Her Dreams Give Her Wings

Chapter 7 – I Will Follow You Into The Dark

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing." – Unknown

Renesmee's POV

I was sleeping peacefully which was an unusual experience for me.

There was no dreaming and no nightmares. It was just the same blackness that swallowed me whole before.

Then out of nowhere, I hear a loud, booming voice yelling, "I got her!"

I jolted upright, scared out of sleep.

It wasn't dark anymore.

The light was bright and it stung my unadjusted eyes.

I heard two heavy steps down the little stairs and a lot of protesting as objects were moved around.

I couldn't see anyone but I could feel them.

I sank lower into the pile I was sitting on which happened to be blankets.

The light that was on me disappeared and I looked up slowly, afraid of what I might see.

It was a huge black figure.

The face was in the dark because the light was to his back.

It could've been anything. I thought it was some kind of animal. There was no way it could be human. It was massive.

Then it reached for me.

Emmett's POV

Yeah! Emmett saves the day!

It's about time I get to be the hero. Not my doctor dad or surgeon brother. Just plain old Emmett James Cullen. And I'm not even a true Cullen!

I ran down the stairs and moved a stack of boxes to the side so I could reach Renesmee better.

The corner became extremely dark as I stood in the line of the light.

I moved to the side a little so I could see what I was doing. Just as I did, she looked up at me.

Wow. She looked exactly like them. From the curly bronze hair to the big, brown doe eyes. How weird is that? There was no doubt that she could pass as their kid, so why was she doing this?

I reached down to grab her when I heard an earsplitting scream. I looked around wondering where it came from. Then I looked back and Renesmee. It was her. Wow. The kid's definitely got a set of lungs on her.

I picked her up thinking that she was scared. Maybe she forgot where she fell asleep and waking up in the garage confused her.

But as soon as I grabbed her arms and lifted her up she started to kick.

What the hell?

Maybe I should talk to her, calm her down.

"Hey, Renesmee, it's okay. You're safe now, I won't let anything happen to you." I promised.

She shook her head furiously and screamed "No!"

Now I was confused. What the hell did she want? Why was she being so damn difficult?

"Emmett!"

I turned at the sound of my name.

Bella was standing in the doorway eyes puffy and red and a little crazy.

"Bells, look! I found her." I said happily with a smile.

Renesmee screamed louder and kicked harder. She barely missed just below the belt.

"Ow! Geez kid. You'll be one hell of a soccer player." I told her.

"What the hell are you doing? Put her down!" Bella screamed.

She was about ready to jump at me from the top of the steps but Edward grabbed her around the waist to stop her.

She screamed in frustration and tried to push his arms off with no luck and started to sob.

"Bella, stop it. She's okay, Emmett has her." Edward said sternly.

"No! I want my baby!" Bella said through her sobs.

"You can have her when you are calm."

Without another word she stopped. It looked almost like she went limp in his arms. Everything looked okay. Except that her eyes were now half past crazy and beyond reason.

Edward slowly started to unwrap his arms from around her.

What the hell was he doing?

"Edward, stop. She's not okay." I tried to warn him.

"Yes she is, Em. Look at her." He said angrily.

"No, look at her eyes." I said stubbornly.

He tried to turn her around, but she was already in a crouching position.

Oh shit.

It happened too fast to see it all, but the next thing I knew, Renesmee hit the ground as I caught Bella mid-air.

Shit, shit, shit.

Now she's really going to kill me.

I hadn't noticed that everyone made their way to the door until now.

Alice was crying into Jasper's shirt as he tried to calm her. Rosalie looked concerned for Bella, but there was a fire in her eyes for me. She wanted me to win this fight. Ana I would. Edward wasn't paying attention to us. He sank down to the floor against the doorjamb and stared at the cops and cars at the mouth of the garage. He knew that I wouldn't hurt Bella. He trusted me with that.

Renesmee still sat on the ground, shocked.

She looked around at everyone before she scrambled off the floor and ran towards the open garage door.

Bella was screaming and smacking my chest.

She slid out of my arms and started to punch my stomach.

It was about the same way a five year old would fight.

I let her get it all out before I caught her wrists and pinned them to her sides.

She looked up at me through tear filled eyes as her bottom lip quivered.

I enveloped her in a hug as she sobbed out her sorry into my shirt.

Renesmee made it to the door but before she could take off, Charlie stepped in front of her.

She looked up at him and then, shocking us all, wrapped her arms around his leg.

He gently lifted her into his arms and began to shush her and rub her back soothingly as her tiny body shook with sobs.

She locked her arms around his neck and just cried.

