Aria awoke startled. It took a minute for her eyes to adjust and figure out where she was. She had not slept that well in a really long time. Suddenly she realized she was alone in bed. A light was glowing from underneath the bathroom door; she figured Ezra was in there. She grabbed her phone off of the bed side table to check the time. It was 9:30am and she had six missed calls and ten text messages. She knew who they were from. She erased the missed calls and looked at the last text message.
It would be nice if my fiancé would let me know when she is going away. Common courtesy isn't a bad thing!
She was fuming. He had some nerve to tell her about common courtesy. He did not answer his phone the beginning of last week and she finally gave up trying to contact him. Some fiancé he is. She texted him back.
I am visiting a friend from college who had a baby. Maybe if you answered my messages from the beginning of the week you would know. I'll talk to you Monday.
She was just waiting for the response. Noel was a nice guy when he wanted to be. If he did not get his way or if you were not doing what he wanted you to do he was not. Normally this is when Aria would take a break and not see him for a few weeks but now with the whole engagement thing looming over her head she knew what she had to do. As she sat in bed waiting for Ezra she could hear talking through the bathroom door.
"Liz I can't discuss this now. I am requesting a paternity test and that's it. I'm sorry to sound like an ass but the probability is just not good. Plus I know you were seeing someone else." He said. There was a pause while the other person must have been talking.
Aria could not believe he just said paternity test. Apparently they had not aired out everything that they needed to last night.
"I will talk to you Monday. Don't push me because soon you'll just be dealing with my lawyer." Suddenly the door flew open as he entered the room. "Oh good morning. I didn't think you were up yet."
"Yeah, I've been up for a few minutes. I guess we have some things to talk about."
"I guess we do," he said climbing back into bed.
"Can I go first?" Aria asked.
"Of course you can, I just figured you wanted to know what that was all about."
"I do, but I have something to tell you too." She took a deep breath and then began. "I am engaged."
"What? Where's the ring?"
"I don't wear it. I said yes in the spur of the moment but I can't go through with it. Especially not now."
"I did not realize you were in a serious relationship. Who's the guy?"
"Well it really wasn't that serious. We would go out a couple of times a week and then take a break. The engagement was really out of the blue. You're not going to like who it is."
"Who is it Aria?"
"It's Noel Khan."
"Really, you gave that jackass the time of day again!"
"Hey, you don't need to yell at me. He was someone to do things with. All my other friends had someone they loved. They told me to take a chance and stop pining over you. So I did. It was fun for a while but I didn't think it was going anywhere. None of my relationships go anywhere and you know why!" She yelled back at him.
"I'm sorry I have no right to judge."
"No you don't. Especially when I heard the words paternity test while you were in the bathroom." She said indignantly.
"You're right and you did hear correctly. That's what I need to tell you about."
"Well I'm all ears," her tone still noticeable but she was calming down.
"Liz is a woman I work with. She is "Elizabeth Fitzgerald" or at least her face is. We got close working on the project. She knows the story is somewhat true but I did not give her all the details." He paused to take a breath. "We started dating casually but I knew she was seeing someone else too. The women in the office are gossips. Anyways, last week when I got your second email I decided I was going to end things with her. It wasn't fair because I could never really love her and I wanted to be available for anything that happened with us." He looked at Aria.
"I see. But why do you need to get a paternity test?"
"I was practicing my break up speech in the shower and she came in and over heard me. She blurted out that she was pregnant. I don't believe it's mine. We have always been safe and quite honestly there aren't that many chances for it to happen. But I also didn't handle the situation well. And I'm probably still not."
"Wow that's a lot to digest. Ezra you could be a dad."
"I know but like I said to Liz if I am the father I'll take the responsibility but it doesn't mean I'm going to marry her. I don't love her and that's not fair to her."
"That's so easy to say now though but once the baby comes your feelings may change."
"I know but I will never love her like I love you," he said.
"I think I need a minute. I'm going to take a shower, ok?"
"Sure," he said deflated. Her news about Noel was nothing in comparison to his and he knew that. It was a lot to take; even he was still adjusting to it. Plus he did not want the first time he said I love you to be like this. He heard the water turn on. He could only imagine what she thought of him. He was going to tell her but did not expect to start the day off like this.
