"Bloodsuckers like you killed my mother."

I'm not a bloodsucker, I thought, putting on my black rain coat. Or at least, not yet. Alva was looking out of the window when I walked down the stairs. Probably waiting for Jacob to arrive. I ignored her and Justice, trying to walk out without her noticing, but she grabbed a hold of my arm, when I was half way through the door. I groaned.

"Alva?" I asked, quite irratated. She shook her head, "I'll drop you off. I can't belive that Jacob wouldn't come!" She said, putting on her coat, and dropping a few pieces of dog food for Justice. I do, I sighed. I pushed through the door, Alva coming out after me, suitcase in hand, closing the door, and locking it. "I'm going to be late now, come on!" She snapped, walking past me. I scoffed."You're the one who volunteered to drop me off." I hissed, as she unlocked the car door. I got in as she cranked the car up.

I walked into the school, unaccompanied by anyone. Everyone was talking and laughing with friends, something I didn't have. Other than Bailey, but I really didn't know her that well. I walked to my locker, and opened it. I was searching for my biology book when Mr. Bloodsuckerhater came up beside me, to open his locker. I sighed softly. Why is it that his locker is right next to mine? I didn't look at him, and I closed my locker, book in hand, and walked away. As I was reaching Biology, Rosalie came to me. I glared at her as she walked up to me.

"Edward wants you to sit by him today. Bella isn't here." She hissed, and walked away. I turned, watching her. Jacob did as well, then he looked at me, but quickly looked away.
He walked inside the room. I sighed. Why did poofy want me to sit by him? I clenched my book tighter and walked in. He saw me and gave a wave. I gave him a small smile, more of a grimance, and sat beside him. "Hello." He said. "Wassup." I replied, my lips popping at the 'p', opening my Biology book.

I smirked, as I tried to contain my sudden burst of laugther. I couldn't help it, I began to laugh. He looked at me, unsure of what I was laughing at. "Do you find me amusing?" He asked as I grabbed my sides. "No, I mean yes, hair..." I tried to say but more laughs came out. I finally stopped and looked at him, smiling. "I was just imagining this one scene in a movie I watched…" I said. I didn't offer anymore details. He stared, uncertainty on his face. "I'm fine. Don't you worry about me." I told him.

Eventually, I began to finger the dent in the side of the metal desk. It was weird; it looked too much like a hand…

"You're the exact opposite as Bella." Edward suddenly said. I didn't know what he was getting at, but I think he was hitting on me. Poofy? Nah. "That's what Emmet said." He added, looking out the window, still smirking to himself. I smiled. "And since when do you replay messages?" I asked, crossing my arms. "I saw the fight with you and Jacob." He whispered, as people began to pour into the classroom. I stopped smiling. "What is in my personal, no wait, MY WHOLE life doesn't concern you, bronzey poofy." I growled, giving him a sneer.
"He was imaging you killing his mother. He called you a bloodsucker, didn't he?" I looked into his eyes. "If you already know, why are you asking? Trying to make me mad?" I said. "Jacob hates you." He said, as Jacob walked past. I gave him my pained smile. "And I'm suppose to care, why? I've lived too fucked up to suddenly care what other beings think of me. I live to be me, 'cause I am me." I said, but what he said still caused a pain in my heart. Did Jacob hate me that much? I leaned back into my chair. "Anyway." I said, looking forward. "Who says what is the difference between hate and what you call love? They are supposedly both passion, aren't they?" He didn't say anything after that. The class passed. What was wrong with bronze? Why is he acting this way? What is he trying to do? Toy with me? I was no one's toy, and I get annoyed when people try to use me. The bell rang and I ran to the bathroom. I stared into the mirror. What if what he said was true? Did the bestest of friends I had ever had really hate so much that he would maybe… I was snapped out of my thoughts, as Alice walked into the bathrrom, Jasper behind her. What the fuck? "Why are you in here? It's for the ladies, the females, the dames, the ones without genitals!" I said, pointing to Jasper. Alice giggled, as her hand glided onto my wrist. What is she trying to do?