Alice and Rosalie came and took Bella into the house to get her cleaned up and calmed down.

Jasper was kneeling on the ground with a hand on Edward's shoulder talking to him reassuringly.

I didn't know where I was supposed to go or what I should do. I shoved my hands in my pockets and ambled towards the outside.

"Em?"

I turned and saw Edward looking after me with puffy eyes.

He did that crooked smile. "Thanks man."

I nodded and turned back to the open door.

The sun had set completely and now everyone's world was swallowed by the blackness.

Bella's POV

"Bells, honey, are you okay?" Someone asked me.

I was too numb to try and figure out who's voice it was. All I could do was stare at the door from where I sat. where was I? My bedroom? The living room? Kitchen? I had no idea. Everything was black.

Alice cut into my line of sight and crouched down resting her head on her arms in my lap.

I tried to pay close attention to her.

Her eyes were puffy and glistening, hair disheveled, no make-up. Very un-Alice like. A tear rolled down her cheek and I reflexively caught it. She leaned her head into my hand and smiled sadly.

"Alice, why are you crying?" I asked my voice cracking.

She scoffed. "Well, look at you. You've gone insane, Bella. Do you realize that you actually hit Emmett? Or that you were screaming at everyone?" She looked at me and I shook my head.

"Honestly, I don't really remember anything I said or did tonight." I admitted.

"You also told Edward that you hated him and you never wanted to se his lying face again." She whispered as more tears streamed down her cheeks.

"I did?" I asked in bewilderment.

Alice nodded sadly.

Rosalie pushed the hair off of my tear stained cheek and that was when I noticed she was sitting next to me.

Rose looked a thousand times better than me and Alice. Eyes were clear, make-up intact, blond hair shimmering like a waterfall.

"He knows you didn't mean it, sweetheart. It just shocked him a little. Well, a lot. But he still stayed right by your side." She explained.

"I love him so much…" I whispered brokenly.

"I know that." A velvet voice said.

My head shot up and my eyes met a pair of emerald green ones.

His eyes hid any hurt, but showed concern and almost looked…apologetic.

"Edward, don't." I whispered knowing he was going to blame himself for everything.

"Bella, I am so sorry." He started.

"Stop it." I said closing my eyes to keep the tears from falling.

"Love, will you please allow me to finish?" He asked softly.

"No." My voice cracked.

He chuckled once, sadly.

"I'm sorry for making a promise to you that I couldn't keep. For letting you down and not keeping our family together." Edward said sincerely.

He placed his hands on both sides of my face to keep me from shaking my head.

"Will you forgive me?" He asked quietly.

"Edward…" I sighed.

"Yes?" He wondered.

"I was never mad at you. I don't even remember saying those things. It wasn't a promise that you, alone, could keep. I knew that. It was a lot to ask of you and I'm so sorry for putting that much pressure and responsibility on you. So the answer is yes. Can you forgive me? I was not myself. I don't know who I was. I was just so driven to get Renesmee back that I didn't pay much attention to others in the process. I'm so sorry."

"Of course I do. I love you Isabella. More than you could ever know." Edward kissed my lips softly and the trail of tears falling from my eyes.

"I think you have that backwards Edward Anthony Cullen." I whispered.

He held my face and brought our foreheads together.

We stayed like that until someone cleared their throat. I had forgotten that we weren't alone and I blushed.

"You're so beautiful." Edward whispered in my ear causing me to blush deeper.

"If you two are done now, I'm sure Bella would like to talk to Renesmee." Rosalie stated.

"Nessie…" I breathed.

Here we go again.

Renesmee's POV

I was currently sitting on my bed hugging my knees to my chest.

Chief Swan was standing by my door and the tall blond guy was trying to get me to talk to him about why I ran away.

"Renesmee, please. You can talk to me. This is what I do for my job, so you can absolutely trust me to keep it a secret. It will be between the two of us, I promise. No one has to know anything." He pleaded.

Great. Now they wanted me to talk to a shrink. I guess I should've seen that one coming after everything.

"Jas, she's not ready to talk. Give her some time." Chief Swan said.

"Okay. Let me know when you're ready and I'll be here." Jas said and threw me a smile before walking out of my room.

"Ness, you gotta talk to sometime. You can't live your whole life silent. You have to let people hear you. It's not healthy to keep everything in." Chief Swan told me sternly.

"I'm fine." I mumbled.

He laughed. "You're so much like Bella. You tell everyone your fine because you think you don't need anyone's help and that your problems are less important than everyone else's. You're still human Renesmee. You need help."

