A/N: RATED M for smut! Filler chapter, though I believe it's a good one I hope anyway.
Just rescued my puppies sister from an abusive home and have lots of work ahead of me, so updates might be a little slow for the next week or so! But I will try my best!
The house was dark. Quiet. Though, houses usually were at three in the morning; the time when normal people were tucked nicely in bed.
Not Beca however. No, three am was the time she usually woke up for no reason what so ever. Sometimes, she would wake from a bad dream, but mostly, there was no reason as to why her eyes would snap open at that time.
Maybe, it was because it was the witching hour? That's what she liked to think. At least it was some answer. She looked over to the king sized bed, where the two loves of her life slept peacefully.
Seated in her favorite spot in the house, the window seat in their bedroom. It was soft and comfortable and she could look out over the lake from that spot. Her eyes were heavy, she was tired, but she couldn't sleep. She watched as Aubrey and Chloe snuggled close to each other, unaware that she was missing from the bed as they dreamed, what she hoped were happy dreams.
She smiled softly at them. They truly were her everything, they had been through so much with her and for her. Most people would have run for the hills 5 years ago. They had been shot, stabbed, beaten and nearly killed because of her—she still blamed herself—but they wouldn't hear anything about it. No negativity, they loved her, she loved them and they were a family. She finally stopped being so down her self. As Alex grew into the beautiful and smart little girl that she was, Becas confidence and self esteem grew as well. Seeing her baby grow up strong and healthy did wonders for her. Maybe she wouldn't fail. She was a good mother, she would do anything in her power to make sure her daughter and the two women whom she loved dearly were safe and happy.
With one last happy smile, she looked down to the small dark brown leather journal she held in her hands. The journal she started not long after they arrived in Maine. It helped. She would write everything in that book. What made her happy, what made her sad. What scared her.
Her experiences with being a new mom, her worries and plans. As well as one entry that she was currently reading. An entry that meant a lot to her. To some it might seem silly, or too much.
But to Beca, it meant the world. She looked down at her own hand writing.
It's almost four in the morning, Bree and Chloe are sleeping a few feet away. Alex is sleeping through the night now. Almost a year old, I can't believe it.
We went to bed tonight, like we do every night, saying good night and kissing each other before falling to sleep. But, tonight, Chloe kissed me a little differently.
They have been so patient with me. It has been almost four months since the last time we tried, and I got so scared I broke down. I know they blamed themselves, they thought they were pushing me, or making me feel like I owed it to them, which isn't true. I let her kiss me tonight, and when I didn't pull away it went further.
Beca looked up from the book, the memory taking over like it had done so many times before.
Beca laid down in middle of the bed and Chloe and Aubrey curled in close to her, as they did every night. Beca kissed Aubrey softly on the lips. "Goodnight, Bree."
Aubrey kissed her back and smiled laying down. "Goodnight, baby."
Beca turned to Chloe next who had just turned off the lamp. "Goodnight, Chlo." She smiled and leaned up pressing her lips to Chloe's.
She went to pull back, but Chloe's hand flew up to the back of her neck, holding her in place, and instantly ran her tongue along Becas bottom lip, begging for entrance. She only froze momentarily before relaxing and parted her lips. Chloe sighed into the kiss as she deepened it, and it was that sound alone that made Aubrey open her eyes. She peered through the darkness to see her to girlfriends engaged in a make out session. One that was growing more heated as she heard the breathing become heavier. She slowly sat up, observing for a moment, to make sure Beca was okay, as she saw Chloe scoot closer to the smaller girl, her hand still on her neck as they kissed.
It wasn't like they didn't have make out sessions, they did, but it didn't go any further, when Beca was present, and it was usually her that would end it first, when it became to much. They didn't blame her. Not after what she had been through. All of the previous sexual encounters she had had been forced on her, and no matter how long ago it was, it scarred her. It wasn't that she didn't trust them; she was physically and mentally unable to handle it.
When the blonde saw Beca start to lay back, so that Chloe was leaning over her, never breaking the kiss, she smiled lovingly and laid down next to the two, pressing softly against the smaller brunette. She so badly wanted to join the two, but not wanting to overwhelm Beca, she stayed still, biting her lower lip as she tried to contain herself and her obvious growing arousal at what she was shamelessly watching.
