Finals…. Done!! School…Done!!! Extra long Chapter 7… Done!!
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--------- How to Reveal a Part of Your Past---------
The light hit the blinds and birds were chirping as Usagi woke up with a startle as she felt someone jump onto her bed, causing other voices to giggle. Dumbstruck, Usagi rushed off the bed and fell unto the floor. The girls giggled at her again and finally Usagi seemed to wake up and register it was morning. Somewhere inside Usagi had to smile, she had made it through the night without crying.
The girls, seeing her bittersweet smile, began to bother her and then made themselves comfortable in different parts of the room. Then Mina spoke up,
"You have 30 minutes to get changed starting… now!"
Usagi, slightly more cheerful after slightly chatting with them, was puzzled.
"What?" she questioned somewhat groggily. Makoto set out to explain,
"Well, its been so dull, staying here at this house the whole time and well, we've decided to take you out!"
"So hurry up, baka, our driver is coming to pick us up in 28 minutes." Rei spoke up, slightly testily and somewhat cheered up because her friend didn't seem so sullen anymore.
"But why so early?" asked Usagi seeming to understand that something was going on. After all, Mina would only smile like that when she was planning something. But then she noticed the awkward smile on Ami's face and wondered what was going on. Ami began to speak softly,
"Usagi… its around noon. So, can you please begin to change? You only have 25 minutes left."
But the look on Usagi's face told them that something had just occurred to her. The exact thing they had tried to prevent her from thinking she had thought.
"Where's mom then?" she asked, as if almost in a state of panic. The girls looked away; they didn't want her to know that she had left early in the morning, before the sun rose.
But the look on their faces must have told Usagi something because she just nodded, as if she had been expecting it. They also saw regret in her face. But Usagi's mother hadn't just left; she had given Ami a letter but Ami wouldn't give it to Usagi. Ami didn't want Usagi to be hurt anymore. So she just said nothing.
Usagi looked at the girls and then forced herself to grin. She would not push them away. She looked at the clock in her room and noticed that she only had about 20 minutes to get ready and began clearing her voice,
"Girls… get out… I just realized that I have 20 minutes to eat, take a shower and change!"
Then she got out of bed and rushed to the restroom. The girls began to giggle; they were instantly reminded of their school days.
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Usagi had almost tripped into the kitchen and the girls just looked at her, amused. Usagi looked absolutely refreshed and almost cheerful. She ran to the table and began scarfing down food. For some reason she would barely eat when she was angry; so the girls decided that this must mean that she wasn't sad anymore, right?
When it was about 1:00 Usagi finally asked where they were going to go. The girls kept their mouth shut but shoved her out the dinning room while she was stuffing her face. They waited outside and it was gorgeous. The sun hit Usagi and warmed her instantly; her hair was put in her traditional odangos. Mina seemed excited and Usagi wondered just for who was this trip really for. They had been waiting ten minutes and then Rei became frustrated.
"Honestly! We had planned this, discussed this at breakfast and they still couldn't get the chauffeur to come on time! Who is the idiot who couldn't… drive… fast… enough?"
Rei stopped her rant when a car seemed to come by out of thin air. It was a long, black limo. It seemed to shine and as soon as it pulled up the front window went down to show a grinning Jadeite. His hair seemed tousled back and he had on jeans and no shirt on. Rei blushed and began to scream again,
"What's up with you? Put on a shirt or something and not only that but you were late! Again!!!!!" Rei yelled out, frustrated. Usagi began to giggle. Jadeite, she noticed, had a wicked grin on his face. He spoke softly and huskily,
"I overslept, Rei and rushed out to get the limo. I didn't feel I had time to put on a shirt at the moment. I do have one with me, though. If you want, however, I won't put on a shirt." Rei became even more red.
"What make you think that I would even want to see that?!" she squeaked. Jadeite chuckled.
"You're face is so red. I thought you liked what you'd see." Mina and the girls snickered at Rei. Rei faced him haughtily and spoke,
"Why you are even more disillusioned than I thought! I bet Mamoru looks even better. Don't make me laugh at the comparison!" she said meanly and rushed into the back of the limo.
The other now seemed to be uncomfortable with the direction that the conversation turned. They piled into the back but Usagi stayed outside of the car. Mina told her to enter but Usagi shook her head.
"I think I will stay up front with Jadeite" was her final word and she climbed into the front.
Mina didn't think to protest, after all, Rei needed to this. Mina knew that Usagi staying up front would make Rei jealous. Maybe then she would understand how much she cared for Jadeite.
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"Sorry for ruining your day, Usagi-chan." Jadeite said gruffly. Usagi looked at him and shook her head.
"Sorry, Rei was mean to you. She didn't mean it. She just… got flustered. When she gets put under pressure she tends to lash out" Usagi said softly. Jadeite laughed bitterly.
