I had been sleeping for a while now and right then was when I realized something. If I was nearly dead, how ocme Edward still wouldn't change me, or now that I couldnt walk, why wouldn't he change me now? Then Regina wouldn't be so much different than me after all. I guess he really would rather die than change me. But why?
I fell asleep again and woke the next day to people talking loudly. I saw Carlisile's beautiful face looking down on me and they were rolling me down the hallway. Something bad must be happening. Again.
But no. Carlisle's shimmering face was smiling down on me. And not like a fake smile like doctors do when they lie to you. A real smile, the first happy one I've seen in days.
"Carlisle?" I whispered, still voiceless.
"Yes Bella, great news, you'll be able to walk again!" He shouted.
He's lieing. Impossible. I'm not that lucky. I just looked at him for a few seconds and he must have noticed my in-shock face.
"Bella. Did you hear me? You're going to be alright!" He smiled and turned me into a new room. This room was probably the most exiting room in the whole place, the walls were not white, but green. There was 1 hospital bed and 2 confy chairs. If he was serious, I might actually be able to sit in a real chair again. I looked for Edward's face, not sure if I really wanted him there. I didn't know what to think about him now but I coulndn't ever bring myself to hate him.
Carlise touched the end of my portable bed and leaned it at a slant so I could get off. I just looked at him with a mystified expression.
"You are truly the most amazing girl. To be able to walk again after jumping from 6 stories, let alone live. Your one leg is still broken but it will heal in time. You are the luckiest girl in the world." Carlisle said, still smiling. It almost seemed like he was happier than me, and I was pretty happy. He held up crutches for me and I still didn't get how I was supposed to get up.
"Bella, I need you to get up. I'll hand you the crutches and then you go get to the bed. You can do it."
I was still totally shocked that this was happening and not sure how to do this. The portable bed was only a few feet from the hospital bed. I might be able to make it. I was in doubt, but I'll try. I put my hand up on the bed and lifted myself up and slid my feet to the end of the bed. I really could move my one leg! It was amazing! I couldn't believe this was happening. I felt a broad smile reach my face, the only one I had done since I had first left for Arkansas. I slid my good leg down and it touched the cold floor. My smile got bigger. I leaned on to my one leg and I was standing! I was really standing!
Carlisle handed me the crutches slowly and I took them and I really could move again! It was amazing. Out of mine and Carlisle's new joy, a knock on the door startled me. It was Edward and Regina. She completely ruined the moment seeing her beautiful face enter my personal enjoyment. Edward's face matched up with my slowly fading smile and he walked up to Carlisle.
"Oh my god, Bella you can walk again!" His musical voice called over. He was safe with keeping his distance from me. I didn't know why.Regina didn't move from the doorway. Good thing.
My bad leg pained me severly so I sat down on the bed and rubbed them furiously. Carlisle rushed over to me and said, "We're going to have to bandage that up when you go to sleep."
I couldn't get myself to smile again. It didn't matter if I could walk again. I still didn't have what I wanted the most. Edward.
"Umm, Carlisle, can I have a moment alone with Bella?" He was talking to Carlisle but he was looking at Regina with a sorry look.
She nodded and you could tell it was reluctant. Everybody flooded from the room and Edward sat on the bed next to me. His smile had faded also.
I didn't know what to say to him, unlike how it used to be a long time ago.
"You know I still can't believe it." he paused and layed down on my bed with his hands behind his head. "That your really here in Arkansas. How in the world, did you know where to find me?" He asked with his eyes fixed on me.
I sighed. "My dreams. The whole time you were gone, my dreams had been trying to tell me something and some of them really happened. I had a strong feeling about this." I was depressed at the memory of even coming here.
"So you trusted your 'physcic' abilities and went with it?" He said humorless. "You know, even Alice isn't always right. I guess you just got lucky."
"Yeah, real lucky." I muttered. He seemed to of heard me.
"Please tell me that you know I'm so very sorry about everything. About not saving you, the jump..." he paused. "Regina."
Her name angered me,"I could tell you that, but I know i wouldn't mean it."
He sat up and looked straight into my eyes. He grabbed my hands firmly and rested both of ours on his lap. "Bella..." he sighed. "There's something that I wistfully wish that I could tell you but I can't. And that's how it's going to have to be. You'll just have to wait."
"Wait? Wait for what? All I've been doing for the past year is waiting and I don't know what else to do anymore," I sighed and tears ran down my cheeks. Again. "I mean you don't love me anymore! You love her." I tried to make a guesture with my good arm to the door and something caught my eye.
There it was, Regina's beautiful face giving me the most awful rageful look I had ever seen. It wasn't the jealousy kind of look or an angry look. It was a evil despising look.
I heard Edward sigh and he pulled me into an embrace, which caught me off guard. I wished he would have seen her face. When I looked back up to the window, she was gone. i must be losing it. I shook it off of my head and hugged him back. It felt too good and too comforting to lose, because it might be the last time I ever touch him again. I had to enjoy it while it lasted.
"Im so sorry," his cool breath whispered in my ear. I could feel my tears soak his shirt but i didn't care. I missed his embraces more than anything and I wanted them back.
"I'm so sorry," he reapeated. I just wanted to know what it was that he couldn't tell me.