"-And then he took me by the hand and we danced like there wasn't a tomorrow!" Rarity gushed to Fluttershy during history class.

"Wow. So Jeremais wasn't drinking?"

"Well he did have a few drinks, but nevertheless we had a great time. Do you know why?"
"Why?" Fluttershy said as she stopped taking notes.
Rarity scooted closer to Fluttershy and whispered "He took me upstairs to a bedroom. He then locked the door behind us. We were both lusting for one another. The passion in the room was intense. Me and him ended up exploring each other in the most intimate of ways. So do you now know why my night was so great?"

Flutterhsy's heart dropped to the bottom of her stomach. She felt like she was going to throw up, but she knew she couldn't because of the boulder that magical lodged itself in her throat. She couldn't stand to listen anymore, she felt like she was going to faint. Fluttershy tried to focus back on the lesson but Rarity wasn't done talking.
"It hurt at first. He was so rough, but I didn't want to stop his pleasure. Eventually it started to feel good, but unfortunately he climaxed before I was even close. I still found the whole experience erotic!"
"Ms. Rarity! Since it seems like you rather speak to Ms Fluttershy about fashion or movies or what note, then you wouldn't mind putting your chatterbox mouth of yours to good use and tell the rest of the class when the war ended."

"Well Mrs. Johnson, the war ended March 10, 1940"
"Why did it end?"
"Because Chuck Norris was born!" Rainbow dash yelled from across the room
"Ms. Dash! To the office! Now!"
"Why I didn't do anything wrong" Rainbow Dash said in her defense. Rainbow Dash and Mrs. Jones argued until the bell rang about how the people of the Changelings ended the war because they were too scared of the demi-god Chuck Norris.
Fluttershy quickly exited the room, trying to get away from Rarity. She couldn't listen to Rarity talk about her 'oh so amazing' first time was. Fluttershy was able to escape from Rarity sight. She made her way out to the only place where she could shed her tears.

Her lips were as soft as pillows and as gentle as a spring breeze. Fluttershy could have sworn that she felt love in that kiss. It warmed her heart, made her head swim, her knees buckle, and her eyelids flutter shut, but it was all an act. There wasn't love behind that kiss.
Fluttershy whimpered before she heard a dark voice in the back of her head whisper 'She doesn't love you. It's all a sham'

Fluttershy stumbled back, breathing heavily. The voice was back and it was darker and meaner than ever.
"Dear, What's wrong?"
'You mean nothing to her now. Now you're just a thing to keep her busy during the nights'

"S-stop it" Fluttershy whispered as she started to slowly back up.
'You were only there for sex. Nothing more. She only took you on dates to guarantee that she would get into your pants. She's hardly your friend. Everything you two do had benefits for her'

"Fluttershy what's wrong?"
'You're a slut who gave her exactly what she wanted'
"I-I gotta go" Fluttershy said before sprinting home.

Fluttershy made it under the blenchers with her duffle bag. She sat down in the shadows. She opened her red duffle bag for the only that could make her feel better. She pulled out four items: band aides, bacteria wipes, a cloth, and the most valuable of things, her razorblade.

Fluttershy shimmed out of her jeans, til thing were to her mid thigh. The only skin showing was her upper thighs. There were dozens of scars that crisscrossed each other. Some were faint and light, other were darker. Each scar had a story, each had a reason, each were accompanied by tears of sorrow, self-pity, and self-loathing. Fluttershy grabbed her blade and placed it against her left thigh. With a quick swipe, a line appeared on her thigh. Seconds later, blood started to bubble to the surface to color the line red. The cut wasn't deep, but it made her feel the high.

'Cut deeper. Let the razor take your pain away'

This time Fluttershy placed the blade firmly against her skin, applying more pressure and pulling the blade across her leg faster. Blood instantly started to flow. A whimper escaped from Fluttershy's lips. It hurt, but the pain couldn't even compare to the pain her heart was going through. These cuts were able to distract her he blood was trickling down the side of her leg. This cut had to be, by far the deepest cut she had ever done. The stream of blood memorized Fluttershy, but her feelings soon turned to disgust.

'How could I do this to myself? How messed up does a person have to be to put there body through something like this?"
Fluttershy threw her blade in her bag. Grabbing the cloth and held it to her open wound. It wasn't just a cut. It was a gash. There was a strong throbbing that sent ripples of pains to the rest of her leg. Cleaning the cut with bacterial wipes, Fluttershy attempt to put that band aids on, but within a minute the band-aid was soaked in blood. Fluttershy dug through her bag until she found her track medical kit her coach gave her. She pulled out gauze, medical tape, and an ace bandage. Fluttershy treated her wounds and made sure that the blood wouldn't seep through the materials.

