Point of View: Emmett

Lemon: not yet but closer

Author's Note: This chapter has some ruff stuff in it. Just a heads up. Also you finally get to know the truth with Bella and her lesbian ways lol. This chapter has a lot of info in it. I'd love to hear what you have to say about it so PLEASE Review it!

I said what?

The whole way home all I could think of was why wont my shit work. The more I thought the more I noticed. I haven't even been horny lately. All I do is chill with Bella, Work and school. Maybe I fucked so much that my shit don't want to work anymore. Or worst hanging out with a lesbian is making me gay! SHIT! Does that happen? What the hell is going on with me? I was getting scared, Maybe I have a STD, fuck what am I going to do. My head started to spin. I paid the cab driver and walked up the drive way. Next thing I knew I pucked in the bushes. I was throwing up for a good minute. I was half throwing up from the alcohol, and half from fear of my dick falling off, Maybe Emily was right. Everything was getting darker. I never throw up so much in my fucking life. I thought I was going to die. No really, I thought that was it for me.

I woke up in the morning, My head was still spinning I was in my room. I jumped up trying to remember what the hell happened and how I got home. I ran to the bathroom and throw up. I remembered how my dick wouldn't stay up, so I went to lay back in my bed and called the doctors to get a physical. I need to drink some water I was so thirsty. Bella was sitting at the table on her lap top. She barely looked at me. That wasn't like her.

"Good Morning cool whip." I got my water and sat down. She picked her stuff up and walked away after saying just a simple.

"Hey" I didn't get why she was so fucking upset, so I followed her.

"hey whats wrong with you today? Did your homie leave?" she sighed still not looking at me.

"No he is in LA for a few days." It sounded like she was forcing her self to talk to me.

" Oh what are you doing today?" I tried to keep the conversation going.

"I got some work to take care of. What are you doing? Or should I say who are you doing?" I stepped back looking at her confused.

" Wait are you pissed of that I left last night with my friend?" She had to been there was nothing else for her to be mad about. But why would she be mad over that?

" It doesn't matter right, I'm just a stuck up lesbian right?" she snapped at me finally looking my way with a furious look on her face. "Next time clean up your own dam mess fucking Jerk" she walked away from me, leaving me dumb founded. She made no since to me at all. Why was she so pissed off. I don't even remember coming home. Dam I hope I didn't say some dumb shit to her about being gay. I have never seen her that fucking mad at me before.

I took a shower. My mind was all over the place. My life was falling a part right in front of me and I couldn't stop it. Never in my life have I had a problem with fucking a girl, I never cared about the way a girl smiled or laughed, I mean I think I broke my cock, Fuck maybe I was turning gay I don't fucking know. Plus Bella was overly pissed at me over nothing, Plus work fucking sucked, I didn't get my raise. My mind was all over the place but it always flashed back to Bella. Why was I more worried about why the hell she was mad over why my dick wouldn't work. I don't get it, what the fuck was her problem? I knew this shit would happen she would start acting like every other girl, Pissed off for no fucking reason at all. Other then she came home and I left. That was fucking dumb. Maybe it was just that time of mouth for her, It was really bugging me that she was mad over nothing at all. Before I knew it the water was ice cold. I completely spaced out right now in the shower. I dried off and throw on some sweats. I got as ready as I could and left to my appointment I made today.

They took blood from me for test, The doctor made me show him my dick. He said it looked normal but we would have to wait for the test. Great just one more thing I needed to worry about. I had to come back in a week for my results. I was still hung over. I need to lay down and sleep it off. I felt like my chest was going to burst open. The doctor just told me to try and relax. He said I was having small anxiety attacks. Seriously I didn't even feel like my self at all. I'm a fucking man not a bitch how the hell did I ended up with anxiety?

I was home laying down when my phone started to go off. I looked at the ID. Cool Whip. I answered it, Maybe she was calling to apologize for being a bitch for no reason.

"Hello?" I answered trying not to sound bothered by her.

"Hey what are you doing?" She asked hesitate at first.

"Hangout out at home." I was trying to be careful with my words, so I would set her off again.

"Look You where right last night, I'm sorry. I don't know why I was so pissed off about you going with that girl . Look I think we should talk can you meet me for dinner?" I wanted to ask what I said last night but then I would look like an ass. I obviously said something fucked up.

"Where do you want to meet up?"

"Ugh, How about Olive Garden?" I could tell she wasn't really interested in eating.

"Sounds good, how about around 7?"

"Yeah, I'll see you there."

"Bella look whatever I said I didn't mean" I finally spit out but I was too late, she hung up already. This fucking sucks, what the hell happened to me last night? I always remember the shit I do, Why did last night have to be the first night I black out.

I don't know what I was going to say to get her to tell me what the hell happened last night. I looked my self in the mirror making sure I looked ok. I stopped and stared at my self. Ever since the every first day Bella came parts of me have been changing. I didn't really like it but she was forcing me to look at myself, really see myself for the first time. Looking in the mirror right now I didn't see the heart breaking, cocky asshole who only cared about himself. I didn't see the player who fucked a different girl every night of the week. What I saw was a guy who was scared to fall in love, Someone afraid of getting left behind and being alone. I was afraid of failing at life. But at the same time that I saw my flaws I saw my hopes. Next to my hopes I saw Bella. I wanted her but I didn't want her for just sex. I wanted her as in a part of my life. I looked in the mirror realizing I was falling in love with her. What the fuck was I getting my self into? Jasper would flip out. I tried to block it out but every time I did it came back twice as hard. I was fucking screwed!

I got to the restaurant a little early so I waited in my truck until Bella pulled up next to me. When I got out she smirked at me.

"You didn't have to get all dolled up for me!" Bella said wiggling her eyebrows looking me over. I guess I did over do it. I wore dark slacks, with a burgundy long sleeve button down shirt. I rolled up the sleeves to my elbows.

"I just felt like getting ready Cool Whip, With you who knows where the night will take us. You don't look to bad your self." She was wearing a white strapless sun dress. It hugged her tight all the way to her waist then falling freely the rest f the way down. She just smiled and looked away from me.

When we got in we waited to be seated, The tension between us was pretty strong, and awkward. .

"So how is your head feeling?" She asked concerned. I looked at her trying not to stare at her. Fuck I wanted her but I was still unsure. She probably didn't even feel the same way. She did admit to being gay, or at least I think she did. Fuck if Wayne never said anything I wouldn't be having these dam thoughts. Fuck Jasper would fucking kill me, But I just couldn't help it. She made everything feel right.

"My head is fine, You said you wanted to talk but before we do I want to say I'm sorry for anything I said last night, I was really drunk." I said shacking my foot, I felt like this was a fucking brake up or something.

"You don't remember do you?" She asked with pain in her eyes.

"No, I wish I did." I couldn't look at her with the look she had.

"Well you basically called me a cold hearted lesbian bitch, and Im a STD what ever that means, Emmett, you never had to be my friend. You don't have to hang out with me, I am- " I stopped her right there.

"Isabella, Listen to me, I said those things because I was mad, I was mad at myself for becoming the asshole I was but you changed all that. You made me see who I really am. Thank you for that. I freaked out last night, I just didn't mean it flip out on you. You do frustrate me though, Your so closed off, Even more then I am. I hate that your such a mystery. As for you being gay, I'm cool with it I really am." Bella was listening to me playing with her fork.

"You really think I'm gay?" Bella asked with a strange smirk.

"Well you turn down guys all the time and well you hooked up with girls in front of me and member when you had those girls over awhile back. I herd you guys getting down." I was not ready for this conversation with her. I'm a fucking idiot, I'm falling for a dam lesbian.

"I want to tell you more about me, but I want to ask you a few questions first." Something about her made me let go of my past and I wanted her to know me as much as I wanted to know her. Something I have never done before was share my past with someone, well other them the bits and pieces Jasper knows.

"Ask me anything!" I said getting more nerves. she bit her bottom lip in the most adorable way. I just stared at her waiting to hear what she wanted to know.

" Are you a nymph?" I couldn't help laughing at her random first question.

" No I'm not addicted to sex. Why?" She smiled blushing. I never seen her shy before it was a good look on her, But I loved her out going personality more. It draws me to her.

"Well why do you sleep around so much? How come you don't have girlfriends? Why just one night stands?" I wanted to lie to her but I couldn't, I thought the lie waiting for it to come out but truth came out instead.

" Because they are all the same and I figure I'll fuck them and leave before they can fuck me and leave me. Plus I hate how most girls act. It's always the same thing. I want different, I want something rare. If I were to ever be with some one she would have to be different. I want someone that is truly mine, not a girl who has slept around with a tone of people. Plus it takes a lot to hold my interest. So she would have to be entertaining." She had no idea that I didn't know I wanted all that until I met her. Before her I didn't want anything but a fuck. She just looked at me with searching eyes. God I wanted to know what she was thinking or what she was searching for.

Our food came, Bella started to eat while I watched her. She was deep in thought. I wanted to tell her she truly was everything I never knew I wanted.

" Anymore questions Cool whip." I asked hating the silence between us. she smiled that smile that made everything bad disappear.

" Have you ever been in love before?" I don't know if I ever been in love before. I guess if you don't know then that would be a no. I've liked girls before but I never said I love you to them. That was one thing I didn't mess with. The first time I say I love you to a girl I will mean it. She will be the one I marry. I wont say it to just anyone.

" Naw. I've lusted but never loved." I answered simple, I started to relax more. she nodded in understand meant.

"OK What do you want to know about me?" She asked smiling but her eyes were nerves.

"Well I guess the first thing would be, How close are you to Wayne?" I asked because at the party last night they where really close. Bella seemed really comfortable with him. The way he looked at her said a lot to. He seemed just as protective of her as me and the rest of the family. But what really bugged me was he looked at her like he knew her, he knew more about her then I did and that bugged me.

"Wayne is my boss, but we became really good friends. He has been there for me in my darkest moments. I get paid way too much money for what I do. Jasper and the family weren't always there, not that, that is there fault. My dad was kind of an ass. He thought by throwing money at me it would keep me happy but I really wanted family around. When I meet Wayne and His family they sort of adopted me. He isn't that much older then me but he is kind of like my dad. He is hard on me when I need it. I'm close to everyone at Cash Money." I know what she meant about wanting family to be around, and being adopted by them because that's what happened with me and Jasper. His family took me in as one of there own.

"That's cool, I thought maybe you too liked each other or something." I had to throw it out there for a reaction, I was glad when she shook her head laughing.

'Oh no, really you thought that. No like I said he is a father figure." We both laughed about it. Bella was looking to the side of us, she looked back at me smirking.

"What?" I asked still laughing.

"Those girl over there are staring at you." She smiled then looked down. I looked over uncomfortable, and sighed.

"That's rude, they don't know if you're my girlfriend or not." I was being serious I hated that about girls. They where whores and didn't care if a guy had a girlfriend. That was one reason I don't have a girlfriend. Woman are two faced, lying bitches.

"Well it's probably because they could smell the man whore in you. Girls have hoe radar just like guys do." She laughed looking back over at the girls. I didn't think it was funny, I didn't like that she thought that about me even though it was true.

"I'm sick of girls thinking I'm a man whore, Yeah I sleep around but its only because I haven't found that right girl yet." Bella looked at me surprised.

"I thought you liked being a player?" I shook my head at Bella

"I did but it's getting old, Hold on I'll be right back." I stood up smiling at Bella, She looked really confused. I walked over to the girls who where eye fucking me.

"Ladies, I couldn't help but see you looking over my way." I put my charm on. They where giggling looking at me. "I'd really appreciate it if you would stop eye fucking me in front of my date over there, Your making my stomach turn with disgust." They all stared at me in horror, and disbelief. I went back and sat down feeling pretty good about myself right now.

"What the hell was that?" Bella was laughing taking a piece of bread and throwing it in her mouth.

"Sorry, I called you my date, I told them to stop eye fucking me." Bella started to laugh out loud looking over at the table of girls.

"Well I'm proud of you, your finally thinking with the right head." She smiled looking at me in the eyes. I started to get this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. I needed to stop doing things like that.

"Anyway back to our conversation, I have another question I want to ask. If that's ok?" Bella took in a deep breath nodding yes.