"She wasn't flustered. She just hates me and loves Mamoru. Did you know I once proposed to her?"
"Yeah. She told me you were making fun her, though. Were you?" Usagi asked softly. Jadeite gripped the steering wheel and shook his head.
"Never. We use to date. But that was during college. Some rumors set out that I liked another girl, though. It was a lie, of course but Rei seemed to soak up all that gossip. It was strange. Then, one day, someone told her that I was just dating her as a joke. That was right before I proposed to her. She shot me down. Mamoru was right there too. I don't think he meant to laugh, but he did. It was out of pure shock, I know. I was ready to laugh out of disbelief. But she just took this as a confirmation to her beliefs."
Usagi looked at her lap the whole time.
"That doesn't sound like Rei. But give her time… Meanwhile, where are we going?" she asked casually. Jadeite actually had to laugh. She sure did try to change the conversation.
"I'm not going to tell you. We all decided it would be a surprise." Usagi seemed surprised that the girls had discussed it with others.
"When?" she asked
"This morning. Mina came up with the idea, of course, but she invited certain people to come. It was… amusing, to say the least."
"Oh. At breakfast? … Well duh… it would have to be breakfast." Usagi said to herself and then asked Jadeite how much longer until they arrived. Jadeite said really soon. Usagi kept quite and then spoke softly, Jadeite was puzzled. The girls seemed to want to protect her as much as they could. From what he had seen they would never hurt her. Jadeite asked
"What do you mean?" he asked cautiously, she might not want to talk about it, he reasoned. But then Usagi began to laugh at Jadeite. He somewhat noticed it was actually nice hearing her laugh.
"You don't have to be scared about asking me Jadeite! I'm not ashamed of it… Well, let me start. I've known the girls since I was a baby and as the baby of the group they naturally felt as if I was the one to make fun of, protect and nurture. My mother had asked them, as a game she said, to always protect me and would invite us to little tea parties when we were old enough."
Usagi's eyes then seemed to darken, Jadeite noticed, but she continued as jovially as if she didn't truly feel what she was saying.
"She would make them promise to protect me by making it seem childish. Then she would talk to them. She would ask them little questions and at times it felt as if she didn't care for them… except for little moments where she would ask them about their day. She wouldn't ask me. Then we entered high school. I think they finally began to notice that it was as if she would enter little subliminal messages into them. They made new friends, entered different groups. We stopped hanging out… It wasn't intentional, though. We just sort of dispersed. Everyone had their friends, but all I knew was them, it was never the same for me. My friends… I didn't talk to them 'til about my senior year."
Usagi spoke thickly now, her words laced with hurt, but she made it sound as if it was one of those things that would just happen to a person. The car had stopped driving. They had arrived and Jadeite hoped Usagi wouldn't notice, but she did and she seemed to itch to get out of the car. Her face was suddenly became excited and Jadeite couldn't help but smile. This was one moody girl. As Usagi left the car, though, she whispered something so that only Jadeite would hear,
"But Jadeite, for Rei, remember that there is a thin line between love and hate."
Jadeite had never seen Usagi so serious, so mature. Maybe there was more to her than what he thought.
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Usagi had her breath stuck in her throat. The sound of children laughing, screams, conversations, the smell of pastries and the crisp feeling of happiness surrounded her.
The girls stared at her expectedly and when Usagi looked at them they basically said,
"Well…."
Usagi began to laugh and said cheerily that she loved it. "It's been years since I was at an amusement park!!! Let's go!!" Usagi turned around and ran to the entrance gate. The girls had to smile.
They walked up to the park slowly, savoring her smile because they knew that as soon as they entered she wouldn't have one on her face. It was true, because as soon as they entered the girls heard that deep, confident voice that could only belong to Mamoru Chiba. Usagi, they noted, just stood there for awhile and snubbed him. Mamoru became visibly annoyed. They somewhat smiled and Mina spoke up,
"Ne, Usagi, why don't you be a bit nicer to Mamoru? He was the one that paid for the tickets, he gave us the money, and he sent Jadeite to pick us up, all for you." Okay, so she was tweaking the truth a bit, but Rei really wanted him to come and if he had good sense he wouldn't say a word. Beside things might get interesting…
But Usagi just looked at him up and down and somewhat smiled,
"Are you sucking up because of my mother's position? Took you a while to understand that you better treat you daughter's associate well, did it?" Mamoru seemed to have enough and spoke up, annoyed yet amused,
"Why are you acting like this? I haven't even insulted you yet"
Usagi had to say that she was surprised with his tone, which held more amusement than anger. Truthfully, she didn't know why she just verbally attacked him like that; she liked to think of herself as the peaceful type. Yeah, right, but maybe the trip down memory lane really had more impact than she would have thought. Whatever it was, she calmed down some and remembered to smile; yet, it was hard to think he did this for her. Usagi spoke more calmly,
"Yet? Well then, are you going to start now? Actually, do it later. After all, it takes someone of your intellectual level quite a while to come up with something witty. I'm actually being gracious!"