"He's not done activating you is he?" She asked with a smile. So that's what he was doing! "He's trying to realease your vampire. The vampire in you." She said, bringing both of my hands into hers. I stared, before exploding. 'I don't want to be one!" I yelled, yanking them away. Then the air got warmer. I felt someone else in my mind, trying to soothe the turmoil of my thoughts, trying to calm my feelings down. I grabbed my head. "I SENSE YOU! YOU DOGGY BISCUIT WEASEL! OH, THE ACORN-FLYING HAMS! GET OUT, GET OUT! I'LL NEVER BE SEDUCED BY THE HANDS OF A UNICORN! OH, MY HORN! WHERE HAS MY SPARKLY PHONE GONE?" I yelled. Jasper tried to soothe my feelings, but my random ramblings were making it difficult. Plus, I wasn't that weak minded. Alica just stared at me, I guess trying to tell what I was going to do next, but I was random, not predictable. "GET OUT!" I yelled again, and then the door opened. Alice and Jasper were suddenly gone and Bailey stood before me. "Nyx?" She asked. "You okay? I heared someone yelling, something about acorns and unicorns?" She said with uncertainy. I smiled sheepishly. "I'll be out. I'm fine." She nodded, and walked out. I looked around the bathroom. "I know you are still in here. Just know I won't forgive this so easily.' I hissed and then walked out into the hall.

. . .

I sat down with Bailey, Cherry, Lilah, and Owin during lunch. I usually sat with Jacob, but you know. I opened my lunch and took out a green apple. I bit into it, tasting the bitter-sweet juice. Everyone else began to talk about something when I looked up to see Edward staring at me. I sneered at him, but suddenly got an idea.

"Hey, Edward.' I whispered. He raised his eyebrow. I smiled evily as I continued. "I suppose you can't wait to fuck with someone, can't you? You can't respect me. You know why? Because as the people say here, I'm not your girl. If I was someone you could fuck and kiss, you would probably give me anything, wouldn't you?" From here, I could see his fist clench. I chuckled. I knew the others could hear, but I could have cared less. "I'm human, Poofy. I'm not stone, though sometimes I wish I was. I'm not cold. I don't want to be you, what you are, because from what I have learned, those feelings heighten. Everything focuses, becomes stronger. I don't want that. It's hard enough to be me. Why would I make it harder?" I bit the apple again, and then stood. I threw the rest of my lunch away. I finshed the apple, and made a big show of throwing it away. "That's my life. Stinking with bitter-sweet memories." I whispered and then walked out of the room, my jacket flowing out behind me.

. . .

I walked home, still pissed off at Poofy and Pixie and Blondie 2. Heh, heh. It almost ryhmed. I walked into the house, closing the door behind me. "Hello?" I called. No one responded me. Justice came up to me, whimpering softly. I laughed. "I guess you are hungry, aren't you? You know where is Alva is?" She cocked her head. "I didn't think so." I said and went into the kitchen to serve her a bowl of dog food. I placed it on the floor and she eagerly ate it. I smiled. "Good to see you haven't lost your appetite." I said. I grabbed my backpack and walked to my room. I opened the door and almost immediately smelled it. My room smelled too sweet, like a ripe corpse. I quickly took out my binder. When I heared something move, I turned and smacked the face with my binder. "Oh." Someone said, muffled from under my binder. "Poofy!" I said. "What the hell are you doing in my room?" I moved the binder out of the way. He stared at me with intensity. I dropped the binder and glared at him."Missing anything?" He asked with a mocking tone. I quickly looked around my room. My heart stopped, literally, when I saw my guitar case open… without my guitar in it. I turned to see Edward holding it in front of him.