"You said Wayne was there in your darkest moments, Do they have do with who ever Edward is?" she looked like she was in pain just thinking about it. As mad as I knew it would make me I was dying to know, She took another deep breath looking away from me. "You don't have to tell me, I'm just curious." I said feeling bad for bringing it up. She looked up at me.

"No I'm glad you asked, They think I should be more open with it. Plus Wayne thinks I should tell you because I'm close to you, he thinks we fight a lot because I'm not as open with you as you want me to be. Besides you would probably get why I turned bi. Yeah Emmett, I'm not gay just BI." She was right about that, We fight more then she does with Jasper. But it's because I get so fucking frustrated with her about certain shit. Wait did she just say BI? As in she isn't fucking gay and I'm a fucking dumbass!

Bella took a sip of her drink before she stated to tell her heart braking story.

" I should of never got back with him the first time but I thought I was in love. He was my first everything. I really though I would be able to make him love me enough to change. He always cheated on me and never hide it from me. He said I loved him and had to accept him for his flaws. When I fought him on it he would slap me around until I stopped and told him I accepted him. He hit me for everything, that wasn't to his standers. Edward was very hard to please, It was almost impossible. I used to be the weakest girl with the lowest self-esteem. I hated my self for years. He made me feel ugly and useless. If I didn't give it up to him he would take it." she paused and looked down. I hated how her eyes where filled with pain as she told the short version of her story. It was killing me watching her relive the painful memories for my benefit. She was the most beautiful girl I've ever know inside and out. How could she look at her self and feel bad. I reached over and held her hand. She looked up at me with watery eyes.

"You don't have to finish Bella." I wanted her to finish but I wouldn't make her, not if it was going to make her cry.She cleared her throat, And forced a smile out that didn't reach her eyes.

" I was with Edward for 2 years when I got pregnant." I could tell she was looking for my reaction. On the inside I was shocked, wondering where her baby was, but on the outside I tried to keep me face composed. She waited a few seconds before starting again." Edward promised me the world, he said he was sorry for everything he did to me, that everything was going to be great now. I believed him like an idiot. I thought the baby would bring us closer, people say A man can change his ways when he becomes a father, I thought that was going to happen with Edward. I've always wanted to be a mother, it was something I used to look forward to but now, I hope I never get pregnant again. When I was 7 months he came home from work one day really mad, I still don't know why. We got into a huge fight .He said I needed to stop gaining so much weight. That I was disgusting to him, I keep trying to tell him the doctors said I was under weight for 7 months but he didn't care. Anyway he beat me that day the worst he had ever beat me before. I remember Edward hitting me for hours, I couldn't even move after awhile, I was so weak I couldn't even cry anymore, I just laid there in my blood. I was supposed to meet Wayne to help him with some studio stuff, I was still interning with him so I wasn't getting paid. One thing Edward did not get. when I never showed up he got worried. Wayne found me passed out on my living room floor, Edward was gone. long story short I was in the hospital for two months recovering, I was so out of it the first three weeks I didn't even know I lost my baby. I went into a bad depression, Witch Wayne really helped me with. It took a lot of work to become how I am today, I didn't want to be a weak little girl anymore. I took self defense and I worked out everyday, got a hotter body then I had before. The attitude just sort of came with the new me. I never pressed charges like a dumbass and ended running into him like a year later. Edward Started to say how he was a changed man and how sorry he was, he went to rehab or whatever. I don't know What I was thinking but I invited him to my apartment, I told him how much I hated him, And how I was different to. He started to get mad at how I was talking to him, He raised his hand at me and I lost it. I beat the shit out of him. I got arrested, Wayne bailed me out and thought it would be a good idea to visit some family for awhile." Everything about her made since more now, She wasn't fazed by the hospital because it wasn't the worst thing to happen to her. She hated men because of her ex. I finally understood her, and I was still interested. I'm in deep now. The more she talked the more I wanted her. I wanted to take away all the painful memories and replace them with funny heartfelt ones.

" So you make him eat his nutts the way you threatened that other fag at the pizza place?" she started to laugh, she looked relived.

" no but I wish I did. You ready to go?" She asked being her impatient self. I paid for our dinner and walked her to her car. There was so much I wanted to say to her but I just couldn't get the words out.

"See you at home?" She asked getting in the car. I nodded my head still trying to process her story.

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