Remember Me

Destiel

(Spoilers 5x01) Dean gets injured on a mission and ends up with amnesia. He doesn't remember anything or anyone from the past few years; including Castiel. Dean/Castiel.

Pitch black. That was all I could see. I could not move either. It is a strange feeling not knowing where you are or how you even got there. Then suddenly, I heard a voice, a familiar voice; Dean's.

"It's been almost two days now, Sam."

"I know, but this is all we can do for now. It's not like we have any leads on what happened or anything," I heard Sam reply.

I tried moving my arm, but it did not move easily. A sharp pain came with even a small movement. Then I tried to open my eyes.

The moment my eyes opened, I saw Dean run towards me with Sam close behind.

"Cas! You're awake!" he exclaimed.

"We were getting really worried about you!" Sam said, "How are you feeling?"

I was not sure how to answer that question. It was strange. I felt very stiff and many parts of my vessel ached in pain. It felt as though I had been wounded in a battle that I do not remember fighting.

"Pain," was all I was able to voice.

"Where? Where is the pain, Cas?" Dean asked quickly, "Sam get him some water or something."

Sam quickly left out the door. I noticed for the first time that I was in an unfamiliar room.

"Dean, where am I?" I asked.

"You're in Bobby's spare bedroom. It's mostly used for storage and stuff now, but it still has a nice bed so it seemed to be the best place to put you. But that's not important right now. We just need you feeling back to normal, okay?"

Dean seemed really concerned about me. It was nice to be cared for, but I felt guilty for making him worry so much.

"What happened?" I asked after a brief silence.

"We'll tell you the story later, Cas. Like I said, let's get you better first."

Just then Sam came back with a bucket with a towel in it and a glass of water.

"Here," he said as he handed me the glass. "I don't know exactly if it'll help much, but try it."

"Thanks, Sam." I said with a small smile. As I drank the cool water, Dean wet the towel.

"You didn't answer me before, Cas. Where is the pain?" Dean asked.

"It is my head mostly. But my body is aching too. I do not understand why though." I wanted an explanation, but I know that I should listen to Dean and just accept the care for now.

Dean placed the towel on my forehead and it quickly began soothing the pain in my head. Although unlikely to do the job completely, it was a very therapeutic feeling.

For some reason, I wanted to close my eyes again. My eyelids were becoming heavy even though I had just woken up. I did not understand why I felt this way.

…

"Just let him sleep, Dean. He's probably exhausted. Who knows what the pain he's feeling is like. You don't really know this as well, but angels take a lot more than we do. If Cas says it hurts, then it's bad. So just let him sleep it off a bit."

"I thought Cas didn't sleep, Sam."

"That's what I thought too."

…..

This time I opened my eyes much easier. I was even able to sit up. When I woke up though, the room was not how it had been before. It was empty, or at least I thought it was. It was then that I noticed Dean sleeping in a chair beside my bed. I looked at him and smiled. I was glad to see him sleeping peacefully.

I tried to get out of bed, but it was more difficult than I thought. I could move better than when I had woken up before, but it was hard to stand up. I had to hold on to the bed for support. Walking was a whole new challenge. I made it halfway across the room before I fell. The pain of falling on my sore knees was worse than I expected. I sat on the floor for a moment and then tried to stand back up.

"What are you doing?" Dean said all of a sudden, surprising me. I guess the sound of my fall woke him up.

"I am just trying to get myself back to normal. I am not used to having trouble moving like this."

"Well I'll tell you now that if you are sore, then you need to rest for a bit. I know it's frustrating, but too bad," Dean said as he helped me stand up. Then he helped me back to my bed and sat me down.

"Thanks." I said. I was embarrassed to be honest. I should be much stronger than this.

"No problem. Now stay in bed, you hear me?"

"Okay, I will."

"Good," he looked at the clock on the table beside my bed, "well it's almost five in the morning so if you want to go back to sleep you can or just stay awake. It doesn't matter to me." Dean sat back down in the chair next to my bed.

"What are you going to do?" I asked.

"I don't know. I mean, it's kind of early for breakfast,"

"You should sleep some more, Dean."

Dean was going to object, but then just nodded and within twenty minutes fell asleep again. I did not go back to sleep though. I had slept enough. Actually, the fact that I had slept at all concerned me. Meanwhile, I was fine just lying in bed. My legs still hurt a bit, but they were feeling a little better now. Either that or I just did not notice because I was so distracted. I really wanted to know what had happened to me. I do not know how much Sam, Dean and Bobby know, but any information is better than nothing. I just want to find out what is wrong with me so I can go back to helping Dean. I just needed to watch over him.

I looked over at Dean who was sleeping peacefully once again and I wondered how much time he had spent watching over me these last few days; too much, probably. Which is why he really deserves a nice, long rest now.

…

A few hours later, Sam came in the room. He smiled as he saw that I was awake and sitting up and then nudged Dean awake. We all went downstairs, me with the help of Dean, and met up with Bobby who was sitting at his desk.

"Glad to see that one vertical again," he said as he took a sip from his glass.

Dean sat me down in a chair in the kitchen and Sam began to get some food out for breakfast.

"Hey Cas, do you think you might want to try eating something? I mean, it might help you get your strength back more quickly," Sam suggested.

I considered his idea. I was not sure if I should try to eat food because it was new to me, but I decided to see what happens. Sam offered me something called toast and gave me a glass of water to have with it. I tried it and it really was not bad. It felt weird eating, but my body accepted the food and I felt a little better after having something.

"So you like it?" Sam asked. He seemed to be happy after he saw me take a second bite.

"It tastes good," I admitted. As happy as I was that I got to try something new and liked it, I was troubled.

"Well good," Dean said as he pat my back and walked towards the fridge to get something for himself.

After we all finished eating, I decided to ask the question that they all knew I was holding back.

"So what happened to me?" I asked. Sam sighed and started to tell the story.

"Well three days ago we were just talking about ideas we had to get through all of this business with the angel Zachariah. Then Dean saw some more images and I had to explain what he needed to know. While I was busy explaining things to Dean, all of a sudden you just fell to the ground. We rushed over to your side and tried to ask you what was wrong, but you didn't say anything. You just collapsed on the floor and blacked out. Then we took you upstairs and waited for you to wake up."

I was silent. I did not remember any of these events prior to when I blacked out nor did I remember actually blacking out. It was all strange to me.

"Do you have any idea of what could have happened?" Dean asked.

I did not answer.

"Do you feel any different now, other than being sore?" Bobby added.

I was hoping that what I was thinking was not what had happened, but I had to be honest with myself and consider the facts. Also, I had to tell everybody. Even if I find out I am mistaken, I should at least let them know what I am thinking. They are my friends after all.

"I think…" I paused. "I think Zachariah took away something very important to me as my punishment."

Dean knew what I meant by "my punishment" and looked worried, but Sam and Bobby just exchanged looks.

"I do not think I am an angel anymore."

I hoped you liked the chapter! Sorry it was later than usual, but I just graduated on Friday and I've been pretty busy haha. As always, please post nice reviews and constructive criticism. Thanks! (: