A/N: Hey everyone! Thanks for reading and a massive shout out to all the amazing people who reviewed and answered my question from last chapter, you guys are the best and I'm so glad you picked to make Edward work to earn Bella's forgiveness! We'll get to the lemons and the elevator later! LOL

It took me so long to update this story, sorry about the wait but it was just so hard to write and get motivated...I need more reviews! (I know I'm a review addict!)

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I awoke feeling the most relaxed and well-rested in I don't how long I mused as I stretched out my arms and legs in bed, my wrist didn't hurt anywhere near as much yesterday I thought gratefully. The sun was shining brightly into my room, its golden rays slanting across where my face was, that's what must have woken me. I loved the feeling of warmth it gave me, it was reassuring, comforting, but then I felt these thoughts betrayed my memories...betrayed Edward, because I loved his cool touch so much and that used to be my source of comfort and reassurance.

Remembering Edward made the memories of my dream last night quickly flash back into my mind, it had been the most vivid and beautiful dream of him that I'd had in a long time, it was so different, it felt so real, it wasn't my normal nightmare of him leaving me, it was a happy dream, full of comfort and...love. It had made me feel loved, almost whole again. Thinking of the tender way he had held me in my dream brought tears to my eyes and that was it, I quickly snapped myself out of this pointless reminiscing and back to reality, he did not visit me, he would not visit me, I would not allow it, he had hurt me too much, I was broken and I didn't see how he could possibly fix that.

I had lost my trust in Edward, and no matter what my subconscious might be trying to tell me through my dreams, I knew perfectly well in reality that it was an impossibility, Edward didn't want me, I flinched when I remembered him telling me that, and I knew he still wouldn't want me now. My thoughts uncontrollably flashed back to this kiss he gave me when we were trapped in his office but I quickly shut them down with the notion, that he just did it to snap me out of having a panic attack. Well...he still shouldn't have kissed me, he had no right, he has no right to me anymore and my thoughts were increasingly growing in anger. Well he won't have to worry about trying to avoid me in class, I'm going to do my best to make it easier for him and ignore him, as much as my brain would let me, and I was going to start with this morning's classical literature lecture that he would be taking.

I slowly made my way out of bed and went over to my dresser to grab some clothes and went to my chair that my towel was usually draped over, and that's when I saw it, my bag. For the life of me I couldn't think how it had gotten there, I certainly didn't remember putting it there and I know I didn't have it with me yesterday when I came back with Alice, I tried to remember the last time I saw it. The last time I remember having it was when I put it down when I entered my subject co-ordinators office, Edwards's office. But how did it get here then...Alice? No I must have brought it here with me after all and was just so upset that I forgot about it, yeah that must be it, maybe I'm going nuts...

I quickly rushed my shower and scoffed down a muesli bar for breakfast because I wanted to be early to class so I could sit right up the back in the corner, out of Edward's main line of vision, this less he had to look at me the easier it would be for him. I quickly grabbed my books and shoved them in my bag and grabbed my dorm keys and stepped out the door, but I didn't make it out the door because something tripped me over and I barely managed to stop myself falling flat on my face. I quickly looked around to see if anyone saw me, thank goodness no one had, I checked my wrist and luckily it was still ok.

My thoughts then turned angry, who leaves something lying in the doorway for people to trip over! I finally dragged myself off the floor and turned back around to face the offending item in my doorway and I gasped...surely there was a mistake, who would send me a massive bunch of beautiful white lilies? Then I thought they might be from Alice to cheer me up but then I thought more likely they're from Ben for Angela. I quickly picked up the beautiful bouquet and took it back into the dorm to sit on the table, I wasn't even going to bother to look at the card, certain now that it was for Angela, but as I was turning to go, I quickly glimpsed my name and nearly fainted. It wasn't my name that caused such a reaction but who had written it...

That was Edwards handwriting, I would recognise that elegant script anywhere, I would recognise everything about him still, and I didn't know what hurt more, the memories of him or that he would send me flowers, what was he thinking?

Just open the envelope Bella! I thought exasperated with myself; I had been standing there undecided for minutes, so much for being early to class. I slowly brought my shaky hand up to the crisp white envelope wedged in between the lilies. He had touched that envelope my evil brain thought traitorously excited, well my sensible side trampled that thought down instantly, thinking it's more likely a kind note telling me that he'll try to stay away from me if I try to stay away from him, well Edward I thought you didn't have to bother yourself, I'd do it anyway, and my traitorous thoughts popped up again, that I'd do anything if it stopped causing him pain. Yeah well, sensible Bella thought, it's not all about him anymore, it's about you and your New Beginning, you know, remember that, moving on, forgetting him etc. Well I mused it was going ok til he showed up, how was I supposed to know he'd be my lecturer, I felt the world was conspiring against me. I also felt that perhaps I really had gone nuts and was developing split personality disorder, time to snap out of it Bella and just open the damn envelope!

