Hey, Ryu isn't feeling all that good and his ADHD is acting up and he's getting so frustrated that he gets terrible headaches so I'll be writing the next few chapters over the break. I know what's up with the story and I have Ryu's mental notes(yes, we can kinda read each other's mind. Kinda). Hopefully he feels better soon. Also, because this is an emotional chapter and I have alot of ideas, this'll be a long one(kinda-ish I think).

Okay, I said that I would tell you who I like in Host Club Years, so here it is. I like Jackie Wang, a Chinese exchage student. I really like him and confessed to him on Thursday, 3/10/11(I'm putting this because I have no idea when I'll finish and post this and today, as I write this part, is that day. Btw, if you haven't noticed, this is Ayano speaking). He doesn't like me back, and now he won't talk to me or have physical contact with me unless it's for class which is almost. We used to have friendly touches and talk sometimes, but now it's all gone. I don't know if more chapters of Dark Horse will be posted this week but I'm hoping to post this one. And I'm not really happy because of the tsunami in north Japan, it worries me... Alright... enjoy... I guess.

Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran, but I want Jackie. ilu

Chapter 7: Heartbreak, Raped, and a Discovery... Kinda

In my dream, there was something chasing me. It was telling me that I was cursed, and would be miserable the rest of my life, eternally tortured if I found a way to break it. But the scariest thing wasn't the threat, it was the fact that the voice sounded like Mori's.

My heart was pounding, my mind was cloudy, my eyes hurt, and my throat was on fire as if I had just drank poison. My clothes were covered in red splatters, and I had the feeling that they weren't paintballs.

I stumbled and fell, the darkness seeing a chance, grabbing my ankles and starting to pull me down into the used-to-be-firm ground that was starting to become liquid. I screamed, clawing uselessly at the ground, and as I fell into the black abyss, I saw at the opening, Mori, in a devil-like state, grinning evily, showing a set of razor sharp teeth.

I woke up in a cold sweat, my heart racing just as much as in my dream, and my throat hurt. Mori rushed into the room, half dressed for some reason, and he looked worried. "What's wrong?" he asked. "I heard you scream."

I was scared to death of him. I backed up as much a possible until my back was flat against the wall. I could tell I had terror in my eyes, and I didn't care. "GET AWAY FROM ME!" I screamed, letting tears fall freely down my face. I was in so much shock that I didn't care anymore. Kuro entered my mind and whispered to me, 'This is your punishment for not listening to me and not letting me take over and kill him. You deserve it all the way. And anyways, he'll betray you.' I didn't listen to any part except for the last part. It made me cry even harder, remembering all the times I thought I loved Mori. It made me hate Mori, Ayano, even the innocent cat outside the window(I have no idea why though. I guess it's because Kuro's always hated cats. My Ake side doesn't really mind, but I guess something happened to Kuro...). "I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE Y-"

Mori walked over to the bed and wrapped his arms around me. I gripped his shirt and kept crying. Yes, I was probably just in shock from my nightmare, but the reality part of that day seemed like a dream, and the dream seemed so real. In those few seconds, millions of thoughts ran through my head in how he could betray me. Scenes of death, torture, and so many other things that I will not mention so that I don't scare you guys any more than I might have scared you already.

After a few minutes, he gripped my shoulders gently and pulled me a small distance away from his chest but I kept my head down. "How do you feel?" he whispered.

"Hmboen..." mumbled, keeping my head so close to my chest that my jaw barely moved.

"What?"

I lifted my head a little so that he could see my tear stained face. "Heartbroken! How could you!" I screamed, not caring that he had NO idea what I was talking about.

"R-Ryu, I don't understand." he sounded confused, and I thought, either this guy's a really good actor, or he really doesn't have any idea like a normal person would... or wouldn't... or... Nevermind! You know what I mean!

"Of course you don't! No one understands me or anything about me! They all lie that they do!" I burst into a fresh set of tears, and flopped back onto the bed, hiccuping and sobbing. This was a side of me that had only been shown to someone once before.

