Jacob and I were walking along the beach. He had his hand in mine and we were talking and laughing. Suddenly, I realised that it wasn't me who was talking to Jacob. A girl I didn't recognise with blond long hair leaned in and kissed Jacob.
"I love you," Jacob said.
No! He loves me. How could this be happening…?
My eyes fluttered open and the sun pierced through my window shining off my skin. My heart was pounding and I realised it was just a dream. Just a dream. Thank God. I hadn't left my room since yesterday and I still felt like a mess. I still didn't know what to do. The dream that I had made me wonder. I felt angry when he kissed that other girl, so did that mean I loved him back? I still needed time to think. I couldn't stay in this room any longer, so I quickly changed and went downstairs. When I was at the bottom of the stairs, I saw everyone sitting on the couch. The TV was on but they were hardly paying attention to it. They all turned around and focused their attention on me.
"Uh…good morning," I said slightly self conscious.
Bella was at my side in a flash. "Good morning honey. How you feeling?"
"Fine," I lied.
Alice gave me a look and she knew I was lying. So did Edward.
"Nessie!" I didn't notice that my best friend Abigail was here.
She ran towards me and pulled me towards the front door.
"Excuse us for a second," I called out and we sat on the steps of the porch.
Abigail and I had been best friends every since I started high school. She's human and she knew about the existence of vampires and werewolves. She had freaked out at the start when I told her, but when I explained everything she was totally cool with it. She promised she wouldn't tell a single soul and I knew I could trust her.
Abigail's light brown hair was tied up in a pony tail which made her emerald eyes stand out. A few loose strands swayed in the cool morning breeze.
"I called you yesterday on your cell phone and left like a zillion messages and when you didn't answer I started to get worried. I called your home number and Alice said that you got into a fight with Jacob. What happened? You seem really down. Oh, and save the 'I'm fine' crap for your parents. "
I sighed. I didn't want to think about it anymore, but I had to tell her. I put my hand on her cheek and closed my eyes while I showed her everything that happened. When I was done I opened my eyes and Abigail was biting her lower lip.
"Nessie, do you love him?" She murmured.
"As a best friend – yes. More than then that – I don't know." She was the only person I could truly tell whatever I was thinking.
"Well, no one can make that decision but you. You just need some time. I'm sure Jacob will understand."
I stood up and paced and let everything run out. "I can't think about this anymore! Abigail, I just left him standing. I was too stupid and gutless to say anything, and now I've hurt him. I can't face him without a decision and I don't know what that is." Fresh new tears stained my face and I thought I used up all my tears last night.
Abigail ran up to me and caught me in a tight hug. She didn't say anything; she just let me cry it all out. I hid my face in her shoulder ruining her grey shirt.
"You are not stupid and gutless," she replied sternly after a while. "You just freaked out. It happens to everyone at some point of their life. You just have to make do with that. Now, you have to ask yourself the big question, which you – and only you – can answer."
And with that, I knew she was right.