Someone asked me whether she was getting with Edward or Jacob. BE PATIENT! Wait it out till the end of this chapter. It will all be worth while.

"Jacob, I know it's hard, but I need you to talk to me." I'd been trying this for months but he would only answer straight forward answers like, yes and no. I was getting fed up with it. "I love you, I'm going for a drive."

"Send my love to the bloodsucker."

"Fuck off, at least he can treat me properly."

"At least now you're getting too big carrying my baby to fuck him behind my back." I didn't have an answer to this, yes I was having intercourse with Edward, yes I was partially aware Jake knew. I just grunted and left the room.

The drive to Edwards house always took awhile, but this time it seemed to be particularly slow. I hadn't seen him in a few weeks, and I had definitely become more round since last time. Before I was even up the drive Edward opened my car door and jumped in. "JESUS!" Edward chuckled and put his hand over his mouth to stop from laughing even more, I'd been pretty hormonal lately and the slightest things pissed me off. But today I was in a great mood. I stopped the car and hopped out, Edward was usually around to my side within a second but this time he was still in the car staring at me "What?"

"You're showing a lot more now."

"Thanks captain duh."

"Are you excited" I was only four months pregnant but I had already got all the baby supplies.

"To tell you the truth I can't wait for my little boy." Edward ran around the car and place his hand on my stomach.

"I can hear his heart beat." I looked at him expectantly, wondering if my baby boy was healthy. "perfectly healthy."

"yay" I was so caught up in the moment I kissed Edward with so much passion he had to take me upstairs.

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"Can I stay the night?" I asked methodically touching Edwards stomach.

"I think the dog would prefer it if you went home, he needs your support."

"I love how you care so much." I kissed Edward quickly and gathered all my belongings. "Bye"

"Love you." I smiled at that and then ran down the stairs. That probably wasn't a good idea since I was as clumsy as ever. I tripped trying not to land on my stomach.

"EDWARD!" The pain was unbelievable. I couldn't stand, I couldn't take my hands off my stomach. It seemed like forever until Edward came downstairs.

"Bella, don't move, you're bleeding a lot. Stay still." I nodded whilst Edward picked me up and ran me out to his new Volvo, I couldn't really tell the difference, but it was an updated model. Edward put me down in the back seat, letting me lie down. "I have to get you to the hospital now, can you hold on?" I hated it when he sped.

"Yes." Edward nodded and got in the front seat. I didn't really hold on, I just tucked myself in as far as possible. When we got the hospital I could tell Edward was finding it difficult to go at human speed to get me out. He was about to lift me when I had to ask him the worst thing I would ever have to ask anyone. "Can you hear the baby?" Edward closed his eyes and listened intently he slowly opened them and I knew from his eyes that he couldn't hear a heartbeat.

"I can't hear anything Bella, I'm so sorry." I felt the tears running down my face. I suddenly didn't care if I broke a bone all I knew is that my little baby was most likely dead. All because I ran down stairs like an idiot. I didn't notice all the staff crowding around me when Edward carried me through the ward. The only thing I paid any attention to was the ultrasound. I couldn't really understand any of it, but the look on Carlisle's face said it all.

"No! My baby! No!" I was screaming and thrashing against all the hands when warm ones were placed one my face. "Jacob, He's gone!"

"Bells, it's okay, shhhh, it's okay. We can try again." I nodded at this. As much as I didn't want a baby before. That little spawn in my stomach had meant the world to me, He had really changed my perspective on life.

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The eyes of my baby looking back at me was an amazing feeling. I went to pick him up. But he struggled out of my arms, and fell down the stairs. "NO BABY!"

"Bella it's okay" I woke up to Jacob rocking me back and forth. I had been having these dreams for at least a few weeks by now.

"No, it's not. It's my fault. I killed him. He was the only thing keeping us together." suddenly the reality of it dawned on me. As much as I loved Edward, I wanted to have a normal life. With kids. I wanted to be woken up at 4 in the morning instead of someone else doing it for me. I couldn't be with Edward, as hard as I tried. "I, I have to go. I'll be right back, love you." kissed Jacob's confused lips. I ran off and got into my truck, this drive to Edwards house was the shortest I have ever made.

"Bella It's two in the morning, what in god's name are you doing here?"

"I need to talk to you. Now."

"Okay. You know I wish I could read your mind." He wrapped his arms around me, but I shrugged out of it easily, that's how I knew this was the right thing to do.

"Edward I need you to listen to me, I love you, but you were right. I do want children. I want to grow old with my partner. I want to have the constant struggle raising kids instead of someone doing it for me. I'm so sorry, I would still love to be friends."

"I understand Bella, I love you enough to let you go. Remember that you are always welcome at our house, and remember that no matter what I will always love you."

"That's the thing Edward, I'm comforted even not knowing that, I've always been dependant on you. Well, I'm not anymore." I hugged Edward and kissed him lightly on the lips. "I'll keep in contact."

I could almost not wait until I got back home. I just wanted to be in the comforting arms of my love. When I reached out front door Jacob was standing there smiling. "What're you smiling about?"

"Edward called." I laughed.

"Did he tell you that I'm still going to be his friend?"

"Did I tell you that I'm going to stop phasing so I can grow old with you?" This made me so happy, I'd been wanting him to tell me this since we got together. A sudden thought came to my mind. What if he imprinted before he became human again? Jacob saw my upset look. "I thought that's what you'd want?"

"Don't get me wrong it means the world to me, it's just, what if you imprint before you become human again?" as much as I didn't want to bring this up, it was an important issue that needed to be addressed.

"If I do, we'll deal with it then. Stop worrying and be happy that I love you."

"And I can finally say this. I love you with all my heart, you are my everything." I loved being able to tell him this, because I finally meant it as much as he did.

"And I have full confidence that you mean that." Jacob smiled me a smile, that made me the happiest I've been with him in a long time. I closed the difference between us and slid my arm around his neck going on my tip-toes to kiss him. He grabbed my face and held it steady.

"What are you doing?" I said with squished lips.

"Taking in that you're all mine for as long as I want"

"That better be a long time Mr. Black"

"How would you like to be Mrs. Black?" Was he asking me to marry him? Was I ready to get married? When I was with Edward I told him I didn't want to get married. The thought of all those people staring at me walking down the isle. The thought of being known as the white girl Jake married. When I snapped out of my intense thinking Jacob was staring down at me biting his lower lip in anticipation. It didn't matter what all the other girls would think, I didn't care. If It made Jacob happy, I would do it for him. I took a deep breath and smiled up at him.

"I would love to." Jacob lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He took me into our beloved bedroom. And for the first time in a long time. I felt very confident about my future. The only problem. Breaking it to the parents.

Waking up the next morning was the strangest feeling I've had in a long time. I didn't have one nightmare. For the first time in 3 years, I didn't have a nightmare. My mouth flew open with shock and I took in a big gulp of air. This woke Jake, he was very prone to listening to me when I slept. "Did you have a bad dream Bells?" I laughed and smiled the happiest smile I could do.

"No! I didn't!" I wrapped my arms around Jake's neck and hugged into him while he chuckled and rubbed my back.

"That's a good sign sweetie." He sounded so proud of me, I knew he cared about what made me upset. That's why he hated Edward so much. Not because werewolves and vampires were mortal enemies, but because Edward had hurt me in a way he had never seen. It wasn't stupid teenage hormones, It was because he was protecting me the whole time. I was internally kicking myself for not realising this earlier. I had put Jake through so much. I just took him for granted.

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