It was when Chloe broke the kiss to leave a trail of kissed down her jaw to her neck, that Beca opened her eyes slightly to meet the almost black eyes of Aubrey. She could see Aubrey was struggling to contain herself, and she was surprisingly really enjoying what Chloe was doing to her neck as she felt the redheads teeth graze across the flushed skin there.
She smiled softly at the blonde. "Kiss me Bree," she said breathlessly. Aubrey smiled and Chloe had barely moved away in time after hearing Becas voice before the blonde was cupping the brunettes cheek, kissing her passionately.
Beca couldn't help but moan into the kiss. Everything was different. The other time they had attempted this, it ended badly. Though, maybe it was because they had discussed it before hand, and Beca could have psyched herself out before they went to bed. Chloe kind of sprang this on her, so her nerves weren't getting the best of her when the initial kiss happened.
Chloe situated herself so she could return her lips to Becas neck, while Aubrey continued with her lips. She was a little nervous, but not like before. She wanted this to happen. She was ready.
Aubrey hadn't meant to, but while she was kissing her girlfriend she had somehow managed to position herself over the smaller girl, her leg slipping between Becas. They weren't aware that it happened until, while being lost in the kiss, Aubrey involuntarily rolled her hips down against Becas.
The younger girl gasped, stilling under Aubrey and the blonde pulled away quickly, after she realized what she had done.
Chloe stopped too and moved back slightly, she felt Aubreys movement too, and was trying to judge Becas expression. Her chest was rising and falling rapidly, her neck and cheeks flushed, and her lips slightly swollen from the intensity of Aubreys kiss.
"I- I'm so sorry, Becs, I didn't mean to do that I wouldn't-" Aubrey rushed out trying to move back but Beca grabbed her, stopping her from moving.
"Bree, stop." She said catching her breath. "Don't," She said.
Aubrey looked at her in confusion. "Don't?" She asked. "Don't what?"
Beca looked up at her with such love and adoration, and Aubrey could see the trust as well as vulnerability in her stormy blue eyes. "Don't stop." She said softly.
"I- I liked it." She said shyly. Her eyes dropped instantly and Aubrey tilted her chin back up.
She searched her eyes. "Are you sure Beca?" she asked. The use of Becas full name meant she was serious and Beca knew she couldn't lie to her.
"Yes." She breathed after a moment and looked at Chloe. "I love you both so much. I'm ready." She said and leaned back up to connect their lips again, pulling Aubrey back down. "Please, I'm ready." She said as she continued to kiss her.
Aubrey sighed into the kiss as she let her body rest against Becas.
She kissed her softer this time, and it wasn't long before she felt Chloe moving her hair and leaving a trail of soft kisses over her exposed shoulder.
They would go slowly, making sure she was truly ready, and they weren't going to push her. This was the furthest she had let either of them go before. After a while, Aubrey moved from Becas lips and began kissing down to her neck, where she intended to leave her mark, next to the one she knew Chloe left.
Becas hands made their way to Aubrey's hair and she ran her fingers though the soft curls as she latched onto Becas pulse point.
Chloe being the obvious risk taker that night was the first to let her hands wander. Being on Becas other side, she was able to gage her reaction, as Aubrey was still gently kissing and sucking at her neck, taking her time. Becas face was relaxed, blissful. She slowly let her hand slide up the girl's stomach and stopped as she settled it over her breast. Beca eyes opened quickly and she locked them with Chloe's own ice blue eyes. The redhead leaned in, so their lips almost touched.
Chloe smiled softly at her. "Is this okay?" She whispered against her lips. She waited and a second later, Beca whispered, "Yes."
Chloe smiled against Beca lips and kissed her, letting her hand softly caress her smaller girlfriends breast.
Beca instantly kissed back, arching her back into Chloe's touch. She was however still under Aubrey and her movement pushed her up into the blondes body.
Aubreys reaction was normal and Beca didn't pull away nor was she surprised when Aubrey moaned and rolled her hips down against her again.
Beca tangled her hand in Chloe's red locks kissing her harder as Aubrey continued her motion against her.
Her own hand traveling up the length of Becas body only to meet Chloe's hand that was now almost roughly massaging the younger girl as they made out.