"Ryu..." Mori started. I didn't give him a chance to finish. I jumped off the bed and grabbed the backpack, opened the window by the door, not caring that I was barefoot, only wearing jeans, and it was the middle of the night. Not to mention it was freezing cold.

"I'm leaving. Go ahead and try to look for me, but you won't find me! I'd rather be burned alive than be with you just so you can't betray me!" with that, I slung the backpack over my shoulder and jumped out the window into the cold, dark night. Under normal circumstances, I would've wanted a jacket, but that one day I didn't feel anything but hate and sorrow that burned my body.

Somehow, I ran towards the woods in a direction I never went before, but I had this weird feeling like I knew somewhere there would be safe, like I'd been there before. Kuro told me that he'd be back in a second, and just like that, no more Kuro to tell me my future. I didn't care. I hated the world, Mori, and even myself. But the thought that kept running through my mind was that the world would be a better place without me to trouble them.

"Is this what they call depression?" I mused. I kept walking without a purpose, until Kuro came back. You can always tell when you're evil side comes back. A cold feeling will wash over you, and then your body burns like crazy for about five minutes.

"Ah~, feels good to be back. Did you miss me, Ryu?" Kuro questioned, slipping out of my body into an almost solid-looking form. I reached out to touch him, but my hand just went right through his right arm and chest. I jerked my hand back and for the first time realized how lonely I was.

I stopped and Kuro stopped a few steps ahead of me but he didn't look back or anything. My body felt hollow and I placed my hand gingerly on my chest where my heart would be. "You're so cold, Ryu! You should have seen his face; priceless. It was a mix of sadness, confusion, and slight annoyance... You still thinking about him?" Kuro asked. He sounded annoyed.

I nodded. "How'd you know? Oh wait... you're me... such an idiot." I thumped the side of my head with my hand and tilted my head down. I forced out a laugh. "I feel so empty. Pfft... I sound so stupid..."

"Acually, in this form, I have no power over your mind, sadly. Just guessing. Hey, look where you are!" he commanded.

When I looked up, I noticed that I was standing on a sidewalk. I had no idea where I was. I noticed someone sitting on a bench next to me, though.

A girl with deep orange hair that fell past her waist is straight, long streaks was reading a book entitled, 'The Lost Hero'. The sun caused a glare on her non-rimmed glasses. I tapped the girl's shoulder gently.

"Um... hey... I don't know where I am. Could you, uh, help me?" I asked.

She looked up and when she took a look at my face, she seemed surprised. "R-Ryu? I-It's me! Kana!"

"Kana! It's been so long! So um... where are we?" I forced out a nervous laugh.

She thought for a little bit then said, "... I don't know... I think it's a dream..."

"Dream? Pfft... that... that can't be possible... I-I can hear you a-and..." I reached out to poke her shoulder. It was solid. "Feel you..."

She sighed. "Ryu... y-you'll learn the reason why soon... You're getting older a-and... you'll become king!" She smiled. And when Kana smiles, it's the cutest, sweetest, most innocent thing in the world. And not fake either. Genuine smile. Her emotions never lie.

But this time, the smile's "power" didn't seep in. "What do you mean?" I easily was able to keep a straight face.

Her smile faded away and she looked sad. "I... I'm sorry, Ryu... I-I can't tell you..." she burst into tears as if she was sad that she couldn't tell me. She turned and ran the opposite direction.

"Wait!" I called. My hand reached out to her, but she was gone. My vision started to get black dots and I felt faint. I started falling backwards, and before I hit the ground, I was sitting up, sweat beading my neck.

I looked around and noticed that I was in an alleyway somewhere far away from the forest. I got up, dusted off my jeans, and starting walking out of the alley to see exactly where I was, backpack slung over my shoulder.

When I was about halfway out, hands darted out from behind me. One covered my mouth, while the other grabbed my wrists and held them together in a tight grip. I winced; the pain was almost so unbearable and I couldn't move. The person pulled me back father into the alley, where there was almost no light at all. It put ducktape on my mouth and tied my hands together with chains.

