A/N: Sorry this took so long... I had a major readers block _ I really enjoyed writing this chapter lol you'll see why. :) Anyway, I don't have a beta reader or anything so I apologise for misspellings or grammatical errors. Anyway hope you enjoy :p
They didn't talk about it. Vegeta didn't acknowledge the night before nor did he give Goku a straight answer. Vegeta went about his day in an orderly fashion, avoiding Goku at all costs. Goku couldn't help but feel like he'd made the whole situation strange. They both had wives and Vegeta never seemed to show affection for anyone else, or anything for that matter. To make it worse, as much as Vegeta tried to not make it obvious that he was avoiding Goku, he was pretty bad at acting. Every time Goku would enter a room that Vegeta was in, he'd leave immediately. He didn't seem to care about the kind of mental connection they had the night before. Let alone the physical one.
Then again, Goku knew that Vegeta cared deeply for the connection they had. It was prevalent in his mind. Goku wasn't so keen on the idea any more either. It took him a day or so to realise that he had a wife and children. A wife that loved him more than life itself. The guilt took over him. He began to feel guilty to even think about Vegeta, let alone the unholy thoughts he mustered deep in the night. There was no doubt in his mind that he was sexually attracted to Vegeta. Unfortunately for him, it was obvious. He'd be sitting at the table, minding his own, then his thoughts of Vegeta would invade his mind. Then he'd end up with an awkward boner and be forced to take care of it. He'd never been very sexual. Not even with ChiChi. They'd only ever done anything when she wanted to and even then he wasn't interested.
Vegeta came storming through the hall way. He had his phone pressed to his ear. He looked worried. Beyond worried actually. Goku could hear the voice on the other line. It was Bulma, as always, and even she seemed distressed. Vegeta swung into the kitchen and poured himself a cup of coffee.
"Vegeta," Goku called but Vegeta just looked at him and continued to listen to Bulma. "what's wrong?"
"Alright, I'll be there." Vegeta hung up the phone and sat next to Goku.
Goku continued to look at him with curious eyes. The worry lines on Vegeta's face seemed to deepen with each passing second.
"Vegeta?"
"Trunks is in the hospital." His voice was monotone.
"What? Why? Is he okay?" Goku watched Vegeta's mouth twitch.
"He's getting surgery."
"For what?" Goku's voice cracked like a prepubescent teen. "We need to go there! Now!"
"Kakarott, will you shut up! You know we can't leave!"
"I can IT us there! I think I am strong enough to get us all the way there. I can sense his energy." Goku stood quickly. "What is he having surgery for?"
Vegeta sighed, annoyed. "He's had a brain tumour since he was a child, the doctors said it wasn't growing so he might have been able to live with it for his entire life. I guess it started growing in the past month and they were getting worried." He ignored the idea of going to see him. "He very well could die." Vegeta's voice became quiet and small.
"We need to go, Vegeta. You know we do." Goku sat back down closer to Vegeta and looked over his face.
"I know, Kakarott." I can't get there by myself and you'll go into a full panic attack." Vegeta now eased his back in defeat.
"Well not if I…" Goku's voice became inaudible.
"Kakarott, please. If you have any type of idea on how I can see my son, just fucking say it."
"If I… hold your hand… I should be okay." Goku pushed his pointer fingers back and forth.
"You're certain that will keep you from going nuts?" Vegeta made eye contact with Goku. He seemed to be willing to do whatever he could to see his son.
"I really think so." Goku's heart pounded in his chest.
"Let's test it." He stood and walked to the door. "Come here." He ordered Goku. Goku stood and walked to Vegeta obediently. Vegeta opened the door and stood just inside the door. "Go out."
"I can't-"
"Just go, Kakarott." Vegeta wasn't hearing any of Goku's excuses.
Goku took a deep breath and stepped outside. The crisp winter air whipped at his skin. At first, he thought he was okay, but then everything started going black. His mind started to spin. He began to get so anxious that his whole body started to shake and a panic attack wasn't far behind. The paranoia etched away at his composure. Every little noise made him jump. His heartbeat and breathing quickened.