"I don't." I whispered.

"Oh, but honey, you do. And we're all here to help you but you keep shutting us out. We want to help. Just let us." He said softly.

"I can't." I told him honestly.

"Why not?" He questioned.

"I…" I started but stopped and shook my head.

"Knock, knock. Can we come in?" Someone asked from the other side of the door.

Chief Swan sighed. "Yeah. Come on in Bells."

Bella slowly walked into the room with Edward trailing behind her, there hands locked together.

"Dad, could you give us a minute?" She asked quietly.

"Of course. Take as much time as you need honey." He kissed her forehead and placed his hand on Edward's shoulder before walking out of the room.

Bella let go of Edward's hand and slowly moved to sit on the edge of my bed.

I didn't move from my spot. I just stared at the stitching of the quilt.

Bella took a deep breath making her cheeks puff out before blowing it out noisily.

"Nessie…I meant what I said earlier. Every word. And then, I couldn't find you, and…it tore me apart. I was pretty crazy today and I'm sorry about what I did. But I don't want you to go anywhere. You're my baby girl." I could tell that she was trying very hard to not cry.

Edward moved in and took her hand again.

"Go ahead love." He urged quietly.

She nodded. " Renesmee, I'm going to tell you my story. The one I said earlier that I would tell you later.

She took another deep breath before she began.

"Seven months ago I was in a bad car accident. But not the kind you think. I was driving on the highway with my friend, Angela, when one of her tires blew out. She pulled off to the side and we started to change it. A man in a black SUV came around the corner too fast and didn't see us. He hit our car, it flipped on top of us and we were pinned beneath it as he sped away. Angela broke her leg and got a few cuts but nothing too major. I hit my head and was under the window, so the glass shattered and I was cut up pretty badly on my stomach."

She flinched as she said this and Edward held on to her hand tighter.

She gave him a sad smile before she continued.

"Well, I was losing too much blood and was unconscious by the time the ambulance arrived. They didn't think I was going to make it. I had to have a total of thirteen surgeries to fix what the glass had cut. There's a lot of scar tissue in certain places, so I can't have kids now. And I was five months pregnant when that happened. We were on our way to my ultrasound appointment, the one where I would find out the sex of the baby. Well, I miscarried and haven't been able to get pregnant since. Angela is fine. They finally got the man and now he's doing time for hit and run."

Bella just stared into space when she finished and Edward stood quietly behind her and rubbed her shoulders.

After a minute she smiled at me through tear filled eyes.

"That's why we don't want you to go anywhere. You make us a real family, Ness. We love you." She looked at Edward and he nodded his head in agreement.

"Oh." Was all I could think to say.

I suddenly felt like the worst person on the planet.

Here they were trying to give me everything and I turned my back on it.

"I don't deserve this." I whispered.

"Aww don't be too hard on yourself, squirt."

I jumped in shock. It was the same booming voice that woke me up before.

"Jesus Emmett. Don't scare her." Bella scolded.

"Sorry, but it's just part of my nature. I'm naturally scary. Boo!" He said jokingly.

What do you want?" Edward asked.

"To tell my story. I figure it'll help her out more than Bella's. 'Cause we share something." He explained cupping his hands together and cradling them to his chest where his heart is.

Bella rolled her eyes. "Okay. Go ahead."

Emmett smiled. "Thanks! Okay, you ready?"

I nodded.

"Of course you are. When I was seven, my parents died in a plane crash. I didn't have any other family except for my aunt and uncle, but they didn't want me so I went to good friends of the family, doctor Carlisle Cullen and his endearing wife Esme. I resented them for a long time. They already had kids, twins Alice and Edward, surely they couldn't want another. They were nothing but nice to me and I ran from it. Same as you, kid. I hid in the garage. Not my original destination, but I got scared. I didn't know the outside world. They found me when Carlisle came home from work and parked in the garage. They still opened there hearts to me. I still don't deserve them."

His smile faded and he looked down at me. "Sometimes we get things we don't deserve because we really just need them. It's life, but I'm not complaining." He shrugged and turned for the door.

"What do you say we try this again? Just start the whole day over?" Bella suggested with a smile.

"I'd like that." I whispered.

"Well then. Nessie, there's some people downstairs that would love to meet you and welcome you into the family. You ready?"

I looked at Bella and Edward, my new parents, my new family, my new everything, and knew that with them, I'd be ready for anything.

"I'm ready."

A.N: okay, okay I know. Don't kill me. I've been super busy (no joke) and I've wanted to write so badly! So I finally did. I hope you find it to your satisfaction. Let me know.
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