"Give it back!" I yelled, reaching for it, but he moved quicky out of the way, making me almost fall forward. "Give it back!" I yelled again. "Not without a please." He said with a smirk and jumped out my open window. "NO!" I yelled as I saw him run into the damned forest. I didn't have time to go downstairs. I jumped down, hardly feeling the shock of the jump, but I was soon chasing him. He was running my pace on purpose, taunting me. "Please!" I yelled as I ran. "Please what?' He said. He jumped over a fallen branch. "Edward! Please! You don't understand!" I yelled, crying. I could feel eyes on me from the trees. I had a feeling the eyes belonged to the other Cullens, but they weren't doing anything to help me. 'Edward!" I yelled, sobbing. "That is the only thing I have to remember my parents! Please, I beg you! Edward!" I suddenly tripped over a root, and began to fall over the steep hill of greenery. I literally hit every branch, root, and flower as I fell. I finally hit the bottom on my side. I groaned, pretty sure I was bleeding. I gave out a heavy sigh and got up. I looked up, feeling the blood come out, dripping down my legs. Edward suddenly appeared before me. He was smiling with what I called a mean smile. "You still want this?' He asked. "Edward! Please, just give it back!" I said, feeling slightly woozy. "You can't have it!" He yelled like a little kid and smashed the guitar against the ground. I gasped as I watched the detailed pieces wood fly. I stared at the remains of the guitar. He grinned. "Done yet?" He asked with a mocking smile. I did what he apparently didn't expect. I fell to my knees and cried. "YOU FUCKING BASTARD!" I cried as tears fell. "THAT WAS THE ONLY THING I HAD LEFT FROM THEM! ONLY THING! I THOUGHT I DIDN'T LIKE YOU BEFORE, BUT NOW I HATE YOU!" I stopped yelling and gingerly took off my jacket, showing my scarred arms. He stared at me confused. "You weren't lying?" He said with surprise. "NO! That was…" I stopped. I wasn't going to yell at him. He wasn't worth it.

I bit my lip. I sighed and laid the jacket on the wet forest floor and gently put the big pieces of the guitar on the jacket. "You better hope there is a guitar shop in this forbidden town if you want to stay awake and see Bella again." I growled. I wrapped my jacket around the pieces and tried to get up to pick it up, but I couldn't. I felt too woozy. I suddenly threw up. Edward held his nose, a weird expression on his face. I fell unconcious.

. . .

I woke up in an white room, blurred people crowding over me. My eyes finally decided to focus and I realized Jacob was one of the faces."Congratulations," He hissed. "You're a vampire." And he stalked away. Please stay!I thought. I slowly recognized the others. The Cullen's and Bella. Bella looked at me, sympathy in her eyes, but there was an edge of hardness in them. 'Bella?" I asked, feeling like I was going to cry all over again. "Am I? Am I a vampire?" I asked her, all eyes were on her now. She nodded, slowly. No! I looked at Edward. He was looking at me with a combination of sympathy, sadness, regret, and anger. I got off the bed and pointed my finger at him. "I'll never forgive you, Edward Mason Cullen." I growled. "For every goddamn thing you've done, to me and anyone else, I'll never forgive you. I will see your demise." I glared at him and grabbed my bloody jacket from the chair. I put it on and walked out, feeling suddenly sad. I had become one of my worst nightmares…a sparkly.

. . .

My heart wouldn't beat, nor pound. It was very difficult to breath when I didn't need to. Alva would sometimes worry when she didn't see my chest moving up and down. It fit me just as much, knowing the Voultri would be on their way, to get me, take me from my new life.

Apparently when my heart stopped after seeing that my guitar was gone, it had stopped long enough for the 'vampire' in me to acticate. Some kind of venom had been released through my body, replacing the oxygen that had been moving through my body. It soon began to change me, which is why I didn't feel the shock of the jump when I fell from my window. So I really didn't need to breathe.

Of course people have been worrying about my health, since I paled from my usual pale-ish tan and I kept forgetting to breathe around them. My hair had grown spiker and darker. My overall appearance has increased in 'beauty'. I was just like the Cullens. Alva had told me.

. . .