"Vegetaaa!" Goku cried as the tears began to fall. "I can't do it. I can't-"
Before he could say another word, he felt Vegeta's firm hand wrap around his. He turned to look beside him and there he was. Vegeta was standing beside him looking straight ahead. Goku took another deep breath. He tightened his grip on Vegeta's hand. Just like that, he became tranquil. Everything suddenly became brighter.
"I guess you were right." Vegeta kept his gaze straight ahead. "Do you need this the entire time?"
"Yes…" Goku's voice was small again and his face was red and he felt the butterflies in his stomach flutter just at the thought of Vegeta's hand around his.
"Don't be embarrassed." Vegeta looked up at him. His cheeks were also flushed red. "This is actually calming me as well."
Goku smiled like an idiot and blushed harder.
"Let's go."
With that, Goku pressed his fingers to his head for the first time in months.
The pair appeared in front of the Harrold Sheppard Memorial Hospital. Vegeta clenched Goku's hand as they walked in the front doors. Goku hadn't realised that it was the same hospital he'd killed Tao. Vegeta drug Goku to the front counter and asked what room Trunks was in. 402, top floor, ICU. Most of the people that passed them gave them disgusted looks. Goku felt singled out and like he was being bad.
"Kakarott, stop looking like a scolded puppy." Vegeta released Goku's hand and switched their hands so their fingers were laced. A woman looked at them disgusted and whispered to her friend. Vegeta must have herd them because he pulled Goku over to her. "Excuse me ma'am." She turned to look at them.
"Yes?"
"Do you have a problem?"
She looked at him with a confused look. "I'm sorry?"
"You should be. I didn't know coming to the hospital with my friend who has horrible social anxiety and needs to have his hand held would cause such a fuss." He placed his free hand on his hip.
"I didn't say anythi-"
"Bullshit, I heard what you said to your friend, don't play me like a fool." Vegeta was irate. "Would you be so kind as to repeat it so my friend can hear?"
She stood up straight and confident. "I said, look at those two faggots over there. I don't want to be in the same room as them."
Goku's face became white. He felt disgusting himself. How could people be so rude? They weren't even a couple. He felt like he could break down and cry right in the middle of the hospital. Vegeta looked at him. He searched Goku's face and mind, since they had the mental connection now, Vegeta felt what Goku was feeling. Then Goku felt Vegeta's rage, and it was overwhelming.
"Listen here, bitch. Who are you to judge? Are you 'Jesus'? No. Far from it. I'll have you know, we are not together. I am his moral support so we can see my dying son. You are the bane of this planet. You should be ashamed of yourself. Judging without knowing anything. I hope you have a gay son so you know how much pain they go through just to be accepted. I should slap you." Vegeta gripped Goku's hand harder and whipped Goku around so they were facing each other.
At this point, Goku was so confused he could barely think straight. All he knew it that he felt like a pile of rotten dog shit.
Vegeta looked at the woman again with an angry scowl and turned to face Goku again. He grabbed the back of Goku's neck and pressed his lips to Goku's. Before Goku could even react, Vegeta had plunged his tongue into Goku's mouth. Goku was shocked and he was unsure how to feel. Vegeta backed off and looked at the woman again.
"There, we're a fucking couple now. Fucking deal with it." He gripped Goku's hand harder and led him away. "Come Kakarott, let's leave these whores to their slutty ways."
Goku was still awestruck. That kiss was the most amazing thing he'd ever done, even though it was filled with so much anger. Not only was that amazing kiss filling his brain, but were he and Vegeta really dating?
"No." Goku forgot that Vegeta could now hear his every thought. "I was trying to prove a point."
"Oh." Goku hung his head slightly.
"Don't be so glum. Maybe someday, Kakarott."
They walked hand in hand in silence until they reached room 402. Vegeta opened the door for them both. Upon entering, Bulma was sitting next to the sleeping Trunks, along with Goten holding his hand.
"Dad!" Goten exclaimed. He remained seated but kept a smile.
