Well, another update! See the way there's not like, a month gap between this update and the last one?
Know why?
Coz I love ye!
Soon I will have the dramatic meeting between Bella and Edward, not yet, I have to figure out what's gonna happen Hmmm!
Anyway, eat fruit, be well, enjoy summer, don't do anything Edward wouldn't do!
Disclaimer: Still not mine, Frank STILL is, back off Meyer!
Love,
The mirror girl aka Paula!
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After Anna had left, Frank went through her bag, looking for an address, a number, something he could use to locate her. He was confused. All the ID cards, passports, credit cards said Isabelle Swan. Who the hell was Isabelle Swan? At first he thought they were stolen, until he looked at the pictures. Nope, it was definitely his Anna, he would recognise her anywhere now, her hair, her eyes…
She'd lied about her name. He was surprised for some reason, but thinking back, it wasn't that surprising. He was a complete stranger to her really. On her ID card, however, it had her address in Forks, where ever that was. He decided the least he could do was to return her bag after what he had done.
He did feel bad, he did. He doubted Anna…Isabelle…would believe that, but he honestly did. He wasn't a bad person really, he was just scared of committing in any way since her..
"I love you baby" Frank whispered in Sarah's ear.
"I know you do sweetheart. But I have to get to sleep, I have stuff to do tomorrow." she murmured, sleepily, yawning.
She reached over and turned off the lamp. She fell asleep curled up facing the wall and with Frank's arm draped across her waist, holding her to him.
That was the last time he ever saw her…
That memory still haunted him. He fished his wallet out of the pocket of his jeans, reached into the compartment with his credit cards and drivers licence and pulled out the piece of paper that he carried around with him everywhere.
Dear Frank,
This is the most painful letter I have ever written, and I wish I didn't have to write it at all.
I'm HIV positive Frank, and I feel that it's best for both of us if we never see each other again.
I love you, and I don't want to put you through this.
I'm sorry…
Sarah.
The note was in her beautiful slanted writing. Every time he read it, he imagined her sitting at the table, tears in her eyes writing such a painful letter. He remembered when he went to the doctors and got tested for HIV, and how much he had wished that Sarah had brought him with her for her test. It was the worst wait of his life. It turned out he was HIV negative, which was unbelievably lucky according to the doctors. But he never heard from her again, which broke his heart. Reading the note still made him want to cry, even now.
He wondered was Isabelle dealing with something similar, and what her story was.
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Bella was…somewhere. She didn't know, or quite frankly care at this point. She really didn't know what there was left for her in Forks, but what was there for her anywhere else.
You know why he left you…Ana told her. You worthless bitch, you're a fuck, that's all you are.
Tears dripped down Bella's cheeks. She was sick of crying. She was always crying.
It was night by now. She pulled into an alley and stopped the truck. A man in a leather trench coat came over to the window and she rolled it down. "What ya got?" Bella asked him.
"How do I know you're not a cop?" he asked her, suspiciously.
Bella rolled her eyes. "Coz my eyes are red and puffy and I'm still just a teenager. Now, give me what ya got, or I'll go somewhere else. I'm sure there's more than one drug dealer in this town." she snapped, pissed off at this stage.
"Fair enough." He said, slipping a sealed plastic bag half filled with the white powder into her hand, and in the same gesture she pressed the notes into his palm. White gold, she thought, smiling slightly. He glanced at the money, nodded and walked slowly away from the truck.
Half an hour later, and she was riding her high, a white residue under her left nostril. She looked around her, her vision obscured. She was shivering, and covered in a sweat, but this was to be expected.
She imagined Edward shaking his head in disappointment, but she knew that was just a hallucination from the coke. She knew she couldn't trust anything she saw right know. She knew that much from past experiences, when she imagined she was being ripped apart by vampires and she screamed and lashed out, bruising her hands and feet in the process.
Her face was covered in an icy sheen, and her pupils were huge.
Renee was sitting beside her in the truck, and she was crying, looking at her baby girl shaking.
"Renee, don't cry.." Bella pleaded. Bella didn't think that Renee could be a hallucination, and instead tried to comfort her.
"Look at you. Only a short time ago, you were my cute little baby girl, now you're dying from drug use and wasting away, because of him." She spat out that last word, with as much venom as Bella had ever heard Renee use.
"I don't know what to do" Bella was weeping now, ashamed of what she had let herself become. This wasn't her. She was the cute, clumsy girl her mother knew. "I need him just to survive. He's everything. I love him Renee!"
"I'm not gonna say no guy is worth that, because that's in no way comforting. So instead what I am going to say is that you're not just hurting yourself, you're hurting people that care about you, like me, Charlie, Jake, Angela etc." Renee's face was shiny with tears and Bella felt like she was going to die from shame, no, wished she would.
But before Bella could say anything, Renee was gone, and Bella was once again alone in her truck.
Later Bella would realise she had hallucinated her mother's presence, but for now she wept about what her mother had witnessed.
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Jake was frantic. Bella was missing. Missing. And Angela had helped it happen. He didn't blame Angela, he wanted to, but just couldn't. Of course she would cover for Bella, they were friends, and girls covered for each other, but, of all times.
At times like these, he just wanted to attack and kill the scum that was Edward Cullen. How dare he do that to Bella. What had Bella done to deserve that. She loved that vampire bastard.
How could she not have seen how much better off she would've been if her and Edward had never gotten together, and if she'd gotten with him instead?
No time to dwell on that now though. He was desperate. How would he find her?
He was in Angela's kitchen, pacing. Angela was sitting at the table staring into her cup of tea that she had made for herself, her finger tracing the shape of the rim of the mug with her index finger, as if she was hypnotised.
Jacob banged his fists on the table, breaking her trance.
"I can NOT just sit here all day, I am going to find her." Jake announced, walking towards the door.
Angela got up, as if to follow him, but he snarled, and in a low growl he said "Don't you think you've done enough damage?"
"Yes. Which is why I want to find her." Angela said, hurt that Jake felt that way about her.
"Fine. But I'm driving." Jake said, reluctantly.
Angela nodded her head and grabbed her keys.
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Edward was sitting in the kitchen of the Cullen mansion. It looked so empty and dusty now.
What had he done?
His Bella, he had left her, and he had broken her spirit in the process.
He was evil.
But at least she was alive.
Barely.
What would he do when he found her?
Would he ask for her back?
Would she want him back?
He remembered her smile. Remembering what Charlie's thoughts had shown him, she hadn't smiled in a long time, since he had left.
That made him want to die.
What had Alice seen that scared her so much that he had had to return to Forks, to find Bella?
Her lifestyle was killing her, but it wasn't that.
Was she pregnant?
Was she going to get raped or murdered?
These questions drove him insane.
Bella…
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OK! That's the end of that chapter! I would reeeeally like to thank FadingtoDawn for her review, and giving me the idea of bring Renee into it!
I will probably update again tomorrow night, but if I don't, I'm sorry!
You Found Me- The Fray helped me write when Bella hallucinated Renee and No Good Deed- the Wicked Soundtrack helped me write the scene with Jake.
Please review, they motivate me to write more!
Love,
The mirror girl
PAULA!