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-I am not Stephanie Meyer therefore I do-

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-I wish I did own Edward but sadly I do-

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Just a crush?

BPOV

Song for this chapter 'Forever Lost by The Magic Numbers'. I just want to say that I'm going to start to edit through my chapters properly so they might take longer to post. 1 chapter every 2 or 3 days. Thanks for reading and reviewing.

We were laughing about Lauren's face in biology when my phone went off. I unlinked our arms, resistant, I didn't want to let go of him. But was relieved when he placed his arm over my shoulder. So, I went to my mobile. I flipped up the lid to see a screen saying 'You've received a message'. I opened up the text only to see a picture Angela had sent me. It was of Mike's face looking extremely pissed. The message below said,

tis ws aftr him w8tin in the restaurant 4 3 hours! At the end he ordered 5 pizza's n had eatn tem all! I dnt knw how he did it but it ws funi... So, howz u? Hav u gt a bf yet or r all the guys BUT-UGLY lyk thy r ova ere? Wher r mi pics of ur guys facez at ur nw skwl?! I am v. ashamed of u Bella,

luv, Angela.xo

I replied as quickly as I could,

Hey Angela, I bet u wr wettin urself in tht restaurant. Wher ws he goin 2 tak mi aniway? I'm gd, howz u? No, I havnt gt a bf ova ere but ther r a few H-O-T guys, honest, u hav 2 cum ere. NOW! Aniway I ws 2 busy staring at their faces 2 take any pics, sorry. Please dont be ashamed of mi, lurvin u n missin u.

Bella xoxo

"So, am I one of these H-O-T guys?" Edward asked pronouncing each syllable separately.

"Why were you reading my text and sure you can be one of my hot guys?" I said innocently before burst into a laughter fit.

"What's funny about me being a H-O-T guy?" He asked me seriously, but I could see the sides of his lips twitching holding back a smile, "if I do remember correctly, my little hottie, wasn't everyone in our old school calling me, what was it again? Hot Nerd?" He frowned, "But now I suppose I am just a guy and you are now officially THE hottie, you should try out for the cheerleaders, give me an A." He said as he held open the door.

"For an amateur like me you could have at least made me do an I or something," He smiled and I laughed, "Maybe next time," was his reply and then we fell into a comfortable silence as we drove to the movies.



We arrived around 10 minutes later. Edward quickly go out of his side of the car and opened my door for me and offered me his hand, I quickly took it and felt an electric shock run from the tips of fingers to the ends of my toes at his touch. I felt so right. But, I cannot have a crush on Edward. He is my best friend.

But, what's the harm if I did like him, he is after all a god. I mean every time I look at him it takes my breath away, it takes me minutes to recover. In biology I just felt like stretching out my hand and running my fingertips over the hidden muscles of his arms and lean in and use my one kiss. I just wanted to crush my lips to his and feel the warmth of is against mine. He must have thought I was insane, my fingers tight on the edges of the table to stop myself from doing anything I would soon regret. Edward, the god he is, could never like someone as plain as me. I just had plain brown hair and plain brown eyes. I was nothing special and could never imagine Edward could ever have feelings for me.

I soon came to the thinking that, I could like Edward and try not to let Edward find out. The problem was, as I kept on thinking about him it made me come to terms how much I liked him, this wasn't just a small crush that would go away in time.

I'm in love with the only people I could never have. But he is also the one person, I know now that I can't live without and now that I know the way I feel, I had to hide it at all costs. Never let him find out.

"What do you want to see?" Edward asked me with his crooked smile, looking down at me, that smile made it even more hard to not look at his luscious lips but his eyes shook me every time I saw them, I stared into them not even wanting to look away, I kept eye contact while I answered, I couldn't look away, "What's on?", with that I peeled my eyes from his to look at the listings.

"It's only romance or horror," he said looking at me again, I held in my gasp as I saw the emerald of his eyes once again, my eyes travelled down his body, this time I noticed not only was his arms covered in the right size and amount of muscles but so was his chest and stomach, through his 'not too tight but not too loose' shirt you could see his 6-pack no wait 8-pack, it was breathtaking. This time I did gasp out loud.

"Bella? Bella, are you ok?" he sounded scared as he looked down at his shirt. I took a deep breath but my voice was still wavering when I spoke, "I-I'm f-fine," I managed to stutter out, this time I couldn't peel my eye's from the god-like creature in front of me. As I looked into his eye's they locked with mine and I could feel my hand moving towards his face, I just wanted to reach out a touch it, not as friends but as lovers? I clenched my hands into fists at my side to stop myself from doing what I really wanted to do.

"Horror," I blurted out quickly, it nearly sounded like I was shrieking. I don't think I could hold back my hands and lips, in a dark theatre while watching, the main character's of the romance falling in love. He bought the tickets and I bought the food. We walked into the theatre and sat down, my eyes still roaming his body, I tried but I just couldn't stop.

