Phoebe sat on the curb of the pavement eating a frozen yoghurt and admiring how beautiful the day was. Gemma had taken Grace for the day so Phoebe was pretty much a free agent for the entire day. The few friends that Phoebe had in Charming were all working and since she had taken a little break from work she didn't have much to do. Phoebe was kind of avoiding going to the garage as she was trying to keep as distance from the club as she possible could. Although she did come across Juice the other day practically naked except for wearing his boots and an adult nappy. He was walking the streets with no recollection how he had woken up outside the police station, Juice mentioned something about his last memory was of taking some vitamins and that was it when Phoebe offered him a lift back to the garage. The rest of their conversation was about animal documentaries, something that both Phoebe and Juice both enjoyed and bonded over. Juice wasn't as stupid as people thought he was, Juice was actually very intelligent although he was prone to some silly moments. Phoebe reminded herself to set up a animal documentary marathon with Juice and Grace, given that the biker with tattoos on his head and the funny hair was her new best friend.

"Phoebe, is that you?"

Looking up Phoebe saw Kip towering way over her and she couldn't help but smile, she was quickly becoming used to having him back in her life. Although she had to remind herself not to get too used to it as eventually she was going to leave again. But for now she'd enjoy his company and the odd opportunity to see him with Grace. "Hey Kip?"

"W-What are you doing down there?" Kip questioned as he slid his sunglasses off.

"Umm nothing much, just sitting here enjoying the day and eating a frozen yoghurt, why don't you join me?" Phoebe offered and Kip looked at her hesitantly before eventually sitting down next to her. "Good choice."

"So what brings you down here?" Kip asked and Phoebe couldn't help but notice the smirk tugging in the corner of his mouth because of the joke he just made. And Phoebe quietly chucked as she eat another spoonful of her frozen yoghurt. Kip never changed, he still had his wiry sense of humor and always knew just what to say to make her laugh. He was one of the most awkward people Phoebe knew and she had always loved him for it, she found very endearing. Kip was unlike most men Phoebe knew, he was cocky and arrogant but sweet, sincere and he had always made Phoebe feel like she was important.

"Well I visited Abel at the hospital and talked to Tara for a bit and then I ran a few errands and then once those were done, I took a walk and then my bored and lonely ass ended up here with frozen yoghurt." Phoebe explained with a small frown.

"You bored? I don't believe that Phoebe, you never get bored as there is always some obscure book or textbook that you haven't read yet…" Kip stated and Phoebe knew he had a point.

"Okay, you have a point about the book thing… Everything in mom's house I've read a dozen times and she put all my textbooks into storage when I moved out. Mostly I'm just bored, I'm not used to having so much time on my hand so now I'm growing a bit restless. If I'm not working or prepping for a case then I'm with Grace and now I have neither. I've taken a couple of months work and my mom has Grace so I'm kind of at a loss of what to do now. I'm not used to having this much free time on my hands." Phoebe admitted.

"Makes sense… You were never one to sit still for long, you always need something to do." Kip said with a small laugh before sighing. "I'd never thought I'd see this, the two of us back in Charming again, the last time the two of us were both back here–"

"–I remember, well some of it…" Phoebe quietly said as the last time they were both in Charming was just a little over three years ago when she came home for Jax's wedding and ended up being attacked by someone and ended up in the hospital because of the whole coma thing.

"You left without saying goodbye, I didn't even get a chance to see you after what happened to you. I kept my distance from the hospital because you didn't want your family to know about us but once you were released you went into hiding at your mom's house and left as soon as you could hobble." Kip quietly said and Phoebe felt a small pang of guilt.

"I didn't want you to see me like that Kip, I had more bruised then I could count and then broken ribs and a broken leg. When I came out of the coma I was all over the place emotionally and physically and I couldn't have you see me like that so I couldn't bring myself to say goodbye when it came time for me to do my disappearing act. I wanted to say goodbye, you were the only one I wanted to see but I just couldn't Kip. It was too hard…" Phoebe wearily admitted and after she did she couldn't help but take a deep breath.

"Well at least you said goodbye in LA…" Kip said with a small smile trying to lighten up the mood.

"Can I admit something to you Kip?" Phoebe questioned.

"Sure…"

"I always say that I hate Charming but if you had asked me to stay anytime throughout the last ten years I would have done it Kip. I would have stayed if you had asked me too." Phoebe admitted

"Can I ask you something Phoebe?"

"Of course you can."

"Why did you never want your family or anyone else to know about us?" Kip asked and Phoebe had been expecting this question years ago. But not once whilst they had been dating did Kip ever press Phoebe as to why she didn't want anyone else to know about the two of them.