Aria stood in the shower letting the hot water pour over her. Her mind was racing. She could not believe that Ezra was going to be a father, potentially anyways. Her heart sank. This was their time to finally get it right and now everything seemed to be falling apart. Aria was lost in thought. She did not hear him come into the bathroom. She finally felt him behind her. He wrapped his arm around her shoulders pulling her back against his chest. He kissed the top of her head and just held her. He could feel her body tremble slightly, he knew she was crying. He turned her to face him, putting his finger on her chin to lift her head up to look at him.
"I love you Aria. No matter what we will make this work."
"You promise," she whispered trying to hold back the tears.
"Yes I do." He pulled her into an embrace and held her.
Aria melted into his embrace and began to cry. She was crying about the baby issue. She was crying about the time lost. She was crying about their break up. All of the feeling she had kept pent up inside were spilling out and he just held her until she was done. It seemed to last forever but she finally calmed down and looked at him. "I love you too. I don't want to waste any more time on this stuff. Today is time to enjoy together and tomorrow we'll put a plan together about going forward."
"That sounds good to me." He said leaning in to kiss her. "Now let's get clean and go explore the airport." The both started to laugh at that comment. They began to play a game of I'll wash your back if you wash mine. A ten minute shower turned into an hour but they did not care. Finally they were ready for the day and it was time to explore.
"Oh we need to rent the room for another night too." Aria said.
"Good point. I would have totally forgotten to do that." Ezra laughed as they headed down to the lobby.
They had a fabulous day souvenir shopping in the terminal. Taking goofy pictures with their phones, sending them to their friends. Being together was always easy. The comfort level between the two of them came naturally. Whether they were talking a mile a minute about nothing or sitting in complete silence, there was never the need to fill the space or keep the conversation going. Even after being apart for ten years, the ease of their relationship had not changed.
"I'm thinking room service and some snuggling," Aria said when they had made their way back to the lobby of the hotel.
"I like that idea. Maybe a little more than snuggling." He said with a wink.
"You are so bad."
"Come on. You can show me how bad I am," he said grabbing her hand and pulling her into the elevator.
They spent the evening in bed. They made love, they ate dinner, they dozed off then they made love again. Neither could get enough of the other. Aria's head was resting on Ezra's chest and her fingers were tracing lines on his stomach. "Can we stay here forever?"
"I wish we could," he said. "Our own private bubble where no one can bother us."
"Exactly, a world where only we exist." She said looking at him. "Tomorrow is going to be tough."
"Yeah it will be. We'll get through it though. We're going to make a plan. But not tonight. Tonight I am going to hold you in our private bubble because we're the only ones that exist right now and I'm going to enjoy that feeling."
"Ok," she said leaning in for a kiss. She put her head back on his chest and felt his arm squeeze her a little tighter. She liked being in this bubble and she was not ready to leave. Tomorrow they could deal with the rest of it.
When they awoke the next morning they moved around the room almost ignoring each other. They went about their routines getting ready to leave. Aria was avoiding eye contact because she did not want to start crying. The feelings were hovering right under the surface. Ezra could feel the tension and knew she was upset about saying goodbye. He was trying to not do anything to make her upset. When they both were dressed and packed he turned and looked at her. "All set," he asked. Aria just shrugged her shoulders signaling she was.
"Come here," he said opening his arms to her. She shook head. "Aria, please," he asked. She walked into his embrace and buried her face in his chest. He smoothed her hair and kissed the top of her head. He knew she was crying. He wanted to cry as well but he was really trying to stay strong. He tilted her chin so she would look at him. Tears were streaming down her face. "Ready to go?"
"No," she whispered.
"Me either but it's time."
"I know. Come on before I start crying again," she said wiping her eyes.
They headed out of the room and checked out of the hotel. They made it through security quickly and headed to a seating area in between both of their gates.