I slowly brought my finger under the seal at the back of the envelope and it instantly brought back memories of my ill-fated 18th birthday party and the paper cut that had been the beginning of the end when Jasper nearly attacked me, I harboured no ill feelings towards Jasper, he couldn't help himself, he was a vampire, it was natural reaction. It was Edward who reacted in typical Edward style and took it all upon himself and finally revealed the truth that he really didn't want me anymore. God, Bella I thought, stop it, seriously you can't have a new beginning if you keep rehashing these painful memories.

I then quickly looked at my watch and saw that I had five minutes to get to class, shit! I tore open the envelope and despite myself held my breath and eagerly looked to see what he had written and instantly my heart fell and my breath gushed out in anti-climax:

Sorry

E

That was all that was written, sorry...sorry!!!!!! And he couldn't even be bothered to right his whole name, good one Edward I thought, way to make an effort, sorry, sorry for what? Kissing me, having to see me again at all or for the whole painful mess? What is wrong with this guy, why can't he just say what he means!!!

Now my good morning was ruined, I had been tripped over, hurt and now I was angry, late and to top it all off I would have to see him again. Great! This day can only get better can't it...?

I finally made my way to the class just as Edward began the class, I quickly snuck in and didn't look at him no matter how rude it was to not apologize, I didn't owe him that and quickly looked for a seat, unfortunately the sanctuary of the seats up the back were all taken so as I scoured the room for a seat I quickly spotted a pale hand waving to get my attention, ahhh Alice she had saved me a seat. A grin of relief flashed across my face and she quickly returned it with her beautiful smile. I quickly made my way across the room towards her and only managed to trip once, my face flushing with embarrassment as I finally sat next to her and turned to face the lecturer....

Big mistake, his eyes were instantly on mine, his black depths penetrating mine and no matter how much I wanted to and told myself too, I couldn't turn away. I subconsciously knew that he was lecturing the class, I could hear his beautiful voice, but his eyes continued to hold mine, they were so intense and I knew he was trying in vain to read my thoughts, probably trying to see if I got the flowers and the message to stay out of his way, well my eyes turned angrily, message received loud and clear Edward, don't fret, you'll see as little of me as possible. I finally managed to find the strength to break eye contact with him, but quickly before I did, I thought I glimpsed pain flash in his eyes, but it couldn't be? Maybe it was just painful for him to have to bare my presence.

I brought my gaze down to my book in my lap and never brought it back up again for the entire lecture, no matter how much I wanted to, I just couldn't meet those eyes again and finally when class finished I quickly gathered my things and literally sprinted from the room only bumping into two chairs when I left, not too bad for such a frantic escape. I just had to get out of there, I made sure I didn't go anywhere near him but I glimpsed him from the corner of my eye watching me leave and once again I thought I saw pain in them, what more do you want Edward I screamed internally, I'm trying to stay away from you, I tried to withdraw from the class, what more can I do, I'm not leaving college just because you don't want to see me, too bad Edward, it's about me now and I'm staying here, no matter how much it hurts me and pains you.

My escape was suddenly halted by a cold hand on my shoulder in the crowded corridor outside the classroom, I gasped and my heart thudded violently, but before I could get too carried away I heard Alice softly whisper "Bella it's just me...hold up please, I want to talk to you, please" and when I turned she had her puppy dog eyes on in full force, I couldn't help the smile that spread across my face "Alice you know those eyes should be illegal" and she laughed her beautiful melodic laugh. "Yeah I know, but they come in handy", yeah for manipulating me I thought cheekily. "Bella I know how painful that was for you, I'm sorry it shouldn't be like this, but it is what it is... but how about something to get your mind off it". I looked at her sceptically, I knew what she probably had in mind "Bella lets go shopping" she squealed practically jumping on the spot, I couldn't deny her happiness

"Ok Alice, but you're not buying me anything" I tried to say sternly but those eyes were working on me again "Alice" I said exasperated "C'mon Bella it'll be fun, I haven't seen you in so long, I thought I'd lost you, you own me so much lost shopping time with you and afterwards you can come back to the house and see Esme and Carlisle, they'll be so excited to see you again",

"But..." I tried to object, but before I could get a word in Alice said "Don't worry he won't be there, Jasper and Rosalie are taking him hunting, he doesn't even know you'll be coming ok, please we have missed you so much" and she turned those eyes on me again "Alice" I cried and her eyes just continued to plead with me "Ok, ok" I sighed and she squealed and grabbed my hand towing me out of the building, oh I thought what have I got myself in for...

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