An: Thanks for everyone who told me to continue! I had to make some changes to my profile if you haven't noticed! So enjoy this story and sorry it took awhile my internet was down! Remember reviewing makes me know you care haha
"Home sweet home" Spencer said as she slung her backpack to the ground just inside her front door the following day.
Ashley continued to a large wooden table in Spencer's living room and settled into her usual spot.
"Ash" Spencer called from the hallway "You know you don't have to sit there! It's not like we're eating dinner with my family tonight!"
"I know" Ashley laughed "But I'm hoping if I sit here long enough your dad will come home and invite me to stay for dinner! And hopefully make my favorite meal" Ashley called.
"Haha in your dreams! My dad is out with Clay and Glenn camping tonight. So I will be making a mean mac and cheese. But your welcome to stay" Spencer added as she walked over to Ashley and placed a lime green notebook in front of her.
"I would love to" Ashley responded sincerely "And I may just have to spend the night too. I wouldn't want any strangers breaking in to your house." Ashley jabbed Spencer in the ribs making fun of her fear of the movie "The Strangers".
"Hey!" Spencer responded pouting her lip "Now you do have to stay!"
"Perfect" Ashley laughed as she flipped open the first page of the notebook. "Jeeze Spence did you even take any notes?" Ashley asked motioning towards the intricate patterns and doodles Spencer had drawn on the page.
"Well, I won't lie" Spencer began "I am learning more about Art than Math in that class. The drawings get better as you go on!" Spencer promised. "But anyway, all the pages are dated so just find what days you missed and..." Spencer stalled looking at the digital clock to her right that read 4:00pm as her cell phone began to buzz. "This will be my mother. I won't take too long!"
"Thanks Spence" Ashley called as Spencer disappeared up the stairs. She faintly heard Spencer say "Hey mom" before returning her attention to the notebook.
"Alright" Ashley whispered to herself "I missed two weeks ago. So that would make the date...perfect the 18th" Ashley said as she flipped to a page covered in technicolor doodles. "Wow, Spencer wasn't kidding. Her drawings did get better" Ashley noted as she flipped open her own notebook and picked up a mechanical pencil.
For the next fifteen minutes the only sound that could be heard from the living room was the fervent scratching of pencil on paper. Ashley copied down Spencer's notes on the quadratic formula and all kinds of things she found pointless.
"The Accumulated Interest Formula: A = P + PRT" Ashley said to herself as she reached the bottom of the page. "Damn, there's more of this!" She thought to herself as she turned the page.
"What is this?" Ashley thought as she looked at what appeared to be a letter written by Spencer to her friend Jamie. "I shouldn't read this" Ashley reasoned. She was about to close the notebook when she saw her own name and couldn't resist the temptation to know what Spencer thought about her.
The note was dated October 25 meaning it was written a little less than a week ago.
Jaaaamie!,
Let me start out by saying you NEED to get a phone. It's painful having to write everything down to you. I would much prefer to talk to you so you'd able to respond immediately. But I guess this is the best I can do. I barely have anytime after school so I'm writing this to avoid the torture of my Algebra class .The only thing that makes this class bearable is Ashley sits next to me. Thank god! I really wish you could meet her, you guys would get along so well. She's quickly becoming my best friend out here. Obviously, nobody can replace you but it's nice to be close to someone near by.
Anyway, the real reason I'm writing is because I just had another encounter with Madison. I was standing at my locker gets books and she was waiting for me. I closed my locked and turned towards her and she took a step closer to me. I swear to God I thought she was going to kiss me, but she just fixed my collar because the back was up and said, "you're a mess". And walked away.
You're the only person I can talk to about "this". I know you're going to roll your eyes once you read this, but those feelings I had for Sarah. I feel them again, and this time they're directed at Madison. I'll know you know what I'm going to say but I'll just make it obvious. I think I'm falling in love with her.I hate being apart from her, she's the only one who can make me truly happy out here. And that scares me because you know what happened with Sarah literally almost killed me. I would do anything to be with her, blow off schoolwork, class and even Ashley.
I feel terrible about blowing off Ash, but I just have this odd pull towards Madison. Maybe it's because she looks like Sarah or maybe it's because we have the same semi-flirtatious relationship. I mean she hangs on me is ALWAYS touching me. I just don't understand what her intentions are. She has a boyfriend, as you know, that guy Aiden.
I just don't know what this means for me Jamie. Does this make me gay? bi? How am I supposed to know? I've never felt this way about a guy but I am attracted to a guy's body. I just think I'm more attracted to a girl's mind. I've tried to ration with myself and think that I just like it because I like close bonds. But lets be real I've never had any sort of urge to kiss you. I just don't know what to do anymore Jamie. I just wish..."
"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING!" Spencer screamed and Ashley jumped. She hadn't heard Spencer walk up behind her.
"I'm sorry Spence. I just was copying notes and saw my name" Ashley said as she turned and faced Spencer nervously.
"How much did you read?" Spencer urged moving closer to Ashley.
"Not much" Ashley stammered.
"TELL ME" Spencer yelled her eyes wild with anger and betrayal.
"Almost all of it" Ashley admitted closing the gap between her and Spencer.
"You had no right!" Spencer cried her voice cracking and her defenses lowering. Tears threatened to fall from her eyes.
"Spencer, it's okay! I won't judge you! If you're gay that's fine!" Ashley cooed holding Spencer an arm length from her.
"No it won't! Because you'll never treat me the same! You'll be afraid to hug me, afraid to hang out with me. You probably won't stay tonight! And you'll-"
"Spence!" Ashley interrupted her. "I'm not afraid of you"
"Yeah Rig-" But before Spencer could finish Ashley had closed the space between them and silenced Spencer by connecting their lips.