Emma; Awww...I hate when it comes to the last chapter of my stories because it's time to say goodbye to my reviewers till my next story! :( Anyway I made this chapter extra long for all of you to enjoy! So sit back, relax and enjoy reading the very last chapter of iFind Sam's Diary. And get those tissues ready ;P Cos'...WARNING: Sad Ending.

Disclaimer; I own iCarly, in my dreams. Sadly, in reality, I'm not so lucky... :(

Recap~

Do I deserve him?

I took one last look at my shinning prince, sighed, then stepped right back onto the bus.

"One ticket please" I said and after he handed me my ticket, I quietly made my way to the first seat I could find. The bus driver smiled brightly, probably because his shift was nearly over, and drove off into the night. The bus began to wobble and shake but I still lay my head on the window. I sighed deeply.

I don't deserve him.

One day later...

Freddie's POV

My head was overrun with thoughts of her. I sighed and hung my head in shame. I was ashamed of myself for not being fast enough. I couldn't catch up and so I sat there, on my bed, unable to sleep because I was afraid that I had just lost the most precious thing in my life.

I love her. Somehow, I had to tell her that.

But she wasn't speaking to me.

I had called her, texted her, emailed her, and nothing. Not a single reply to each. She was ignoring me, and it was honestly tearing my heart up inside.

The only calls I had been getting were from Carly, but I ignored every single one of them. I couldn't face her right now, knowing what she had done. She took it too far, and it couldn't be fixed easily.

Worst of all, she knew exactly what she had done yet she still had the guts to smile about it. Now that was truly horrifying.

Just as I was sitting there sulking my phone went off again. I jerked my hand and grabbed it all within a few milliseconds but my heart dropped when I found it only to be the six millionth call from Carly. She would not give up. And like all the rest, I ignored it.

Whatever she wanted to say must have been urgent because within a matter of minutes I heard loud banging on the front door. I quickly jumped up and ran to the door, knowing all too well that my mother was asleep, and she wasn't the kind of person you wanted to wake up at six in the morning.

And there she was.

Her hair was messed up and her eyes were blue and bulged, obviously from lack of sleep.

Well I for one am glad I wasn't the only person that couldn't sleep.

Her eyes were open wide and she looked worried and upset. Her eyes darted everywhere except from mine, and she looked as if the world was ending in a couple of minutes.

"Freddie!" she yelled, even though I was right in front of her. She was probably just out here seeking attention again or something-

"Sam's gone!" She yelled as she interrupted my thought.

"Wait...What?" I yelled too as I grabbed her and pulled her out into the hallway as I closed my door quietly.

"She's gone, Freddie!"

"Wait, what do you mean by gone?" I panicked.

"Gone! Out the state! Living with her dad! That kind of gone! Understanding me now?" she explained in a worried tone. I soon felt her worry and ran into a deep state of shock. My mind was running a million miles per second. The walls started to close in on me and my heart was beating at triple the rate it was suppose to be. I clutched onto the wall, to try to steady myself, as I took deep breaths, in and out.

After a few minutes and I had calmed down, I started to regain my voice.

"When did she leave?" I asked as I fidgeted with my hands in order to try and calm my nerves. Her answer didn't seem to make matters any better.

"Last night. Her mom called me this morning and told me she was so upset that she just packed all her things and left! Freddie what are we going to do?" she stressed as she held her head with fear.

"This is all your fault!" I yelled as I ran off out of the hallway, still in my pajamas, to the exit of Bushwell Plaza. I could silently hear Carly following behind me. I didn't care much, all I cared about now was finding her.

Samantha Puckett.

I love you Sam, please don't leave me.

~The night before...~

Sam's POV

"Mom!" I yelled as she quickly made her way from the kitchen to greet my arrival home, jumping to see if my date went good. No, mother, my date went horribly!

"How did your da-"

"I'm leaving!" I told her as I made my way to the stairs.

"Wait...What?" she called as she ran after me.

"You heard me! I've had enough of this place. I'm going to live with dad! I already texted him earlier and he says it's fine. Drive me there, now!" I ordered.

"Okay, fine. If it'll get you out of my hair. Go get your stuff." I could see the pain in her eyes and could tell she was quite upset by this all and didn't want to agree with it, but I ignored it and made my way upstairs to pack my things. The essential things, like my year's supply of fat cakes I had won at an eating contest a month ago, and of course my diary. I grabbed it from where it lay and held it in my hands as I sighed.

All my secrets lie within this book.

That was when the idea hit me.

Freddie's POV

I knocked loud and hard on her door. I had been knocking for the last ten minutes but still there was no answer. I could hear quite footsteps behind me, which belonged to Carly, but I ignored them and focused all my power on my knocking.

It couldn't be true.

She wouldn't just leave like this...would she?

Three tears dropped from my eyes. One for just losing the most important girl in my life. Another for not getting to say goodbye. And the last because the girl I loved was in a lot of pain right now, and there was nothing I could do to stop it.

I felt a soft tap on my shoulder and I jerked my head round to be faced with Carly, who was also crying.

"F-Freddie, t-this is all my fault. I-I'm so sorry," she fell to her knees and cried into her hands. I knelt down beside her and placed my hand on her shoulder. I knew this time she was sorry. It wasn't just for attention. The old Carly was back and that gave my broken heart a little boost.

We both smiled at each other as we stood up.

My phone suddenly went off and I opened it to reveal a text from her.

My heart raced a million beats per second and I shook ferociously as I slowly pressed, 'Read.'

Freddie, I'm sorry. I need you to know that I'm never coming back, so please let go of me. You deserve to be happy and I know that without me you will be. Goodbye, forever...

This time it wasn't just a couple of tears, but a whole river escaped from my eyes.

