So, I wanted to right…here I am.

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Cc4s: Thanks haha. And I'm not completely sure, I'll give a story on it at one point. Maybe even this chapter.

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Okay, Imma start this. Well…one of my best friends needs to text me, he's being a butthead -_-

Serena woke up and rubbed her eyes. It was only midnight, with a full moon shining in the windows and bathing the other girls in eerily pale light. She'd woken up from another nightmare about her father, as she'd been having ever since he died.

She threw her feet over the side of her bed and carefully padded her way downstairs. She needed to be away from the sounds of her classmates peaceful sleeping, before she went insane. Nobody really understood what it was like to be an orphan, and related to James Potter on top of that. Everybody would just shoot her sympathy looks and smile sadly, and she absolutely hated that. She didn't want sympathy, she wanted them to just ignore her like they always did.

"Hey," a soft voice whispered, from the couch. Serena jumped and did a double take. It was just Sirius, staring dutifully into the fire.

"Hey," she responded, throwing herself on the couch next to him. "Are you okay?" She asked after a moment of staring at the flames.

"Not really," he replied, grabbing her hand. Serena looked over at him worriedly.

"What's wrong?"

"Well, seeing Thanatos today, all of those threstals today, reminded me of something that happened a few years ago." Sirius looked over at her and sat up straighter.

Serena blinked and glanced down at their hands, which were intertwined together. She was tempted to ask, but didn't want to pry into his life, or dig any painful memories up.

"You're confused aren't you?" Sirius asked her, using his other hand to make her look back up at him. She nodded and shrugged. "Would you like to know?" She shrugged again. "It was the summer before first year, and Mom had taken us to the muggle world. I still don't know why. To me, there's nothing wrong with muggles, or muggle-born wizards, but to my family, they're unpure, disgusting."

Serena pushed some hair out of her face and studied the fire.

"Anyway, we were sitting in one of the parks and one of the children my age had come running up to me. He was smiling like I was his best friend, and I didn't know why. The kid asked me if I wanted to join him and several others over on the playground, playing tag or some other kid game. Mom had given a stern no and glared at the kid until he finally left, frowning. I was angry, and sad. I wanted friends, kids to hang out with, and she'd just ruined that for me. So I started running. I wanted away from my family. Away from their judgmental personalities. The boy followed me, making a game out of it. It was until I was to the freeway, halfway across the park, that I'd realized it. I'd headed straight for the traffic, and the kid followed me in. He was hit just as we were reaching the other side. I held his hand as he died. 'Why did you follow me?' I'd asked him. 'Because you needed a friend, and I wanted to be that friend.' He took his last breath not two seconds before the ambulance pulled up. It's all my fault that boy died."

Serena stared at him. "Sirius, that wasn't your fault. It wasn't the boy's fault either. What happened was an accident that may or may not have been avoided. You can't let yourself be the blame for something like that." She bit her lip and looked back down. She was clutching his hand tightly, her knuckles turning white.

"But it was my fault. If I hadn't gotten upset, then I wouldn't have run off, and the kid never would've followed me." He looked down and away, sad. Serena reached up and placed her hand on his cheek until he looked at her.

"It's not your fault." She squeezed his hand and smiled at him. Sirius just half-smiled back and turned to the fire.

"Still…" he trailed off, turning his head sharply towards the stairs, where a first year was creeping down the stairs.

"Oh, uh," the boy stopped on the steps and huddled in closer. "I'm sorry, I couldn't sleep."

"No, sweetie, you're fine," Serena smiled at him and elbowed Sirius sharply. He sucked in a breath and forced a smile on his face. The boy came nervously down the rest of the stairs and sank into one of the chairs next to the fire.

"What do you think of Hogwarts so far?" Serena asked him, studying the fire.

"It's overwhelming and amazing. I'm Jake by the way." The boy, Jake, looked over at them with a smile. His light brown hair shone golden in the firelight and his brown eyes danced mischievously.

"Well, Jake, I'm Serena, and this is Sirius," she yawned and laid her head on Sirius's shoulder. She was coming to realize that Sirius wasn't half as bad as what everyone had said. In fact, she was starting to really like him.

Jake wagged his fingers and relaxed into his seat. Serena felt Sirius sigh and curled up tighter, watching the flames. Sirius smiled down at her. Even in the firelight, Serena was the picture of beauty to him. What am I thinking? Sirius shook his head. He couldn't be thinking his best friend's cousin was beautiful, James would kill him.

"I guess it's time I went to bed," Serena muttered after a while. Sirius sighed and nodded.

"Long day of classes tomorrow," he commented, helping her up. "You think you're tired enough for sleep Jake?"

Jake shrugged and got up, watching Sirius wearily.

"Get on up there short-stuff," Sirius laughed, walking with Serena over to the stairs for the girls' dorm.

"Goodnight, see you tomorrow." Serena waved and walked up the stairs tiredly.

"Night," Sirius called, smiling at her. Serena's stomach turned to knots but she smiled back and hurried up the stairs.

He's got such a pretty smile, Serena smiled to herself. Wait, can't believe I'm thinking that, she shook her head sharply and entered the chambers. Three out of the five other girls stirred lightly but didn't wake up. Lily was up in bed and watching her quietly.

Lily wagged her eyebrows but Serena shook her head and plopped down on her bed. She felt a pillow hit her back and just stayed still, hoping Lily would give up. After another tense five minutes, she heard her best friend sigh and lay back down. Serena dropped off into the veil of darkness called sleep shortly after.

I know it's probably a bit short, sorry, but still longer than one might think from me. So, review!