They sat in the airport waiting for their flights. Ezra held her hand and Aria had her legs up resting on his knee. Anybody passing by would think they were a couple in love, heading somewhere together. Little did they know they were saying goodbye to each other and they weren't sure for how long. Both had put on brave faces and were trying to keep the afternoon light.
The tears were right at the surface for Aria and she was trying desperately not to cry. She broke the silence first. "So we need a plan." She said.
"I agree," he said making eye contact with her. She immediately dropped her eyes to her lap.
"I don't think this should be 'goodbye'. I think this should be 'see you soon'. I think we need to set a date to meet again."
"I'm game for that. Maybe in a month? Do you think that's enough time to clear the air with Noel? That is your plan, right?"
"Of course that is my plan and yes that should be enough time. I want to take care of that as soon as possible. What about you? Is a month enough for you?"
"I don't know if it's enough time to get results but it's enough time to put things in motion. I don't want to be away from you any longer than that."
"Where should we meet?"
"Is it silly to say here?" He asked.
"I was thinking the same thing," she laughed. "It's convenient. It's like a half-way point."
"Right and next time we could actually leave the airport."
"Yes we could."
"Good then it's settled. When it gets closer we'll coordinate flights so we arrive around the same time. I also want to make a point to call each other. I know the time change is tough but we can work that out. Texts are fun but I want to be able to hear your voice."
"I want to hear your voice too," she smiled. "So I think we're good. We'll be back here in four weeks. I'll take care of my stuff while you take care of yours and we'll keep in touch. I feel better."
"Me too."
Suddenly they were interrupted by the PA system. They were calling Aria's flight to Philadelphia. Secretly she was really happy she was leaving before Ezra. She could cry on the airplane, but she didn't want to sit crying in the airport.
They stood up and walked towards the gate. Ezra was holding her hand the whole way. As they approached he pulled her into an embrace. Squeezing her tightly at first then he released her enough so he could look at her. His hand brushed the side of her face and he leaned in to kiss her. His lips were soft on her lips. He was trying to imprint this feeling on his brain so he could go back to it over the next four weeks that he would be missing her. Finally he pulled away. Looking at her directly in her big hazel eyes he said, "I love you Aria, with all my heart."
"I love you too," she said nuzzling into his chest trying to hide the tears that were coming.
"I'll see you soon," he whispered into her ear. Pushing her away. He gave her a quick kiss and said "Get on the plane; I'm going to go because I can't watch you leave."
"Ok, I'll see you soon," she said wiping her eyes and turned towards the gate. She handed them her boarding pass and kept walking. She could not turn around; she did not want to watch him walk away. She did not want to dredge up memories of the past.
Ezra kept walking towards the gate he was leaving from. His flight departed in an hour. He could not bear to watch her leave. Thankfully she left first. He did not want to feel like he was abandoning her at the airport. They had a plan and he was going to follow that plan. The first thing he did when he got back to work Monday was call his lawyer. He wanted to know what steps needed to be taken for a paternity test. He wanted to start his life with Aria and he needed to know what he could plan for.
Luckily Aria was able to take an earlier flight home and she landed in Philadelphia and was home in her apartment around 8pm. She was due to get in at 7am and go to work. This way she would not be a complete zombie at work. She wondered how Ezra was. He was probably still flying. She sent him a quick text before heading to bed, the emotions of the day exhausted her and she hoped she could sleep
I love you!
He would get it when he landed. She snuggled into her pillows and tried to sleep. It was not the same as sleeping with him but she would try to manage.
Ezra turned on his phone as he was pulling away from the airport. He got the text from Aria and smiled. Checking his watch it was too late to text back. He would do it first thing in the morning. He did not want to wake her. He was lost in thought driving home. It had been a very emotional weekend but he wanted to be back in that hotel room. He did not want to be heading home alone. At least Harp would be back tomorrow so he would not feel so lonely. He climbed into his bed and stared at the ceiling. It was going to be a long night and the next four weeks are going to be worse.
A/N Thank you for reading. Like I said I've been working on this a while so it's easy to put chapters up, well until the spot where I got stuck. I'm hoping all of the re-reading of the story will give me some inspiration to keep going. Thanks again for reading and reviewing. I love all your comments.
