A phone buzzed. No, it exploded in my head.
I scrunched my eyes up with the banging of my head ache and the dryness of my eyes.
Everything rolled in a terrible, terrible way.
The phone stopped its noise and I thanked my lucky stars that it was over. I turned back around, wrapping my arm around something soft and warm as I snuggled closer into whatever was keeping me secure.
I took a deep breath and tried to concentrate on anything other than the pounding in my head.
My phone started again. This time a different tune played; even louder than before as I growled. Praying it would end; but it never- tune seemed to be endless as I turned, flinging my hand out and up, with my eyes crammed shut reaching for the noisy phone on my coffee table raised above where I was sleeping
I manoeuvred my hand around until it located it.
Another wave of pain hit me as my arm stretched out and my fingers went to grab it. I hissed feeling a sharp pain in my wrist as I registered the weight of the phone in my hand.
Was I on the floor? Had I fallen and hurt my wrist?
I pressed the usual button and put it to my face.
"What?" I growled not caring who was on the other end. A continuous thump pressed down on my head pulsing, as I licked my overly pruned dry lips, they stung as the moisture of my tongue hit them and I found my self cringing inside at the pain. My voice came out like a whisper and shell of a lot less aggressive than I wanted it too.
"Oh hey angel cakes!" Mikey called, way too loud down the speaker phone as I pulled it away from my ear and took a deep breath; a wave of nausea hit me as I groaned and pulled the phone closer back gently.
"Mikey; come on- I'm dying here" I told him, my deep breaths were going slower than my heart rate, exhausting me more as the migraine battle continued. My chest also felt incredibly wheezy and my nose a little blocked too.
Was this heaven? Had I died in my sleep?
Sure felt like I was dead…
"Oh you just woke up? you hung over? sorry sweet cheeks- I just assumed you'd be up by now; we've been up since 12" Mikey told me happily.
"What… what time is it?"
"Just gone three- man you must have been OUT. of. IT Nory!" Mikey chuckled and again I pulled the phone away from my face. My neck hurt; it was oddly stiff as I hissed in pain.
I could only mumble an "mmmmm" to Mikey as I listened to his rambling and fast paced talking. I swallowed the scratchiness in my massively sore throbbing throat as he kept telling me how awesome last night was.
"and Donnie with April when we got home- dudette, you would have died with laughter oh man- he's apologised sooooo much this morning…it was so funny!" then his voice seemed distant as I could hear him calling to someone else "Oh guys! ...nah its Nory on Leo's shell cell…"
Mikey dripped off as I scrunched my face up only this time in total confusion.
"Mikey…you rang my phone"
"Errrr sorry dudette, last time I checked this was Leo's number- lemme double check; yep its his shell cell" I could hear him shrugging down the phone.
Wait Leo was here?
"Who is it?" a grumble came from beside me, pulling me closer round into a hold as I closed my eyes again and handed Leo the shell cell.
"it's your brother; he's lost you- he thinks you're here with me…" I mumbled back feeling the dizziness come over me.
I rolled back over in his grip as he held me tightly around my waist; he breathed heavily into my shoulder and drew in my scent.
"What? Don't be so ridiculous I'm in my room- tell him to wake me up later"
"Mikey-call back later" I told him crookedly, ignoring his pleas to stay on the phone. I shut the shell cell lid turning to curled back into Leo's loving chest; he held me tighter for a moment as my eyes blinked openly for a few more moments until they shut again….
And then I gasped; so loudly as I flew my body forward; feathers flew from all around me diving into the air at the rate I moved as my eyes went wide as I studied my apartment.
Water dripped down the hall from my bathroom shower which was still running…
Feathers danced across the landing…
My bra and Leo's pants were tossed down by my feet at the bottom of the ripped open sofa…
My eyes filled with horror.
What had I done?
Oh god- I confessed to him, I had thrown my self on him like a bitch in heat. Oh god…
The flirting; the touching- the shower...the sofa…
I swallowed my throat which was still scratched, only this time my voice had lost its words.
I turned slowly to look down at my suspicion; only meeting with blue eyes which shared the same shocked face; it seemed we both had forgotten for a moment…
And then he was up, standing in front of me as he bowled me over so that I was now alone on the floor; feathers whipped up into the air again as I carried on watching him wide eyed. He took two heavy steps back almost falling against my wall.