Fluttershy got up and adjusted her clothes and cleaned up the evidence of her secret addiction. She grabbed her things and slowly started to make her way back to the class. She already missed Cooking Class. Her next class was Calculus, with Rarity of all people. Thankfully she didn't sit next to each other, but she did sit 4 seats away. It was Fluttershy's personal hell. She was failing that class, because she had a perfect view of her object of her desire.
'Great! Another class with Rarity. Whoohoo!' Fluttershy thought sarcastically with a deep frown engraved on her face

Fluttershy slammed the door behind, causing pictures of sweet memories to tumble to the ground. Pictures of her parents, pictures of her winning a gold medal, pictures of her friends, pictures of her girlfriend, well her EX-girlfriend. Glass from the frames were scattered on the floor. With her back against the door, she slid to the floor next to the glass. Fluttershy looked over at the shards of glass. Some of them were large and they looked sharp enough to pierce the skin.

"No! I can't! You're better than that"
'No. No you're not. You're not better than anyone. You're the worst of the worst'

"I've been clean for years"
'Just pick up a shard'

With a shaking hand Fluttershy held a large piece of glass. Fluttershy ran her finger along the sides. The glass felt wrong. She knew that she shouldn't be holding it, but there was something about the power that the piece of glass had over her. She didn't want to put it down. A loud pounding from the door behind her caused Fluttershy to grip the shard tightly. A whimper erupted from Fluttershy's mouth as the glass dug deep into her palm.
"Fluttershy! Are you home? I'm sorry for whatever I did. I'm so sorry!"
It was Rarity. Adrenaline ran throughout Fluttershy's body. Blood stained her hand and was now dipping all over the floor.
"Fluttershy! What's wrong? Please let me in"
A moment of silence passed by as Fluttershy panicked. She couldn't decide if she should let her in or if she should try to run out the back door. Even if she was mad at Rarity, she was the person who helped her stop cutting herself back when they were in college.

"Maybe Rarity could help"

Fluttershy pondered on her choices, but before she could make her decision, there was a click.

"Fluttershy, I used the spare key- what happen?"
Rarity ran over to Fluttershy and took her blood hand in hers.
"Oh Fluttershy. Why didn't you tell me you started to cut yourself again?"
"I didn't do it on purpose. It was an accident"

"Were you thinking about cutting yourself?"

Fluttershy nodded her head in shame. Rarity pulled her broken friend into a loving embrace. Fluttershy relaxed into her arms. She felt safe and secure, like nothing could harm her as long as Rarity was there.

"Why?"

Fluttershy's chest tightened. Everything was coming back to her. All the hurt she felt. Fluttershy squirmed out of the embrace.

"Because I was hurt. Because I didn't feel loved. Because I felt alone. Because I felt betrayed"
"But I love you. Fluttershy, you are my everything. I don't understand why you would feel this way. Didn't you feel how much I love you the other night?"

"If you love me so much, why did you cheat on me?"
"That's absurd! I would never cheat on you"
'is she really lying to me right now?'
"You cheated on me in Manehattan with Jeremais"
"How do you know about Jeremais?"

"I saw his text about how good you are with your mouth and how the bed is cold without you."
Rarity let out a sigh before she started to explain everything.

"Jeremais is a faithfully man who is in a relationship, Fluttershy. I met him at the fashion show. He offered to go out for some drinks that night. We caught up each other and he told me about how he went to the fashion show because he needed to find something for his girlfriend. They got in a huge fight over something. He drinks a lot when he is lonely. He texted me but he meant to text his girlfriend. He has already apologize to me several time"

"R-r-really?"

"Yes! Fluttershy I love you. I love everything about you. I want to be with you"

"I love you to" Fluttershy said with tears in her eyes as she crawled back into Rarity's arms.

"I need you to know something first. It was NOT okay for you to go through my phone like that, and for you to accuse me of cheating before you even asked me what's going. That's not alright"
"I know Rarity. It was wrong of me to go through your phone like that and I promise that I'll never do it again. If I ever have a problem in our relationship, I'll go to you first"
"Promise?"

"Promise, hope to fly, stick a cupcake in my eyes" Fluttershy recited before they both broke out in a giggle fit. They stayed their embrace for a few minutes just holding one another.

"So you're not going to cut yourself?"

"Rarity, you make me strong enough to not want to. Sometimes I feel like that's the only solution but I need to remember that there are other ways to handle my problems. The urges never go away completely but you help me remember that I don't need to. I don't need to cut myself to fix my problems, because it never actually fixes them. Cutting just makes things more complicated. "

"I love you so much Fluttershy"

"I love you more"