"Hey Son."
"Goku!" Bulma got up and went to him for a hug. He hugged her with his free hand while gripping Vegeta harder. She pulled away and looked at him with a weird look. She looked him over then stared at Goku's held hand. She gave Vegeta a scoulding look, then looked ta Goku again. "You look better! How's your anxiety?"
"Uh, a little better. A lot better with Vegeta around." Goku looked at Vegeta fondly, but Vegeta remained looking at Trunks.
"That's what I thought would happen. Vegeta, are you feeling any better?"
"Yeah, is Trunks okay? Why is Goten obsessing over him?"
"Oh yeah, about that… Trunks and Goten are kinda dating." She flinched slightly expecting Vegeta to become enraged.
"He better not hurt him or I'll snap his neck." Vegeta said as he walked over to Trunks. Bulma stood with her mouth open in awe. She clearly didn't expect Vegeta to react so calmly to her news. Vegeta sat next to Trunks and Goku kneeled beside him because of the lack of chairs. Their hand position was awkward but Goku didn't mind. He was just happy to be holding Vegeta's hand."How's he doing?" Vegeta asked Goten.
"They have him on a mild sensitive for the pain. He's been having a lot of headaches lately." Goten rubbed Trunks' hand rhythmically.
Vegeta grabbed Trunk's other hand. An hour or so passed and Goku and Goten had fallen asleep with their heads resting on the edge of the bed. He still kept Vegeta's hand clenched tightly in his. Vegeta watched Bulma as she typed angrily on her phone.
"Why are you so angry?" Vegeta asked in a low voice.
"It's no very considerate to date the broken ones. They become consumed. I thought maybe that's what was going on with you. That's why I didn't demand we have sex." She crossed her arms and sat back in the chair.
"We're not... It's not what you're thinking."
"Well by the way he's clenching your hand, I'd say otherwise." Bulma looked at him again with a scolding look. "You may have temporally fixed him, but it always comes back. You should know that better than anyone."
"Bulma, please." Vegeta tried to talk but she kept going.
"I guess I was the dumb one for thinking you actually love me. All those times you'd protect me and the way you'd fuck my brains out. I should have known something was a little off with you, but I never expected you to be gay. Especially with someone to portray to hate." She looked at her hands as if to ponder her next words. "I texted Chichi and told her Goku was here. She'd been wanted to see him. I'd rather her find out about the adultery so she can heal."
"You did what?!" Vegeta became enraged. Seeing Goten was enough, Chichi would send him spiralling. Vegeta stood quickly, pulling Goku up. "We are not fucking! We aren't not committing adultery! We are holding hands because this was the only was we can stay calm and actually leave the fucking house! But no, you didn't ask about that. You just kept on assuming. If you really cared about Kakarott and his well-being, you wouldn't do things to make it worse. Fuck you Bulma." Vegeta ripped Goku away from the bed and rushed out of the room.
"Vegeta! What's going on?" Goku kept up the pace.
"Your wife is going to be here any moment. Stay close and keep your grip in case you see her. This is not the time or place for you to be seeing her." Vegeta's face was red with anger.
"Well I dunno Vegeta, I handled Goten pretty well, maybe I can see her." Goku wanted to see her.
"Can you release my hand without freaking the fuck out?" Vegeta stopped running and turned to look at Goku. Goku looked at him in bewilderment.
"No.." He said with a frown.
"Then she is going to think you're cheating on her with another man and she'll freak out, sending you and all the work we've done, right back to the beginning." Vegeta saw the disappointment in his eyes and sighed. "Listen to me, you will get to see her. You'll get better. You and I know that if she saw you, she'd think you're cured and would insist on moving back in. She'd expect the 'old' Goku back. Would she get him?" Vegeta knew he had a point, and he knew Goku knew it too.
Goku shook his head. Vegeta sighed again and continued to run.
Just as they were on the home stretch to the main doors, Chichi walked through them and walked up to the receptionist desk. They were in the wide open. Vegeta froze in his tracks and Goku seemed to breathe heavier.