"Bella, are you sure you are ok?" he asked me sounding concerned. How come he got to be gorgeous and have the best personality anyone has ever had in the history of man (Man, get it? My little joke, 

sorry but this story is ALL HUMAN, Edward is not a vampire, sorry). I let out a sigh before the lights turned out and the cinema went dark. Soon I found that the horror movie was probably a much worst option than the romance.

Only 5 minutes into the film, I found myself screaming, along with many others, one nasally scream the loudest, when one of the 16 main characters got murdered. I felt Edward grab my hand and ask me if I was alright, I felt my heart beating excruciatingly fast in my chest at his touch, I wanted more than anything to intertwine our fingers just to see his reaction. But I knew I couldn't. He was my best friend. This time I would follow my brain and not my heart. Oh, how much I wanted to follow my heart when I felt his hand move from mine to the seat again. I thought I was going to cry. But quickly excused myself to the bathroom before I either leapt on him and kissed his face off, or started crying my eyes out in a theatre because he didn't love me and he never would. What am I going to do?

I plonked myself onto the toilet seat and cried, I cried like there was no tomorrow but had to stop thinking about how Edward would be wondering where I was. Or would he? Did he even care about me? These questions lead onto more questions and those questions lead onto a new round of tears.

I stepped out of the cubicle about 10 minutes later, splashed myself with cold water and told myself I could do it. I could pretend to be just best friends with the person I love because I could never be anything more... I needed him to be in my life more than I needed him. I sighed and walked back into the movie, I closed my eyes hoping that the fact that he was sitting next to me, less than an inch away wouldn't sink in, I blocked out the screaming of the speakers and soon found myself drifting into unconsciousness dreaming of Edward.

"Edward," I giggled his name as he held my hand and kissed it.

"Yes, my love," he replied kissed my lips lightly.

"I love you," I said.

"I know and I love you more," He said before his lips crashed onto mine, with such passion, I felt his tongue begging for an entrance and I allowed it, our mouths moved synchronized with each others, he pulled me closer to him, his hands on my waist, I intertwined my hands in his hair and was never going to let go until we both pulled off, both gasping for breath but still holding onto each other like we were the only people in the whole world.

"Edward," I gasped still struggling for breath, he didn't look in a better state either, he couldn't even answer.

I leaned in, "I don't think that's even possible, I honestly believe more than anything that I love you more," I whispered in his ear. He turned to me once again and sighed, "I know it shouldn't but I love you more than life itself, I would die for you Bella." And with that we were once again pulled into our own world as I intertwined my fingers in his hair tighter, feeling as if I let go this would stop, I needed Edward even if it was only in a dream.



EPOV

It had been at least 20 minutes since Bella asked to be excused. I was worried. She seemed so distant ever since I had helped her out the car. Occasionally she would look at me... but never at my face. The one time we did I felt I couldn't move my gaze from her beautiful, big, brown eyes.

"Move your legs, Eddie," she joked as she sat down but she looked like she was in pain as she was saying it, I let myself look at her once, only to see that she looked like she had been crying and was still holding back the tears, she closed her eyes and I moved mine back to the screen. When it looked like the film was nearly finished, I heard Bella giggle my name.

"Yes?" I whispered to her only to hear no reply. I looked at her to see she was asleep and was smiling repeating my name this time like she was gasping for breath. Was Bella dreaming about me? I smiled at the thought but quickly shook it from my head, Bella would never think of me in that way, I was just the nerd and she was a hottie, not even my hottie.

He lights switched on and everyone had left and I couldn't stop looking at her. She looked even more like an angel as she slept. If that was even possible. I felt a tap on my shoulder and I turned around to see Jessica and Lauren standing there with too much makeup, too short mini-skirts and too tight shirts.

"Your friend doesn't seem to be much company, but Eddie," I inwardly growled at her calling me that name, Bella's name for me, "we can keep you company." Jessica purred as she tried to lower me onto my lap. I quickly stood up.

"I'm ok, thank you, I'm just going to take Bella home," I didn't want to wake Bella up when she looked so peaceful and occasionally saying my name. I picked her up in my arms and at this is I saw jealously? Brush across Jessica and Lauren's faces. I just carried Bella through the doors of the theatre to my car. I didn't really realise I was carrying her, she was so light. The movie was nearly 3 hours long, 3 hours of pure gore, Emmett would have loved it. I was deciding whether to drive her home or just get something to eat before hand when I realised I didn't know where she lived, I would have to go home first and ask Carlisle where Chief Swan lived. I was still trying to persuade myself this was a good idea when I turned into my drive.

Bella did say she wanted to meet my family.

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Bella loves Eddie. Eddie loves Bella. Neither are going to tell each other the way they feel. So who will? Please review and I hope I did a better job of editing with this chapter.

Lots of hugs,

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