I was pushed down on the ground onto my stomach. I started to get up, when I felt a body hovering over me. It was kinda like Mori's, but not as lanky. My back pressed against the man's abdomen, my neck against his chest. Believe me, I knew it was a male.

His hand slipped to the front of my jeans and started unbuckling my pants. I let out a muffled scream and started slamming my body into his, again and again. I felt a knife cut my back several times, ripping the shirt and grazing my skin. I had no idea what was on it, because it wasn't poison, but it caused pain and a burning sensation. My body fell limp, and he slipped his hand into my shirt and started rubbing my nipples. I moaned and started panting from a natural reflex. It felt good, but I hated it. I didn't know why, but my head wasn't working right. I couldn't think of any escape routes. But by this time, I was already doomed.

He slipped my jeans down and started rubbing my dick until it started getting hard. I shuddered. It felt so weird doing it with someone other than Mori. I thrashed around, trying to hit him so I could get away, but all efforts in vain.

I finally submit, and tried to think of other things. I was doing pretty well until I felt a familiar ripping feeling around the small of my back. I let out another muffled scream but didn't do anything. I could feel warm tears dripping onto the ground as I cried silently. I felt so bad then; leaving Mori and not caring how he felt.

After that was done, I fell asleep. I mean, he put my clothes back on, took the chains and ducktape off so I was fine.

When I woke up, I was in a cave. I heard a deep rumbling and the air was thick with smoke. I turned around, and laying down in front of me all curled up, was a huge black dragon. The sun was starting to set, bouncing off the dragon's scales. They were tipped with black, like my hair. Its scales caused a glare and I was glad when the sun didn't shine on it anymore.

Right when the sun went down, the dragon's eyes snapped open. The irises were blood red, like mine. It started advancing, and I started to get kind of nervous.

"H-Hey, buddy. Don't come any closer... that's a good boy..." I managed.

It stopped obediantly and cocked it's head to the side like a confused puppy. "What's wrong, sir? Are you alright? You're acting kinda weird." Its eyes widened, like it realized something shocking, and it seemed to be bowing. "I-I'm so sorry, sir! I'm sorry for saying that you're weird! I'm SO sorry!"

"It's alright." I found myself saying. I sounded kinda weird, but I didn't take notice of it at first. "You didn't know. By the looks of you, you seem quite young. Don't worry, I won't hurt you."

Its eyes seemed to light up with gratitude. "Oh, thank you, milord! I promise I won't fail you!"

I smiled. Then I noticed that I was speaking in Dragon tongue. "I must be going now. But I will find you again." I turned to look at the sky. It was pitch black, but the very bottom it was tipped red, making the mountains look like they had wet blood on them, but were turned upside down.

"Oh, King Dragon! You're leaving so soon? B-But you haven't been to the kingdom yet!" the dragon said.

I admit, it sounded good, but I didn't know what time it was in the human world. "Please, call me Ryu. And child, I will come back. Send my best regards, but I really must go." I turned to face him with a big, apologetic smile. "Can you tell me how I can get back to Death Forest?"

"Of course! Just jump off the edge of this mountain, spread your wings, and the house will be right under. This place is so high that you can't see it unless you fly up. And only a few humans can see what we Dragons can see. Don't worry, milord. It's perfectly safe. Oh, and I'm Renge!"

"'Lotus', huh? Well, Renge, I hope to see you soon."

With that, I ran to the edge and jumped. Right when I left solid ground did I realize that I was scared. Then I felt something sharp tearing out of my back. I looked over my shoulder to see black devil wings. They had sharp tips covered in blood. I found control over them and flattened them against my skin. I saw the dirt path and landed softly. Mori's house was only a few feet away.

I willed the wings back in before walking to the house. Boy, did I have alot of explaining to do.

Yay! It's done! This is to Meg L.H. and Scorpian's Eternal who waited so paitiently for this chapter. It's Ryu, and I'm alright now. Please review and send me your best death threats! Got the idea from a certain cousin that I've been talking to today. Okay, please wait patiently for the next chapter of this and Akatsuki Adventures. When it's done, I'll give you the name for Scorpian's Eternal's story!

Konbanwa gozaimasu!