"Vegeta you were right I can't handle this yet."
Vegeta stood in silence.
"Vegeta help, please she's coming."
Vegeta watched as she learned the room number and turned to get on the elevator. She seemed to turn in slow motion as she made direct eye contact with him, then with the trembling Goku cowering just behind him. A wide happy smile slid across her face as she ran up to them. Vegeta turned to Goku quickly.
"I'm so sorry for this." Vegeta whispered. Goku looked at him, confused, then his expression became broken. He paled in an instant. Vegeta had ripped his hand from Goku's leaving him in pieces. Vegeta had a half an hour before he'd lose it. Enough time to show Chichi that Goku was still broken. Vegeta backed away slowly as Chichi warped herself in his body.
Goku was in utter shock. He stood in front of Vegeta staring at his empty hands as his wife hugged and cried into his shoulder. In that moment, Goku felt absolutely nothing but panicked fear. The two didn't mix well because his body felt like white noise. Suddenly, the realisation that he was in the same hospital where he'd killed Tao sunk into his panicked brain. Tao. Tao. Tao. Tao. Tao. The name caved itself into his brain. Everything started to turn back. He could see Vegeta standing front of him just staring. The more he tried to concentrate on Vegeta's face, the more he started to look like Tao. Chichi's body started to feel like a thousand bee stings on his skin. He screamed in pure agony. Soon, Tao was everywhere. Every direction he looked, Tao was coming closer to him. He turned and tried to run, but several Tao's wrapped their arms around him and tried to bring him to the ground. He punched, kicked and screamed as hard as he could.
" N!" He screamed at the top of his lungs. Soon he was tackled to the ground. He closed his eyes and prepared himself for what was next.
"Okay off! Everyone off! I've got this." Goku heard a familiar voice. A voice that wasn't Tao's. He still didn't open his eyes. "I told you he wasn't well yet. No there's no need for drugs. I'll handle it." Goku felt familiar hands on his face. Hands that didn't hurt. "Kakarott, come we can leave now." Vegeta?
Goku opened his eyes to find Vegeta on top of him. He closed his eyes again. He was so tired all the sudden. He felt Vegeta put his arms underneath his neck and knees.
He opened his eyes again to the sound of loud traffic and people talking.
Vegeta nearly didn't make it home. Carrying Goku was different from holding his hand. He felt entirely guilty for letting Goku spaz out in front of all those people. He wasn't even sure Goku would forgive him. Vegeta sat on his side of the bed as he watched Goku sleep. The only upside to this, was at least now Chichi and Bulma would back the fuck off.
Vegeta kept his gaze on Goku's chest, watching it rise and fall. Goku came to with a pained expression. He looked up at Vegeta with disgust.
"You probably have a head ache. Here, I knew this would happen. Always did to me." He handed Goku two ibuprofen and a glass of cold water. Goku took them then sat up with his back to Vegeta. "Know what you're thinking."
"Oh do you?" Goku's voice was hoarse.
"I did it because I needed to Chichi to see that you're still not you."
"Not me?!" Goku chuckled. "This is who I am now! The old Goku died a long time ago."
"Kakarott," Vegeta tried to sooth him but he was on a rant.
"All this time I was trying to 'fix' myself. And for what? My wife? Someone I can't even be around?! I can't be fixed. I'm forever trapped in a body that isn't mine! There is no fix! I was so naive to believe that I could be even remotely normal again. I'm so tired of living up to everyone's expectations of me. I'm tired of pretending I care. I'm tired of being a fucking push over!" He turned around completely to face Vegeta. Vegeta couldn't even decipher what was going on in Goku's head. It was big jumble of a billion thoughts. "You know what? I'm tired of being unhappy! I've been unhappy with that woman since Gohan was born! Yet I had ANOTEHR child with that incessant woman! I'm so tired of her bossing me around like I'm her fucking child! I am a grown man! I'm a SAIYAN. I could crush her with a single punch! But you know what?! I don't! Why? Good question, IT FUCKING BEATS ME! APPARENATLY NOTHING DOES BUT THAT QUESTION DOES." Goku paused and took a breath.