Aubrey gently pulled at Chloe, needing to feel the familiar rhythm of Chloe's lips on her own. As soon as their lips met, it was a little rougher, knowing each other's wants, and needs after being together in that way for so long. Beca opened her eyes and if possible they turned another shade darker at seeing the two kissing heatedly a few inches from her own face.
Beca took this opportunity to come out of her shell a bit, and let her own hands wander around Chloe's body, feeling every curve and tense muscle until she reached the redheads own very generous chest and with a breath she let her hand settle over them, massaging the older girl firmly. Chloe moaned against Aubreys lips and they pulled apart.
Chloe arching into the touch and welcoming it with a pleased smile.
Aubrey settled herself on her side next to Beca, letting her hand rest on the girls stomach. Chloe, understanding what was happening lay on her other side. Beca looked at them both.
"I love you Beca." Aubrey smiled softly.
"I love you too, so much." Chloe said.
Beca smiled, and took a breath. "I love you both too."
Aubrey let her hand slide down a little further, so it rested just above the hem of her sleep shorts.
"Is this okay?" She asked soflty.
Beca nodded.
Chloe slowly slid her hand down, and pushed it under Becas tank top, so her hand met the warm skin of her stomach. She smiled lovingly down at the girl.
"It's going to be okay, Becs." She smiled as she slid her hand all the way up and without hesitation under the girl's bra so her hand was firmly cupped around her bare breast. Beca gasped slightly.
"You're safe." Chloe whispered leaning down to place a tender kiss on her lips as she began kneading her breast gently.
"We'll take care of you." Aubrey promised as she gave her a kiss of her own and carefully slipped her hand into Becas shorts.
She stiffened for a moment, before completely relaxing as the knowledge that they wouldn't do anything to hurt her, and she could stop this at any time, washed over her.
Once she was certain Beca was okay, and the brunette closed her eyes as Chloe continued to massage her, Aubrey slipped her hand into the girl's panties and smiled at what she felt there.
She looked up at Chloe. "Chloe you believe how wet she is." She said completely seriously.
Chloe all but moaned against Becas neck as she attached her lips to it once again and Beca couldn't help her labored breathing as Aubrey began stroking her fingers up and down.
"Are you okay?" Aubrey asked as she continued the movement of her fingers.
Becas eyes opened slightly and she nodded quickly. "God, yes." She said and Aubrey laughed lightly leaning down and kiss her.
This was the right way to do it for Beca. She was okay, she was comfortable and what they were both doing to her was absolutely amazing. She had never felt like this before. It wasn't rough, and it didn't hurt. They weren't forcing her legs apart or holding her down. It felt right, it felt good.
As Aubrey settled her fingers over the younger girls clit and began rubbing hard circles into it, Beca gasped and her hips bucked on their own accord.
She needed to feel them; one of them or both, it didn't matter. What they were doing felt so wonderful, she wanted them to feel the same. She slid her hand down Chloe's stomach and without warning, pushed her hand into her panties, instantly begging the same motions Aubrey was doing to her. She moaned and rolled her hips against Becas hand.
"Fuck, Becs." She gasped, she really had no intention of receiving anything, it was about Beca that night, but what she was doing felt so good, she couldn't stop her if she wanted to.
Aubreys eyes shot up to Chloe and she gasped slightly when she saw Becas hand working Chloe as fast as Aubrey was her.
"Bree." Beca gasped. She looked down.
"Kiss me," She said. As soon as Aubreys lips touched hers she pulled her down hard against her.
They made out for a few moments until Aubrey nudged Becas legs apart and stilled her fingers as she moved to lay between her legs.
"Are you ready?" Aubrey asked and Chloe who had been in a world of pleasure instantly stopped Becas hand.
The brunette looked confused for a moment until she felt Aubreys fingers move down.
Chloe smiled lovingly at her and kissed her softly. "She won't hurt you." She whispered.
Beca nodded slowly and looked at Aubrey.
"I'm ready." She said. Aubrey smiled at her and leaned down, to capture her lips in a kiss.
Chloe expertly latched on to Becas neck at the same time, and before she could register what happened, Aubrey had entered her with two fingers. The combined feeling of Chloe's lips, Aubreys lips and her fingers steading inside her made her moan loudly.
