Knockout was drunk and that was always scary but drunk with an Ipod was fetal as long as Starscream was concerned. Knockout was self medicating to forget Megatron and Ratchet being homophobic. He drank himself sick and then cried as he clung to Breakdown. Breakdown was at a loss to know what to do or say to smooth his demons away.

Knockout didn't see Starscream as a threat. He just wanted to self destruct. Starscream rubbed his forehead abit as he walked over. Knockout looked up at him, Knockout was one of the very few Decepticons smaller than him. Starscream took the bottle from him.

Starscream: your smarter than this!
Knockout: give it back, star!
Starscream: you think being numb will feel like bliss but I assure you, it's a new level of hell!
Knockout: shut up! I don't want to feel..or think..or..I just want to shut off for good!
Starscream: suicide won't end the pain, it will just move to Breakdown..he lovees you
Knockout: no he doesn't! Megatron took me..he made me dirty…
Starscream:Breakdown would die for you, so go sleep it off…
Knockout: die..for me?
Starscream: of course, he loves you, Knockout. He never shuts up about you, brags about you and even shows you off.

Knockout looked at Starscream. Not fully sure he believed him but he did feel tired from all the drinking. Starscream sighed in relief when Knockout laid down on the couch. He laid his favorite blanket over him. He commed Breakdown about his mate's condition. He wasn't surprised when Breakdown ran to his side and held his hand as he slept. Breakdown only had eyes for his broken mate. He didn't even like Optimus Prime breathing on Knockout.

Knockout: Breakdown..?
Breakdown: I'm right here…and…I'm not going anyhere..so…get some sleep, okay?

Knockout yawned and nuzzled into the pillow. He felt so safe with his hand held. He didn't even feel Starscream checking him for damage due to the over drinking. Breakdown stoked his hand, he knew Starscream had to check him while he was asleep or Knockout would freak out. Bulkhead had been shocked at how the rape had changed Knockout. He had felt Knockout was untouchable.

Bulkhead: how can someone with that big of an ego, fall like this?
Breakdown: his attacker was bigger than him, he feels unperfect right now, he also fears I wont want him because he was touched by another mech…Megatron came inside him, a lot of mechs would throw Knockout out of their beds for it..
Bulkhead: but he was raped, he didn't agree to it..
Breakdown: a lot of men..don't care
Bulkhead: that's..messed up!

A/N: read the Prequal to Doctor to Doctor to see what had happened. the story is rated M and has a lemon, so you are warned that is loads more twisted than this story. Story is on my page, it's titled "Tasting the doctor"