"You were always the calm in the storm that's my life, I grew up in the middle of SAMCRO and that life it brings and I didn't want any part of it. And you were my escape from it Kip, from the day we met you were the most normal thing in my messed up life and you made me so happy and you were something that belonged to me and not SAMCRO so I wanted to keep you to myself. I was never ashamed of you, I just wanted to keep you away from all that craziness but I guess that didn't work out too well prospect." Phoebe said as she put her frozen yogurt down to finger Kip's kutte. She was still having a hard time adjusting to that bit of information.

"Phoebe…"

"Your going to have to explain it to me Kip as I really don't understand, you knew how much I hate the club and how much I wanted to escape from Charming so I no longer had it attached to me like my damn shadow. I come home not expecting to see you but I find you in the last place I wished I hadn't." Phoebe admitted and this time it caused Kip to sigh.

"It's not like what your thinking Pheebs." Kip began and Phoebe rolled her eyes, as much as she appreciated this whole talk of trying to convince her that SAMCRO wasn't the big bad evil. But what Kip was forgetting that she grew up around this mayhem and chaos, she may not be part of the club and privy to the finer workings of it but she knew enough to want to have escaped this town everyday from when she had turned thirteen. The people in Charming didn't call her the First Daughter of Anarchy for a reason, it was an nickname and referred to the fact that she was the only daughter born to a member of the First 9 of SAMCRO.

"Yes it is Kip because I'm not stupid, I pretend like I don't know about the gun running and all the other crap that the club does with the Mayans and the Niners, not to mention the Nords who are only four blocks away from where we're stting. You sitting here trying to convince me that the club isn't the big bad evil won't work with me Kip as I hate SAMCRO. I never used to hate just disliked how much it took up of my family but ever since my dad died I have hated everything about the club. Why the hell do you think I became a lawyer?" Phoebe said in a rather flustered manner before sighing. "I was eleven when my dad passed away… Did I ever tell you that? I was eleven years old when my father was hit by a semi-truck and two days later because he injuries were so severe."

"No you didn't…"

"The day my dad died is something I'll never forget as it just seemed like a normal day or as normal as it ever got in my house. We we're sitting at the table breakfast when my dad announced he was leaving for work and I asked him to wait a minute because there was something I needed to give him. I ran to my bedroom and came back less than thirty seconds later with two pieces of paper, the first was my spelling test which I had aced. My dad had helped study for it although really I just liked having his company when I could get it. The second paper was a drawing I had done. It was of our family. My dad, mom, Jax, me standing outside our house and in the clouds was my brother Tommy. My dad acted like it was the best things he ha ever received and said he would treasure it always. That was the last time I saw him…" Phoebe said swallowing a massive lump in her throat as she thought back to her dad's accident.

"Phoebe, I–I'm so sorry about your dad." Kip quietly said and Phoebe just sighed.

"Then found my picture in his kutte when they found him and I keep it in a large envelope, locked in my safety deposit box as it kind of smells like him… I used to have this bee necklace which I had brought when I was about nine with my pocket money and I adored it but my when my dad died I asked my mom if he could be buried with my necklace. I wanted him to have it so he could know how much his little Bumble Bee loved him as I never told him that I loved him when he left the house that day." Phoebe tearfully said, ruefully wiping away her tears. "Ever since then SAMCRO has been a pain in my ass, I think if my dad wasn't in club then he wouldn't have been on his bike and I wouldn't have lost the person who believed in me the most."

"I'm sorry about what happened to your dad Phoebe but wasn't it an accident? I don't see how it's got anything to do with the club." Kip began and Phoebe just shook her head as he really wasn't understanding what she was trying to say.

"My point is Kip that I worry, I have been worrying about Jax's involvement since I was old enough and I worry he'll end up dying like my dad. I worry about everyone Kip, it's my thing and I don't like it. I don't want worry that the people I love will be killed because of some beef with a rival gang. You weren't on that list Kip, whilst I worried everyday about you when you were in Iraq I wasn't worrying about you being killed because of your involvement in a outlaw motorcycle gang. If anything were to happen to you Kip because of this club it would kill me…" Phoebe said as she let her head fall.

"Phoebe… Hey Phoebe look at me, please." Kip quietly said and after a moment she lifted her head up to look up at Kit. "Come on this is me, you don't have to worry about me Pheebs I did survive a tour of Iraq!"

"B-But you lost a testicle in the process!" Phoebe tearfully laughed as she continued to wipe her eyes.

"Still came back, didn't I?"

"Yeah."