"Oh my god." She gasped as Aubrey let her adjust.
"Are you okay?"
She nodded slowly.
"I'm going to start moving now, okay?" The blonde asked gently.
Beca looked up at her and nodded then gave her a light kiss, before turning to Chloe and kissing her as well. As soon as Aubrey began pumping her fingers inside the brunette, she felt a warm sensation flow over her. It wasn't the heat of the moment, or their warm bodies pressed together. It was the feeling of love and warmth as they gently proved to her, that she was safe and loved and protected. Not like what she had experienced before. It felt good. This wasn't just them having sex, it was them making love.
Aubrey curled her fingers inside the girl and she gasped. "Oh my god, Bree that feels amazing," She gasped.
"Harder, please." She breathed as her body arched and Chloe carefully pulled her top down just enough to attach her lips to one of Becas already erect nipples.
She gasped again as this added even more pleasure to what she was already experiencing.
She had never had an orgasm before, She had no idea what to expect, or what it felt like but if the tingling in her belly was any indication she wasn't scared.
Aubrey used her hips to push her fingers deeper into the girl and pushed harder as she asked.
Suddenly Becas hands let go of them and she clutched the blankets tightly. "Oh my god, I think Im gonna-"
She stopped as she felt a wave go through her and her back arched. "Aubrey?!" She all but pleaded as this feeling of pure ecstasy flooded her.
"You're there baby, let go." Chloe said softly against her neck.
"It's okay, Becs, Come for us." Aubrey urged and that was her undoing. Waved of pleasure crashed over her and Chloe caught her cries in a kiss. Aubrey slowed her fingers and when Becas body started to relax se slowly pulled them out of her.
Her breathing was heavy as the two settled themselves back into her. It took a moment, but as soon as she came down, her emotions took over and she curled herself into a tight ball and her small frame started to trembled as she broke down into tears. Aubrey and Chloe were on her in a second.
"Baby what's wrong? Chloe asked worriedly as she tried to move the girl.
"Did I hurt you? Beca please baby, say something," Aubrey exclaimed desperately.
Chloe looked up at her blonde girlfriend with wide eyes.
"Thank you." Came a small voice.
They looked at Beca who's tears were beginning to slow. "For what?" Aubrey asked softly as she lay down behind her moving her hair from her face.
"For everything, for being so amazing, for taking care of me, and accepting Alex. For showing me what you just did. Thank you."
"We love you Becs. We will always try to show you, in every way we can. And we love that baby just as much. You are out lives."
Aubrey nodded. "You are beautiful Beca. And we will spend every day proving it to you. Tonight was a huge step in our relationship and in your recovery. We just want you to know how much we love you."
"I love you guys too. So much." She said and yawned.
"Are you tired sweetie?" Chloe asked, a slightly amused smile on her face. Becas eyes fell closed and she nodded. She was exhausted.
"Yeah, Bree can do that to you." Chloe smiled and laud down as well. They curled up together, holding onto Beca.
This was a big step in her recovery, as Aubrey said. A huge step in their relationship. They now had everything. They didn't need it, but they had it, and it just made them that much closer. That much more in love.
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Beca looked over to the bed again. Chloe had started to stir. After a moment she sat up.
"Beca?" She asked sleepily. "Baby, come back to bed, I'm cold and Bree is hogging the blankets."
Beca chuckled lightly as she put the journal down and stood up walking over to the bed. As soon as she sat down Chloe wrapped her arms around her and snuggled into her, throwing a leg over the smaller girl with a sigh of content.
"Much better." She mumbled as she tucked her face into Beca neck.
"I love you Chloe." Beca smiled sleepily.
"I love you too Becs."
They were silent slowly falling back to sleep when they felt the blanket being tucked over them and Aubrey curled around Chloe.
"We have a big day, will you two please go back to sleep." She said.
They both laughed lightly.
"Love you Bree." They whispered in unison.
"Yeah, yeah," she said. "I love you too."
It was four in the morning. The house was dark and they were now all peacefully sleeping.
A/N: There you go! Becas first time with Aubrey and Chloe! I was nervous to write this, I wanted it to be perfect, but I know it had be covered to move on with their relationship in the present! Next chapter is already in the works and will be uploaded soon! Please review!