"Okay, that's enough. Calm down before a heart attack beats you next." Vegeta sized Goku up with a proud side smile.
Goku shook his head in anger before realising Vegeta was eyeing him. "What?"
"Nothing... It's just, I never heard you say you were a saiyan with so much pride before." Vegeta smiled sheepishly then averted his eyes to his lap.
Vegeta heard Goku groan loudly, then his face was directly beside Vegeta's. Goku's hot breath engulfed his ear, sending tickles all down his spine. "Did that turn you on, Vegeta?" Part of him wanted to punch Goku right in the head, but the other half was fully turned on. Vegeta turned to look at him with a shocked expression, but Goku was closer now. Mere inches from Vegeta's face.
Goku slid forward quickly, meeting Vegeta's lips in a rapid motion. Their lips tangled and twisted, not showing signs of tiring. Vegeta ran his hands up the back of Goku's skull, grabbing a fist full of hair and pulling. Goku's head went back as a moan escaped his lips. Vegeta hair stood as the sound echoed in his ears. Goku must've saw the content on his face, because he narrowed his eyes and bit his lip in a sexy way. Vegeta thought he was going to disintegrate right there. Never had anyone looked at him like that. Goku smashed his lips to Vegeta's again only this time as he pulled back, he grabbed onto Vegeta's lip. Vegeta pressed himself against Goku's muscular body letting his arousal become apparent. Goku smiled into Vegeta's neck. Goku slid his hands beneath Vegeta's butt and slammed him down on the bed like a rabid animal. He attacked Vegeta's neck and slid down his chest and stomach with his tongue.
Goku put one finger under Vegeta's jeans and tore them off with literally just one finger. Vegeta stared down at the tent in his underwear with uncertainty. Goku looked up and him and saw his worry. Goku slowly came up Vegeta's body.
"Don't worry, I've seen and had enough to know what feels good. Trust me." He kissed Vegeta one last time before returning to where he was.
Goku pulled the grey boxers down Vegeta's legs and threw them behind him. He gently ran his tongue along Vegeta's shaft. Vegeta squirmed beneath him. With one solid gulp, Goku put Vegeta's entire member down his throat. Vegeta let out a loud gasp that strung into a moan. He quickly covered his mouth. He didn't know how much longer he'd last. That was the best blow job he'd ever had. He couldn't believe that is was Kakarott down there. The thought of Kakarott made it worse. Before any more thinking could occur, Vegeta released with a loud moan. He looked at Goku quickly. Goku came up with some still on his lip. He kissed Vegeta so deeply, Vegeta nearly went again.
Goku picked Vegeta up and flipped him over as he ran his tongue down Vegeta's back. Vegeta's hair stood again.
"Now from what I've read, this may hurt a little. But I'm sure you can handle it." Goku whispered in his ear.
"This isn't my first rodeo, Kakarott. If it was you certainly wouldn't be top." Vegeta scoffed.
"Well then," Goku's voice was like velvet. "enjoy yourself."
Goku spit in his hands and rubbed himself, then he positioned himself. He pressed gently at first, but the warmth and pressure took over. He entered Vegeta with slight haste. Vegeta moaned uncontrollably. Goku went faster to keep in pace with Vegeta's moans. He could feel himself nearing, but it needed something else. Without thinking, he ascended to ssj. The power filled his veins and it felt amazing. Everything was bigger, and Vegeta didn't protest.
"Holy...fuck. Did you just get bigger?" Vegeta put his face in the pillow.
Goku just smirked.
Two whole hours later, they were done and Goku was lying beside Vegeta covered in sweat. That was the most amazing sex he ever had, and he planned on doing it again and again. By the content look on Vegeta's face, he was up for it too. He'd never been able to go ssj with Chichi. She was weak, and now he finally had a partner that could take every ounce of power he had. He smiled to himself. Oh the different forms he could try.
He didn't even notice he could transform again.