I sighed, leaning on my hand, elbow propped up, looking out of the window. "Nyx! Do you need to go to the nurse, or will you just leave school?" My substitute for Biology asked. A few snickered. I rolled my eyes, and shook my head.

Why hadn't I heard a growl? Becuase Jacob wasn't in my class anymore. He's changed his classes, just to avoid me, but now he's all alone, except for the exception of a few freinds. I slowly wrote down the notes, as my eyes fluttered close for a second, then opened. I was getting really tired lately,a lot more than usual, and it was killing me and my personal life. Oh, how much easier it was when I was a loner.

. . .

I walked to lunch with Bailey and the rest. I had been sitting regularly with them ever since that day in the forest. Yes, I was hanging out with who I now could call humans. I still hadn't had the need for blood, so no worries in that category, so that was good. I was the first one of the group to already have my lunch so I went to sit at our usual table. Bella passed by and offered me a small smile. Bailey came over, sitting in front of me, and the others quickly surrounded us. "Hey." I said, taking out a green apple. What can I say? I love them.

"There he is." I heared Jessica say, ever so quietly to Angela. There was clearly some strange excitement in that voice. I shuddered, knowing what Jessica was probably thinking.

I looked up. Bella and her friends sat in the table right next to ours. The Cullen's still sat far off. Angela bit on her nail, looking at Jacob sitting at the table next them. I looked at Bella, who looked at me. Edward walked to them and quietly said something to the other people. They nodded, obviously mesmerized at Poofy. Bella got up and they walked away. Wonder where they went, I thought when Bailey nodded behind me.

I looked behind, to see Edward walking towards our table with Bella in tow, and out of the corner of my eye I could see Jacob watching him."Hello. I need to borrow Nyx for a moment." He said, taking my hand, and pulling me up. I looked up, surprised. "See you." I said as he walked us out of the cafeteria. I could feel someone's glare on my back, and when I turned I was face to face with Jacob. "Hey." I said. "Where are you going?" He asked, as Edward and Bella somehow got us out of the cafeteria.

"She's coming with me." Edward hissed, taking a hold of my arm. I winced. His grip was strong and tight. He quickly let me go when he heard me growl, "You're hurting me." I rubbed my arm. "Can't even control your own strengh, bloodsucker." Jacob said, standing in front of me. "Now someone wants to protect me." I sneered and stood between them. Edward smirked and grabbed my arm, gently."The Voultri are here." He whispered. Jacob growled."Great! Look at the mess you go her into." "She's going to be in even more mess, if she doesn't go now." Jacob looked at me, then Bella. "Why Bella?" "Because I want her to come." "To be eaten by things like you! No way. She's staying here."

Bella looked at Edward. "I have no part in this. Let me at least stay here, to check on things while you're go, like Alva." She whispered. I smiled at her. Edward sighed, "Fine." He said, pulling me along. Before I went through the doors of the school, I looked back to Bella. "Thank you, Bella. I won't forget this." I said with sincereity, as Edward blocked himself and me from the sunlight with black coats.

. . .

"What do you think they're doing?" I asked, referring to Jacob and Bella. Edward shrugged his shoulders, and stared at the fireplace. "It's quite warm." I whispered, looking out the window. Snow flakes flew among the panes, and around the edge. It was a white outside with the snow. We're in the montains. Why? Don't know, but Edward says he has to meet someone here. I pulled the mug to my lips, and drunk, bitterly.

"Why did you do this to me?" I asked as suddenly my hot chocalate was disgusting. I used to love it, but now it tasted like shit. Edward chuckled, ignoring my question,
"It's going to burn your tongue." I rolled my eyes at his ignorance. "You heard me." I hissed, getting him back on track. He sighed, running a hand through his hair,
"Don't ask things like that." He barely whispered. Confusion was the first thing that hit me. "What do you mean?" He suddenly looked up and grabbed my arm. "We have to leave, now!" He quickly opened the door. Cold flushed over my bare skin. I dropped my cup, and hugged myelf, and ran for my coat. I quickly pulled it on, zipping it all the way up.