Usagi heard someone giggle at that and was surprised to see Jadeite there and Zoicite… Nephrite… and Malachite! A light bulb turned on in Usagi's head and she immediately began to form a plan. No doubt Minako had a similar one in her head.
"Hey, guys, how about we all go on the Ferris wheel? Please…" Usagi asked with puppy dog eyes. Minako seemed to understand Usagi's plan and began to plead along. The boys, seemingly unused to this sort of thing gave in. Mamoru seemed to want to laugh and Usagi felt a strange desire to know what he was thinking. Mamoru, unbeknownst to them, seemed to have an idea of what would happen and the thoughts of how bipolar Usagi was coursed through his head. He chuckled and Rei, who had been right next to him, noticed. She wondered why. But then again, she also wondered about the gleam in Usagi's eyes.
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Minako was thoroughly pleased; she was inside the Ferris wheel with Malachite… alone!! It was a wonderful achievement and Usagi basically organized the line so that they would enter together and it was brilliant! Minako looked at Malachite, trying to seem shy.
"Ummm… So Malachite tell me something about you. I mean what you like, dislike, admire… you know!"
Malachite looked at her and his cool gaze froze her.
"I like solitude. I admire your tenacity after I repeatedly cast you off. I dislike you."
Somewhere inside she hurt. It felt as if he had stabbed her. Though, she wasn't surprised. She had gathered that much. But… still…. She spoke again as if it hadn't hurt,
"So? Go on! I would love to hear mo-"
"Are you dense? I told you how much I dislike you and you continue! You don't know me… so why continue? I believe that you will be nothing in my future. Accept that" he said coldly. If he expected Mina to continue he didn't show any surprise that she seemed to back off. However Mina spoke up once again,
"I… like my job, I love acting and I do very well at it. You would never know when I am not acting. I admire the strength to overcome things, like Usagi. She's gone through so much… and even though she can be a bit… random… she lives on. I dislike… the fact that you can't see beyond things. I dislike the fact that all you see is a loud bothersome blonde when you see me…"
"That's what you are" he said emotionlessly. Mina continued,
"I know you. I know that you hate loud things, like me. I know how you don't have a girlfriend. You did that to make me leave you. I know that you are lonely at night and that you cry out. I don't know for whom. I know I make you feel uncomfortable and you tend to avoid me. I know that sometimes, when you think no one is watching you, you go to tend the roses with Mamoru."
She was interrupted again by him.
"Congratulations. You're a stalker."
Mina continued again,
"I know how you like your coffee. Black. Like your soul. I want you to love me. Can't you at least let me be near you? Maybe you would learn to love me. Maybe not, at least then lets be friends. But, you will never know me. Malachite… I like you because you are blunt. But even when you think you don't, you care. I know you're kind. After all, those who are the kindest get hurt the most. I've seen that with my own two eyes."
The ride was almost done and Malachite still wasn't responsive, but Minako wasn't discouraged yet. After all, she wasn't known for giving up. She was done with everything she had to say.
"Who was it that went through that?" he asked softly. Minako smiled,
"Usagi. If she can smile again, why can't you? Oh, and since you didn't answer my proposition earlier… I will consider you said yes to become my friend."
Malachite said nothing.
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"Ummm… so why'd you come here today, Zoicite-san?" asked a nervous Ami. Zoicite smiled and Ami calmed down. His smile always did that to her.
"To be here with you of course!" he said and Ami blushed. She shook her head and asked him to state the real reason.
"What do you mean Ami?" he asked smiling again. Ami paused somewhat and replied,
"You are so… sneaky. You think I won't see it but… Zoicite-san… are you sad or scared?" Ami asked as bravely as she could. After all, she wasn't used to really hanging out with boys. Zoicite looked at her softly and she could feel another blush creeping up as he spoke,
"How many times have I asked you to call me by my first name, Ami?"
"That's not the issue. You always act as if changing the subject will automatically make the things be gone…"
"So do you, Ami. Call me by my name."
"What…fine… Zoi- Zoicite."
Zoicite smiled and gently grabbed Ami's hand and kissed it. Ami sighed exasperatedly and ignored the tingling rising in her hand as she spoke up,
"You certainly can be difficult" Zoicite just smiled and whispered,
"You too"
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"Oh! That is so… cool! Look at those roller coasters!" Mako raved. Nephrite chuckled and spoke up,
"Don't you think that everyone getting their specific groups was a bit directed? I mean I always thought it was more of a Minako thing, not a Usagi thing." Minako seemed to have not heard him and kept staring outside. Something suddenly popped into his head.
