Felinis: Gerald has told me to tell you that she wants to be worshiped in mayo. I have no idea what that means.

Yuri found himself locked out today in the rain. He felt like an idiot. He'd been feeling that a lot lately. Ever since it suddenly hit him that he might be interested in his best friend as more than just a friend he felt like an idiot. Especially, when he mentioned it his mom she had already figured as such. Which was weird.

His mom had apparently been wondering for a while when Yuri or Flynn would come out. That part wasn't too odd. The why was the weird part.

"You used to play that game when you were little and the winner got a kiss. Remember?" No, he hadn't. Because, Yuri had no recollection of that game. Yuri had continually chosen to forget that had ever happened. He had to dig through his mind to find scraps of memories. If he remembered the rules right it was a really stupid game. Something to do with rescuing a princess.

Oh, right! They were really young then. That was back when playing the princess could be cool. Well, Yuri didn't play a real princess. Nah, he was a dragon that was cursed to be a princess. The kiss was to blame for that. It was a really, really, stupid game.

"You boys also cuddle a lot. There's nothing wrong with cuddling, but you pretty much latch onto each other." Yuri had turned visibly red at that statement. Did they? Sometimes, while they were playing games he'd sit in Flynn lap. And, when they had sleepovers they shared the same bed. Plus, they like to sit together close when they watched movies and sometimes one fell asleep on the other.

But, then he really thought about. Yuri had practically been born with Flynn at his side. They had never been apart as long as they had and... Yuri swallowed his pride. He'd been cuddling Repede a lot. He didn't like saying it since it made him sound dumb. He was touch starved. He hadn't thought to much on the whys he just assumed that he'd just been craving.

For every reason his mother gave Yuri had another thing snaps in his head.

His mom was good at that. She was despicably easy to talk to. Which meant that secrets were hard to keep from her. She knew about Judith and the fight. She was doing her best to help him figure things out. But, all ended up doing was confuse him.

Now, his head felt jumbled and out of place. He kept wondering about things. He wished he could stop. He sat against the door and let himself get soaked. Normally, when he locked himself out he'd just hang out at Flynn's.

Normally.

But, nothing had been normal in such a long time. Yuri just wanted everything to go back to the way it was before. Now, everything as confusing and disjointed. Now, he kept thinking thoughts that made his toes curl.

He hadn't spoken to Judy since that night a three weeks ago, either. Yuri didn't want to confront what he'd did. He was okay with a lot of things, but using people was what he considered the lowest crime.

And he didn't want to confront Flynn. Yuri had been doing everything in his power to keep from being near him. If he saw Flynn, he walked away.

Same with Estelle. He felt bad for avoiding Estelle, but Yuri was confused about so much. And, suddenly Yuri realized how jealous he was of her. He liked Estelle a lot. She was like a little sister to him. She was a dear friend and a great person. But, he had never loved her like Flynn did. Yuri wouldn't do anything for her like he would with Flynn.

But, Flynn loved Estelle. Even with heartbreak lingering in his system Flynn loved Estelle.

Yuri slams his fist against the door. He doesn't want to think about this! He wants normal. He wants to go back to being dumb and pretending everything was the same as was before. Yuri knows though that he can't go back. He remembers that boring book they had to read freshman year. In the book a retarded man was suddenly made into a genius and realized that he was mocked before. He could never go back to ignorance. Yuri felt a lot like that.

He wanted to go back to not thinking about things like that. Right now, his mind was being haunted by thoughts like that. The rain was way too cold today. He let out a sneeze and stared up at the sky bitterly.

"Yuri, what are you doing here?" he heard his mother say as she approached the front door.

"Just taking in the rain Mom." He snarked. "It's so lovely out here."

His mother walked over him and opened the door. "Get inside before you catch cold."

Yuri was grateful to be inside where it was nice and warm. First stop bath. Second stop bed. He was feeling drained. Lately, it felt like he didn't have energy. Yuri figured that it was because he was spending it on worrying.

When he got out of the bath and went to room Yuri's mother came to chimed in. "You two also took lots of baths together."

"Mom, that doesn't mean anything." He huffed. "Little kids do that stuff all the time."

"I know." She grinned. "But, now you're thinking about Flynn naked and that's all that matters."

The heat rose to his cheeks and the thoughts that had been very distant were now up close. "I wasn't until you mentioned it!"

His mom trounced off for a cigarette. "My work here is done."

Yuri attempted to throw a pillow from his bed, but she had already disappeared into the hall. Dammit! He rolled on the mattress. Yuri really did not want to think about this! But, now that it was in his head he couldn't get it out. Dammit! "Just stop thinking about it." He wanted to, but now his mind was conjuring images.

Yuri had realized that he was probably in love with Flynn. But, when he thought of reason none were physical. Hell, somewhere in the back of his head he was still thinking about how sexy breasts are. Now, he was thinking about Flynn with breasts.

Ewwwwwwwwwwww.

"Purging that thought from my mind."

No. Yuri was in love with Flynn for who he was. Yuri loved being around Flynn. He loved Flynn's voice when he laughed. And the way his eyes shined when he was passionate. Blue eyes were beautiful. Yuri had always thought blue eyes were enchanting.

Wait, always?

Yuri rolled over. Yeah, he always did have a thing for blue eyes. Then he thought back to a conversation he'd had with Flynn when they were in eight grade. They described what their ideal fantasy girlfriend would be.

Flynn had wanted an elf, because of course he did. He had given an overly complicated explanation on this girl's backstory and how came to marry Zelphia the elven princess of Emon. Yuri for obvious reasons didn't pay his friend much attention.

Yuri had said he wanted blue eyes and blonde hair. He also had said long might be nice, but he thought a pixie cut would be adorable.

Fuck, his mom was right.

Yuri's mind went into overdrive and he sat up and started pacing so he could stop thinking. Why should this matter? It was no big deal! Yuri already knew he was interested in Flynn so this was nothing to worry about. But, it was because now his cheeks were flushed and the idea of confronting Flynn was even more terrifying. Now, thoughts were flooding and he was thinking about kissing Flynn. And, cuddling. And, how Flynn looked topless. And, how he could get lost in those eyes. And, he needed to stop!

"Fuck."

This was ridiculous! This wasn't like him. He forced his breathing to calm and sighed. He couldn't see Flynn. Because, it wasn't fair to anyone. Flynn could feel completely different. Or worse, he might hate Yuri for it.

That was the worst thing to think about. Yuri already felt terrible without Flynn back when he just saw a friend. Now, he was sure that would hurt like hell for both. No, he could hide this. He could attempt to make up with Flynn and keep it locked inside.

Felinis: I think that Yuri and Flynn's relationship can pretty much be summed up with the words "Why didn't you tell me sooner?"