I looked down to my body and shrieked; I was half naked; more than half naked- a pair of damp panties wrapped around my middle and tangled hiding none of my shame.
I pulled the blanket up to my chin and eyed Leo; who was also naked…tail still curling slightly inward and his thing not as much on show…
The thing I had tasted…sucked…while I…
Our eyes met again, our breath caught in our throats as we didn't dare speak, move or breath. I watched his gaze as he looked at me; horrified
It was probably disgust, he probably found me the most disgusting thing ever. how could I let defile him like that? How could I have done that to him; knowing it was probably the first time…
Oh god; I tasted his…
Oh fuck.
I shrieked again and hid under the blanket. I couldn't hear him moving as he remained frozen. I closed my eyes willing the memories back to me in a fast flash…
"I…maybe you sh-should check for…you know…any baddies" I snickered shamelessly and he smirked beautifully and licked his lips.
"Anything for you" he breathed smoothly…
…"You like to stare at me" I commented as my eyes became hooded. Even through this, I swore he was blushing.
"I love staring at you"…
…His thumbs hooked into my pants as I gasped wildly at the feeling of them lower down on my body. His mouth bit down lightly on my neck as I bit my own lip- my head raised as far as it could up to the sky opening up for him.
"Yes" I breathed in pleasure…
…"Ha…Nor- oh I-I …"
I smirked to myself, my body glowing with the effect I had on him as I grinned and mumbled happily. It was only when I began kissing his chest; did I feel my body take over and I lowered myself off his lap and down to the floor in between his legs…
…"NORY! OH FUCK!"…
"Oh god" I cupped my mouth and opened my eyes.
"Oh fuck" I breathed. I had completely, shamelessly thrown myself at him.
God he must be in total regret- he must hate me. God I bet he can't even look at me…
I wasn't anything like he would have wanted for the first time; I wasn't anything special. I bet he thought I was such a shameful slut who had basically sexually abused him.
I sat up pulling the blanket down over my face as tears spooled.
Leo remained frozen; watching me in horror.
I was so right; he hated me…he was disgusted he had ever touched me. How could he want me like that? It was all the drink; and now he regretted it all completely- he hated me.
Tears fell in waves and crashed down onto the blanket I held so tightly to my chest.
"L-Leo- I-Im so- sor-"
But I never got the sentence out. Because he was gone.
Feathers lifted in a blur shooting at the window as he had vanished from my small apartment.
He hated me; I had ruined everything. Ruined our friendship; Ruined my lives with the turtles.
I sobbed heavily as I went holding my head in my hands and lowered my neck down into them
Again, aches filled my neck as I bent down and my wrists hurt from the weight of my hands.
I cried for the longest of times, calling my self every single name under the sun; how could he love someone like me? How could he have wanted some one like me?
I leant heavily down onto my wrist but then sprang back as a shooting pain flew down my arm.
For a moment I stopped. I pulled my head back to look up at my wrists; inspecting it for the first time.
There were light blueish yellow bruises on my wrists; just soft tissue bruising, but visible…
…my hands were pinned above my head together in one of Leo's giant ones as he kissed heavily down my throat, biting and nipping as he went.
I groaned as he caused the most delicious friction between my skin and his teeth, making the pain beautifully balanced in pleasure.
I liked how it felt; it wasn't a hurting pain, but so pleasurable nipping my skin sending electronic buzzes down me, putting me in overload again…
These bruises were left by Leo…his finger prints etched onto my skin where he had pinned me down.
Another wave of sadness barrelled over me; Leo hadn't meant to leave bruises; and I didn't even care, he hadn't hurt me…I had enjoyed it… I was just far to weak and thimble to enjoy him like that and he knew it.
"Oh fuck" I whispered letting the tears fall again. My head pounded even more as I felt physically sick at my own actions. He must have been a mess.
I cried heavily into the torn pillows and laid back down hiding underneath my blanket.
I cried so hard until i became light headed, and i drifted off into an uncomfortable unconscious state.
What had I done...
Oh No!
Whats going to happen! Its al gone wrong!
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