You stupid demon, I'll never be happy if you're not in my life.

Carly hugged me tightly as she also cried out loud. We stayed like that, in each other's arms, not willing to let go of our only lifeline. But finally, a half hour later, when the tears simply wouldn't come anymore and my body was cramped from not moving for so long, we had to.

We looked at each other, not saying anything for a long while. And then,

"So, what happens now?" she asked.

"I do exactly what she wants. I'll let go of her." A single last tear dropped from my eyes as I walked off in the other direction from Carly.

If she loved me she wouldn't have left me. I'll move on, Sam, but I'll never forget you.

One year later...

Sam's POV

"Sam wake up! It's time for breakfast!" my dad called as I yawned and stretched from my slumber. I looked down at my alarm clock and realized it was already eight o clock. I was going to be late.

I kept looking at the clock just wishing that I had powers in which I could make it last night again. But something caught my eye behind the clock. A picture.

I sighed as I looked at the brown messy hair that laughed away in the picture along with me. Freddie...

Every night I sit and wonder if he's found it yet. The message I left him a whole year ago.

It'll be a year tomorrow since I left. I sighed once again as I looked about my room. It was going to be another long day.

Life over here in New York wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The sun shined every day and I managed to make new friends. Sure, none of them were as good as my old ones, but, you know, they would do.

I have to stop thinking about them.

I quickly got dressed and headed downstairs for yet another day living without him.

Freddie's POV

I lay there in my bed wishing that someone would kill me right then and there. It had officially been a year since Sam left. It was kind of like an anniversary. I yawned and yawned until I had finally woken up. I looked at my bedside table to be met with pure blue eyes.

Yes, that's right, I had a picture of her on my table.

I guess I'm not that good at letting go.

It all got worse six months ago, when Carly and Spencer left to live in Yakima with their grandfather. Now all that lived in their apartment was an old couple that would shout at you for anything. One time I walked out my door and she was there yelling into mid air! Crazy!

I was officially a loser. I had no good friends and no good neighbors. All I had to come home to at night was my mother and my computer.

Just as my mind was travelling back in time, I was knocked back to the present by loud knocking at my front door. My mom had went out a couple for minutes ago for her morning walk, which she did every morning.

I quickly made my way to the front door and opened it.

My mouth dropped to the floor.

"P-Pam?" I mumbled.

Yes, that's right. Pam Puckett was at my door.

"Hey, so the other day I was looking through Sam's old stuff and I came across something that was for you." She said as she handed me a very familiar item.

Sam's Diary?

"Why is this for me?" I asked.

"Just read and be thankful of me, I could've thrown it out!" she hissed as she left off down the hallway.

Like a professional, I closed the door with my foot and made my way back to my room.

I slumped myself down on my comfy chair that sat at my desk and quickly opened it.

I guess Pam just thought it would be fun to let me read through all her secrets, but I secretly knew it was more than that. I quickly skimmed through the pages.

I eventually reached the last page and when I read, 'Dear Freddie' I stopped and focused on her very last entry that seemed to be for me.

Dear Freddie,

I've left this behind for you to find one day. I don't know how many nights, for you, have passed since I left but hopefully it hasn't been too long. I wanted to let you know the reason why I am leaving. I've actually had the idea for a long time now. Leaving, that is. It just took a kick in the back from both you and Carly for me to actually do it. I haven't seen my dad in a long time and I guess it will be good to go and stay with him. Maybe if I wasn't so...horrible then I could've stayed and we could've been together. Although when I leave you probably will have moved on from me. Carly and you will most likely get together in the near future. You have to know, Carly's my best friend and I can't fight with her, especially over a guy. I've given up because I know in the end she will win, she always does. That's not the only reason why I'm leaving though. I need to have a fresh scene, a brand new life where I can be anyone I want. I need to find out who I am and become someone that would make you and Carly proud.

If I said I was coming back, there might be a chance, no matter how thin that chance might be, that you would wait for me, so I'm telling you this straight, I'm never coming back. Even though we'll never meet again, I wish you the best of luck in life. I hope one day you'll find someone that you really love and will care for. If you had stayed with me, I would've been bad for you. You're too good for me. I don't deserve to be praised by someone as special as you.

You once asked me since when have I loved you. I didn't give much of an answer, but I'll give you it now. Do you believe in love at first sight? That's what it was like with you. When I think back, right back to when we first met, I always had feelings for you. And why do I love you? That's easy, but if I explained fully, it would never end so I'll tell you in short. It's because no matter what time of day it is you're always on my mind and when the rain falls in my world you're always there with your red and blue striped umbrella. I love that you are the only one who understands me and that I can always count on you. Basically, I love every bit of you. From head to toe.

These next months will be hard for me but I'll pull through in the end, so I hope you will too. Go out and enjoy life! Find someone worth your love, unlike me. You and Carly are the most precious things in my life, and that's why it's so hard to say goodbye. So I'm not going to. Instead I'll say thank you, and know that you'll be in my heart. Please never forget my name, for I am Princess Puckett.

Enjoy life to the fullest, and never look back,

Love, Sam...x

P.S. I love you.

Emma: So? What did you think? I know it's a very shocking ending, but you obviously haven't read any of my stories before, as I live for endings like these! I have a question to ask though, should there be a sequel? It ends with them both still having feelings for each other after a full year without seeing one another so in the sequel it could be Freddie going to find Sam after reading this? Tell me what you think and if you have any ideas for the sequel just send me a message(: Anyway, I should be writing a lot more stories now as it's summer holidays! WOOO! so, to celebrate I spent all night working on this for you all, and hopefully the sequel will be coming soon! (: I hope you all enjoyed reading and be sure to keep up to date for the sequel! (: