain't always what you think it oughta be, no Ain't even grey but she buries her baby The sharp knife of a short life Well, I've had just enough time If I die young bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in the river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song The sharp knife of a short life Well, I've had just enough time

Santana (New Directions): And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom (Hey, hey) I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger (Hey, hey) I've never known the lovin' of a man (Hey, hey) But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand (Hey, hey) There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever (Hey, hey) Who would have thought forever could be severed by (Hey, hey)

Santana (with New Directions): (The sharp knife of a short life) Well, I've had just enough (time) Ooh, yeah Ooh, whoa So put on your best boys And I'll wear my pearls What I never did is done A penny for my thoughts, oh no I'll sell them for a dollar They're worth so much more after I'm a goner And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singin' Funny when you're dead how people start listenin' Oh, if I die young

Santana with New Directions: Bury me in satin Lay me down on a bed of roses Sink me in the river at dawn Send me away with the words of a love song

Santana (New Directions): Uh oh (uh oh)

Before Santana can finish the song, she breaks down in tears. But when Mike and Mr. Shoe went to calm her down, she screamed and ran out of the room.

Kurt, Rossi, and the rest of the BAU went to find Santana, finding her in the Auditorium. The team stayed out of sight, while Kurt walks towards Santana and says. "You ok? You sang beautifully."

Santana looks at her lap. "I couldn't do it."

Kurt keeps walking towards Santana. "There was only one more chorus."

Santana sighs. "No not the song. I had this whole plan to surprise everyone and not be a bitch for once in my life and say all these nice things about Finn, and at the last minute, I chickened out. I even wrote them all down."

Kurt sits on the stage by Santana. "Would you read it to me?"

Santana shakes her head. "No I can't. It's too embarrassing, they're like really nice."

Kurt looks at Santana. "If there's one thing I've learned from Finn dying, it's that shame is a wasted emotion. I'm sure Finn had secrets too, but who cares now? Do you really think that one day on your deathbed, you're really going to think 'oh good, no one knew I was kind?'"

Santana sighs and unfolds the paper in her hand. "Ok. When we had sex, Finn never stopped asking me if I was ok the whole time and he meant it. One time Becky Jackson left a piece of chocolate birthday cake on my chair and when I sat on it, it looked like I'd pooped my pants. So Finn walked behind me until I could get out of school so no one saw my chocolate butt and thought I'd messed myself."

Kurt smiles. "Yeah, you would have never lived that one down."

Santana folds the paper back up. "No. He was a much better person than I am."

Kurt nods. "That is true."

Santana looks down.

Kurt looks at Santana. "But Finn really cared about you. And I don't think he would've done all those things if he didn't think you were decent, too."

Santana takes in a shake breath, tears forming in her eyes again. "Can you leave please?"

Kurt gets up and starts to walk off, but stops and looks at Santana. He takes off the lettermen jacket he was wearing and puts it on Santana's shoulders, then walks off.

Santana wraps the jacket around her and silently sobs.

Rossi and the team slowly make their way to Santana and look at her.

Prentiss frowns. "San, why didn't you tell us about the things you just told Kurt?"

JJ puts a hand on Santana's knee.

Morgan frowns.

Santana bites her lip. "T-The reason Finn and I had sex was because he found about the rapes and about how those were the reasons I decided to say I was a lesbian. H-He wanted to help me, by showing me that what those guys did to me, wasn't sex, and he was proven right…"

Hotch looks at Rossi, wondering how the older man was taking this news.

Rossi looks at Santana. "Were you ever going to tell me this?"

Santana looks at Rossi, tears running down her cheeks. "Of course I was going to tell you, but I was hoping to wait till I was calm about Finn's death."

Prentiss looks at Santana. "Why don't we take a walk, while they help Rossi cool down."