"Ne, Mako… aren't you scared of heights?" Mako looked back at him a bit guiltily.
"Not really… just airplanes."
"And they go up high. You should have told Usagi this… or does she know? I will not let you get on something you're scared of!" Nephrite said strictly
Mako smiled and spoke,
"Usagi knows I'm scared of planes. I'm not that scared of heights. I'm just overwhelmed…"
Nephrite became angry; his face became red and spoke harshly,
"You're friend isn't a good one then! Who would intentionally hurt someone and not care!!!"
Mako however froze him with a look and she spoke up,
"Never speak about her like that because it's not true!! She knows about the planes but not about this. She would never hurt us intentionally! Everything I do, I do it for her. She has done so much for me! I will never let anyone talk badly about her… this is why I didn't tell you… you act like a father or older brother."
Nephrite looked at Mako, clearly annoyed, and spoke up,
"A father… or a brother… let me make it clear, Mako, I will never be that. Let's make it known that we will be closer than that." He stood up and grabbed her head, gently kissing her forehead. Mako got Goosebumps. Nephrite continued,
"Got it?"
Mako nodded,
"Got it."
"Good"
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Rei was angry. Rei was annoyed. Rei was about to commit murder. Usagi's that is. She had pushed her in here with Jadeite and she was determined not to talk to him. But a part of her had to. One remark was all…
"How was sitting with your girlfriend, Usagi?" Jadeite looked at her pleasantly and spoke softly, his deep voice chilling Rei,
"Wonderful. We just got a history check on each other. Couples need to do that, you know."
Rei stood up quickly and began to scream,
"You… you bastard!! You playboy! If you hurt her…I'll…I'll"
"You what, Rei? Rei, I lied. Usagi's a good friend of mine, that's all. In fact, I find it hard to be a playboy when I haven't dated anyone since I had you! You are so quick to accuse Rei, you've changed. You use to believe in others. What happened?"
"You!!" she burst out, "you hurt me…" And Rei began to cry; Jadeite stood up and grabbed her, hugging her softly. Rei didn't seem to notice with the sobs racking her body.
"You hurt me too, Rei. You never listened and now you love someone else. It burns me, you pyro." Rei, however, began to really wonder if she had ever really let him go.
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Usagi had a dilemma. In planning her genius plan she had forgotten someone. Herself. Now she was stuck with Chiba. In a small place, by themselves. With an insane man who seemed to be chuckling. She looked at him… well glared was more like it. Finally, he spoke,
"You forgot yourself, you idiot."
Usagi wanted to say ask what he meant, did he know, how'd he known but she kept herself quite and said,
"No, I didn't. I just sacrificed myself for the greater good."
Chiba just kept laughing and Usagi began to blush. She would not admit to the fact that she liked seeing him smile.
"You did forget yourself. Admit it. Don't make yourself look like an even bigger idiot."
"Why… why didn't you stop me then if you didn't want to sit with me." Usagi asked. She didn't mean to… she wasn't thinking… oh, she didn't seem to be thinking a lot later. But she didn't regret it. Her friends needed this. Chiba looked at her intently and spoke up,
"Hey, how about we become friends?"
How off the wall was that? Usagi almost collapsed. Thank goodness she was sitting down.
"You are so random" she replied
"You didn't answer me"
"Why?"
"Do I need a reason? Okay, you make me laugh and you are so easy to make fun of. You're amusing."
Oh great, like she was a pet. Well, this rabbit wouldn't go nibbling that easily.
"Then, why would I want to be your friend?" Usagi asked
"Because I'm funny, smart, you seem to be amused by me and I'm handsome"
"You're cocky and obviously blind." Usagi said, and boy was she annoyed. Why did she need his friendship?
Mamoru just shrugged. They would be the last ones to leave the ride and the ride was almost over. He continued,
"So?? Yes or no."
"Hmmm." Usagi pretended to consider.
"No" The look on Mamoru's face was priceless. Maybe she should take some pity on him.
"Just Kidding. Sure. But we're probably not going to be good friends."
Mamoru's face relaxed and he smiled. Usagi's heart began to beat faster. Mamoru,
however, was mentally thinking of how much she knew about Seiya and his wife.
As they stepped off the Ferris wheel Usagi saw the girls waving towards her, the men behind them. Some were smiling and some seemed sad. Usagi felt a breeze pick up and she wondered what had happened. As she went walking towards them Chiba called out to her,
"Now that we're friends, should we call each other by our first names?"
Usagi smiled and Mamoru's heart began to speed up. She looked sort of angelic with the wind enveloping her.
"Don't push it" she said and walked to her friends.
Angelic? Actually, he meant demonic. Still, there was no denying the fact that he loved her unpredictability.
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