Edward waited, impatiently, for me to come to the door. I hissed at him as I passed. Only a few steps out of the small, abandoned shack and my stomach turned and fought its way at the walls of it. I held my stomach, now realizing that Edward had just ran all the way down from the mountains down to the forest, near the bottom of the mountains. My stomach jerked and I ran to two trees, leaning in between them. One hand grabbed my stoamch, and the other held on the the bark, clutching it very tightly. Everything I had just drunk and ate flowed hot and acidly out of me. I wiped my mouth, looking at my puke. I sighed and stood straight up, wiping my mouth, again.

I turned to see Edward. His back was facing me, but I could see that his hand was up to his face...more likely his nose. I stepped towards him."Thanks. Alot." I hissed, as he grabbed my arm, and dragged me down to the forest below. "Why aren't we at the mountains? I thought you were supposed to meet someone there." Edwaad looked around, then down at me. "We're in danger."

. . .

"Is it there? Is it there? Can you see it? Where is it? Is it in the air? Move your hair out of the way!" I said, trying to look down, to see what Edward was watching for. Edward shook my grip off of his shoulders, and growled. We were in a tree, Edward standing on a branch and me on his back. Oh, the embarressment. I peered over his shoulders. "Can it climb up here?" "No." Edward said, plainly. "What is it?" "You'll see." "What?" I said, confused as hell.

"Edward!" Jacob's voice suddenly rang out. And then Bella's voice, "Edward, where are you?" "In a tree!" I yelled, before he clamped my mouth with his hands. "Don't let them know we're here." He whispered. I nodded. Sure. Now Edward didn't want to see Bella? Who was this guy? There was a sudden ripping sound and then a wolf tried to climb up the tree, but kept sliding back down. Edward smirked, and chuckled. I looked at him, and then at the wolf. Jacob! I stood on the tree's limb, and Edward stood up too. Suddenly a rock hit my head. I covered my left eye, "Ow!" "Sorry!" Bella yelled from below. I sneered. "That was my eye! Don't throw things anymore!" I yelled down. What are they doing here? Edward sighed, rolling his eyes, and took my hand in his."Let go!" I said, shaking his hand away.

He sighed and then quickly jumped down, gliding down, ever so perfect like the Ken he was. I followed his example, the jacket flying behind me. He landed on his feet, standing, while I landed in a crouched position. I raised my head, which had leaves in my hair, and looked at Edward's figure hovering above Bella. I could hear his faint whispers, "It's not safe here. I'm not going to lose you this time...don't come… stop messing with things like this." I sighed as I stood up. The prince in a Volvo came riding into Forks to save Bella. I rolled my eyes. Suddenly a strong pair arms hosited me off my feet, gathering me up in a hug. A wide Cheshire cat smile was upon his face...Jacob's face.

He let me go as I rolled my eyes again, wiping the leaves off of my legs. I just had to fall through those branches…Jacob chuckled, "I thought you were in trouble." "We are. We're in danger." I said, looking at Edward. He gave me a quick glare, and then continued his conversation with Bella. I could hear everything, but I could hear someone else's mind as well. "You can't come," Edward said. "I won't leave you." I sounded like Bella, but her mouth wasn't moving. "You know what we have to do. It's too dangerous...for you.""No!" I finally heard Bella, clutching her head. Her eyes were shut tight, and she was swaying back and forth. The voice continued, "Get out of my head! No! Edward I love you! Stop it!" I grimanced. Did that just come out of my mouth? Oh, god!

Bella's hands collided with her thighs, and her eyes were on me. She was heaving, on purpose, showing her wrath. Oh! I was reading her mind! I backed up into Jacob. "Sorry! I didn't mean to!" I apoligized. I seriosuly just said that, didn't I? She sighed, and looked at Edward.

"Alva is dead." Her voice was a clear, but harsh whisper. But I heard what she said.